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The Miracle of Sobriety
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After reaching my bottom I got on my knees and asked God for guidance. The anxiety was so overwhelming. He led me to a meditation sound site on my Ipad which has changed my life. Today I am grateful to be sober and finally able to relax without the demon of alcohol.
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God Calling - Golden Opportunity
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"Man's need is God's chance to help. Man's need is God's golden opportunity for him of letting his faith find expression. That expression of faith is all that God needs to manifest His power. Faith is the key that unlocks the storehouse of God's resources. You long for perfection and see your...
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Pemeditated Resentments
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I heard that an expectation is a premeditated resentment. I am human so it doesn't matter how many books I read or how much advice I get, sometimes I still place expectations on the people in my life to do certain things, to act in certain ways, and to treat me in certain ways. And I don't tell these people t...
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Changes
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Great changes may not happen right away, but with effort even the difficult may become easy. - Bill Blackman
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Relapse Prevention-Prediction & Stuff
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Hi All, let me start this with a couple of quotes from the Big Book: p24 "We are unable, at certain times, to bring into our consciousness with sufficient force the memory of the suffering and humiliation of even a week or a month ago. We are without defense aginst the first drink." p45"...
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Fyne Spirit
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IS THERE ANYTHING WORSE THAN INSANITY OR DEATH?
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Hi All, this is a call to prayer. Today I had the privilege of attending a 12 step call in the intensive care unit of our city hospital. I was there at the request of the patient's sister who lives in another country. Her brother had a road accident just before Xmas, I don't know if he was driving or got run do...
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Alcohol, the killer, takes another one....
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MONTE SERENO, Calif. A family member says painter Thomas Kinkade battled alcoholism over the past several years and had a relapse just before his death at his home in Santa Clara County. Kinkade's brother, Patrick, tells the San Jose Mercury News that decades of attacks on Kinkade's work and a spl...
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The steps again.
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"Lack of power, that was our dilemma." I had become powerless over alcohol. Willpower did not work. The strong resolve in the morning not to drink became a weak mumble by the evening. I had succumbed to that first drink. I had been through this hundreds of times. I had already started look...
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gonee
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The Days Add Up To A Life
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I love working this one day at a time program and then seeing how those days have added up to something I couldn't have even imagined back when I was drowning myself in alcohol. Life is so FULL now! I have an awesome job in which I am trusted with a great deal of responsiblity, a healthy marriage that isn't p...
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vixen
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Ring around the rosie
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I went to my noon meeting, did my morning reading, popped on here a few times, tried to stay calm when my kids begged for this and that, again and again, pushing me to my limit, again and again. Yesterday I went to bed feeling horrible. I yelled at my kids like a monster. I could not - NOT be irritated no ma...
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justadrunk
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Last day.
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Today is my last day of having an in home daycare, and teaching piano lessons. It's hard letting go of the children that I've grown to love, but I realize it's for the best. Being home all day, and stuck here not able to leave if I wanted to, I thought was okay for me, but I realize now, as I'm becomming exci...
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justadrunk
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Balanced life
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Our 12 step book says that all human beings have 3 basic instincts- social, security and sex. All these instincts are God given for our survival and well being. When any of these instincts become abnormal, it becomes defective and a defect in character. Right now this world is becoming obsessed with m...
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gonee
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Peanuts
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I love stories. i like hearing them and I like sharing them. I was watching national geographic one day. It was about this rare breed of monkey highly prized for its pelt. But he was a clever monkey and always managed to evade the hunters. But one hunter who was very clever himself came up with an idea on ho...
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GRATITUDE
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Every day god gives me a word to work on. Today the word was gratitude. I'm at work right now which means I'm with a dozen low-bottom drunks and drug addicts, trying to keep them alive long enough so they can get clean and/or sober. I'm having a text conversation with a "person" I sponsor who ju...
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I never want to forget
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2 weeks
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I have a really hard time looking at things that are not symetrical. The dining room chairs are not pushed under the table, they're all helter skelter right now. I keep glancing over at them... forcing myself to stay put here, and not make them perfect. I want to stretch my tolerance, but it's only ma...
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The Reason Page 449 moved
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Okay I think I figured out why page 449 moved to page 417. It has to do with numerology. That's the science of numbers. You take a three or four or whatever digit number, add the individual digits together to get a more powerful number. If you add 4 +4+9 you get 17. Even if you add 1 +8 you still get a boring num...
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4/6/83
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Drank 4/1/83 through 4/3/83. Largely in a blackout, including driving w/my daughter in the car. Came to on the bathroom floor, puke in my hair, with my 10 year old asking me if she should fix us TV dinners. Hungover and too weak to drive until 4/6. Went to a meeting then, picked up a white chip....again. ...
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leeu
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Change
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I was just sitting here pondering life the universe and everything in it. Next month is me bellybutton birthday and around this time I do a lot of reflecting on the year. I worked in a recovery house for a number of years and the work is stressful. I think being in recovery is an asset in that type of work but...
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Bravery
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Standing up for myself, and asking for common decensy is something I would have never done in my past life. I did that last night, and it was amazing. It felt so unreal at the same time. As I take these baby steps forward, I sometimes feel like a person walking on stilts, but with one normal leg, and one s...
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Thanks to ALL (re: 4/6/83) no text inside-just this thanks!
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leeu
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Still havent had any
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Its been about a wk since I have posted. I'm on my 3rd week of sobriety. Had a real test, was around some people that were drinking. I stayed strong and just let the urges pass. I'm proud to say that I didn't allow myself to indulge. Hope everyone is doing well with there journey! We can all do this!
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Thumpity thump thump...
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Happy Easter all you big book thumpers! Making fresh blueberry drizzle from berries hand picked last fall, to go over my extra thick cheese cake with crust made from all those peices of animal crackers and teddy grahms that get crushed at the bottom of the bag and my kids wont eat. I'm so grateful to be s...
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justadrunk
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I'm a new comer and is 55 to late to start?
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I've been reading all you guys on topic's and haven't seen any middle age guys like myself without a 10 or 15 year pin, I do know we become hard through the years, but can this help someone like me? I do know I want a drink but for some reason I desided not too today, two days in a row now, a record for me! Been dr...
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There is a difference between giving up, and knowing when you've had enough.
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Greatful to be sober today : )
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justadrunk
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Just an update
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Hi Everyone, As several of you know from a previous writing, I was truly struggling with anxiety attacks. Well, they have subsided and I'm pretty much at normal operating tempature these days. Without a doubt it was one of the most scary things I've experienced in sobriety. Alot of the anxiety gave w...
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I'm new here......Last post wasn't posted?
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I tried posting last week, but it never appeared on the board. Maybe I'm doing it wrong? The only thing I can do consistently and well is drink lately......Especially the last 2 years. I'm recently separated from my high school sweetheart of 15 years. We've been married for 8, 9 yrs this August. We...
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Hooked on disaster?
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I was about two years into AA, and everything was falling apart. I had surrendered to the bottle and the bag, so why was everything getting worse and worse. I knew I was an alcoholic of the hopeless var...
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Who we consider ourselves to be
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There is this guy. Im going to call him Tony. He goes to meetings, sits in the back. He is in his late 40's. During breaks, he picks a newbie and rips them to shreds, in public. He claims himself a guru. Mean while, he drinks NyQuil to go to sleep at night, and is a well-known 13th stepper. The phrases he says a...
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Miracles in recovery,day at a time.
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Sitting in a BestWestern Hotel ,having a Belgian waffle and thanking my Higher Power,whom I call God for all the blesssings in my life.(there were years where I was just lookin thru the window)Spent Saturday doing my last coffee commitment for my Saturday homegroup,MEN DO RECOVER putting on a Spea...
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would like to share a good tip on meditation
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Last night at my home group, one of the women who has more time than me shared how the big book suggests we open up to our HP upon awakening and later at the end of our day. she mentioned she had a lot of fear in her life and she is able to worry herself out of peace and serenity if her mind wanders during her med...
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Don T...
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My early sponsor in Al-Anon who gave me the nudge and then the support to take off the door between the rooms of Al-Anon and AA. Great Sponsor and teacher...tireless and patient (needed tons of that stuff to keep me going back then). I know he loved me cause that had to be the tap root for his motivation...
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There But For The Grace Of God...
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An AA that I went to outpatient and a couple of meetings with took his own life yesterday. For the benefit of myself and others I shall share a bit of Patrick's tale. He had stopped going to meetings and started drinking again. The personal behaviors he displayed were self-serving and self-centered....
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God Calling - Greatness is Service
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"I am here, your waiting God, ready at your call. I am among you as One who serves, meek and holy, ready to be used and commanded. Remember that is the finest quality of greatness - service. I, who could command a universe - I await the commands of My children. Bring Me into everything. Always hu...
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The weekend.
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Zach and I walked around downtown for a good two hours, and what is there to mainly discover? Mostly bars. I wondered how it must be for Zach now, to have to spend the rest of his life with me, never stopping in for some live music, which we used to love to do. I feel bad today, that I can't just be normal. T...
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justadrunk
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one foot in front of the other
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If you keep putting one foot in front of the other, you make progress. I know that if you're going through hell, the best thing to do is keep going (winston Churchill, summer, 1942). A friend told me that when in stormy seas, turn into the weather, full speed ahead to maintain steerage and keep your bows p...
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Causes and conditions?
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In the clearcut instructions for taking the steps the book talks about getting down to causes and conditions in step 4. To me that meant gaining some insight into my personality and character and how my behaviour and attitudes were self defeating. In other words my poor spiritual condition caused me...
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Fyne Spirit
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I've been seriously trying to stay sober.
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I;m having trouble typing . To keep it short , I live with my parents. I;m 56yo. recently ,after I have been making gains in stying sober and being honest about my need for help. My religious fundamentalist sister who has never ha adrink in her life has convinced my parents who I am living with to kick me o...
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Sobering up
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Just like my first go at this 3 months ago, it's been a week, and I'm feeling better. The urge to drink creeps up a little here and there, but not like last time, as this time I know what I need to do in my own head to make it STOP THAT! The notion that maybe I don't need to go to a meeting cause I'm feeling fine, i...
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justadrunk
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Older And Wiser, or just Brain Dead
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Hi. Been away. Now I'm back. Actually I been on the Al-Anon board for a while. I'm a double agent don't ya know. Anyway, for those of you who know me I sometimes have stuff in the AA Grapevine. Not bragging just saying. Writing is something I like to do. carrying the message is also something I like to do. So...
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Wolfie55
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I feel myself unraveling
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I've been a ball of yarn for so long, and it feels soooooooooooo good to unravel as I reach out for a little help. Be okay giving someone a hug. It is truly freeing to let some of those inner secrets out, find people who will understand. It feels good to let go of trying to control everything a little. To...
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justadrunk
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180 days=6 months=Happy Easter! :)
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I got half a year today :) My life has changed a full 180, just remember if I can do it anyone can!!!! It took me 2 years of in and out of AA but I think I finally caught on to something and I am NOT going to let go :) Thank you all for your support!
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SoberSteve
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How Much Time You Got?
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I went for a walk yesterday to the corner store. I was going over some stuff in my head. I sponsor a woman who is not only an alcoholic but also a crack and hydromorphone addict. I can't really help her with that and have suggested she find an NA sponsor for that. I met her through her boyfriend who was a clien...
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Wolfie55
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I'm just that bug, clinging to the windsheild, hoping to live.
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I'm a music teacher, but I only know how to do what I do because someone told me to do it. And let this be my point: I have so much joy because I sat and listened. I accepted that if you create this random order from this chaosness, you will find something worth... well... finding. The enjoyment from a mu...
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justadrunk
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Amazing Grace
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OVpxfDgVaec&feature=related
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bikerbill
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temporary sponsor?
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hey all! I am need of a temporary sponsor to get me through until next week. I tried to find a meeting last night but could not find the location. I have another possiblity tomorrow but it may be cancelled due to a revival going on in the church. Here's the deal. I have not drank much at all in the last cou...
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30 days sober
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I am here to say I am 30days sober. I am on my 31st day today. Just when I sit and say how proud I am of myself. I have an altercation with my daughter. My daughter left the house saying she was leaving on foot. I followed her in my car while on the phone with the police to pick her up, oh and by the way did I men...
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This is my first post
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I'll try not to make this into a book ... but my emotions are all over the place right now. My history: Father was an alcoholic until the day he died, as were several other aunts and uncles on both sides of the family. My brother is an alcoholic, and obviously (since I'm here) I am an alcoholic. I never re...
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Blackpool Convention
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Just got back and how's this for a miracle or two. I move house to Scotland on 1st May. I bump into Eddie from Dumbarton, who introduces me to Kevin, who introduces me to Morgan, whose sponsor lives down the street from where I'm going to be. So now I have a whole heap of friends that I haven't met yet, I have a...
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bikerbill
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God Calling - Easter Joy
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"Let all go this Eastertide. Loosen your hold on earth, its care, its worries, even its joys. Unclasp your hands, relax, and then the tide of Easter joy will come. Put aside all thought of the future, of the past. So often man, crying out for some blessing, has yet such tight hold on some earth-t...
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