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HAPPY, HAPPY 4th OF JULY!!!
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Hi to everyone here,
Today was a strange day. Had plans, was invited to my Son's new place, was looking forward to seeing him, and a friend, also cannot wait to see his new place.
He is an ER doc in the field of Pychiatry, and had at the last moment pitched in for another doc, who had his own family emerge...
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I have screwed up royally
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I had 4 months sober until 3 weeks ago. I've been on the worst spree of my life since then and im in a really bad place. Whats more is that the day before I decided to start drinking again, I was given the money from the donation basket and told to hold on to it and give it to the secretary at the next meeting. Wel...
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Dodsworth
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Sober drunk getting screwed over by DRUNK drunk
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Long story short, the guy across the street hit one of our cars which was parked on the street in the middle of the night Friday night, after coming home from his band's "gig". I have witnessed this guy accidentally drive all the way up onto the sidewalk trying to park late at night. And althou...
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My last drunk
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Saved these text messages... good stuff.
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Happy 4th All
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Jane05
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Panic attacks have returned.
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Just lately I have started getting sudden, severe bouts of panic again. They first started back in the 80s and, I believe, were one of the things that got me into drinking heavily. I learned at the age of 19 that if I took alcohol, or even if I just had access to it, I could keep the panic at bay. Well, the rest...
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Miracles
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Hi Everyone... Just wishing everyone a very relaxing, peaceful, and sober weekend. This weekend could be the beginning of my own miracle with my daughter. Haven't seen her in over eight years... it should be interesting to say the least. I'll also get to meet a son-in-law and two grandkids for the f...
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Dave Harm
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Hi I am new and would like to introduce and could some of you tell me how this page works and what all these icons mean
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Hi Im new my name is ebbie and its good to be here.
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Ebbie
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Down in the dumps
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Lately I have been getting this really nasty attitude when I hear someone complain. I mean, it really just pisses me off. It doesn't matter who it is, or what it's about....if it's not something worth a complaint, I get so aggravated. What's wrong with me?? I hate being like this. I hate having su...
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Has anyone been on this forum??
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Has anyone been on this forum? http://www.e-aa.org/forums/index.php The reason I ask is that it seems pretty contentious and a bit negative. I really like this forum better. I do like all the information and insight possible into our disease, so I will keep looking there, but it does get painful....
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Stupid or dumb things...
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On another thread someone made a comment about their insanity early in sobriety. And it got me chuckling about something I did. Which at the time was quite honest but not very smart... When I sobered up I was involved with family court. My ex-wife and four kids were all involved with this. I won't go...
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Dave Harm
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"the body of the alcoholic quite as abnormal as his mind..."
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Last night at the homegroup, we read the Doctor's Opinion, and it occurred to me that my body will NEVER CHANGE, so far as how it reacts with alcohol. I know, some are porbably thinking, "It took you til NOW to realize this??????" LOL But there is a passage that really went from my head to my hea...
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A New Awakening
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Hello to All!! And hoping you all are are well. Checked out a lot of the post and I couldn't reply to all the ones I wanted to. Might have been here all day. That's what I get for not checking in more often. I wanted to share something with you. Sometimes, one of the readings or mediations I read just won...
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Close Call....
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The wife and kids are off vacationing and I could not go because of work. Things were fine and then a thought popped into my head. Why not just have a rum and coke? No one will know. Almost like since no one is watching, no one will know. I quick went on to another board that I lurk on and saw a thread about...
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Love and the passive death wish
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Psychiatrists have a name for it--passive death wish. Not an actual suicidal ideation, where there is plan or intent, but that general feeling of angst and malaise where one wishes one were dead. I have a passive death wish ... just not for myself. I love life, love my sobriety. No, I have a passive d...
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Emotional Day
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It was a good day at work. I got my 2nd award for "Notably Outstanding Work" within 4 months. To which I'm still not sure what I did, but I think it has something to do with no longer showing up to work hungover and unable to be productive half the days out of the week and also no longer have a cons...
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Computer problem.....
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When I open this forum, I keep getting another window that pops up, asking to install adobe (whick is already installed). Then when I click cancel, it tells me that this is a damaged file?? Has something changed, or maybe it's just my computer???
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The POWER of the Compulsion..........
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Good Morning all...
When I was reading here this morning I was thinking of how that Power of the Compulsion to drink was still there, in my first year, laying dormant, I did not have an active compulsion.
But once in a while the Power of this Disease would feel like it had to tap me on the shoulder and ha...
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What's the funniest thing "normies" ask or say to you?
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For me, when they find out I quit drinking, it's this: "Did you quit cold turkey?"
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Off Topic: Michael Jackson
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would have won American Idol every time when he was 8 yrs old. Despite his issues in the last ten years, what a special talent and force he was for 20+ years. His death and impact is Elvis-like (in my opinion). I was talking with my friend and he said something which I think is true: Anyone who grew up with th...
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So lonely. Wish my wife would just stop drinking.
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I am reasonably sure she's an alcoholic. She drinks almost every day, goes out at least once a week, and has no clue why she can't seem to pay the rent. Just hasn't gotten a DUI yet. Unlike me, she used to be addicted to drugs as well. We've been separated for 10 months, and while I don't moralize about th...
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my inner child
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hi again , today is a weird day for me , yesterday i connected with my inner child about some painfull childhood experiences , i was driving home , it was so overwhelming , i almost couldnt drive and the pain was so immense as if i was only 5 again , i got the thought to drinkk and it consumed me, but it wasnt dri...
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Daily Reflections ~ Sacrifice Unity Survival & 24hrs a Day
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The unity, the effectiveness, and even the survival of A.A. will always depend upon our continued willingness to give up some of our personal ambitions and desires for the common safety and welfare. Just as sacrifice means survival for the individual alcoholic, so does sacrifice mean unity and sur...
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Daily Reflections ~ A Rippling Effect & 24hrs a Day
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Having learned to live so happily, wed show everyone else how. . . . Yes, we of A.A. did dream those dreams. How natural that was, since most alcoholics are bankrupt idealists. . . . So why shouldnt we share our way of life with everyone? TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 156The great discovery of s...
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Step 3
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Everything's got a moral, if only you can find it. --Lewis Carroll We must make many choices in our recovery. Some of these will strengthen our character, for they will be hard to make and sometimes even harder to accept. One of the most meaningful sayings in our program is Let go and let God. We understa...
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Writing b/c I don't want to...
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Thirty days sober today, first time in about twenty years. Things are pretty great. However, I've hit a bump. I'm pissed and continually irritated with everything since Sat. morning. I feel resistant to using all the tools in place for relief, so I'm writing this just to say it outloud. Pisssed...
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Help..
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I am becoming extremely depressed over my situation, and thoughts of suicide.... I was at a meeting the other night and the emotions were so hard to deal with. I walked out crying half way through sharing. I can't take it anymore. Lawyers fees are piling up, haven't seen my son in 7 months, and I stand to...
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The AA Birthday
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Today someone in a meeting I went to said she was 2 years old. That got me reflecting once again on my AA birthday (see "Gack!" thread for more) On the coin we receive in commemoration of our AA birthday, are the following words: "To Thine Own Self Be True" I believe those words are...
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help
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Hey this is Jeannie Haven't been on for awhile but I do check in once and again. Lots of great stuff and new comers- welcome. Let's get to it - I have a great problem with my partners sons girlfriend. It is obvious that she is using him and expects him to wait on her hand and foot. She just turns my stomach...
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Note to All@MIP
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Can I kindly remind everyone who visits & posts at MIP that in keeping with Tradition 12 we put principles before personalities.Though we cannot guarantee its privacy it is hoped that our private messaging service can be assumed to be private unless someone is receiving abuse from another...
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Gratitude for what we don't have
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Sometimes I have trouble seeing the forest through the trees. Finding gratitude in simple things is difficult at times. Someone suggested thinking about what I am grateful I don't have now after almost 9 months sober: Grateful I dont have: Dry heaves every morning Vicious hangovers Constant pai...
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pinkchip
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"Normal" isn't always healthy
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Awhile back I shared with everyone that I received a letter from my daughter. A daughter I haven't seen in eight years. We have made plans to spend the fourth of July together. At that time, I'll meet my son-in-law for the first time, as well as two grandchildren. But there is more to this story then just m...
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Dave Harm
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Getting a much needed AA renewal!!!!!!!!!
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Welp, I am done with my latest 4th Step, and ready to share with my sponsor over breakfast on Sunday. It is getting easier to take inventory, and not to attach the "poor me's" or a bunch of beating-myself-up to it. It is not nearly as long (thank God) as the first time around. But it shows me exac...
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How would you answer this ? or would you answer at all?
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I'm focusing my thoughts on things other than my terminally ill father today, it being Father's Day and all. So I started the thread on the definition of sobriety because I needed help with the below email I rec'd. I was hoping you all could shed some light for me. As I know all too well where that line o...
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Dream Theater - The 12 Step Saga
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One of my FAVORITE bands has released a grouping of songs, each from different albums, which (when put together in a certain order) form what's call "The 12 Step Saga." The songs were written by drummer Mike Portnoy, and the opening line of the first song says it all ... "Cunning, Baff...
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A couple of reflections on the "Our Father" prayer
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Some people don't like saying it and that's totally fine. Hopefully this won't turn into a discussion about whether it should ever be said at meetings or any other religious discussion... I'm not religious myself, was Agnostic for a while and even Atheist at one point, but I was raised Catholic (sti...
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Are you a Recovering Alcoholic that lives with Asthma?
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Hi To all,
Just wanted to ask, hoping that with large polulation of this site, that I might be able to communicate maybe in Private Messaging, and ask some questions I have regarding the New Asthma Medications on the market. If you have asthma, then you know that the law changed as to what these medica...
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Temptation
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So I went to a family party with my mom and dad today. There was lots of alcohol (beer and hard liquor). Some how I was able to refrain from drinking any of it. It wasn't easy.
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Daily Reflections ~ A Two-Way Street & 24hrs a Day
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If we ask, God will certainly forgive our derelictions. But in no case does He render us white as snow and keep us that way without our cooperation. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 65When I prayed, I used to omit a lot of things for which I needed to be forgiven. I thought that if I didnt mention tho...
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Do you know your Drinking pattern?
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One of the things that really helped me bust through the remainder of my denial was writing down (and memorizing) my drinking pattern of behavior, or my "MO". For me, I'd get bored or lonely, feel sorry for myself, tell myself that I deserve to have a drink (and that I could just have one or tw...
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....restore us to sanity
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When most of us come into recovery, our lives are like living in a blender. The chaos and mayhem are unbearable. Our emotions are on steroids and we can't make sense of anything. That was me anyway, so it became perfectly clear to me that my first objective was to regain my sanity. With abstinence, a clea...
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Violence
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HELP! Trying to cope. I've never been violence before (with my wife) I KNOW she is trying to use my alcoholism to justify her affair and our ulitmute divorce, (yet to come I guess) . I've never been violent. I'm about to lose it. A drink sounds great. I know it won't help. I'm ready to leave, but don'...
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Made it back home.
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I went back tonight, my first meeting in 2 years. It was a step study and this week it's step 10. Perfect. I recognized a few of the faces but nobody recognized me. I prefer it that way, I needed a low profile for this first meeting back. I hadn't been to this particular meeting in about 5 yrs. My old home grou...
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Some had asked but I cant find the thread : "Where in the BB....."
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Pg. 133, 4th edition, "The Family Afterward" : "But this does not mean that we disregard human health measures. God has abundantly supplied this world with fine doctors, psychologists, and practitioners of various kinds. Do not hesitate to take your health problems to such perso...
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Some stuff I'm uneasy about...
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My twin sister has been in and out of prison/jail for the past 25+ yrs. She is alcoholic/addict and everything that goes along with that while living on the streets. We (her family) rarely hear from her unless she is back in jail and needs money or stamps, etc. About 2 yrs. ago she applied for SSI and she is...
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Mixed emotions
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Today is father's day. A made-up day that seems to cause me to feel a variety of emotions. I have two children, my Dad died when I was 21, (39 now.) I was holding my Dad's hand in the hospital when he died...I was drunk. Every year, my kids give gifts and spend time with me. After a while, my wife and them w...
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4 days sober and really really struggling
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I was hoping someone could impart some words to help me get through this very challenging time. This is the first time I have really tried to stop drinking- I have attended meetings in the past but never stopped getting drunk. I feel that the odds are significantly stacked against me staying sober be...
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NEW
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WELL..JUST FOUND THIS TONIGHT...THE DAYS HAVE BEEN LONG AND LONELY...MY NIGHTS SLEEPLESS..KEEP THINKING THAT I'LL GET UP A NEW DAY WILL BE BETTER.....JUST MOVED TO A NEW AREA AND THERE NO MEETINGS FOR MILES....NO CAR NO FRIENDS IN THE AREA.....THE ONLY THING THAT COMES TO MIND IS ......LET GO AND LE...
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Peace
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I wanted to share what I felt this past Sunday with all of you.... I decided to re pot my peace lilies;one of which was from my grandfathers funeral(my Granny got 9 of them and wanted all the grandbabies to have one) so I brought one home and have had it here for 1 month now, I took them both outside so I coul...
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I did it again...
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I can't seem to stop. I'm a binge drinker and I've been in and out of AA for about 10 yrs. I do want badly to stay sober but every 3 or 4 months I get drunk and then I'll drink once a week for about a month. Then the whole thing starts all over again. I hate myself the day after I drink. The guilt and remorse is just t...
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