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I need to slam on the BRAKES!
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I swear, I get going through the week, and then the weekend comes, and I keep going all weekend long, making messes and cleaning them up... running to and fro, losing my freAking mind. I am only 4 months past my last drunken episode, and I need to slam on the brakes.... this is how I get, I am a slug for months...
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24 Hrs a Day ~ 12th April 08
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A.A. Thought for the Day ~ This sober world is a pleasant place for an alcoholic to live in. Once you've got out of your alcoholic fog, you find that the world looks good. You find real friends in A.A. You get a job. You feel good in the morning. You eat a good breakfast and you do a good day's work at home or out...
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nervous, but hopeful
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This is my first time on a website like this. I've never talked about my problem with drinking before. I kinda felt like if you don't admit it, it's not a problem, I'm just "having a good time." I've realized that I'm killing myself and ruining my life, I'm 24 yrs old and I drink to the point of bl...
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Letting Go of Fear
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Picture yourself swimming floating - peacefully down a gentle stream. All you need to do is breathe, relax, and go with the flow.
Suddenly, you become conscious of your situation. Frightened, overwhelmed with "what if's?" your body tenses. You begin to thrash around, frantically lo...
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AA meetings
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Is it ok to call my higher power Jesus, and is it wrong to ask if I could pray for a meeting at a meeting.
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odd
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Is it live, or is it memorex? My cable went out tonight, and I thought- why bother calling them- spend the night without TV. My thoughts rambled thru my day, pleasantly; and then I remembered having gone to the A&P this afternoon- a woman hollered at me for having nicked the door of her c...
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Lifting the guilt
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April 11, 2008 Lifting the Guilt For weeks I sat in the back of the rooms, silent when others shared their experience, strength and hope. I listened to their stories and found so many areas where we overlapped -- not all of the deeds, but the feelings of remorse and hopelessness. I learned that alcoholi...
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music/spirituality
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Needing a calm place is essential to my sobriety. I have issues with god, and I often listened to depressing music when I was drinking. If anyone needs a musical lift- find Carrie Newcomber's CD "A Gathering of Spirits." It is smart, haunting and comforting. Really.
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Introduction
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I just found this site and registered....I've been on another site but really looking for a site focused on the BB and 12 steps. My name is Lisa, and I am an alcoholic.
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HUD inspector came by
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What a joke that was. In and out in less that 30 seconds. The HUD inspector was a lady and she was more interested in makeing sure all the light switches worked, that the stove and refridgerator worked. I do not see how she could have took time to inspect my house keeping skills.
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Last night
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Last night was my first time meeting with my sponsor, supposedly to start working on the steps. As I drove there, I felt more and more anxious, then mad, then scared and sad. I started to cry. I didn't want to go. I sat in my car outside of her house for a while. It was like I was physically unable to move...
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24 Hrs a Day ~ 11th April 08
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A.A. Thought for the Day ~ In that alcoholic world, one drink always leads to another and you can't stop till you're paralyzed. And the next morning it begins all over again. You eventually land in a hospital or jail. You lose you job. Your home is broken up. You're always in a mess. You're on the merry-go...
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Financial Goals
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Taking responsibility for our financial affairs will improve our self-esteem and lessen anxiety.
Each of us, today, has a present set of financial circumstances. We have a certain amount of money in hand, and money due to us. We have a pile of bills that we owe. We have taxes to pay. Those are our pres...
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24Hrs a Day ~ 10th April 08
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A.A. Thought for the Day ~ When I came into A.A., I came into a new world. A sober world. A world of sobriety, peace, serenity, and happiness. But I know that if I take just one drink, I'll go right back into that old world. That alcoholic world. That world of drunkenness, conflict, and misery. That alcoho...
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A new relationship
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Happy Sober Day, my dear Sobervibers. I thought I'd share something of my news with you. As of last Thursday I am taking a relationship with someone I've known in fellowship since he came in around 8mths ago. He's been in active in his addictions for years, hyper & reckless & was on his way to a...
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Just checking in
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Hey all Just wanted to check, I've been working study and well needless to say it tires one out. I keep with active aa people as much as possible, sometimes that's hard too. My son starts work on Monday coming, and I tell ya...... It's been a rough go of it, I felt myself having to walk away and let go and l...
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New Information on the Optic Nerve
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Medical news ------------------------------------ Bet you didn't know this: Did you know that in the human body there is a nerve that connects the eyeball to the anus? It's called the Anal Optic Nerve, and it is responsible for giving people a shitty outlook on life. If you don't believe it, pull a ha...
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Using Others to Stop Our Pain
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Our happiness is not a present someone else holds in his or her hands. Our well-being is not held by another to be given or withheld at whim. If we reach out and try to force someone to give us what we believe he or she holds, we will be disappointed. We will discover that it is an illusion. The person didn't h...
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All my mopping and cleaning paid off
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Just went through inspection and I passed
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scared
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I missed my favorite meeting today, a noon meeting near my office. Haven't been to a meeting in a few days now. Tonight I meet with my sponsor to start "doing the steps." I'm irrationally scared. Of what? Of myself I guess. Will I be capable of being honest? If I am, can I handle all the b...
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forgetfulness
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It ocurrs to me that when I was drinking there are so many small, yet rich experiences I lost out on. Like the 1st cup of coffee in the morning, which I am currently enjoying . We live in such a fast paced society that we have lost ways of healthy winding down in the evening, and pleasant ways to negotiat...
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Just checkin in
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Just wanted to share some gratitude for where I am today in recovery. As you may recall, I relapsed three weeks before my 18th sobriety birthday (although the "set up" was a year prior when I got "too busy" and stopped going to meetings). I spent a lot of the first year back just t...
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Step One Questions
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Step One. We admitted we were powerless over alcohol & that our lives had become unmanageable. The Disease of Alcoholism What does my alcoholism mean to me? Has my disease been active recently, if so how? What is it like when Im obsessed with something? Does my thinking follow a certain patte...
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Giving
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Learning to be a healthy giver can be a challenge. Many of us got caught up in compulsive giving - charitable acts motivated by uncharitable feelings of guilt, shame, obligations, pity, and moral superiority.
We now understand that catering and compulsive giving don't work. They backfire.
Ca...
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The promises do come true...
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The one promise that has evaded me over the years has been the fear of economic security. Raising two girls on my own, in a small Kansas town of 3000, has been tough. One of the ongoing consequences of my alcoholism was the fact I walked away from a chance at a nursing degree, with an academic scholarship i...
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Is there a difference?
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I am wondering if all addictions are the same, chemical or not. My husband is addicted to an A woman and it seems to be all consuming. At work there are complaints that he spends "hours" in the bathroom - he is busy texting his g/f. I've seen the bills and they must text back and forth 30 times a...
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coming back
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hello. i thougth i would introduce myself, i just signed up on this forum. My name is Sarah, and I have 27 days sober. I have a sponsor, a homegroup, and i have been making meetings. My sponsor is taking me through the bigbook, and i just re read bills story. i have had time before (1 yr then relapsed. 1 1/2...
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24Hrs a Day ~ 9th April 08
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A.A. Thought for the Day ~ Third, alcoholics recover their proper relationships with other people. They think less about themselves and more about others. They try to help other alcoholics. They make new friends so that they're no longer lonely. They try to live a life of service instead of selfishn...
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Imagine My Surprise...
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Amongst all the bills and crap in the mail yesterday.... an envelope from my counsellor. Have not seen him in a few months. First thought, "There's Anthem Blue Cross and Blue Shield again, denying coverage..." Not so. I opened the envelope and I have a $5 credit, which I overpaid out of pock...
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Thank You All.
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I have to thank all who come here, and post. I learn something from every post. It might be strength, focus,love, or direction, every post helps in some way. THANK'S.
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Just Sharing
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Hi Everyone,
Danielle mentioned, in a post yesterday, that I hadn't started a thread with a share recently. So, here I am and thanks for the nudge Danielle.
I hurt my neck in January, shortly after I got back from visiting my parents, and it's still painful and troublesome at times. It looks as if it...
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Follow up on I have a problem brewing
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I just got through sweeping and mopping my floors, again. I could not believe how much dirt my dust mop picked up and then I wet mopped and I could not believe how much dirt was in the water. I guess some of it was dirt I missed the first time and some of it is dirt that has accumulated since I mopped last time...
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Are YOU Alcoholic ~ only YOU can decide
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To answer this question ask yourself the following questions and answer them as honesty as you can.Is drinking making your home life unhappy? Does your drinking make you careless of your familys welfare? Do you drink because you are shy with other people? Is drinking affecting your reputation? Do y...
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24Hrs a Day ~ 7th April 08
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A.A. Thought for the Day ~ In A.A. alcoholics find a way to solve their personality problems. They do this by recovering three things. First, they recover their personal integrity. They pull themselves together. They get honest with themselves and with other people. They face themselves and their...
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I have a problem.
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I have not been an assertive person in the past, and I am learning to be more assertive. I found a neat part time job milking, and feeding sheep. Sheep cheese is a big thing here. Well I got myself into a situation that I fixed a few things that were broken, and now they want me to do more maintenance for t...
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Self Care
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I don't precisely know what you need to do to take care of yourself. But I know you can figure it out. -- Beyond Codependency
Rest when you're tired.
Take a drink of cold water when you're thirsty.
Call a friend when you're lonely.
Ask God to help when you feel overwhelmed.
Many of us have learn...
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Eastcoast Scott
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Well, not to embarrass anyone but just wanted to shout out a great big HELLO and WE MISS YOU SCOTT!!!!!! I hope all is well and that springtime is bringing you the sunshine you've been craving!!! Stop by and say hello!!!!! Lani
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lani
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24Hrs a Day ~ 8th April 08
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A.A. Thought for the Day ~ Second, alcoholics recover their faith in a Power greater than themselves. They admit that they're helpless by themselves and they call on that Higher Power for help. They surrender their lives to God, as they understand Him. They put their drink problem in God's hands and l...
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I have a problem brewing
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My apartment manager recently did an inspection of my apartment. I have to admit my apartment was dirty, somewhat, I was in the process of cleaning when my apartment manager came in. What needed to be done was that the floors needed mopping and the frig needed some cleaning. The apartment manager s...
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The gift
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The Gift By accepting this sobriety gratefully, as a gift, and using it willingly, I have become aware of other gifts available to me as a human being. To get the benefits, I need only to ask and then use. This is the crux of the program and the crux of living: acceptance and action. The gift of understandi...
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lani
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Those Old Time Feelings
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I still have bad days. But that's okay. I used to have bad years. -- Anonymous
Sometimes, the old feelings creep back in. We may feel fearful, ashamed, and hopeless. We may feel not good enough, unlovable, victimized, helpless, and resentful about it all. This is codependency, a condition some des...
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Meetings?
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Hey I'm on the chat and no one is showing up i went on at 8 and no one was there so now im on at 9....?
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sad
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I find it sad that after a year, I still really want to drink. Maybe I am grieving. There are currently no stressors in my life, things are really good. Friends, family- all healthy and happy. I really liked going to sleep drunk. I feel ashamed about that so it's important that I say it. A good test f...
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peaceful
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today was a day of gratitude for me- the weather was gorgeous- I planted a rosebush (guaranteed not to fail- right.....) but I planted it anyway, with hope. And yes, there is a metaphor there. Relentless self analysis can be counterproductive, at the risk of sounding clueless again . I chewe...
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24Hrs a Day ~ 6th April 08
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A.A. Thought for the Day ~ All alcoholics have personality problems. They drink to escape from life, to counter act feelings of loneliness or inferiority, or because of some emotional conflict within them, so that they cannot adjust themselves to life. Alcoholics cannot stop drinking unless they...
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Less is MORE, for me at least........
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What a freeing weekend this is becoming. Every spring, I do a major "Pitching Out Session" that lasts for a few weekends. Room by room, basement included, "if it is no longer useful to me, everything MUST GO". (Sounds like AA) I have been wandering the house deciding what can st...
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change
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Change In the process of change I can recognize two immensely significant steps for me. The first step I took when I admitted to myself for the first time that all my previous thinking might be wrong. The second step came when I first consciously wished to believe. As a result of this experience I am conv...
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lani
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Your First Time
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How did u feel when u started writing things about how alcohol destroyed ur life- was it easy, how long did it take? How soon after entering fellowship u actually did it- did u do it because u felt inclined, or ur sponsor said so, or u thought u will do it beacuse the program requires u to look fearlessly int...
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husband problems
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Earlier today I had the thought: everything is my husband's fault. If only it were that easy, and I didn't have to take responsibility for my actions. He's a critical guy (just like my dad -- what a surprise). I seldom hear good things about myself. Just subtle digs or outright criticism. Like, &...
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jc2008
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Denial
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Dealing with Denial in Alcoholism by Mark S. Gold, MD October 4, 2006 Denial is a characteristic distortion in thinking experienced by people with alcoholism. For decades, people who treat alcoholics, and recovering alcoholics themselves, have puzzled over why alcoholics continue to drin...
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