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Im just a loser.. :(
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I fucked up bad.. Im just a loser I think right now.. I stopped drinking for 7 whole daze and I know thats not a LOT of daze but, for me it Is.. but, Recently I started smoking weed with my boyfriend too get rid of the urges.. And I find myself. Wanting both even worse than, normal. And Im a fucking failure....
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Back from the Blueridge
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Just got back from my last NC trip of the year. Flew up Tuesday, finished building another deck, closed up for the winter and drove back to FL today. Pretty busy around here, no one knew that I was gone. Dean
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Seasonal Reminders....
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Just wanted to take the time to acknowledeg what a difficult time this can be for recovering alcoholics. For those of us up North, it is cold, the days are dark and very short, and it is a real chore to sometimes to muster up the energy to take care of our recovery through a meeting. In addition, the holiday...
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Daily Reflections ~ Intuition & Inspiration
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. . . . we ask God for inspiration, an intuitive thought or a decision. We relax and take it easy. We dont struggle. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 86 I invest my time in what I truly love. Step Eleven is a discipline that allows me and my Higher Power to be together, reminding me that, with Gods help, intuition a...
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24 Hrs a Day ~ 14th Nov 08
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A.A. Thought for the Day A better way than judging people is to look for all the good in them. If you look hard enough and long enough, you ought to be able to find some good in every person. In A.A. I learned that my job was to try to bring out the good, not criticize the bad. Every alcoholic is used to being jud...
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Hhmmm
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So, I like to get on here and read all of the posts and comments that others are leaving. And, I became a little confused about the higher power. I sure hope that my belief doesn't have to be the same as others to keep me sober. I do believe in a higher power. But, that higher power resides in my heart and mi...
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24 Hrs a Day ~ 13th Nov 08
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A.A. Thought for the Day Who am I to judge other people? Have I proved by my great success in life that I know all the answers? Exactly the opposite. Until I came into A.A., my life could be called a failure. I made all the mistakes one could make. I took all the wrong roads there were to take. On the basis of my...
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Daily Reflections ~ Looking Outward
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We ask especially for freedom from self-will, and are careful to make no requests for ourselves only. We may ask for ourselves, however, if others will be helped. We are careful never to pray for our own selfish ends. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 87 As an active alcoholic, I allowed selfishness to run ram...
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Walk in dry places
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Walk In Dry Places The Boredom battle Acceptance and Patience. All of us have times when we don't enjoy our sobriety as much as we feel we should. Thought we're still grateful, we sometimes feel bored and depressed. What we have to remember at such times is our bleak history of using alcohol as a quick...
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maintenance
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Walk In Dry Places The importance of maintenance. Fortitude In praising their success with AA, people sometimes overlook the importance of maintenance. AA not only helps us achieve sobriety, but it can also help us maintain our sobriety for a lifetime. Members often touch on this matter when the...
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Getting Honest
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Hello All, This is my first time posting. A little history. I used and drank for 15+ years. Went to rehab, got out, used again and then went back for a refresher and then moved into a 3/4 house for 8 months. That was 2 1/2 years ago. I am now married and have a 3 1/2 month old son. I have been "pretend...
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Taking Care of Ourselves
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We do not have to wait for others to come to our aid. We are not victims. We are not helpless.
Letting go of faulty thinking means we realize there are no knights on white horses, no magical grandmothers in the sky watching, waiting to rescue us.
Teachers may come our way, but they will not rescue. The...
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Daily Reflections ~ Morning Thoughts
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Ask Him in your morning meditation what you can do each day for the man who is still sick. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 164 For many years I pondered over Gods will for me, believing that perhaps a great destiny had been ordained for my life. After all, having been born into a specific faith, hadnt I been told...
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24 Hrs a Day ~ 12th Nov 08
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A.A. Thought for the Day I am less critical of other people, inside and outside of A.A. I used to run people down all the time. I realize now that it was because I wanted unconsciously to build myself up. I was envious of people who lived normal lives. I couldn't understand why I couldn't be like them. And s...
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Timing
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Wait until the time is right. It is self-defeating to postpone or procrastinate; it is also self-defeating to act too soon, before the time is right.
Sometimes, we panic and take action out of fear. Sometimes, we take untimely action for revenge or because we want to punish someone. We act or speak t...
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Hi guys!
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Well, tomorrow is two full months! I'm feeling pretty good. Before everyone would always say, "what are your triggers that make you want to pick up a drink?" I honestly wanted to punch them in the face. I mean, come on, my trigger was waking up in the morning! I never had specific re...
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24 Hrs a Day ~ 11th Nov 08
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A.A. Thought for the Day When I think of all who have gone before me, I realize that I am only one, not very important, person. What happens to me is not so very important after all. And A.A. has taught me to be more outgoing, to seek friendship by going at least halfway, to have a sincere desire to help. I hav...
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Daily Reflections ~ Self-Acceptance
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We know that God lovingly watches over us. We know that when we turn to Him, all will be well with us, here and hereafter. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 105 I pray for the willingness to remember that I am a child of God, a divine soul in human form, and that my most basic and urgent life-task is to ac...
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Big Book Step Study Sponsor
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Hello friends; Can anyone direct me where I can find a BB Step Study sponsor? I live in Eastern CT, been happily sober for 12 years, working the steps.....but want to delve deeper into the BB. Currently the only BB ST Study groups are in southern CT which is good distance. I am willing to have an online spo...
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Hi
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It's been awhile, but I thought I'd drop in. Got the internet back and so here I am. smile Alot of adjusting has happened and kids are doing ok, son has moved out at the end of October. Alot has made a difference since August and still out of work, but that is ok. A situation came about and well it's persona...
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Discipline
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Children need discipline to feel secure; so do adults.
Discipline means understanding there are logical consequences to our behavior. Discipline means taking responsibility for our behavior and the consequences.
Discipline means learning to wait for what we want.
Discipline means bei...
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24 Hrs a Day ~ 10th Nov 08
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A.A. Thought for the Day I am less self-centered. The world used to revolve around me at the center. I cared more about my own needs, desires and my own pleasure, my own way, myself than I did about the whole rest of the world. What happened to me was more important than anything else I could think of. I was s...
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Still Sober
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Just stopping in to say hello. I havent been here for a long time. I did pick up my 1 year chip back in June. I said I wouldnt do it, but I did. It's still hard to accept that after almost 14 years , I went out and drank. I guess I might not ever get over it. Anyway, Im glad to see the website is still up and running....
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Daily Reflections ~ A Sense of Belonging
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Perhaps one of the greatest rewards of meditation and prayer is the sense of belonging that comes to us. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 105 Thats what it is - belonging! After a session of meditation I knew that the feeling I was experiencing was a sense of belonging because I was so relaxed. I fe...
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Hi Buds... checkin in
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Thanks for all the support from you guys and gals during a very 'dark' week for me last week. Still hovering around in S.A.D. and depression, but just getting up every morning, putting my feet on the ground and trying to do the next right thing. Brush teeth, go to work, sleep..... I did get to a meeting yes...
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Coincidence? I think not!
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Hello all! I will set the scene then tell the miricle. Last month I got a new cell phone. I had to transfer all my numbers to the new one. I had lots of AA numbers of people I have no idea who they are and have never called so I left them out,,,,,all except this one. I dont know why I kept her number I just did...
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Beliefs about Money
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I was starting a new job for a corporation. I was good at what I did for a living. The personnel manager and I were down to the details of employment, and he asked me how much money I believed I deserved. I thought about it and came up with a figure of $400 a month. This was back in the sixties. I didn't want to as...
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Hi Im new to this...
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Hello everyone... I dont know Ive NEVER done this before.. I realized something last night I drink way too much. And Ive had experiences before where I ended up in the hosptial almost dying, hooked up too a breathing machine and what not. But, then... I didnt realize how bad I was. I thought hey a lot of pe...
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Daily Reflections ~ Stepping Into The Sunlight
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But first of all we shall want sunlight; nothing much can grow in the dark. Meditation is our step out into the sun. AS BILL SEES IT, p. 10 Sometimes I think I dont have time for prayer and meditation, forgetting that I always found the time to drink. It is possible to make time for anything I want to do if I wa...
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24 Hrs a Day ~ 9th Nov 08
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A.A. Thought for the Day I have learned to be less negative and more positive. I used to take a negative view of almost everything. Most people, in my estimation, were bluffing. There seemed to be very little good in the world, but lots of hypocrisy and sham. People could not be trusted. They would "...
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Accepting Love
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Many of us have worked too hard to make relationships work; sometimes those relationships didn't have a chance because the other person was unavailable or refused to participate.
To compensate for the other person's unavailability, we worked too hard. We may have done all or most of the work. Thi...
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Am I an alcoholic--please help?
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Please give me your input... I'm new to this and think I might need help, but too scared to admit it. Any help or support you could give me would be greatly appreciated. I'm so tired of beating myself up. I made a list tonight of the things that I do/think about and was hoping someone would help me deter...
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Emotional Maturity
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This is something I see at my lit commitment every week. It is my favorite piece. The mature person has developed attitudes in relation to himself and his environment which have lifted him above "childishness" in thought and behaviour. Some of the characteristics of the person who has a...
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Howdy from Central New Mexico
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Howdy do all. My name is Chewbaca and I be an Alcoholic, and new to this forum. Just glad to be around and find this forum as the AA action in my life has slowed to none due to:*Work having me stationed in very Rural locations in NM. *Current job has AA attendence be conflict of interest of sorts. A little mo...
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True to Ourselves
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This above all: to thine own self be true, and it must follow, as the night the day, thou 'canst not then be false to any man. -- William Shakespeare
To thine own self be true. A grounding statement for those of us who get caught up in the storm of needs and feelings of others.
Listen to the self. What do w...
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WHO the F does this guy think he is??????
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OK, folks! As some of you know my kid once again is in trouble with the law. He turned himself in a few weeks back. Circumstances, a lot of prayer, talking to my sponsor, an attorney and other AA's who've been through it, I bailed the kid out! A long time friend of mine (a guy), who is also in the program, wen...
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Relationships
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There is a gift for us in each relationship that comes our way.
Sometimes the gift is a behavior we're learning to acquire: detachment, self esteem, becoming confident enough to set a boundary, or owning our power in another way.
Some relationships trigger healing in us - healing from issues of t...
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Daily Reflections ~ "The Quality Of Faith"
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This. . . has to do with the quality of faith. . . . In no deep or meaningful sense had we ever taken stock of ourselves. . . . We had not even prayed rightly. We had always said, Grant me my wishes instead of Thy will be done. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p.32 God does not grant me material possessions,...
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24 Hrs a Day ~ 6th Nov 08
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A.A. Thought for the Day Fear and worry had me down. My drinking increased them. I worried about what I had done when I was drunk. I was afraid of what the consequences might be. I was afraid to face people because of the fear of being found out. Fear kept me in hot water all the time. I was a nervous wreck from...
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There Is A Solution
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Big Book Of Alcoholics Anonymous Chapter 2There Is A SolutionWe, of Alcoholics Anonymous, know thousands of men and women who were once just as hopeless as Bill. Nearly all have recovered. They have solved the drink problem. We are average Americans. All sections of this country and many of its occu...
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Enjoying Life
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Do something fun today.
If you're relaxing, let yourself relax, without guilt, without worrying about the work that is undone.
If you're with loved ones, let yourself love them, and let them love you. Let yourself feel close.
Let yourself enjoy your work, for that can be pleasurable too.
If...
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Subtle Changes
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Interesting day - odd to watch the changes in myself. I was a sit in chair for my meeting today, a first for me. I am so terrified of speaking in public, but I am learning to not be, thanks to AA. It went well. The usual secretary had not been heard from, so everyone suggested I do it. A regular came in late a...
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Daily Reflections ~ Going With The Flow
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GOING WITH THE FLOW Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understood Him. . TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 96 The first words I speak when arising in the morning are, "I arise, O God, to do Thy will." This is the shortest prayer I know and...
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24 Hrs a Day ~ 5th Nov 08
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A.A. Thought for the Day During our thoughts about the rewards that have come to us as a result of our new way of living, we find that we have new kinds of homes, new relationships with our husbands or wives and our children. Also peace, contentment, hope, faith, charity, and new ambition. What are some o...
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Keep it simple
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Keep It Simple Acceptance and faith are capable of producing 100% sobriety. --Grapevine. Acceptance and faith are the most important parts of our recovery. If we boil down Steps One And Two, we'll find acceptance and faith. Acceptance means we see the world as it is, not as we want it to be. We start to...
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Back after 20 years
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Hi - I was pushed into AA at the age of 18. Remained a member for about 5 years and then put aside. Love the attention of AA bit just chalked it up to typical teenage drinking versus the blanks others filled in. Started drinkin again 8 years ago just a glass or two late in the evenings with my husband - this...
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Let's Make a Deal
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The relationship just wasn't working out, and I wanted it to so badly. I kept thinking if I just made myself look prettier, if I just tried to be a more loving, kind person, then he would love me. I turned myself inside out to be something better, when all along, who I was was okay. I just couldn't see what I w...
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God's Will For Us
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Goodness is the natural state of this world. The world is good! Even when it seems evil, it's good. There's only goodness in God. And, that same good is in us all. You can feel it in yourself. You know when you feel good inside. Yes, you are God's child too. You are good & you are sacred. Respect yoursel...
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Anger
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Feeling angry - and, sometimes, the act of blaming - is a natural and necessary part of accepting loss and change - of grieving. We can allow ourselves and others to become angry as we move from denial toward acceptance.
As we come to terms with loss and change, we may blame our higher Power, others, or...
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Daily Reflections ~ Focusing & Listening
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There is a direct linkage among self - examination, meditation, and prayer. Taken separately, these practices can bring much relief and benefit. Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions Page 98 If I do my self - examination first, then surely, Ill have enough humility to pray and meditate - because Ill se...
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