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The Courage To Change the Things I Can (and yet more sponsor angst).. a little rant I think
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I live in a city that I absolutely love, I moved here from San Francisco (another city that I absolutely love) about 2 1/2 years ago. When I got here I was sort of desperate for an apartment, looked around & settled- yes, settled- for the one I took. Where I've been ever since. The place is run by a slu...
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Daily Reflections ~ Accepting Our Present Circumstances
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Our very first problem is to accept our present circumstances as they are, ourselves as we are, and the people about us as they are. This is to adopt a realistic humility without which no genuine advance can even begin. Again and again, we shall need to return to that unflattering point of departure. Th...
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Dream I had - window into my life with alcohol or am I reading too much into it?
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Last night/this morning I had the most vivid I can remember. Didn't think much of it when I got up other than its vividness. But a few hours later I'm standing in the shower at the gym recapping it and it hit me like a ton of bricks. Here goes. -------------------------- I was the passenger in a car being dr...
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It takes what it takes....
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Do not shut the door on the past. it is what lead up to the point where i was ready to do whatever it takes to be willing to surrender. Whatever it takes, for me, is meetings, working the 12 step program, being of service, reading AA books, praying, working on my conscious contact with God. We differ...
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I've been drinking
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No, I haven't called my sponsor or told my homegroup. I don't want to. I'm too damned ashamed. My wife left a week ago for a three-week research studies school-thing and I'm single dad for three weeks. While that isn't a big deal...it feels exactly like last year when she was gone five days a week for two...
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Daily Reflections - No Regrets + 24hrs a Day
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We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p.83 Once I became sober, I began to see how wasteful my life had been and I experienced overwhelming guilt and feelings of regret. The program's Fourth and Fifth Steps assisted me enormously in healing those troubling r...
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Still Scared
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I was thinking about the last time I drank a couple of weeks ago and why that scared me. I simply could not stop. It was almost like an out of body experience except for the hangover and embarrassment the next day. Somehow made it back home (no driving, took taxis) and fell asleep on the dining room floo...
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Happy New Year all
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Hi all! Sorry I haven't been here in an age. All is well, still sober, but really non-plussed with this snow :) Had relatives and travel to Europe and all that stuff and over a month has vanished! Great to be back with you guys! New Year's resolution will be to keep get online and come back more often! Al...
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The Musts of the Big Book......pretty cool
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I was at a meeting last night and one of the guys had gone to a big meeting on working the 12 steps. A workshop. He said last night that he and his sponsor kind of bumped heads on some of the stuff he learned. He brought up the must's in the book so I googled it and this is what I came up with. Enjoy! The "Must...
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so today i was filling out a college app. for MCC. My mom called me and started a fight, she wasnt drunk but she was high off pills. i just havent been feeling as strong as i normally do...i feel sad and not myself. Lately everyday i feel shitty, im misrable in school because i hate high school i hate my hom...
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AA whilst still drinking
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why would any self confess A wanna continue going to meetings and still drink in secret? any esh would be grateful belle1
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What am I going to do differently?
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A week ago I went on a bender and ended up driving myself in a blackout to a suicide/addiction facility at 4am I was discharged yesterday and find myself in a situation that is screaming for change. Oh, by the way, if you need to check yourself in somewhere for mental/addiction reasons, wait until the ne...
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Feeling low
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Hi All, weather really getting to me now, and facing another nine days apparently, I need to keep it in the day as I have plenty to do, a chapter to redraft, half a room to sort out files etc. My aa friends managed to make it to a convention in Galway as they could take main roads. I could not go as my son arrives...
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Winter Vomiting Virus...........
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....is very colourful, very tiring and leaves you ravenously hungry. At 1 a.m. on Friday I wake up wondering why I'm awake. Stomach is boiling and roiling. Decide I want a smoke and a cuppa. Get out of bed and notice that the temperature in the house is hovering below 6C. Boy did I projectile or what. Clea...
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Keeping it in the day
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Guys, got out of the house today, way hay hay, thrilled. Purchased a state of the art coffee machine, very pleased with it, have experimented with my pipe in the kitchen, which is the frozen one and am nurs with a milk frother, nothing like a good quality coffee to get you going, am nursing my frozen pipe w...
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Bad times
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Just today, I had a fight with my grandmother. She was angry about the fact that I've been drinking, smoking, and not keeping up with my daily life. She even asked me if I was "afraid of her" specifically because I'd been telling lies about a lot of things. I asserted that I wasn't afraid of any...
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Happy 36th Anniversary Thomas
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Tuesday is our sailing friend's (and my St. Pete neighbor's) 36th Anniversary. Congrats and hope you're enjoying your Pacific crossing. By my estimates you're in Costa Rica on the other side of the Panama canal. There's a nice little casino in Flamingo beach resort. Hope that you're having a g...
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Scared. Trying to be grateful.
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Hi:When I got sober on Long Island they use to say a burden shared is a burden halved.I thought I was sober long enough that people would just think that if this guy doesn't know how to handle his life now he never will. Well guess what. if I don't share I'm just a community of one and I've been told a communit...
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Don't Know Where to turn with this issue
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Hi, I have 44 days sobriety from a bottle or two a night of wine habit. I'd been doing that for about 10 years but have had the addiction illness since I was a young child. It's manifested itself in my life in many ways over the years. I finally realized that I'm an alcoholic this past November. I'm 59 y...
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Daily Reflections ~ The 100% Step
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Only Step One, where we made the 100 percent admission we were powerless over alcohol, can be practiced with absolute perfection. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 68 Long before I was able to obtain sobriety in A.A., I knew without a doubt that alcohol was killing me, yet even with this knowledg...
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A rare one
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but I'm sure not the first one...only for me. I got to witness a double coin ceremony this morning at my home meeting, "AA at the Bay"; the Sunday version. Two of our members, husband and wife, both receiving their 3 year anniversary coins at the same time. Got into the fellowship as a mar...
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REGRETS AND GOALS.
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My sister is finally out of hospital,but she is in a strange quagmire of what steps to take next,(much like myself).I feel like a fraud trying to offer sum advice on her drinking when i have my own alcohol demons.i ask myself why offer advice on mowing ones backyard when mine is 3ft tall,am i being a hypoc...
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brett
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The "Joy" of recovery....
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Can't remember ever going to a meeting where the topic was the "Joy" of recovery and then I never say never anymore. That was this mornings topic at the end of our Wed. speaker meeting and HP does use others to get me to consider what I cannot or willnot do by myself. I shared from my own experi...
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Jerry F
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Run what you brung
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Hi, Pretty deep into my sobriety I still felt unsure with my God thing. So I got a little help. Wife and I found a half froze little puppy on the road.It's about zero out. I go to pick it up and it bites me. Get it home and see if we can keep it alive. It hides in a corner for a couple weeks but will drink a little war...
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Daily Reflections ~ United We Stand
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We learned that we had to fully concede to our innermost selves that we were alcoholics. This is the first step in recovery. The delusion that we are like other people, or presently may be, has to be smashed. Alcoholics Anonymous, p. 30 I came to Alcoholics Anonymous because I was no longer able to con...
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Pajama Big Book Study
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Im just so excited....I wanted to share. A bunch of women in the program have all got together and decided to do a BB study....about 12 of us. First meeting was tonight, just to iron out details, timelines (16 weeks) meeting place (alano club) format etc. Anyhow, I suggested we all meet in our pj's. It pa...
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Higher Power
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Been in the program for a while now and it is just now occuring to me as of late how important having a higher power in my personal life is. It's real easy for me to go to a meeting and talk the talk. Bringing it home in my own personal life is a different story. As i read the Big Book now all I see are references to...
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A CRISIS OF FAITH..... or just an old relative that refuses to leave.....
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Hi All, Today I am feeling good, fear must be bothering someone else today, it has not visited me for a few days.and in those few days. Have been really thinking (not always a good thing, right) but wondering how it gets in, never invited. But there it is, occupying a space in my head, til I make a plea to my H...
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An interesting story to share...
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I just had an interesting conversation with a friend and thought I'd share it. But first, some background information. When I was newly sober, I dated a guy for a few months and it ended when he gave me herpes and then denied that he gave it to me, judged me for it and broke up with me. Yeah, nice. But on t...
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Daily Reflections - Do I Have a Choice? + 24hrs a Day
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The fact is that most alcoholics, for reasons yet obscure, have lost the power of choice in drink. Our so-called willpower becomes practically nonexistent. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p.24 My powerlessness over alcohol does not cease when I quit drinking. In sobriety I still have no choice - I can't dri...
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Is it Good, or is it Bad???
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Bad thing. I have been ill with a gastrointestinal condition that so far has evaded my doctor's understanding. This has been going on for months now. I have had tests, and due to have more tests. I am treating symptoms right now, not the root cause, as it is unknown at this time. This is very frustrating a...
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annoyed
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my name is shannon and im 18 years old. im a senior in high school and my moms been an alcoholic for about 20 years. My mom and i are very close and i love her but i hate her just as much. The abuse she does to herself doesnt only effect her but me and my family. She has gone to rehab for pills such as vikidin, perka...
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Daily Reflections ~ At The Turning Point & 24hrs a Day
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Half measures availed us nothing. We stood at the turning point. We asked His protection and care with complete abandon. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 59 Every day I stand at turning points. My thoughts and actions can propel me toward growth or turn me down the road to old habits and to booze. Someti...
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Sponsorship
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Just not working out for me this time around. I've had 2 sponsors in the 2years I've been sober. I stop calling both of them. One just never had the time to work on the steps with me and i liked talking to her but we just never could finish my steps. The other one always wanted me to come over for family ev...
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A little share
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I'm not into religion, but thought this was kinda nice. Thought I'd share it with you. http://gloriousgrace.net/saucer/saucer.html
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sugar
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Has anyone else experienced sugar cravings after stopping drinking?
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Know someone celebrating an Anniversary?
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Share the joy by sharing in their special day. http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&Item=270505725547&Category=47127&_trkparms=algo%3DLVI%26its%3DI%26otn%3D1
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Quitting Cigarettes...One Day At A Time
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Cigarette withdrawal effing sucks. Sucks. Sucks. Sucks. It's my nature to compare/contrast alcoholism and cigarette addiction. Right now...I don't care. It just sucks. One Day At A Time is much easier to swallow than "I quit forever." I can Pray through a Jonez. I thank my HP that I have...
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Gratitude to GOD and for the Fellowship of Alcoholics Anonymous.
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Hi All, Well this was sort of weird, but really great, turned out in a good way, I just made a Post about having Fear attacks, a lot of them, and Praying each and every time, and being relieved, but when I read the Post, it did not seem to be something I was really connected to, only super imposed over my own se...
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just starting my step 3
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i met with my sponsor today...she is my rock...i am so blessed to have found her...she keeps me so grounded. we decided i was complete with step two and i am now working through step three. i will admit thep three scared the living poo out of me when i first started aa...but whist reading it i am reli...
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Having A Rough Time
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Hi all. Jasper here, definitely an alcoholic. As many of you know I'm in early recovery and have had a hard time the last couple of months. Financial and legal problems, plus my dear wife's medical problems. Bless her heart-- she spent both her birthday and Christmas in the hospital this past month. Th...
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I've made 38 days!
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Hi all! I'm very happy to have found this site. It's good support between meetings. I put down the bottle(s) of wine on Nov. 25th because I'd reached a painful place for me. My grown kids didn't want to spend any more holidays with me, or want much to do with me at all. I'd been trying to quit for 3 year...
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A Share when I was New x
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My Recovery has been slowly taking over in capability. Such knowledge seeping & simpering through waiting to take flight. Building up like an inferno of fire & brimstone in the depths of my belly & sanity. I've been becoming well. I was frustrated for a little while. The knowledge but no...
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Daily Reflections ~ The Victory of Surrender
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We perceive that only through utter defeat are we able to take our first steps toward liberation and strength. Our admissions of personal powerlessness finally turn out to be firm bedrock upon which happy and purposeful lives may be built. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 21 When alcohol infl...
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Having Had a Spiritual Awakening ...
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The following article was published in this month's Share magazine & I loved it so much I thought I'd post it for y'all to perhaps enjoy too. Ps. For our newcomers.. It is recomended that we work each step in succession & with a sponsor before running around making amends before we're spiritua...
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checking in.....
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Hope everyone had a safe and sober holiday. It was lovely here. My youngest stepson, whom I had worried about "acting out" while he was here, as he has some damage which creates horrible outbursts of rage... well, he has never been as WELL as I have seen him this past week. Usually traveling 1...
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12 step workshops
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Hello everyone, I am Michael and am curious about something. I am involive in doing 12 step workshops in Akron Ohio. We do them in a 2 hour session on night a week and take the steps as a group. It involves a lot of writing and each wrokshop runs about 20 weeks or longer depending on everybody fourth ste...
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new and questioning
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OK, so I know I'm an alcoholic. I've finally accepted that, and I recognize the negative consequences alcohol is having on my life, but my consequences are nothing compared to those I've read about and heard about in the few meetings I've attended. Nonetheless I know I'm an alcoholic. Yet part of m...
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Hey Everyone
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Still no internet at my place, but I venture to the library once in awhile : ) I hope that the holidays went well for everyone. The stress really got to me this year and my nerves are frazzled! But, I'm alive.....I think. I'm starting my sobriety date over. Though I haven't drank since my mishap in S...
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spontaneous 10th step
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Practicing the "If you keep an open mind...you will find help"; from the ending statement in an Al-Anon meeting I ended up having a spontaneous 10th step moment where I was able to learn some of why I have been dealing with denial and my subconscious mind has been shouting from where ever it h...
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