I wrote this in July: First the good news - still sober.
Now the not so good news - working my arse off, not been fishing this year at all, took on a project that was in a mess, my rep. is on the line and looks like it might get a bit of a spanking - just been told that our happy team of 7 project managers will be re arranged to 4 PMs and 6 non manager planners - by September!
So this time in October either I'll be a PM with a team of two to manage (Ugh) or I'll be put into the redeployment pool (Not so bad as all i have to do is find another job within the company - at same grade and salary)
Either way I'll probably lose the car - not so bad though as I'll not be paying tax and personal use to £200 a month and I can go out and get me that 1956 Landrover I've been hankering after - oh wait, they're £5k, so maybe it'll be a £500 van instead.
and here we are in December 2010 - still got the same job, still got the same car, still got the same wage - none of my projections happened!
So it's true - projections are a waste of time, or in cowboy lore - 95% of what you worry about never happens.
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It's not having what you want, it's wanting what you got. BB
Thanks, Bill. Nice post. It goes to show us that many many things are out of our control. I use to worry about everything. It never changed the outcome. Today, I realize when I worry, it's excessive self-will and that I haven't fully surrendered to my HP. I'm trying to play God. Never worked that well in the past. I think I'll hand it back over to him.
Mahalo Bill...I just love reality shares. This reminds me of a learning relationship with early sponsorship where after marvelous projecting and fortune tellings Don T would ask ..."could you be wrong?".
Mike B sez "Excessive self-will" I think that about sums up my futuristic attempts to control what has not even happened yet! And yeah, Jerry F, I'm usually completely wrong! Like BkrBill sez, projection is a waste of time. And the real blessing is learning, through the Steps, how to do it less, and less, and less, over time!
Yeah, my mental projections are something along the lines of the content in "War of the Worlds". I heard in a meeting, "My mind is worrying that I'm not worrying", or something to that extent, has anyone heard that expression?
Angela, I can relate to that. I used to think I was going crazy because I wasn't thinking or worrying about something all the time. I figured I lost the ability to think rationally. I should be committed.
It's gotten better over time with the help of God and the power of AA. What I noticed was the Promises were coming true!
Yep, I still get afraid not to worry sometimes. I start to think that if I'm not worrying, then I'm complacent and not prepared for when the stars fall from the sky on me. But if I'm worrying about everything under the sun -- and angry about every other thing that I don't like -- then I'm on the mark to deal with it.
funny thing is everything i worried about happens lol only because i make it happen SO I STOP WORRYING ABOUT IT really not that funny .What is helping today is reading what is suggested to me coming to mip and reading what is beeing written thank you all fot yhat,also working the steps in my everyday life as besst as i can and helping another brother or sister in a meeting and finally relying a little more everyday on my hp. thank you all you mean much to me God bless...............
It never changed the outcome. Today, I realize when I worry, it's excessive self-will and that I haven't fully surrendered to my HP. I'm trying to play God. Never worked that well in the past. I think I'll hand it back over to him. 
