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Just Friends
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This story was accepted by the AA Grapevine and was slated for publication next month but due to a mix-up with the postal service I was unable to get the copyright release form back to them in time and it didn't make it in. Thought I'd share it with you. deleted by request of Wolfie due to copyright agreeem...
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Need Help
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I've never been to a meeting. I never wanted to stop drinking I guess. Ot I did and just couldn't. Im sad and drpressed and very afraid. What can I do to get there?
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I know I said I wouldn't be around much, but I'm not sure what to do right now
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I'm five days sober right now and I'm dreaming (awake and asleep) about drinking and I'm not taking my antidepressants. I realize the absurdity of this... the only time antidepressants can really work is without the alcohol, but it's now that I am not taking them. Anyway, I know the recommendation...
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I'm a basket case right now....
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Hi, my name is Tessa & I'm an alcoholic. I've been sober for almost 2 years now (Feb 27th) & yesterday I was fine. No thoughts of drinking or anything. Today I've been to 3 meetings. Two of them being AA & one being an NA meeting. I'm also an addict. I generally attend 7-9 meetings a week. Usuua...
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When do you share birthday/anniversary info in a meeting?
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And what do you think about "Proud time"? I'm sure everyone has their own opinions about it and most will say it's up to the individual, but I'm just wondering what other people here have decided for themselves. I'm coming up on the 1 year mark Feb 16 if I stay sober. When I was new, and they a...
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Great News, and the fear that follows
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Well after having a pretty calm life recently, there are many changes on the horizon. My husband has been interviewing for a new job in our hometown, which is 100 miles from where we are now. He has a very specific job so it's amazing that there is even one opening right now, but he's talking to three com...
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Hello,
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Hello. My name is Shane and I'm an alcoholic. I remember a few years ago when I made that statement for the first time. God, it is probably the hardest sentence I've ever said. Hard to admit what I am. Even harder to admit to myself the damage I'd done to myself and to the ones I loved. Even now the tears flow...
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I am not doing well...
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I am new to this chat room and I have only posted once before. But I need some help. I went to a comedy show Friday night and I had a glass of wine. Well that set me off and I cant stop. I have to work tomorrow and I need to pull myself end together. I have been drinking all weekend and I need t stop. Please s...
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Good example of bad drinking.
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http://www.news.com.au/breaking-news/diy-jetpack-sled-experiment-ends-in-burns-ward/story-e6frfku0-1225825748186A MICHIGAN man who rigged an explosive backpack for a backyard sledding stunt suffered b...
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Changing attitudes towards situations
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At the moment, I am going through a lot of changes. Today I became very angry over a situation which involved a work project and a gossip. I have decided to disengage from working with this person until I am sure of what can be achieved. I am ok now about it, and it feels good to vent. I have sent a pleasant but...
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Just to say Hi
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I am new here just saying Hi with the help of this fellowship I am coming up to my 1st birthday, in 20years the longest I have done is 3 days, I need this message board when times are hard, some days are, but the steps and you get me thru, keep me alive. Thanks. Nick
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Daily Reflections - When Faith is Missing + 24hrs a Day
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Sometimes A.A. comes harder to those who have lost or rejected faith than to those who never had any faith at all, for they think they have faith and found it wanting. They have tried the way of faith and the way of no faith. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 28 I was so sure God had failed me that I becam...
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Can SOMEBODY please explain ?
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I have been sober many years - a day at a time thanks to AA, however even after all those years I still balk at p92 in the 12 &12 (Step 10) where it says..... "It is a spiritual axiom that everytime we are disturbed, no matter what the cause, there is something wrong with us? " I'm sorry but I ju...
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Antidepressants and alcohol
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Due to a lack of finances and a general dislike of having to flip out every month to try to get meds - I am unmedicated for the first time in 13 years. I'm going through withdrawals from 3 different antidepressants, the worst of which is Effexor. Effexor withdrawals include hallucinations, delusions,...
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Not sure if I'll be around much lately
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Been a rough weekend for me. I'm terrified that my obsession with alcohol/alcoholism is going to hurt my marriage. I'm so very lucky to be married to an incredible man... one whom I'm not so sure I even deserve. The progression of my depression and subsequent alcohol issues has turned made me rather...
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Daily Reflections ~ Rescued By Surrendering & 24hrs a Day
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Characteristic of the so-called typical alcoholic is a narcissistic egocentric core, dominated by feelings of omnipotence, intent on maintaining at all costs its inner integrity.... Inwardly the alcoholic brooks no control from man or God. He, the alcoholic, is and must be the master of his dest...
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On Sundays............
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...... I get some queit time. I either go fishing, bird watching or take a long walk. Today it was the walk. I put a load of washing in the mahine and then went up on the snow road, just off the woodhead pass. I think this is the time where I get to do my meditations, just being out of doors, seeing the wide, blue...
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Amber called and won't give up!
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Hey All... Gotta share my way through this... So, as many of you know I'm yo-yoing through my first year and I consider it a success so far. Before The Program I drank almost every day, whenever possible, for 28 years and caused lots of pain and trouble. In the last 7 months I've drank five days and got rig...
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Sobriety
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Not drinking has greatly affected my sobriety. Toad
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Anology of Sponsor/Sponsee relationship...
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When I first entered recovery, it seemed that everyone was talking in riddles. My sponsor one moment was telling me to let go, and a few minutes later telling me to hang on... (man, was I a baffled drunk) When I asked a question he would give me an answer that didn't seem to have anything to do with the ques...
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Anxiety is building...
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I feel myself coming closer to this edge. When I look over the side, I see a really big word that starts with an "A." Last night, my husband had to work late so I decided to finish off some beer in the fridge. To me, it was "an experiment." I have all this doubt and uncertainty, so so...
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Just a quick update....
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I don't get to visit here as often as I would like, but I made it today. I am living back in my little community again. What a journey it has been for the past year. So good to be amongst friends again. Life is pretty good now. I get to see my son on an irregular basis, but that will fix itself in it's own time. Sep...
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A gift
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Since becoming a member of AA, I am struck by the amount of awesome people that have entered my life. Last night I attended my usual Friday night meeting. The meeting is different than others I attend in that it is a mixed crowd (not a gay men's meeting), but more so in that everyone there other than me ha...
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Daily Reflections ~ Goal: Sanity & 24hrs a Day
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"...Step Two gently and very gradually began to infiltrate my life. I can't say upon what occasion or on what day I came to believe in a power greater than myself, but I certainly have that belief now." TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 27 "Came to believe!" I gave lip servic...
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2 year anniversary!
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I woke up this morning with not so much of a feeling of celebration but of gratitude. I was remembering where I was 2 years ago....jail. I had been arrested for my 2nd D.UI. I was so humiliated and was wondering just what I was going to do to get myself out of this one. Well little did I know that I was in fo...
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Under the Influence
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Just remembered to share the title of this book with the board as I got it back this morning from another local recovering fellow who wanted a read. This is the book written by James R. Milam (MD) and Katherine Ketcham that I used in college and which was instrumental in opening up doors of awarenesses t...
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How do you handle family?
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Hi, I'm brand new here, but I've been reading a lot of your posts the past couple of days. Here's my story (I'll try to keep it short): I've been drinking since I was a teenager (20 years), the amount and frequency increased steadily over the years. Although ironically enough, I did the least amount of dr...
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Changing Plans, good meetings, missed meetings.
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about 900 miles in 3 days. Started in Leverpool Tuesday Lunchtime, got two sites to audit and a third to test the security on. Got that done by 5 so headed to Preston to stay with a mate, get a curry and hit a meeting. There I am, 110 miles away from home and apart from my buddy Tim, I meet 5 other people that I h...
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My problems have piled up on me and become astonishingly difficult to solve.
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I said, ok God what do I do? I'm losing it. The answer came back, ask your family for help. Reasonable. Guess I'll see what happens. Here's the email I sent them, maybe my A.A. family has some input too. ------------------- I've run out of ideas, need help.I cannot afford to keep living in this house...
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Is Alcohol controlling your life? Your actions?, your Thoughts?
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Good Morning All, Have noticed that some here are reminding me so much of what it was like to be in the grip of the disease of Alcoholism All I knew back then was that I was alcoholic, had been so for many years, and the swinging door of AA, and so grateful that no matter how long I stayed away, was Always welco...
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Daughter woes!
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My daughter is 19 going on 49,(you know what i mean).She has had an alcoholic dad most of her life, ME! I dont think that i ask to much of her to understand and be patient as far as my alcoholism is concerned.She has become like my brothers and sisters where its detox or rehab first and then we will try to unde...
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Daily Reflections ~ Freedom From.. Freedom To.. & 24hrs a Day
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We are going to know a new freedom. . . . ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS , p. 83 Freedom for me is both freedom from and freedom to. The first freedom I enjoy is freedom from the slavery of alcohol. What a relief! Then I begin to experience freedom from fear - fear of people, of economic insecurity, of commitment, of...
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Wolf Medicine
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I posted this on the Al-Anon Board but since I'm a double winner I thought I'd slip it in here too. Its just a little story about patience tolerance acceptance and unconditional love.When I fell in love with Nancy, I forgot to ask her if she had children. Well, she had told me she was married twice before a...
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Prayers!!!
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A friend's daughter lays in a hospital tonight after undergoing surgery to correct injuries to her 'broken' neck. These the result of an auto accident over the weekend. Alcohol related!!!!! She is only 17 and her female passenger 15. (Not sure about the other girl's injuries) A high school sen...
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Keeping a journal
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Hi everyone: Haven't been online in awhile, but still sober and going to AA meetings. I did add a new thing to my recovery. I just started keeping a journal recently and it seems to help MUCH more than I expected. I've never been one keen on having a journal or diary. I don't know if it makes my emotions m...
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One of the many benefits of keeping it in the day....
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...is that it's much easier to change your plans at the drop of a hat. I was planning on Liverpool Tuesday, home wednesday, london thursday home friday. Now it's Liverpool and Preston Tuesday, then to Cumbria Wednesday and travel down to Gatwick wednesday night, all day gatwick thursday and back hom...
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God or Higher Power Moment
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Thought I would share a couple of experiences that happened recently. I like to call these god moments or god working in my life. On Saturday I took my snowmobile out on the trail. I've done this several time over the past month. I've gone as far as the nearby lake and then turned around and came back. ...
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Daily Reflections ~ The Joy of Sharing & 24hrs a Day
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Life will take on new meaning. To watch people recover, to see them help others, to watch loneliness vanish, to see a fellowship grow up about you. to have a host of friends - this is an experience you must not miss. We know you will not want to miss it. Frequent contact with newcomers and with each other is...
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Salvage something with ex-sponsor...?
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I've been thinking about making a bridge between me and him. He is the type of guy I would want to be friends with, in short- he had what i wanted. He is an artist, a very "cool customer", a person that truly exudes inner comfort. Long story short- he was my sponsor for two years and then fired me a...
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New
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So...I am not even sure what to say but I have been searching the internet for a week now for a online support group. I, for some reason, did not want it to be associated with AA. But I couldnt find anything so here I am trying this out. I truly dont know what I am supposed to be doing or even where to start. ...
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The 12th Step
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As a complete neophyte who still doesn't have her shit together, I just wanted to say how grateful I am for the 12th step. I've never met so many wonderfully caring people as I have through the AA community. Some days it's what gets me through the day... Bless you all! Laurie
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Introducing myself (tl; dr, trust me)
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Hi. Been lurking this forum on and off for a few months, the support and thoughtful insight is really awesome, so thanks for everyone's efforts to help others. Today I decided to register although honestly I feel a bit embarrassed typing a long missive about...me. But the sticky said it's recommende...
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How did you first hear about AA?
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I first heard about AA while in a nuthouse in 2000. When I was discharged from the hospital, I was told by a counselor that I should go to 90 meetings in 90 days. I took his advice, and began my road to recovery then. I'm curious, how did you guys first hear about AA? Was it by word of mouth? Or in a hospita...
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Someone said something that got your attention
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During my drinking career, several people made comments about my drinking or things that i did while I was drinking and I quickly forgot about them. But after an incident a close friend of mine said "you're sick and you need help". That really got to me and set me on a path toward sobriet...
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The Steps
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Hi, In my experience it seems the Step's flow in a circular motion rather than in a straight line. Kind of fascinating how one connects to the other in order as the flow moves on. Skip a step the flow is broken. Some how the Twelfth Step is subtly preparing me for a new version of the First. Always fresh, alw...
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Head vs. Heart
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I *know* I can enjoy just one drink... a glass of red wine or a single, thick beer. I *know* I can, so what do I have to prove? I *know* I can have one, but I have one and immediately decide I'll have two. If I make that decision right away, it's conscious, not associated with the affects of alcohol, and tota...
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Daily Reflections ~ The Treasure of The Past & 24hrs a Day
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Showing others who suffer how we were given help is the very thing which makes life seem so worth while to us now. Cling to the thought that, in God's hands, the dark past is the greatest possession you have -- the key to life and happiness for others. With it you can avert death and misery for them. ALCOHOL...
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Went to an all women's meeting today
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I have one word for it... Wow. I've only been to two other meetings, neither of which thrilled me too much. This one was amazing. I could totally relate to these women (who were of all ages) and they were wonderful caring souls. I think there were 8 of us there and I felt completely at home. I'll be bac...
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Onion Rings
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How important are they in the scheme of things? Not important at all. Screw 'em. ------------ ------------ But I got all bent out of shape over 'em anyway tonight. Guess I have a looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong way to go. I mean really. The place I work at got some kick ass onion rings. I or...
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cut off times?
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This really I guess relates to K's earlier thread/share re. 'Has anybody ever heard this at a meeting?' but, I have only ever found one meeting in my area where we have cut off times for sharing ...as in 5 minutes or whatever the suggested time is.........so here, in sunny Manchester in some meetings...
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