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Yep, still an alcoholic.
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I sit down to write here on this AA forum, and really, I have nothing much to say. But I made a personal commitment to myself that during this 90x90 day period, I would also post here each day. Partly because the writing is healing. Partly so I can peek back at myself... laugh at myself... learn from mys...
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The neverending story
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I swore off drinking October 13th, 2010 and did pretty well for a while. I know I can't drink, my parents are alcoholics and I have absolutely no control once that first drink gets me drunk. I've always been pretty functional--I've never been in legal trouble or lost a job over it, however, I've lost fr...
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Settling in!
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Morning and blessings of the day from our new digs in Pomano Beach Florida!Welcome to all,newcomers,those just coming around or just coming back and those who continue to apply Our solution the Steps applied in our lives and guided by THAT Power greater than ourselves.I am working toward seeking a d...
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Your opinion?
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"when the teacher is ready, the student will come"
True? False? Something in between?
And no, I'm not trying to sponsor some one with only (I'm guessing) a month clean.
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Daily Reflections ~ We Forgive & 24hrs a Day
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Often it was while working on this Step with our sponsors or spiritual advisers that we first felt truly able to forgive others, no matter how deeply we felt they had wronged us. Our moral inventory had persuaded us that all-round forgiveness was desirable, but it was only when we resolutely tackled S...
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Alcoholism Doesn't Take Vacations
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Vacation time is almost here. I have 17 days off. Someone asked me where I planned to go on my time off. I said more meetings. I actually planned my time off so I could take in some of the one-year anniversary meetings of a few of my clients. And I noticed that the service weekend for my province falls around...
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Grace
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12054. XXXIII Not all the way well. Way better than I was. Must be Grace. Toad
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New Here
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I just wanted to say hi, I'll share more about my self later but just thought I should make myself known
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How 'Bout a Little 'Redneck' Joke ???
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Subject: US Redneck Special Forces (USRSF). The Pentagon announced today the formation of a new 500-man elite fighting unit called the US Redneck Special Forces (USRSF). These southern boys will be dropped in Afghanistan knowing only these facts about terrorists. 1.The season opened today.2....
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The old me.
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I bee bopped around town with my Dad and kids today. Went to some yard sales and ate at Famous Daves. My Dad and I can talk about the fact that I'm in AA, even though he has been anti AA, and slammed it my whole life. He still ordered a PBR with lunch, and spoke of beer sales going at the local store. He admit...
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How long?
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How long do you believe it took before you felt you could move forward after your third step?
I'm not comfortable moving forward yet. I only started actually working a program last week. And yesterday I had this epiphany, like understading the "I can't, he can, let him". I understood tha...
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service speakers
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i am looking for a good past delegate/service speaker for our symposium in minnesota. email me if you know one. lorricole@windomnet.com
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The thinking of others.
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Today I was thining of my early day and how my thoughts were always about me, myself and I. I remeber my first sponsor saying to me that when I stop thinking about myself and more about others I will be getting it !!! :} And she told me to read pages 62/68. What, me selfish ( Wow ) Ouch....Yep she was a teller bl...
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The St. Francis Prayer.
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My sister killed herself, she took her own life. She had a 12 step program in her life but was unable to grasp it tight, as I do today. She asked that this be sung and read out when they layed her to rest. Today I live with her in my heart and she walks beside me with my God every step of my every day. She is at pea...
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God Calling - Pray and Praise
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"Never weary in prayer. When one day man sees how marvelously his prayer has been answered, then he will deeply regret that he prayed so little. Pray until you almost cease to pray, because trust has become so rocklike, and then pray on because it has become so much a habit that you cannot resist i...
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God Calling - First the Spiritual
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"You would think the material things first and then grow into the knowledge of spiritual things. Not so in My kingdom. It is spiritual things first and then material. So to attain the material, redouble your efforts to acquire the spiritual." 365 One-Minute Meditations from God Ca...
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Where am I going to find these people. ?
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You are going to find new found friends in the rooms ot Alcoholics Anonymouse. They will help you if you are willing to help yourself and hold in your hands and hearts all of what AA has to offer.Chapter 11A VISION FOR YOUFOR MOST normal folks, drinking means conviviality, companionship and colorful i...
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Such a man would be crazy, wouldn't he ?.
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Chapter 3. Most of us have been unwilling to admit we were real alcoholics. I am happy today to say that I AM..And I am proud of all my work too.Taken from the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, page 37 The Jay-Walker Parable Reworded for Alcohol.Our behavior is as absurd and incomprehensible with res...
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I must, we must, others must, and more must..
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Yep I must,you must and they must. If not we have no AA to. I must do AA merting because if not I will drink again and die. So if you are an alcoholic like me,you must :} The 82 "Musts" Found In Alcoholics Anonymous 3rd. Edition. THE DOCTOR'S OPINION 1. As part of his rehabilitation he commen...
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Meetings.
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I thank everyone who keep coming back to meetings,pulling up a chair and keeping the meetings going for the newcomers. I have choices to day and I choose to make all of AA a big part of my life. I need to for without AA I would die... Meetings "Sobriety and a plan for living that produces a personalit...
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Daily Reflections ~ It's OK To Be Me & 24hrs a Day
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Time after time newcomers have tried to keep to themselves certain facts about their lives. . . . they have turned to easier methods. . . . But they had not learned enough humility. . . . ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, pp. 72-73 Humility sounds so much like humiliation, but it really is the ability to look at my...
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The Promises (all of them)
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The promises of Recovery are not just those found after Step 9. The promises of Recovery are found all through the Big Book. Here are some of them... each of us will find many more that are special to us if we take the time to read the Big Book with an open heart and mind. The Promises[PROMISES OF STEP TW...
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Daily Reflections ~ ... And Forgive & 24hrs a Day
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Under very trying conditions I have had, again and again, to forgive others also myself. AS BILL SEES IT, p. 268 Forgiveness of self and forgiveness of others are just two currents in the same river, both hindered or shut off completely by the dam of resentment. Once that dam is lifted, both currents...
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Today's thought from Hazelden is:
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The process rather than the product is primary in caring, for it is only in the present that I can attend to the other. --Milton Mayeroff The moment that captures us now is all we have for certain. We can dream endlessly about next week and next year but there are no guarantees. Thus, it is important to car...
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Todays thoughts
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Today's thought from Hazelden is: To err is human; to blame it on the other guy is even more human. --Bob Goddard We are on a path that leads us to become better people with greater insight and stronger character. A central theme on this path is learning to take responsibility for ourselves, our mistake...
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Hiding
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Today I stayed home instead of attending the Mothers day picnic with my husband's family. I am too ashamed to face them. I talked about it in the morning meeting. It's eating at me, and I feel like I will never be able to face them, and it will come between Zach and I some day. When Zach told my family and...
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Where to begin
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Having failed miserably thus far in AA, and having gone back to my old way during the last month or so, I have now dug myself a whole deeper than the one I originally had. Talk about hitting bottom... here it is. It feels like I will die. I don't know where to turn, I've burned every bridge with my husband...
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The Promises of AA. Page 83 Big Book.
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When I first heard the promises I wanted what you all had. I was in a terrible state but heard the promises and yes wanted to be like all the ones who had been around a while and understood how to find these promises and how to ket them too. ~~The Twelve Promises~~ We are going to know a new freedom and a new...
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Mothers Day Lunch - vent
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My Mum yelled at my sister and I before we were to go to lunch today. We're both in our 40's. She lost patience and yelled. My sister hadn't heard her do it for years. I've heard her quite often over the years. She doesn't bother to try to hide it from myself or my children. What a lovely way to start a Mo...
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I picked up...and things got bad...very bad.
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I did what I always do, started to feel better, convinced myself that I was fine and blowing my drinking issues out of proportion...and went out and got smashed.
Well I won't bore you with the details but something horribly stupid happened and now I could lose everything I've got.
I'm angry and dis...
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Confession/question
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I work with people who take rx drugs. Today I stole six pills. I took them home. Today I saw my sponsor (who's alcoholism is specific to alcohol, where mine is more drugs with a side of alcohol). I handed her my pills. And admitted that I have a problem with stealing.
At first, it seemed as if it never occu...
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Doing Fifth Step Tomorrow Morning
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And I am nervous, anxious and scared. My "other human being" is a Minister and licensed attorney. I will be paying him $1 for his legal fees to insure client confidentiality. He is a friend...so far. When he's done listening to my littany of resentments, fears and wrongs I pray he will...
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Wow, life happens fast in the AA rooms
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I've only been in meetings for a month--going to one or two a day. To watch the miracles and the tragedies happen so fast... Wow. I'm overwhelmed by the intensity in the rooms. So, I keep going back because I know I can be the miracle if I stay or the tragedy if I don't. I sort of feel like I've been awaken to r...
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My latest Recovery Video
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Hello All I made this video last week. I LOVE the song and it just hit me to put this together. I'm going to use it to introduce the Non-Profit Recovery Center I am filing papers for with the State and Feds. PLEASE FEEL FREE, please do, share this with outher. I w...
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Broken
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My son got the cast off his arm yesterday. 6 weeks already? I had just gotten sober when he broke it. I was so grateful to be sober on that day... only days in. I could have been wasted, unable to care for him, drive him to the ER, or possibly even remember it happening. I could have been passed out on the...
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MICYPAA
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Big MICYPAA conference in Halifax this weekend. That's the Maritime International Conference of Young People in AA. Thankfully, they allow not only young people but also those who are young at heart. That would be us. Any reason for fellowship is a good reason. The theme this year is Happy Joyous And...
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Urgent questions from "Newbie" attending daily meetings but still drinking.
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Hi there - First of all, thank you SO much for reading this! If you want to skip this part and go straight to my question, I'm okay with that Please just note that I am at day 10 of my daily meetings. Thanks! Otherwise, hi, I'm Laney and just as an FYI, I originally posted my background as to why I'm h...
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7 months today and a question..
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Hi all, got 7 months today :) I am very grateful but I find myself thinking about drinking lately, now I know I wont and I call my sponsor or get to a meeting right after the thought but I was wondering if anyone else had similar feelings around this "stage" of sobriety. Thanks again! Off to th...
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365 and Just For Today
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Yesterday marked one year since I have taken a drink. It still seems amazing to me that I have found a program that has shown me how that is possible after so very many years of crashing and burning while trying to do it my way. I am filled with joy knowing a Higher Power is in control now and that I am developi...
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You win
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I went to a meeting. This dude says to me are you new? I say no, I'm here to get a sponsor. Dude says, raise your hand. Say that. I ask him, even if it's irrelavent to the topic? Dude says yes. I raise my hand. I'm gonna need a sponsor, thanks. And three chicks came up to me all at once. I thought I was gonna have a p...
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Daily Reflections ~ A New Sense of Belonging & 24hrs a Day
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Until we had talked with complete candor of our conflicts, and had listened to someone else do the same thing, we still didnt belong. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 57 After four years in A.A. I was able to discover the freedom from the burden of buried emotions that had caused me so much pain. Wi...
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What can I do?
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I walked out an a meeting tonight. I had to wait in the parking lot for the girl I picked up to come out, and I just really wanted to leave. I can't talk about the suicide very easily, and people who are just trying to help, carry on about it longer than what I can handle. I went to another meeting the next hou...
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High class Problems.
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I have just this moment boiled my pot of potatoes dry..Oh Shit ! Dinner.lol This just reminded me of someone saying at a meeting that today I suffer with high class problems. How TRUE is that. My higher power has never let me down. We have been pennyless and poor. We have lost much along the way. We have bot...
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Not an A, but love visiting your side often
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I just wanted to introduce myself and say thank you all for sharing here. I am usually on the Al Anon side and I guess I could be on the ACOA side, too, but I like coming over here and reading all the positive shares here. I learn something from both sides of addiction and I am so thankful that you all are her...
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Quick question...
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...what is the difference between a dry drunk and a dry alcoholic? It was brought up in the meeting I went to last night and kind of got me confused. Is it related to a problem drinker, or just a drunk? I've gathered that it's all about attitude and how they react without alcohol, but is there any specifics...
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A Prayer for you.
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I pray that I may do thy will today. I pray that none of my AA friends will relapse today. I pray that you may give my AA friends joy in their hearts today. I pray that any difficulty we may experience, will not be beyond our endurance, today. To any who may be nursing a resentment, leave everything you are do...
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But for the grace of God
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The other day, I had a funny, sad, tragic reminder of where untreated alcoholism takes us. A fellow at my home group told me that he was outside smoking after the meeting and some guy who'd been at the meeting asked him if he had any pot. When being told no, he then asked my chum for some cash to buy some beer a...
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The Professor and the paradoxes.
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I was just reading this and wanted to share it with you.THE PROFESSOR AND THE PARADOX(From pages 336 - 342 of the Second Edition of the Big Book, Alcoholics Anonymous) Says he, We A.A.s surrender to win; we give away to keep; we suffer to get well, and we die to live. I am in the public information business...
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A quote
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Do not dwell on those who let you down. Cherish those who hold you up. Good night all - you'll be in my prayers : )
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Apparently the universe does not revolve around me...
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I thought it did. And I was doing everything in MY power to keep the stars and the galaxies orbiting around me. Amazing what happens when I give my HP the power and let my HP control the movement of the cosmos. Things get a little easier. Hmmm... imagine that.
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