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my mental illness and alcohol/drugs
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I am recovering from a pretty bad relapse over a month ago (lasted over 2 months). Many of you have known me here for awhile. Some for many years. There are going to be dually diagnosed people here on the site, whether just reading as visitors, or some of my friends who would like a little more insight on w...
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Janis Slept here?
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Janis Joplin Slept Here--or at Least She Slept Next DoorMay 22, 1999|From Associated Press SAN FRANCISCO It was a great twist on Haight-Ashbury hippie history--the house where drug-plagued rocker Janis Joplin once lived was being turned into a drug rehab center. Just one problem--she really liv...
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Got some anger...yup.
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Hard to forgive...impossible to forget. Goodfellas - "Business is bad? F&%k you, pay me. Oh you had a fire? F&%k you, pay me. Place got hit by lightning? F&%k you, pay me." So it's the end of the year and I have two deadbeats who didn't pay for their advertising in time. One of who...
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Aquaman
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My story
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I'll always be grateful for MIP, I've been here since 2006 on the al-anon board/chat room. It was there that I found my way into face to face recovery. I've been waiting to tell my story.... I fear being judged, because I have been. ("God, please spare me from the desire for love, approval or ap...
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gladlee
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Song of the day!
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A friend dedicated this to me today...I think it's her way of sayin' I shouldn't beat up on myself for past behaviors. It's a sweet little tune, and I can particularly relate to the "Gimme Sympathy" part of it, because not WANTING anybody's sympathy and being "tough" was a big p...
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AmyWillWin
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Hi, new here and cant sleep..........AGAIN!!!!
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Hi folks, newbie here (to the forum and pretty new to sober life too) Been 3 1/2 months now and to be honest most of the time since i admitted my problem to myself (everybody else in my life knew) it has been pretty good. but there are times like now (its 4.30am here) where I cant sleep and the old thoughts of &...
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lufc
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worst 48 hours of my life
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My new Granddaughter was born Monday, emergency C-Section with the cord around her neck, no heartbeat. They revived her and sent her to a Childrens Hospital in Chicago. Being a Paramedic I know all the possible complications and I was scared poopless. During it all I used the program, we wont know i...
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Halfwolf
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Trying to put the bat away
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Yeah the street is less messy, but still pretty messy. I cannot stop beating myself up. I am fearful of the future. It's like all of the sudden, I hit the backwards promises and I feel like a total newcomer. I have not had cravings to drink, but have had some regarding smoking cigarettes. I am gettin...
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pinkchip
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Are there any other graduate students here?
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So I am a masters student here at a major university studying mechanical engineering and I'm struggling so much with various inferiority complexes on top of my alcoholism. I guess you could say they each feed into each other. Bottom line, I feel like one of the least competant students to emerge fro...
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presnem83
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boyfriend in rehab and need advice
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Hi:) So, my bf has finished detox and one-week of rehab and I'm concerned. He's acting very arrogant and doesn't talk about how he "feels", only about stories in rehab. We went to see his mother yesterday, who has cancer, and he has spent all of her savings (120, 000) on drinking and it was lik...
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Kyrp
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Sponsor has less sober time...
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On Friday night I went to a newly formed home group meeting. My sponsor asked me to go with her. So, of course, I did. At the end of the meeting there was a sign up sheet to be a member of the homegroup. Both of us signed up... You had to put your name, phone number and sobriety anniversary. This is when I realiz...
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BeSerene
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Is it normal
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To test yourself? To THINK about having a few beers while you play WoW (I used to just LOVE to drink and play video games) or while making dinner or cleaning the kitchen? Reward beers used to be the best beers. Now, if I think about it, I actually have a physically uncomfortable feeling. It's hard to e...
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AmyWillWin
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Life Goes On
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A friend sent me this earlier today - thought I'd pass it on. In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: It goes on. --Robert Frost Most of us are afraid of anything we can't control. Life is one of these things. During our drinking and drugging days, we had checked out of life. We w...
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bikerbill
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Advice to another alcoholic
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I called a lady on x-mas day to find a meeting and had not called her since she gave me her number, she responded and was thrilled for me to come to her home group (by the way, way out of my comfort zone), but I went and the meeting was a women's meeting (I never go to those), but enjoyed it. When we left I could t...
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Sacrifice
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My name is Bill W.
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Just rented this from netflix and finished it and must say wow...it changed my whole outlook on AA. Its nice to know some history, I highly recommend this if you have not seen it, performances are great! Have you seen it? If so your thoughts?
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SoberSteve
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Nothing is so bad that relapse won't make it worse.
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Today's thought from Hazelden is: Nothing is so bad that relapse won't make it worse. --Anonymous The stories we hear in meetings often shock us. It seems hard to believe that some members could have harmed themselves in such ways. We hear about arrests, bankruptcies, loss of family and home, lost jo...
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Larry_H
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Uneventful and wonderful
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Boy, life can be so uneventful when clean and sober. It is GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!! lol No cyclic thinking 24 hours a day about how to get out of this or that jam, no worrying about and planning ways to get money to drink and use, no constant covering up of lies or avoiding phone calls and visits from those who car...
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jonijoni1
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Sort of Non-Sponsership
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Hi All I will be sober 9 years this June--part of that I did/did not have a sponser. I have asked at a lot of meetings, met with a couple of people and they said really that they did not have the time to pick-up anyone else. I have done a lot of the steps, sometimes not in order--due to stress or injury, or near...
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kld47
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Lost
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Not sure where to start or what even is going on with me but I am just not where I want to be right now for some reason. I just really want to run away to be honest! I don't want to drink, don't even entertain that thought. I have so much going on in my life and it's mostly all good, but damn, I'm bored, I'm tired a...
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Sacrifice
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First Things First
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Today's thought from Hazelden is: First Things First - Order Busy people often declare, with some exasperation, that they cannot do everything at once. People with emotional problems, a group that includes many alcoholics, often feel that they are trying to do everything at once. Quite often, thi...
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Larry_H
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CoDA Board ideas...
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hi everyone, it appears to be somewhat of a group decision that we should have a coda board on this site. The Al-Anon members have also mentioned it. Let me have a bit of time and I'll bring one to MIP that we can utilize. Maybe a week or two, k? Love ya'll bunches, John
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How often do you read your big book and what other "AA" books do you recommend?
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Just out of curiousity...Daily? Weekly? Monthly? Also what other books besides BB and 12&12 do you consider must haves in your recovery library? thanks
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SoberSteve
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I just called my rehab
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to say thank you. When I went into that place I was a mess. I hated myself and the world and I really couldn't see much point in continuing on. I'd lost my wife, my kids, my house and my self respect. They had to really look after me to stop myself dong anything stupid to myself. A couple of months later I was pl...
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REHAB ROMANCE
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Was wondering how many of you got "caught up" in a not so healthy emotionally intimate relationship while in rehab? I know you're not supposed to go there for at least a year of sobriety under your belt but, gosh, to find a soulmate that can really relate to my addiction was an addiction in its...
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INTENT
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Good morning! Welcome to another day of "life".Today is my wife's 50th birthday and we will celebrate quietly together,no hoopla(did that Saturday)During my daily office,my early morning reflection time with God,I was focusing on how our attitudes(I'll keep it on myself)my attitud...
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mikef
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CHRONIC FATIGUE
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Since i stopped drinking over a year ago i have suffered from chronic fatigue. I eat a well balanced diet but even after a year it is no better. Has anyone else had to deal with this problem?
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My street is less messy
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I had a meeting to address work issues with my boss and her boss and human resources. I owned my own behaviors, but not hers. I have consequences and so does she. Lesson learned: Acting ugly and mudslinging creates problems for everyone. Also, owning up to my mistakes may have saved my job rather t...
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pinkchip
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Now I get...
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why anonymity is so important. For those of you who were not aware, I used to go by Reffner here a few months back. The reason for my new ID is a long boring story, so I'll skip the details. I had a sponsee who I turned on to this web site (those who have been around a while may remember some of the troubles I w...
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Klaatu
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Thought I'd drop by and say hello
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Hello fellow travelers, I - thanks to God and AA - am now 2 and a bit months sober. I live in a small rural town without a licence so the 90 meetings in 90 days is a bit hard for me so a place like this is really handy. I've spent most of the evening reading the threads and they have really helped me on a couple of q...
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Frodo
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!21 MONTHS SOBER,IN DANGER OF RELAPSE AND COMPLETELY LOST AND SUICIDAL
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I am over a year and a half sober, I have put alot of work into the program and got up to step 8, my sponsor spent months with me on step 1 and how it had to be 100% in my gut(nothing ever touches my gut). However much action I have put in however, I cant stop analysing things and have had a problem handing over and...
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daria
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Noticed somethin' 'bout service...
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While doing the business & humble service of sponsorship and while performing Trusted Servant duties, my mind has not been visited for even a micro-second by the urge, obsession, temptation, lamentation or romanticism of drugs or alcohol. I CERTAINLY have not been visited by The Four Hors...
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Aquaman
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Sponsor
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Could someone explain what a sponsor is,what they do,and any info about the subject. Thanks
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Randjet
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GRATEFUL TO BE A MEMBER
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Out in Breckinridge with my friend and fellow AA member Dean. He Had me sign up to this board while we're waiting on the sun to come up to hit the slopes. It has been a beautiful week so far and all I can think of is moments like this dont happen with out sobriety pumping through my veins and a higher power in m...
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(Mispost)
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... -- Edited by odat on Tuesday 25th of January 2011 06:42:50 PM -- Edited by odat on Tuesday 25th of January 2011 06:43:12 PM
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Perceptions
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I was reading a Michael Crichton Book recently and it told a story I understood better then I could explain it myself He tells how he bought a house in the hills, and he was never so happy in his life, he went on long walks on his property every day, laid out by his pool, puttered around on his lawn and in his Ga...
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LinBaba
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18 days sober, and have general questions about maintaining sobriety
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Hi all. I'm new here. Well, I'm new to AA and the whole idea that I'm an alcoholic. I've been sober 18 days now. I've been following this forum since my awakening, and I thought it was about time I post. I have a few questions for the old-timers, that I would love to know that answer to. As a bit of background...
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TIME TO DIG IN!!
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Morning! Just checking in,been off board for a bit,all is well!Last weekend wife and I went to Casino for 2 days to chill and spend some down time away from the day to day and renew our spirits.(special on Best Western rooms ,$75.00 per night AAA)kEPT ONE OF MY PREVIOUS JONES IN CONTROL(gambling,one o...
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mikef
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No Grattitude ! im a Fool granted plz Forgive :(
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Not the slightest damn clue of what a person is going thru , sypmpathy no hell no thats not what i seek maybe understanding maybe some kind of a break but i kjno i have to work for the promises man i wish i had never made my friend give me <sex> i dunno prolly would have drank anyway but if things were...
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New to this--my 1st step
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I have recently started going through the 12 steps, as well as Sacred Contracts. I am very new to this, but want to share my story anonymously and get feedback from people that understand. I should say I am 3 weeks and 5 days sober as of today. It has been extremely hard for me, and I am tempted many times t...
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firelily324
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Yur Gunna get people Killed SimplyPuT
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im Done with u fellowshippers that do not adress the solution being god and the `12 steps or your personal experiences on how yu got escaped the gates of insanity and alcoholic DEATH Nor Do u Respect the BIG BOOK OF AA WICH Has been around Since 1935 Bob and Bill are turning in their graves. U SeOR BIG BOOK M...
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Full Flight
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kinda funny...
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Friend of mine in The Program just called to give a howdy-shout and asked "Hey, watcha doin?" "Reading.", I replied. "Yeah? Whatcha readin'?" "Living for Dummies.", I said. "Huh?" "My Alcoholics Anonymous Big Book." Pe...
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Aquaman
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Back to Work Monday Need Advice
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Greetings all. I have been on short term disability from work for the past 3 weeks to get a grip on my alcoholism. I spent 5 days in inpatient and the past 2 weeks in a 5 day a week all day treatment program. I'm currently on Day 19 of my sobriety and so far so good. I still occasionally miss having a drink b...
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Just in Case I Haven't Said it Lately....
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I Love You!!!! Yeah, you... on your smartphone and you... at the library and you... in the media room at rehab and you... at your job and you... sitting at your desk at home and you... surfing the web in bed because you can't sleep and you... white-knuckling it looking for hope and you... drunk as hell an...
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Aquaman
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Focusing on Solutions
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Today's thought from Hazelden is: Focusing on Solutions If we are to learn to cope with our illness and our life, we must begin focusing on solutions, not just on our problems. But this means we must change our attitude and outlook. We can no longer live as if there are only problems in our lives. We can no...
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Larry_H
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Trip going pretty good so far...
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Overseas on business for a week now, one week to go. Flight over was 15 hours sitting between two big American guys drinking beer the whole way. Boy could I smell it. I have to admit that was not entirely comfortable. BUT, I prayed and my HP came through. Episodes like that are like headaches, you fo...
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Everyday Wisdom
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This phrase is uttered literally THOUSANDS of times a DAY all over the world and I'll be damned if it isn't the best piece of advcie I've ever heard. In the event of a loss of cabin pressure, an oxygen mask will fall from the panel above you. Pull the mask to your face and begin breathing normally. Remember...
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Aquaman
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From the fog that is gray to the cloud that is pink
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Pink elephants swirling all around like spun cotton candy until you hit the ground. The Pink cloud descends and knocks you off your feet, buoyed in a cocoon of complacency, inactivity and deceit. I fell off my pink cloud with a thud Elizabeth Taylor I came into the rooms of recovery, hopeless, hapless...
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Gzepe
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Need God2Divorce my thinkin pg.86
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If i dont ask god to divorce my thinkin upon awakening, im going to roll right in to blame self pity self seeking , dishonesty the lie i believe that i dont have to do this when the results are the same every time when i dont do a proper 10 and get my 11out there -that im going to flip out dry drunk style i nee...
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Full Flight
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Today, I will examine my range of available choices.
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Today's thought from Hazelden is: Next year I'm going to be better than I am now, but today I'm the best I can be. It is quite possible to waste a lot of time and energy trying to make impossible changes. Many of us, inspired by the dynamics of the program and driven more by enthusiasm than prudence, strike...
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Larry_H
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Back To College Again
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Hi All Well, a new semester has begun again. I will look at posts and post also when I can. Classes this time are a lot of computer work and can not be done at home, so will have to go to the college and use their labs to do a lot of the work. I will of course check-in from time to time. So if I am not heard from until M...
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