Aloha Family...The consequences of following thru on trust over the course of this journey of recovery will work for my recovery. That promise has always come true sometimes quickly and sometimes slowly. Most recently it came to pass in helping me properly participate in eye surgery. I was the only participant without trust and that became a non-issue by coming back here and to my fellowship locally...speaking about my condition...asking for feedback...listening with an open mind...learning and practicing. It still works. Thru the process, which has been lengthly, I have arrived at a condition that needed to be changed...I didn't have focused sponsorship. I was letting my home group and MIP sponsor me and while that worked it wasn't as focused as I needed. I used prayer and listened. I was told to be patient and I remembered from the past that I wasn't shopping for something/one that would fit my ego need but an instrument of my HP; someone who had the reflection/spirit/character of recovery. I would not have any other installed options to stumble all over.
I've been open to my HP's response to that prayer and this morning the teacher arrived with the willingness to be apart of my recovery. He arrived with the awareness and the message and I know by how often my head nodded at hearing his message (he channeled my early sponsorship) that I must ask without expectation. I will not second guess HP on the model because it has always really been about the message.
When I listened to the message of his journey HP was critiquing sponsorship with me. You don't need a dad and you will not idolize any other person regardless of where you find them. At times you will be student and at other times teacher. This instrument has a part of the plan you need to hear...go ask.
That part is done...I have another instrument of my HP to support my peace of mind and serenity. ((((hugs))))