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I came back after 4 days
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I always have had a problem playing a roll. I thought if I could make you believe something about me then it would be true. I especially did this over and over in AA. I never let myself be a newcomer. I learned the words and who was the right sponsor to have by popularity and pretended I was ok. I never let myse...
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My peculiar mental twist
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8 days in and the poisoned thoughts were starting today...I found today that my first reaction to emotional discomfort and fear is to take a drink. I found that I was envisioning myself sitting at a bar with a beer in front of me...for a second this seemed like a valid solution to what I was feeling -- aga...
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day one
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WOW, can't believe I am at this place in my life. I will post my "story" later. Today I took the step of telling my husband (no surprise to him) that I admit I have a problem with alcohol and need help. I am scared of going to a meeting, but I know I need to. I am new to the area I live in and have little s...
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The "past door"
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Just musing and looking for "spiritual" reassurance. Older Brother is visiting for a week or so and so part of the time (maybe too much of it) it is reminising with younger family that were not around back then and so the stories start to surface with bits of more recent news included. I did...
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Just wanted to say hello
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Hey everyone -- just wanted to say hello and let this be the beginning of my journey to sobriety. I have wanted to go to a meeting today but I have not been given my keys back yet...that should come tomorrow...I am committing to go to one tomorrow which will be a big step for me to return... The horrors of th...
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here's my story
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Hello out there. Well, I don't have any horror story. Just a simple decline of coping skills after almost 2 years of high anxiety situations. Let me summarize for you - marriage issues, working out marriage issues, dad diagnosed with cancer, passes 6 weeks later, estate to complete, got laid off, m...
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God Calling ~ Turn Again
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"You must turn to Me before you are conscious of My nearness. It is that turning to Me you must cultivate in every circumstance. It is so wonderful that naught is needed but that mute appeal. You have no need to voice your longing. No need to plead, no need to bring gifts. How wonderful to feel yo...
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Just Toni Again
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It has been about 3 months now. Has anyone heard anything good or hope not bad about Toni and her condition or now non-condition? Hope and Pray everything is all right with her and we find back here on MIP soon.
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kld47
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Half measures availed us nothing!
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If we are seriously alcoholic, there is no middle of the road for us. Either we accept spiritual help or we die from the disease of alcoholism. Today we have watered down that truth so much, that most real alcoholics are dying because they have done everything else except this. All of those whom I have sp...
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newcomer to board...18 yrs sober and slipped 18 mos ago....find that outdoor activities help to keep me sober
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Hi, I am new to this board. I live in Lyme CT and slipped after 18 yrs of sobriety during which I did not go to meetings. Got back to AA the day after I slipped and had 2 slips but am going on 11 months sobriety. I have a good support group and attend a meeting a day. I have taken a few camping trips with gals from AA...
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I am going to do my 4th step with my sponsor today, finally
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this should at least help me dump this huge bag of rocks on me.
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transamsam
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Those 20 Questions
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.... are yes/no questions. They aren't "on a scale of 1 to 10" questions. I saw them years ago when I was drinking, and I treated them like 1 to 10. I didn't have any 10s, I had a few 1s, and averaged a 5. I didn't think that was too bad, then I read at the bottom where it said if you answer yes to ANY...
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anonymity and humility quote from Dr Bob
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Does anyone know where in our literature I can find a quote about anonymity to protect our humility? I was told Dr Bob said something like; " we practice anonymity in public to protect our Fellowship and in AA to protect our humility".
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Do not be discouraged.
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The AA tells us, "do not be discouraged." Why am I discouraged? I am discouraged, because I see it impossible for me to accept spiritual help. The book comes back to my rescue again. It says, "no one among us has been able to adhere..." "The point is we are willing...."...
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gonee
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God Calling ~ Taste and Trust
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He is good. Trust in Him. Know that all is well. Just leave in His hands the present and the future, knowing only that He is good. He can bring order out of chaos, good out of evil, peace out of turmoil. Trust and be not afraid.
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gladlee
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We may judge, not knowing legacy of love
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Just one of a million tales of love....Al,was a very talented man who lost his young son from acute appendicitis that Al thought he should have recognized and never got over the guilt odf not taking his son to the hospital.....He started drinking and became Alcoholic.His wife shortly after left him a...
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HCG Diet, 25% ethol alcohol per 2oz bottle
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Was going to start this diet for a month, noticed on the bottle after I took my first dose that it has 25% ethol alcohol. I have 3.5 years sobriety. Should I continue or not. I feel that if it does not trigger the craving then all will be well. I know a call to the sponsor is due as well. Thanks, Dale
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One That Didn't Make It
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Long time ago... at a weeknight meeting, a newcomer showed up. Mid 40s. His wife brought him to his first meeting. He was shaking and in every way the classic alcoholic. On the verge of losing his house, his family, his job. I gave him rides to meetings here and there. One night called to see if he was...
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Just a prayer for you.
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I pray for each and every one of you, my dear brothers and sisters. That you may be well. That your troubles will make you grow. That you may have the basics of life without stress and strife. That you may be peaceful and serene in your heart. This is all I have to give you right now, but I believe that God can a...
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gonee
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Slipping a 24oz. at a time.
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I'm not working the program. I'm tired of the program. I want to be sober and I'm bored. So, It's become a 24oz. here...a 24oz. there. Got that Illusion of Control going on.
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Falling apart inside
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I know all the right words and how sobriety sounds and looks on people around me. I've studied the Big Book enough to know that head knowledge is not enough. My faith is so small. The only way I know how to care about life always leads to constant worry. I am so so sad and I just don't know why. Why can't I let my...
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David W
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Just out of sorts......
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Not sure whats wrong with me????? Had a busy summer getting every thing done for my daughters wedding. It was stressful but hung in there. Wedding was beautiful and to be honest very glad to have it over. Held my head high with the ex husband and my ex best friend in attendance. Stayed in my program. ...
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Daily Reflections ~ We Stand-Or Fall-Together & 24hrs a Day
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. . . no society of men & women ever had a more urgent need for continuous effectiveness & permanent unity. We alcoholics see that we must work together & hang together, else most of us will finally die alone. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 561 Just as the Twelve Steps of A.A. are written in a spec...
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God Calling ~ Assurance
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"My peace it is that gives quietness and assurance forever. My peace that flows as some calm river through the dry land of life. Success is the result of work done in peace. Only so can work yield its increase. Abide in Me, and I in you, so shall you bring forth much fruit. Be calm, assured, at rest...
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God Calling ~ Quiet Strength
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"Rest in Me. When tired nature rebels, it is her call for rest. Rest then until My life-power flows through you. Have no fear for the future. Be quiet, be still, and in that very stillness your strength will come and will be maintained. The world sees strength in action. In My kingdom it is know...
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Sharing a Share
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One of the members on the Al-Anon board shared this message there and I suggested that she share it here...she wasn't able to get on the board here so asked for my support...Here it is. Jerry F My son's friend decided (while under the influence) that his addiction was too much to handle. While in the de...
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newbie again
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trying to live the sober life...yet one more time...sometimes i think that 'constitutionally incapable' part was added in specifically for me...start at step one i suppose..i am powerless over drugs and alcohol....help me please...
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magicangelz
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Still miss my AA love and wish there was a way to turn the clock back, get a second chance
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Here I called and he called and the attention was great, I would just light up when I saw his name on my phone....just love his voice...he was an angel from heaven, a Gift from god...now it total silence.
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transamsam
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Daily Reflections ~ Peace of Mind & 24hrs a Day
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Do we lay the matter before our sponsor or spiritual advisor, earnestly asking God's help & guidance - meanwhile resolving to do the right thing when it becomes clear, cost what it may? TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, pp. 86-87 My belief in a Higher Power is an essential part of my work on Step N...
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Totaled my car
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At least this time I wasn't drunk. Not gonna drink over it either. New day...time to find the solution to this problem.
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pinkchip
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Deeper surrender after pain
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Through this last post where I stated my grand idea of getting drunk and turning myself to prison in TN, I have realized that I was holding on to control. Even control that leads to my own demise. As I begin to allow God to have complete control of my life, I every once and a while get the feeling of being spac...
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David W
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The impossible becomes possible...
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I know there are many times when we wonder... why do we keep trying, why we keep holding on, why we keep letting go, why we keep silent, why we keep screaming, why we keep pushing, why we keep pulling, doing so much, and yet there is no one else we are foolin... it all hurts, and we don't want to hurt any more....
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John
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I'm back!
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Hello everyone! I'm back from summer vacation and have missed you! It's great to see that so many of the core group have stayed sober. I am 14 months sober and life is good. I did a lot with the fellowship this summer, went on 3 sober campouts and countless AA picnics, barbeques, etc. I'm staying spiritua...
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God Calling ~ Dwell There
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"Hidden in a sure place, known only to God and you. But you must dwell therein. No fitful visit, a real abiding. Make it your home. Over that home shall My shadow rest, to make it doubly safe, doubly secret. When fears assail you and cares trouble you, then it is because you have ventured out of tha...
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gladlee
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Four days sober and scared
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Been consistent drinker since freshman yearnin high school...thirty years later decided to stop....binge drinker with a problem...three days a weak real heavy...my biggest fear is losing my friends...spent first Friday and Saturday night at home alone with wife and kids....we have a close cir...
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spiritual growth
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Hi, i am rajeev an alcoholic, as i did 1-9 steps as in big book of aa now to do 10, 11, 12 i want some suggestions, coz now no obssesion to drink but my biggest blocks are as am married i have sex relation with a widow, i masterbuate daily, smoke regulaly, tape 2 diabetic, no exercises poor life style, wastes t...
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My first 24 hours without alcohol
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I just binged drank for four days straight and made a big fool of myself in front of new friends. It made me really reevaluate my reltionship with alcohol. I stopped drinking this morning and now am experiencing some alarming side effects. I'm shaky and exhausted but can't fall asleep. I keep sufferi...
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Just checking in
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Hi all, Haven't been posting recently as I just don't seem to have enough hours in the day now. That life thing that I'd been avoiding for 15 years was still out there only this time around it's a great place to be so I'm having a bit of an explore and I'm getting reacquainted with the world. I'm a little over...
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What other people think about me
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...is none of my business. Of course I know this saying like the back of my hand. Along with..."Don't allow others to live in your head rent free." My problem is that some AA lessons are easier for me than others. I think I have a good AA foundation. I have tried to work the steps to the best o...
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warning signs.
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here i go again x my daughter marriage is going through a very bad patch and dhe is drinkinking a couple glasses of wine slowely.she says she says to herseil"i am drinking this because i like it not because i need it!"told her her higher power is warning her RIGHT?
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Methods of Remembrence & Resilience
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Hello everyone, This will be my first time posting on these forums. I am in recovery myself, sober for 3 years and 356 days now. What brings me to join a forum such as this one are several different things. 1) I am a full-time student and time is hard to come by,2) I live in a small town and good meetings are ev...
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Example of My (Non-God) Higher Power Working For Me
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I just thought I'd post because it often comes up on this board that newcomers aren't sure what to do with the "Higher Power" idea if they don't believe in a god or gods. I often point out that I'm an atheist and my HP is the network of people, institutions, and beliefs that help support me and po...
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The fine line between attraction and promotion...
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Hi there! I was hoping that I could get a little feedback on something, so here's my situation... Every time I go to and from a certain meeting I always pass by a homeless man who is always drunk but is very nice and always waves at me as I ride past him on my bike. Tonight I saw him asleep at the bus stop and sinc...
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Newcomers Talking
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I love to listen to newcomers, at least those that are willing to share. It brings me back to what it was like. The anger, pain, bewilderment - or just being overwhelmed with simple day to day problems that have piled up out of control. I know it all too well. A lot of newcomers are told to sit down and sh...
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Back to the Mountains
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Another trip to the Blue Ridge to work on my house. Likely be out of range of the interwebs. PM Danielle or John with concerns. See you on thursday my brothers and sisters.
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Back at it!
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Morning and blessings of this day! Welcome newcomers and those been around for few cups of coffee. Today I get back to work after 17 days vacation,in Florida,at the Fair,much travel and family contact,truly a blessing and many plans for our future move to Florida in 10 months are coming to fruition(i...
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I stopped in time!
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Today is my eldest born birthday. She is 29. I am 23 in AA. The best sober years in recovery have been spent with them. I thank God that He stopped me in time & I did not wreck their lives as well. All glory & honour to my Lord & Saviour Jesus Christ for being in her life & guiding her. Without G...
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gonee
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What is the fourth diminsion
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I am sad over a relationship in AA, and it hurts and my stomach is sick and I would usually go get a drink, but I have no desire to do that. I know the worst is that. Just wish, I could be loved by this man, or just loved. I havent had a relationship in 9 years and I feel like a kid and a failure
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transamsam
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Nine days sober and hungry as can be
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As my alcoholism got worse and worse my appetite diminished. I wanted to eat, and was not avoiding it just to drink, but nothing sounded good. It really was a chore to eat. I've only been sober for nine days now but my appetite is coming back in full force. This also happened about three weeks ago befo...
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Cliodude
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A new heart.
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My wife was very ill last night. I stayed up praying for her & seeing to her needs. I kept monotoring her breathing, nebulising & bringing medication for her until she fell asleep. A far cry from my drinking days. I would be passed out, never knew how my kids were. Today I can be a good father &...
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