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No one knows but my life is falling apart...I drank again tonight and I don't know what I said to my husband but it wasn't nice and he went to bed made at me so lost right now.
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I Am Proof That This Program Works
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Hi Everyone, I had a pretty devastating day at work yesterday. To make a very long story short, I had an opportunity to speak in a conference as part of my job. This is something that I have worked very hard for - I went back to school to get my masters and to bust my ass trying to become more knowledgable in my...
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Newcomer
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Worked with a newcomer today, 63 years old shaking & withdrawing badly. I went with him to a meeting. After the meeting I saw a new man. He went to the secretary, picked up the venue list & literature. He told me I am now ready to start a new life in AA. The AA book says that we do not want to miss this &a...
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why is this so hard...
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i feel completely lost right now...if i could kick my cocaine habit why am i having so much trouble with alcohol. i am going through withdrawl right now and i feel like i don't have the strength to make it throught this. any words of wisdow for me would be greatly appreciated.
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Speaking at Tricities conference in Va. 10/21
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Just in case there are any MIPer's in the state of Virginia I thought I would post this. I will be the opening speaker for the Tri-City Area Conference at 6pm on Friday, October 21st at 6pm. I antisipate going with the theme of the conference which is called "Keep It Simple". However, it will be fitted i...
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Eight days sober
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I haven't had a drink in eight days and I feeling much better. I've got some bad blood tests though and I am just hoping for the best. Bilirubin is high; spleen is inlarged, enzymes are high. Anyone have experience with liver regeneration? Even if I never have another drop of alcohol again, can I sti...
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simple, not easy
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Another day may be another story, but for today I am astonished at the simplicity of maintaining sobriety by not taking a drink. I am grateful for those days--which are probably about 90% of all my days for the past two decades--during which it actually seems easy. During those times when it is not so e...
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Mormons are Alcoholics too!
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Mormons, we truly are no different than any of the christian community. Our beliefs are exactly the same as all the rest of the christian community out there-Jesus is our savoir too. We do have a bit more (not less) written doctrine and in it we note "do not drink" and "do not smoke"...
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What ever happened to the good old 12 step call?
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In my home town we have a lot of trouble getting members to go on 12 step calls. The mantra is "get yourself to a meeting near you" and I notice the same advice is frequently given on this forum. It's scary. Advising people in withdrawals, full of fear, to just front up to a room full of happy stra...
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God Calling ~ Walk in My Love
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"A consciousness of My presence as LOVE makes all life different. The consciousness of Me means the opening of your whole nature to Me, and that brings relief. Relief brings peace. Peace brings joy. Beyond all words is My love and care for you. Rejoice in it. Walk in My love. There is a sprin...
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Daily Reflections ~ "We Asked His Protection" & 24hrs a Day
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We asked His protection & care with complete abandon. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 59 I could not manage my life alone. I had tried that road & failed. My "ultimate sin" dragged me down to the lowest level I have ever reached &, unable to function, I accepted the fact that I needed h...
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I am in charge of the action, but God is in charge of the results
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Just a quick post to let all my MIP friends know what is happening to me. I went to my urologist yesterday for a followup on tests that were done to determine the cause of kidney pain I have been experiencing . I received some very unexpected results. My left kidney has a stone, is atrophied and is not funct...
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getting started
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I'm having a hard time at the moment because I know that I have a drinking problem, and logically I know I need to quit, but by the time 4 pm rolls around my thinking has changed to how much I don't want to quit and I end up drinking again. I'm wondering how others have been able to move past this or do you just r...
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Rock on Salt Lake!
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I am traveling over the long weekend with my partner. He is in a convention while I have lots of free time here in Salt Lake City. As my sponsor suggested, and as I learned to do whenever going away, I checked for meetings here upon getting situated. I was like "there probably wont be any meetings...
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Daily Reflections ~ Emotional Balance & 24hrs a Day
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Made direct amends to such people wherever possible . . . TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p.83 When I survey my drinking days, I recall many people whom my life touched casually, but whose days I troubled through my anger & sarcasm. These people are untraceable, & direct amends to them ar...
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God Calling ~ Everlasting Arms
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"Arms, sheltering arms, express the loving tenderness of (your Father) in heaven. Man, in his trouble and difficulty, needs nothing so much as a refuge, a place where none and nothing can touch him. Say to yourself, "He is my refuge." Say it until its truth sinks into your very soul...
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God Calling ~ Drop Those Burdens
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Look to Me for all. Rely on Me for all. Drop those burdens, and then, singing and free, you can go on your way rejoicing. Encumbered with them you will fall. Drop them at My feet, knowing surely that I will lift them and deal with each one as is truly best. 365 One-minute Meditations from God Calling...
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Sucker for Bad Sponsors
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Urghhhh, are you kidding me with the sponsor thing again??? I have been sober for 3 1/2 weeks for the umpteenth time in maybe 6 years. My relapses have never been related in any way to bad sponsorship but let's put it this way, I've never had been able to pick out healthy relationships and it's no differ...
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Life can only be understood backwards, but it must be lived forward.
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Today's thought from Hazelden is: Life can only be understood backwards, but it must be lived forward. --Soren Kierkegaard Once, in a small village, there was a huge fire. The blaze spread and several homes and businesses were burned to the ground. After a long while, the fire was brought under contr...
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God is either EVERYTHING or He is nothing
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My whole life depends on God being everything. Nothing mmakes much sense in my life except chaos, drama, fear ect... Now that I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that way of life doesn't work, and I must learn to live life on a spiritual basis, I feel lost most of the time. The very only thought that gives me an...
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binge drinking and newcomer
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ive just started going to aa after not drinking now for 10 days.it took a lot of willpower to force myself to go but i owed myself something. i never thought myself as an alcoholic as i binge drink on weekends sporting events concerts etc, ive been doing this every weekend since 16 and im now 42, my whole so...
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Newbie here!
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I am new to this, but have been searching websites to find a good support group to stop drinking. I currently drink about a fifth of vodka every day and I need to quit, I have gained weight, my AST/ALT is elevated at 67 and I'm scared if I do not quit, I will die. I am 32 years old and have a 5 year old son and I wa...
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SOS
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Well...I made it 5 days. Then I came home from work and saw a big bottle of Jack Daniels that my husband bought sitting on the kitchen counter. I held off for a few hours and then I said to myself I would just drink untill I got a buzz. Instead I dindn't stop drinking until I passed out on the couch. I am sure ...
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The 3 step decision.
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The decision that I made in step 3. Sometimes I forget about that decision, but God does not. He engineers circumstances & situations so that I come back to that decision. All I have to do is submit again, but my stubborn will does not. What we call bad things happening to us is just God with a gentle re...
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Daily Reflections ~ Reconstruction & 24hrs a Day
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Yes, there is a long period of reconstruction ahead.. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p83 The reconstruction of my life is the prime goal in my recovery as I avoid taking that first drink, one day at a time. The task is most successfully accomplished by working the steps of our fellowship. The spiritual life is...
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Wakeboarding
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So. The summer starts early in South Carolina, and the schedule is work, wakeboard, work, wakeboard, call in sick to work, keep wakeboarding. The summer is now over because real life says I need to pay attention to work. Staying busy sure keeps your mind off booze. I just really have not had a desire f...
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im going to try to quit today
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im a firstime poster so be easy on me, the reason's i drink are for alot of reason's ive lost alot i guess i feel like talking to someone?
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AA for me.
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One of the most blessed things in my life, is that every single day of my life, my most cherished thought is AA. My mind is either thinking about which meeting I am going to attend or some newcomer that I am sponsoring. I thank God for instilling this in me. It's never dulled in the past 23 years. It fascinat...
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Started Detox yesterday
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So I've been a daily drinker forth past few years only to see the amount increase over time. I have had side effects I just considered a minor hang over. After a binge last weekend, the hangover symptoms became full blown withdrawl symptoms. For the past week I have been able to go four hours without a dri...
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do i need aa?
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tonight was my fifth meeting in a week and it was a steps meeting. i felt uncomfortable tonight with the people, especially a women who started going on you need a sponser and you should ask that bloke who had shared his story earlier. i bit my tongue and did not say owt but i was fuming inside. i dont need al...
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Fitting real tragedy into a recovery-minded worldview
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I posted recently about how grateful I am that my new mindset in recovery lets me take minor life disappointments in stride and recognize that I am not omniscient enough to see the big picture -- not getting what I want at this moment might be the best thing in the long run, even if I can't see why right now....
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72 days sober and I used.
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While you will all probably kick me out of the AA board and tell me to go to the NA board, I used. I have TMJ and they prescribed Fioricet for the pain (a mild narcotic). I knew it was wrong and I asked for it anyway (DON'T STOP READING JUST BECAUSE I SAID NARCOTIC). I did it for the same reasons I drank alcoh...
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oh man you couldn't make this up.
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So Monday last week, travelled up to Aberdeen via 5 sites in the kirkcaldy area. Tuesday thruough friday all very productive days, convention saturday and sunday morning. Didn't get any fishing in but made friends with a couple of lads sleeping on the streets, so in exchange for a bit of chat and a few b...
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God Calling ~ Give, Give, Give
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"Give abundantly. Feel that you are rich. Have no mean thought in your heart. Of love, of thought, of all you have, give, give, give. You are followers of the world's greatest giver. Give of time, of personal ease and comfort, of rest, of fame, of healing, of power, of sympathy, of all these and...
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God Calling ~ I Must Provide
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"I am your Lord. Enough. Then I can command your obedient service, your loyalty. But I am bound by My lordship to give you protection. I am bound to fight for you, to plan for you, to secure you a sufficiency of all within My power to provide. Think how vast that provision can be. Never doubt. Su...
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Daily Reflections ~ Willingness to Grow & 24hrs a Day
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If more gifts are to be received, our awakening has to go on. AS BILL SEES IT, p. 8 Sobriety fills the painful "hole in the soul" that my alcoholism created. Often I feel so physically well that I believe my work is done. However, joy is not just the absence of pain; it is the gift of continued spi...
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My report card
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Okay folks, so one of the things I am doing now is making up for not finishing my entire Ph.D in clinical psychology and taking the 3 classes I need to get licensed as a mental health counselor. I bitched and moaned about this and drank over it for 13 years...."woe is me...I had to drop out of grad sch...
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God Calling ~ Breathe My Name
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"Just breathe My name. It is like the pressure of a child's hand that calls forth an answering pressure, which strengthens the child's confidence and banishes fear." God Calling
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Just Toni II
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Hey All, Did anyone hear from Just Toni? I have been very busy this summer and have been neglecting this forum, and I am hoping someone has good news on Miss Toni's health. Thanks, Tom
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God Calling ~ Continuous service
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Service is the law of heaven. My angels do always obey. "They serve Him continually" can be said of all who love Me. With love there is continuous service in every action, and also even in rest. Take this not as the end but as the beginning of a new life consecrated to My service. A life of power...
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Daily Reflections ~ Lightening The Burden & 24hrs a Day
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Showing others who suffer how we were given help is the very thing which makes life seem so worthwhile to us now . . . the dark past is . . . the key to life & happiness for others. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 124 Since I have been sober, I have been healed of many pains: deceiving my partner, deserting my be...
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Mahalo, I'm grateful
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For your responses and support; all of them because the energy and strength is in a spiritual level, one of the levels where this disease has eroded. In clearer listening with my eyes and with whatever hearing I stilll have I have been able to recognize God - Akua - HP as I underestand HP. The first Offi...
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Would any of you....?
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Would any of you date someone that still lived with their ex and paid for all of their ex's entire living expenses? I am just wondering if I am crazy. I am also nurturing a fat ass resentment that is all riddled with icky hate and jealousy. This has truly been the bane of my existence the last 6 months. S...
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God Calling ~ Accept trials
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"Trials and troubles may seem to overwhelm you. They cannot do more than work My will, and that will you have said is your will. Do you not see that you cannot be destroyed? From now a new life is opening out before you. Yours to enter into the kingdom I have prepared for you. The sunlight of My prese...
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Almost there
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Morning everyone,and blessings of this day! We were all packed,reservations made for hotels,plans lined up to see realators and events planned for our 10 day vacation to Florida(Deerfield Beach) where we go every year and probably moving to next July. BAM!!!! Irene(the nemisis wind storm)butto...
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Hurricane
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Hi I hope all of You who live in or near this storm are prepared and have plenty of supplies to see you through. We all hope to see you back on as soon as possible, safe and sound. God, Your Higher Power and any other Loved Ones plus All of Us Here at MIP can help you with Thoughts and Prayers. Stay Safe and do no...
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Overachieving may be symptomatic
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Today's thought from Hazelden is: Overachieving may be symptomatic. Suffering from low self-esteem is common. Some of it may be blamed on growing up in families affected by alcohol or other drugs. Perhaps the criticism heaped on us at school or in a bad marriage triggered it. We may have thousands of...
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Daily Reflections ~ Centering Our Thoughts & 24hrs a Day
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When WWII broke out, our A.A. dependence on a Higher Power had its first major test. A.A.'s entered the services & were scattered all over the world. Would they be able to take the discipline, stand up under fire, & endure...? As Bill Sees It, p. 200 I will center my thoughts on a Higher Power. I w...
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Having trouble understanding meditation
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Hi everyone. I hope all is well. I'm hoping someone can help me. I hear people in AA meetings talk about how they meditate in the morning and evening. I've tried looking online but am still confused. What type of meditation is common with AA? I know everyone has a different higher power and mine is Go...
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More Gifts of Sobriety
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I hope people don't mind the positive posts (positive people used to drive me nuts when I was struggling!!) but I experienced another gift of recovery this week. It's absolutely a 180-degree turnaround from how I would have approached things 5 years ago. This week, I didn't get a really interesting j...
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