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My Turn... hahaha
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Well, I too have an anniversary coming up, not until November, BUT all these anniversaries around here have me looking at my own state in recovery. My situation is not by any means unique, but I am however one of the many "re-treads" around here. I am not new to this. My 2 year anniversary is c...
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Hello
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Hey everyone. I hope you all are doing very well. I'm still here, and have a lot I need to write about. I just need to find the words.....
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Change continues and the learning never stops
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This week I found myself being snippy, self-righteous, and literally going around saying "I know I'm right" in multiple situations. This response was triggered by some serious uncomfortable changes in my work environment and an argument I had with my boyfriend. After living in this...
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A day of contrasts
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Yesterday I went up to North Yorkshire to see my Mum and take her out for a dinner. On the way up I realised I'd forgotten to take the plain loaf for my Mum (any scots out there will know what that is!). I decided to ring a friend from the fellowship, to see how she was doing and to offer her the loaf. Her neighbo...
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Update on big week
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I'm on my motorcycle trip with drinking friends and staying in a motel with wifi so thought I would check in and update. We're two days in and have seen 500 miles of incredible scenery. It's been almost all small mountain roads, rivers and lakes. Left Oregon this morning and made it to Redding, Calif...
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Just droppin in
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Just thought I'd drop in to say hi, and all is well. Got some news today at supper time in regards to my oldest sister who just turned 46 years of age today, was found died in her apartment, this morning. She suffer from some level of split personalities throughout her life and well needless to say, it go...
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Im new here
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This is my first time doing anything like this and its a relief to realize that there are others that have feelings like I do. I hope this can be the beginning of a change for the better in my life because I know I have a problem with alcohol. I've never written or said that before. I have tried to quit many...
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Away This Weekend
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My Homegroup@Mildmay House is running a Retreat so if you're wondering what I'll be upto.. CONSCIOUS CONTACT RETREAT Friday 18th ~ Sunday 20th September 2009 When We Listen, God Speaks When We Obey, God Acts Welcome to St Josephs Retreat Centre. A Great Place to Increase Your Conscious Contact with...
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update on big week
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I'm on my motorcycle trip with drinking friends and staying in a motel with wifi so thought I would check in and update. We're two days in and have seen 500 miles of incredible scenery. It's been almost all small mountain roads, rivers and lakes. Left Oregon this morning and made it to Redding, Calif...
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Jason J
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Prayer for my son
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My 4 year old son goes to the hospital today for minor surgery on his mouth. I feel so bad for him, and wish I could go through it instead of him. I would appreciate your thoughts and prayers for my little man. I'll update later on this afternoon. Thanks to all my friends here on MIP. Brian
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Relapse and Demoralization
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I relapsed just prior to 18 years sobriety. I've been sober now for just over a year. At times -- like today -- I still feel intense pain, regret and remorse, and, of course, like no one understands. My sponsor tells me to just keep going to meetings, but often I feel even worse after going to meetings a...
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I could use some of your prayers
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I injured myself at work today. It's muscle/tendon pull in the back of my leg where they join to my pelvis. The result is that I can walk, drive, sit in a chair. It's uncertain right now how long the healing process will be. The doctor said will see how much healing happens in the next few days. I kinda...
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Tough weekend
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Had a tough weekend, felt old familiar cravings and felt myself get mentally sick again so I could go drinking. Did not though and am off to meeting today, worked around everything else to get to go to one. Contacted hr guy and union and thats about all I can do today for clarification though am depressed...
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HAPPY FREAKING ANNIVERSARY, TONI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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is this 19th or 20th???? You are a long-timer, my friend!!! Have a wonderful dayyyy!!!! Huggs Joni
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jonijoni1
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Day 7 - Sobriety! My sobriety birthday!!!
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This is it. A very spiritual week ends - with sobriety. Thanks for reading and letting me share a week that started in hell and ended on a path of hope. ********************************************** Made it - sobriety! The date was 9/4/94 a little after 10 AM I had my last sip of alcohol. I woke up and w...
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Dave Harm
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My wife's "so-called mother"
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Denial is definitely NOT a river in Egypt, folks. My wife and I are in the middle of a criminal case against her sperm donor (i.e. father) for molesting my wife, her sister, their cousin and three years ago (although we just found out last year) my daughter. The SD (Sperm Donor) is out on bail and is living...
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Feeling stuck
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Over the past week or so I've been reminded that although I've made many changes in my life, there's still allot of "Brian" left inside. I've come to realize that there are things in my life that are out of my control (wiat a sec, I already knew that). I can't figure out why I always try to take...
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Still around, still sober...
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I just wanted to give a shout out to all my friends here on MIP. I've been a busy lately, and haven't had alot of time to post, but I'm hanging in there and LOVING my new found sober way of life. I've started step 4 with my sponsor~seems a little scary. Thanks to all here who have helped me stay sober by lett...
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Just Here
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Thanks
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I just wanted to thank everyone here for showing me what A.A is about. The fellowship here is awesome. Since I have been coming to this online meeting, the love, patience and tolerance has been shown and that is what the Big Book talks about. "Normally we would not mix." Imagine that. This h...
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online meetings
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OK I see it's Tuesday and Saturday at 9 pm eastern.. click on it and it says 8 pm eastern... I'd love to see people here, but I don't know what time. Am I wrong, or too f'up to figure this out?? WHAT TIME?? I've met a couple of people here, and I wish some "old timers" would show up...
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MDC
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mother recognizes detachment as key to sons recovery
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in my active drinking my favorite number was 1-800-help me momma,it wasnt until my mom told me that every single time she bailed me out of jail or came and got me, she was 'interfering with Gods will for me",Thank God for Al-Anon,and thank God for A.A.,i havent found it necessary to take a drink...
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My HP Is With Me All The Way!!
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So, I took all of your advice and talked and listened and worked on getting back with my HP. Here's my story. Work is killing me. I dread going in every day and so it drags me down. I ask my HP to help me. I get into work and for all the jobs I've applied for since May I've never had an interview. I bet you can...
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Changed my Mind......
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Put in a funny but a little off color joke, so just removed it, before Dean saw it. Just toni -- Edited by Just Toni on Thursday 10th of September 2009 04:56:19 PM
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"It's like a death sentence"...Chris Ramer
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Three weeks ago I moved in with my parents and had intentions of getting sober and clean. It worked out fine for the first week. They left for Cleveland for 4 days the following weekend. I'm told we get sober when we hit our bottom. I won't pretend to claim a bottom anymore. It can always get worse, as my spo...
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Fear & Ego
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I've been sober since Aug. 22nd and am living with my parents again. That has been a blow to the ego, but really at this point I can't really hold on to much in that department and for good reason. My ego is destructive. Every day it rears its ugly head at some point and then I stop and remind myself that there...
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Isolation - Desire to Stop Drinking (WINO)
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I miss my 730am homegroup in North Carolina... The only requirement to join is "a desire to stop drinking">... I knew I was an alcoholic at age 13-14.. I stopped drinking for 1 yr to "prove to myself that I could stop".. Well, I'm now 36 yr old. I had a productive couple years o...
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Where to go?
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OK, everyone here knows that I've been struggling. I'm reading all the sites, going to meetings and trying 1 day at a time...I have always had goals for my work, my financial situation, and so forth... My relationship, on the other hand is completely out of control... Put my sobriety 1st, is an ok op...
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Exhausted and fed-up with my binge drinking
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Hi all - I am new to this forum, very glad I found it. I am a 39 year old binge drinking alcoholic. The longest I go without a drink is 3 months, (however lately I only seem to last one week) After each binge I say "never again" and I make promises to myself (and what's worse my family) that I am going...
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61 Days Sober...Still attending A A.
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As you know this is my first experience of AA and I'm currently 61 days sober. I still attend my regular meetings every Monday and Friday and I now also go to 2 different meetings on a Wednesday morning and evening. My meetings don't do sobriety chips and I have to say I'm a litle p****d off with that. I feel...
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Hi Its me...changing my sign in..to Just Toni, I dropped the Baloney
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Well the title said it all, now I am a newbie just on this site, did not want to use Baloney anymore, for good reasons.............some said..... :) So now I am just little greenfaced smiling newbie, here I am.... Hugs to all, Toni You can take the Baloney out, but NEVER the silly part of me, that s...
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Just Toni
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Housemate is longtime alkie in denial
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I moved into a shared house a few months ago. One of the housemates is female and drinks incessantly, a mix of everything, all hours, picks fights with all of the housemates, landlord, and any of her family/friends, etc., then sleeps at all hours. This is worsening week by week at this point. Any sugges...
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Month leading up to AA anniversary.....
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Morning everyone,
I had a chat with someone that is also coming up on a birthday or AA anniversary in the next 30 days, and we were talking about how emotional this month is. It starts out feeling just sort of different, then I realize that I am much more emotional and vulnerable in a good way. My subcons...
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toni baloney
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The Power Of Addiction
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I'm dealing with another addiction and counting days so now I'm in withdrawal!! It's difficult. I also have been using food to comfort myself and have gained considerable weight. AM now trying to modify my food intake. I'm emotional alot and feel ike crying. The addict in me is wanting to "u...
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HR meeting
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Hi all, Got through the HR meeting, read my daily reflection before going in and it said to hand it over, I did. I had decided to conceal a few things from hr man but did not, have to take my chances and its just as well as I would have got others into difficulties had I not. I firmly believe my HP was guiding and...
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Suggestions for a friend
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A friend of mine has recently started exhibiting a pattern of alcohol abuse. It started becoming apparent to me nearly 5 months ago. Unfortunately, I live in Virginia, and she lives in New Jersey, so it took me a while to really notice. A few weeks ago, her husband, came to me and told me that her habit...
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Its A Start
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After years of dealing with alcoholism I've come here to get support and understanding instead of fighting my demon alone. Do I drink daily?....no not anymore..used to.....black out and all the rest that we all can so relate to....Go years without it...as I discovered tonight reading this forum.....
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FHB
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Coming out of the closet
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Vodka was my drink of choice and apparently I stashed a 40 of Smirnoff in the back my closet some time ago and forgot about it. I have no desire to open it or smell it or drink it but I just can't bring my self to pour it out. I'm thinking that I could give it to a non-alcoholic friend. I sincerely have no desire t...
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Tipsy McStagger
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Life Support...
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The disease tried her harder than she tried the program. She's been to meetings and had a sponsor and womans' group and a big book, tons of support and a husband in the Family Group of Al-Anon. I will not judge any alcoholics attempt at sobriety. Often times it is told by how we pass and she is passing on...
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Jerry F
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Another realisation of how I've changed.....
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....and I'm still changing. At work we have a series of internal web forums, which are a lifesaver for people like me who work alone at home. One of the topics has been wedding anniversaries and I mentioned that this year will be my 31st but that I've been separated for 3 years and 8 months. one of the cont...
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bikerbill
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First AA Meeting - Day 6
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I woke up Friday morning, beating myself up. How did that happen? Less then 24 hours earlier, I told one of my bosses that I was an alcoholic. I felt good... I felt like I might have a chance because I was coming "clean." I thought I was surrendering. Yet, here I was starting another day with a ha...
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Dave Harm
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New starts and old worries belonging to old lifestyle
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Dear All, Had a fab meeting with my supervisor, he has appeared in the form of hp to some extent, excellent outcomes, found a new meeting at the city because I can't afford to miss any. Job situation is that hr wanted a meeting with me tomorrow, I had to push for this meeting in the first place they just want...
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Relationships
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I have a situation that I need help with. I have a sponsee that is very new to AA. His wife and him are going to a marriage councelor. He believes if he does right by his wife, everything will be Ok, he will get his wife and children back. She has not left him yet. He has put her on a very hight pedistal. He is ex...
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When was your ah ha! moment
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Some call it a moment of clarity etc... When did you finally realize that there were no more cards to pull out from under the sleeve,no more lies that you could tell yourself about drinking. When did you truly do the first step without formally doing the first step? Mine was when i actually was drink...
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Relapse after 2 years
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For just over 2 years, I havent had a drink. This was after years of abuse since my teens, several trips to rehab and many other consequences of achoholism, familiar to all. For the first time since I started drinking, i felt like I didnt need it anymore and it was a source of pride to say 'I dont drink'10 d...
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There are no fitting emoticons to attach to this post. A mushroom cloud might work.
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Hi all. Sorry I only seem to have been posting here lately when I need to talk, and not reading about other people's issues to share my experience about. I just don't have much experience and strength right now, but I do still have hope and that's probably the most important thing. Anyway.. I'm 6 months...
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FlyingSquirrel
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BIG ISSUES on the homefront
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My husband's company just landed a long-term contract they have been trying to get, on the Ohio Turnpike. They already have a contract for 2 zones (they take care of ALL towing, semi wrecks and HAZMAT spills, etc.) and they have gotten a third now. They purchased a big shop, office and scrapyard about a...
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HAPPY BELLY BUTTON BIRTHDAY TONI BALONEY!!!!!!
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETIE PIE!!!!!!!!! -- Edited by jonijoni1 on Tuesday 1st of September 2009 08:04:40 PM
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Scared of Escape - Day 5
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Dave Harm
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Sick and Tired - Day 4
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