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Some days we grasp at self-pity like a blanket on a cold night
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Today's thought from Hazelden is: Self-pity in its early stages is as snug as a feather mattress. Only when it hardens does it become uncomfortable. --Maya Angelou Some days we grasp at self-pity like a blanket on a cold night, and we are momentarily comforted. However, extended periods of self-pit...
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Cool AA coins
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My Mother has been passing down her AA coins to me recently. I've asked her to look for the older coins that had "AA" on them. World services requested that the words AA not be used on anything other than "approved literature" around '90. So these are getting rare. -- Edited b...
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So two nights ago I prayed and demanded that god completely and permanantly remove my desire to drink
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With all the earnestness and sincerity I could summon I laid in bed and shook my fist at the ceiling and said "Alright buddy, if you're for real I demand that you help me! I don't want some halfassed motivation or some weak guidence! I want to be cured right here, right now. If it doesnt happen than I g...
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I don't want to hear about how much you miss drinking, pregnant friend!!
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This isn't a request for advice or anything, I just wanted to share (VENT!!) on something that's been happening lately. I'm grateful to have gotten pretty comfortable in bars. I live in a major urban area and all my friends have tiny apartments, so group get-togethers usually take place at a neighbo...
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this to shall pass
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im 7yrs sober but just had a major hysterectomy&have been very deppressed.ive been with filled with self pity&every other character defect.ive been feeling like my first 2yrs.after 2 weeks of feeling sorry for myself&being miserable i finally slowly to give my will back to god.even...
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One Day At A Time...
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John
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Daily Reflections ~ Removing "The Ground Glass" & 24hrs a Day
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The moral inventory is a cool examination of the damages that occurred to us during life & a sincere effort to look at them in true perspective. This has the effect of taking the ground glass out of us, the emotional substance that still cuts & inhibits. As Bill Sees It, p. 140 My Eighth Step lis...
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Does "the other shoe ever really drop"?
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I keep getting small and fleeting glimpses of peace and something more... Like God really loves me and has me. I say to Him at these sweet times, "this is nice, but when is the other shoe gonna drop?" I know I always turned my back on AA and God and love in the past and maybe that is where my fear is c...
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David W
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EGO
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If not obvious to others, my cutting back on meetings is causing the ego to grow too big. Too easily offended and feeling irritable, angry, and judgmental often. More meetings and more stepwork for me. Sponsor wants me to do 90 and 90 again. Hope to share some more ESH here and less BS. Went to big boo...
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pinkchip
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Continued; sought; tried
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These 3 words contained in the last 3 steps of AA, have been the most important things I have done in the last 24 hours. Whenever I neglect these I have always landed in trouble. Have I continued or have I stopped? step 10. Have I sought or am I self sufficent? step 11. Have I tried to reach others or was I stil...
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gonee
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Daily Reflections ~ Redoubling Our Efforts & 24hrs a Day
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To a degree, he has already done this when taking moral inventory, but now the time has come when he ought to redouble his efforts to see how many people he has hurt, & in what ways. Twelve Steps & Twelve Traditions, p77. As I continue to grow in sobriety, I become more aware of myself as a person of...
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(Please respond to this) Reposted for Kanajune
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**********************************************************What little I saw here moved me to tears. (My old 'puter and slow inte...
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John
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hi kmedina
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While I posted these videos to show a friend how to use the message board, I think many of you will enjoy them as well. This girl is 11 years old and sings like a woman with 20 years experience. Check her out. [video=]
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John
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Here I go again
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It takes courage for me to put my very first post here. What do I have more of, fear or anger? Fear, I think. Well, hubris kicks me, too. Give me one good reason to stay sober another day. I am 3 years 8 months out with only 3 slip ups. Who am I fooling. Just myself I guess. Advice?
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Elizabeth007
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sobriety birthday
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my first meeting was when i was 15.i went to my 2nd rehab at 22.after getting out and drinking within a week i decided i woulnt step foot into AA again until i hit my bottom and was absolutly desparate it took me 10yrs.old timers told me when i was 15 to go hit my bottom&they would save a seat for me. ...
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natalie
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uncharted territory
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Just under 60 days and I keep hearing" if I put half the energy into recovery as I did into drinking...". I have been in and out since 1996. The mix up in my head is that people tell me to slow down. So I take it that to put half the energy that I did drinking may mean learning to let go because I am powe...
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David W
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God Calling ~ Empty yourself
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"Rely on Me alone. Pay all out in the spirit of trust that more will come to meet your supply. Empty your vessel quickly to ensure a divine supply. So much retained by you, so much the less will be gained from Me. It is a law of divine supply. To hold back, to retain, implies a fear of the future, a wan...
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gladlee
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Very Similar, Marathoning and Recovery
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We train hard daily(stay in the solution.We stay fit and trim...(our spiritual connection) We've done all we can(its all in our Higher Power's hands now). We ensure we don't go out to fast early(plan for tomorrow but not at the wasted expense of today).We feel the elation of hard work and training at...
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God Calling ~ All is well
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"My keeping power is never at fault, but only your realization of it. Not whether I can provide a shelter from the storm, but your failure to be sure of the security of that shelter. Every fear, every doubt, is a crime against My love. Oh! Trust. Practice daily, many times a day, saying, "A...
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gladlee
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Happy Bellybutton Birthday, SUSIE!!! X
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I won't say a lady's age ;) Wishing you a Beautiful Day of Sobriety, Joyful Love & many gifts a blessed! Sending you fellowship love all the way from Liverpool. God love you, Danielle x -- Edited by Sobrietyspell on Thursday 4th of August 2011 06:58:38 AM
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Where do I belong???
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This is the question I have been asking myself since my home group meeting last night. It is chaired by one of the strongest and most passionate members of our local AA community. He shared that one of the things he was taught is that not everyone who attends AA meetings belongs there, that there are so...
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faintly fermented fruit salads
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So we're having an unseasonably hot spell over here. I bought three boxes of fruit salad on Monday. today is wednesday. I kept them in the fridge. Monday was fine, tuesday was fine but today, the sealed plastic carton with the plastic film lid had swollen up. Thought nowt about it. So I ate the fruit sal...
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Precautious or dealing with self doubt???
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Hi!! I am an alcoholic and newly sober... 72 days and feel great. I have drank hard core for 10 years and just came to the point where I wanted more from life. My question is I find myself preparing myself before something stressful ie long shift, argument with my husband ect by for wanting to escape to the...
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here's a first for me.
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I've been attending another fellowship for the past 3 months or so. Generally 4 to 6 attendees. Tonight I have the keys for the venue, someone else committed to conducting the meeting, another committed to refreshments, another committed to trreasurer. One guy was on Holiday. Arrive at 18:30 hours...
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bikerbill
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Sober looking in
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Hi All, Today marks 16 days of sobriety! I'm still hanging on! I'd like to share something I went through this weekend. My family came into town, along with my "crazy ass" cousins - these are the cousins I party with, and I mean drink-until-you-can't-get-up party. I knew it was going to be t...
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God Calling ~ Hour of Need
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"I am your healer, your joy, your Lord. You bid Me, your Lord, come. Did you not know that I am here? With noiseless footfall I draw near to you. Your hour of need is the moment of My coming. Could you know My love, could you measure My longing to help, you would know that I need no agonized pleading....
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gladlee
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The Anger
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Thanks to everyone for all the support. My prayer for today. Take a deep breath, move forward, although not forget. Turn my will and my life over to my higher power to guide me in my thinking, my words and my actions. For in his hands my life is far greater place to be.
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gmk
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Daily Reflections ~ Seeds of Faith & 24hrs a Day
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Faith, to be sure, is necessary, but faith alone can avail nothing. We can have faith, yet keep God out of our lives. Twelve Steps & Twelve Traditions, p. 34 As a child I constantly questioned the existence of God. To a "scientific thinker" like me, no answer could withstand a thorough d...
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Being convinced!
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I am about 50 days new....AGAIN! I have been staying in halfway houses for three years and put together a year then out for two weeks. Then 9 months and out again for a week. Anyway, I have been at one this last 50 days and was asked if I wanted to move to a nice house as a roommate. The guy is 23 years sober and I t...
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David W
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First Post
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Hello Everybody... This is my first time ever reaching out for support in any sort of way. I have realized after multiple nights in the recent past that I need to stop drinking. I suppose I will give a bit of a background... I am 26 years old and just got married last year to a woman I absolutely love. I have b...
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blackrose
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A simpler life....
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Morning and blessings of this day! Last evening I was asked last minute by the chair of our homegroup if I could open the meeting and chair for her until she got there(never really did). Always an honor to make sure doors get opened and our primary purpose can be served and the point being,though it was v...
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mikef
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God Calling ~ Harvest
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"I love to pour My blessings down in rich measure. But as with the seed-sowing, the ground must be prepared before the seed is dropped in. Yours to prepare the soil - Mine to drop the seed-blessing into the prepared soil. Together we share in, and joy in, the harvest. Spend more time in soil-prepa...
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gladlee
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God Calling ~ Give Every Moment
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"How dear to my heart is the cry of love that asks for all of Me, that wishes every action, thought, word and moment to be Mine. Above all I desire true, warm, childlike love, the trusting understanding love, and then the gift I prize next is the gift of the moments, of all the moments. The little thi...
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gladlee
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The Anger
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Please forgive me for my wrongs the past 24 hours, I slipped right back into the anger and I know with all my heart it hurts me more than anyone. I cannot imagine being on the receiving end of my anger. Although it is something I need to look at and perhaps it will help me to find the tools to keep the rage fro...
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gmk
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What a Ride
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Having survived the crash, there are times that I look back and am so puzzled as to why I thought I was having such a great ride. And yet, until running off the rails that last time, there were some awesome journeys, with much good stuff woven in. I think there is real danger in losing perspective and bala...
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leeu
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Help wanted...
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Hello and thanks to those reading this. At this point, I feel I need to get some things off my chest and hopefully find support. I am new to this so please bear with me. I suppose I should start with my story. I am 23 years old. I started drinking when I was about 18. At the time, I felt like I had control...
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I have an amends question
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I am an alanon, and I have an AA friend. She raised 2 boys when she was drinking heavily, and did not do a good job, was barely there. Now she is making amends to them by adopting a child and is going to do her best to raise this child like she wishes she had raised her sons. She says this is her amends. This someh...
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Cult??? :lol:
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I always laugh when someone refers to 12 step programs like AA as a cult. Those of us on the inside know nothing is further from the truth. A Cult requires a leader and if there's a leader in the 12 step world I've yet to meet them. But then I got to thinking on how I perceived the 12 step world before I got invo...
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Returning to meetings - need help with crosstalk, etc.
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Hi. I'm Mary and I'm an alcoholic. I've been "sober" since 2000, but had stopped going to meetings until last night, not so much because I thought I could do it on my own, but that I moved across the country and kept letting other things become "more important" than finding a new...
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how things change!
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First, Happy Yorkshire day to you all:- Yorkshire Day is celebrated on 1 August to promote the historic English county of Yorkshire. It was celebrated in 1975, by the Yorkshire Ridings Society, initially in Beverley, as "protest movement against the Local Government re-organisation of 197...
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What's wrong with me?
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If I had to nail it down to one reason why I drink I'd have to say because I'm like a raw nerve ending that can be easily become emotionally overwhelmed by the world around me. Sometimes by the pain and sadness I see, sometimes by childlike giddiness and over-excitement...often just by the pressure and w...
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God Calling ~ Gratitude
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"Give Me the gift of a brave and thankful heart. When life seems hard and troubles crowd, then very definitely look for causes for thankfulness. The sacrifice, the offering of thanksgiving, is indeed a sweet incense going up to Me through the busy day. Seek diligently for something to be glad an...
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Being gratefully held to a
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9th step lesson. During the drinking years I was in a foreign country with a culture not my own and I trampled all over some of their cultures. I was running on my own ego and will and in the process hurt and used others without any consideration to outcomes for them and of course for me. What I did involv...
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They Done Me Wrong
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Hi All, I have read a couple of"they done me wrong" posts and followed the responses with interest. Some replies have been empathetic while one or two others have been absolutely direct and to the point, spelling out exactly how the program will work for you in this situation. On balance, a...
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Sunday morning comin' down -- Rhodes Scholar Mr Kris Kristoffersen
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If his classic isn't an accurate yet beautiful description of the "what it was like" part, I don't know what is. Brings a bit of mist to my eye. We've been there -- and so has he. I can not only feel but also *remember* what he's talking about. [video=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RxpTZY...
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SoberSteve's NEW 90 in 90 thread...
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Please welcome me back, the only requirement for membership is a desire to stop drinking. I will have 3 days tomorrow (July 23rd) Been to 2 meetings in 2 days. 1st was a mens meeting todays was a small meeting. Sharing my honest story with them. I dont know why I keep going back out. Ended up blackin...
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I Did My 90/90 At 12 Years Sober
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Barisax -- Edited by barisax on Thursday 28th of July 2011 12:55:11 AM
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Gotta tell on myself
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lol, had a great one at my evening meeting just now. Lots of very long shares, including those of the 5 minute "I'm x days back in and have really got it nailed this time, this program really works" variety. Felt pretty pissed off at points and felt like walking out. Thankfully I didn't. I real...
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SteveP
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Nothing So Bad That a Drink Won't Make It Worse
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My sponsor used to tell me that line a lot, and I've even used it myself a few times. I've been through three all-new, never-before-experienced health issues in the past 11 months. In addition to being grateful for having insurance as well as a very caring and loving wife, I'm just all the more gratefu...
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The Journeying
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Someone on here told me one time, when I was bleating about living alone and how I don't enjoy it, that people tend to enjoy what they're good at so get good at living alone. Spurred me on. To change my feelings I need to change the way I view things. Look for the positives. There is no one else in my household...
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