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Oh, the struggle with perfectionism!
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Today's thought from Hazelden is: I was so mixed up I tried to be perfect at avoiding perfectionism! -- Kathryn G. Oh, the struggle with perfectionism! Of all the clubs we can use to beat ourselves with, that one may be the worst. With all the "musts," "must nots," "shoulds...
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Changed my profile pic.
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Just received some pics of me on a protest ride from last Sunday, pics taken by Chippy Wood, staff photographer of Bike Magazine and an all round thoroughly nice bloke. So uploaded just the one as a profile pic. Yep, this is me doin' what I do best.
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Feeling a bit better today
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It sinks in. We did our best and it was good enough. Still toggling between being OK and crying my eyes out. Rob's baby girl looks a belter, glad I looked at the picture again. As one goes out, one more comes in. Thanks for your support, allaya.
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feeling left out
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I'am having the damnest time building relationships in A.A. and outside of it. I'am not sure if I really want any, but I know I must or I will die. That the plain truth of the matter. I very much try and strike up conversations with others in the rooms, and feel like I'am trying to hard and feel fake. No o...
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Back on line
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I traveled from Florida to New York last week via motorhome and I have been staying in a friends driveway for the past week. They had no internet and while I was on the road I had no internet access. I am now at my son's house in Albany NY and finally have internet access. You sure miss it when you an't g...
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"As from a hot flame"
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A comment on another thread got me thinking about this -- and not wanting to highjack that one, I thought that I'd start one here about "hot flame" moments. I had a couple recently and I think that it showed to me that this program works if I work it and keep working it. Someone who doesn't know...
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Just Had to Share This
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Good Morning All, I just had to share this with someone. This past Tuesday I had a very big scare. I was having sever chest pains and ended up spending the day with a bunch of medical folks. Doctor doesn't think it was a heart attack, but says he believes I do have an issue with the sack around my heart....
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My expectations have overpowered my acceptance...
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Therefore I am outside of Serenity...at the moment. It's all little stuff, really, when compared to ther people's troubles. The production guy got snotty with me at work, "f-bombed" me a couple of times because my creative quality process wasn't fast enough for him. Ya see, he's never be...
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Mom's Home
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Hi All Looks like the power of Prayer really works. While gone on Saturday, Dad called me and said that Mom had called and said the Doctor had just been in and said she could go home if she wanted to. My Dad went donwtown and picked her up. Since I got home a couple of hours ago she seems to be Ok. She of course...
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I did not believe.
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I did not believe that a power greater than myself could restore me sanity, otherwise I would not have relapsed at my 1st entry into AA. I was convinced that I was powerless over alcohol and that I was a real alcoholic, but I was just not convinced that the 12 steps could get me well. "Being convince...
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Judy's AA Story
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I'm now age 33 going on 34. I'm from Kenya and at age 10 my parents moved to a rural place in a southern state. This was a move I did not agree with. Anyway, I resented the way the children treated me, so I worked really hard in school. I reasoned, if I did well then I could go to any college I wanted, which I d...
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urchin
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Newcomer, 3 days sober, probably going to get fired tomorrow. Need help please
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I am new to the program and trying to get sober. I am 80% sure I will be fired tomorrow from my job in California. I do not know what to do--if I should take my knocks and exit gracefully or tell my bosses about my disease as I think it is legally a disability in CA. I never used at work but have had underperf...
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2010 Founders Day Information: Happy 75 Years, AA!!!!
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copied and pasted from www.akronaa.org Hope to see some of you there, if you can make it! Joni______________________________________________________th ANNIVERSARY OF ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS JUNE 11, 12, 13, 2010 AKRON, OHIO BIRTHPLACE OF A.A.NEW FOR FOUNDERS' DAY 2010 This year marks the 75...
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Cliques in large meetings
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I'm a happy sober for 25 years woman who moved 3 years ago to a new hometown where I had heard that the women's fellowship was strong. Until this move, I'd attended meetings in my hometown and surrounding area for 22 years and was in a routine with familiar faces and meeting friends. I've heard it said t...
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Prayer Request Update
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Hi All It is a Real Bad Bladder Infection and all the pressure caused some of the problems. A couple of other people I know have had the same thing happen to one of their parents also. Today things seem to be a bit better. My Mom knows where she is at and who people are at least. She is quite well groggy and dr...
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Hi Everyone...
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Hello my dear friends.....hve been reading the Board about twice a week... Cannot really sit and write, I have a 5th and 6th Vertibrae, that got very slammed together in a very old car accident, it flairs up at times, and did take the necessary steps that are needed when ever it flares about once every ye...
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Just Toni
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Diggin' the new job (so far)
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Well, I started work at the local rehab center this past Monday, and it's going great. I know, it's only been a few days, and I'm still giving it time, but it has been very rewarding and meaningful for me. It's cool to be able to look at dynamics of the group from the other side. I was almost instantly awa...
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Reffner
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Staying sober when someone else in the house drinks...
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It will be 2 mos tomorrow that I havent had a drink. In the beginning--I guess during my "pink cloud" phase it didnt bother me that my husband had a drink in front of me. He doesnt have a problem with drinking, I do. The last week or so, I have been resenting him drinking in front of me...I have...
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Give me strength
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If you want to know how an alkie's doing, look at his dog.
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if i had a dog, he'd be cowering under the table just now. my life has been manic the past 2 weeks. I've been working too many hours, not getting enough meetings, forcing myself to do things and go places for all the wrong reasons, not getting enough sleep, not talking to enough normal (i.e.Alkie) people...
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eeks
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relapse..... few days of drinking and drugs.... loneliness and insanity captured my mind and heart, and no matter what I did I could not fill the hole..... this is a big problem, and it needs to be addressed and wokred out because I don;t want to be a tornado anymore, and I don't want to die.... My ex stopp...
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Daily Reflections ~ Forming True Partnerships & 24hrs a Day
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But it is from our twisted relations with family, friends, and society at large that many of us have suffered the most. We have been especially stupid and stubborn about them. The primary fact that we fail to recognize is our total inability to form a true partnership with another human being. TWELVE S...
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First time not drinking around friends...what do you say?
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Hi, My husband and I just got invited out with friends for dinner. I am already worried about how I will explain my not drinking. I have made it through a couple situations with people by simply saying, "I am trying to cut alcohol out"...and people have really accepted that ...saying tha...
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Give me strength
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By the Grace of God
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The last four days I have really struggled with memories. Where do I start? You see these memories I thought were long gone and accepted. What brought them to light was an e-mail from an old childhood friend. This is kind of lengthy, but it really has really touched many emotions in me. Humility, gratit...
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Dave Harm
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Prayer Request
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Hi All Late this afternoon My Mom was taken by Ambulance to the local Hospital. I was not home, My Dad called me and said she ws incoherent and was trying to get out of the house in only a nightgown. She did not know her name, my dads name, where she lived, nor knew who her sisters were. She did know the Presid...
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First post
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Hello all. Thanks for letting me join the program. I am as much a beginner ad a beginner can be. Attended my first meeting on Monday (actually attended two the same day). I bit overwheleming and confusing. I've only been sober for six days. As of right now, I have no desire for a drink. Reason being, I feel...
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We Will Not Regret The Past
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I too have been reawakening some childhood memories of late. Going through many old photographs - my dad had a top notch camera and I'm finding pristine black and white negatives that are over 50 years old, that haven't seen daylight in almost as long. Pictures of me, my parents, friends some of whic...
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AA 75 years old
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I owe a huge debt of gratitude to Alcoholics Anonymous. I never want to forget how I cried some 22 years ago. No one understood. Only the man from AA understood. He knew me better than I knew myself then, because he was there and he got out of there and now he wanted to get me there. He not only came to tell me wh...
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gonee
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Harm Reduction a losing battle for me.
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I have been in A.A. for a lot of years and have had several 1 to 2 year stretches of sobriety. In the last two years I have experienced the most growth in sobriety that I have ever. Growth defined as learning to act in new ways in spite of my fear, being engaged in meaningful relationships, seeking challe...
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nate
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An Honor and a Privelage
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My group and individual counselors at the Shrink Shack I go to had a talk and after tossing some names around asked me if I would lead & organize a men's recovery group. No AA stuff, no therapy-structure, just a sober social night every-other Tuesday. We can use their conference facilities for a wh...
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Aquaman
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Tonights meeting
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I see that there will be a meeting tonight. How does that work? It says it will be at 9 eastern time. Is that 8 Houston time?
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The Texan
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What does MIP mean to you?
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Just a general discussion question. What does Miracles In Progress mean to you? How has it helped you start or add to your program of recovery? How often do you use the MIP site? Just reply with your ideas, feelings, thoughts, and give us an idea of how you are benefiting from having MIP as a part of y...
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John
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a feeling never killed anybody
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Emotions/feelings are internal things that actually give me choices to make. to wallow in, to curse, to blame, to react on or about, to display, to internalize, to make known.... to turn into resentments...... someone else is not the cause of my problems or feelings. my reactions are. how i...
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jj
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Program 1st then fellowship.
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I have to always focus on the program of recovery first. That takes effort. I found that when I put program first, my life became more manageable. I began to be OK around my fellowship of AA friends. Those that are on the program were easy to fellowship with, because we were always talking about our own in...
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gonee
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Daily Reflections ~ Opening Up To Change & 24hrs a Day
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Self-searching is the means by which we bring new vision, action, and grace to bear upon the dark and negative side of our natures. With it comes the development of that kind of humility that makes it possible for us to receive God's help. . . . we find that bit by bit we can discard the old life -- the one tha...
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Grateful
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Hi Everyone:I shared at a BB meeting last wednesday that I had a brush with alcohol. I have over-night guests whom I invited for dinner, they showed up with a bottle of chilled white dinner wine.. "oh my, what a treat" I thought, "1 bottle of wine & three people, no harm in that!!&q...
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Carlotta
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Crazy Heart
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Did anyone see that movie? I found it quite depressing but Jeff Bridges totally depicted the character of a broken down alcoholic. He was so believable, I could almost smell the sour ole booze & sweat & other body fluids. I think for us alcoholics that movie is a pretty good wake up call as t...
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Carlotta
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75 Years! AA International Convention in San Antonio July 1st - 4th
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http://www.aa.org/subpage.cfm?page=199 Who's going? I think that I am. Planning on going thursday thru saturday night 2010 INTERNATIONAL CONVENTION OF ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS The 2010 International Convention of Alcoholics Anonymous will be held July 1-4 in San Antonio, Texas...
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Good Morning
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"As I Step into the A.A. light, my heart fills with the presence of God" Good Morning All :0) How are you all? Guess I'll find out as I go through and read a few post. :0) I'm very grateful to be sober and "Reasonably Happy" today. One of my sponsee's is working her Fourth Step righ...
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Jane05
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Our Newest MIP Oldtimer.. Turninggrey!!!
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Congratulations, Tom. Thank you for all of your posts here :) Happy Sober Day, Sir.. Bless you, Brother! Recovery Love & Fellowship, Danielle x -- Edited by Sobrietyspell on Saturday 5th of June 2010 09:34:41 PM
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Feeling's
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Hi, When I got clean and sober I started to get all kinds of emotions. Scared the tar out of me. I did not want to feel that stuff. Hell !! sometimes I would bust out crying for no reason at all. Then I would feel rage. Then I felt like I was going crazy. I guess I did not know that the booze and the dope had been shu...
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24 hours sober
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My name is patrick i'm recently 21, i've been drinking heavily since I was put in rehab at 15 for marijuana possession. I feel like I drink alot, but a week ago a girl i've been seeing on and off for 2 years told me the only time i'm not drunk is when im in bed hungover (she has never seen me sober in 2 years). W...
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Experience, Strength and Hope
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I remember the group "Miracles In Progress" and John from "Firetalk" days. I have been in 12 step recovery since Jan 94 and in AA since Dec 97 and sober since Dec 2000. Have learned alot since then. Willingness to change I think stands out as one of the most important attributes of...
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Disease or habit?
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I am amazed at how many people take alcoholism so lightly. Many think it's a bad habit. If alcoholism was a bad habit then I would have recovered by practising good virtues on a ongoing basis. But it is not. Alcoholism is a physical disease. I react to alcohol abnormally, because of some change that took...
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gonee
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help!
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Hi, I dont know where to get advice, so hence the post.. hoping someone can help.. me and my partner are in recovery.. I put alot into my recovery, so therefore got alot out of it... There are two people ... those who are victims and those who learn and grow from their experiences.. my partner is still play...
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sandy2010
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Alcoholics on Star Trek
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I've always been a Star Trek fan, since before I was officially an alcoholic, when I was a kid - in my drinking years, and in my sober years. Not so much for the often overly idealistic view of the future but just because it was good stuff. The idealistic future does not seem to have any room for alcoholics...
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New Here from Houston(ish) Texas
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Hello. I am new here. I have been sober before but have never worked the program. I could never get past the step where you have to be honest about everything I did out there. I know I need to do this. I stop using yesterday and I am needing to get a sponsor. I think I need an older sponsor. I am going to do this th...
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The Texan
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Emergency-anyone there for some sanity help at the moment?
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My husband has called now after 6 hours on a drunken binge AGAIN wanting a ride home, or should he walk. I'm so pissed. I did the only calm thing I could think of and said can I call you back in a 10 minutes. Am I enabling by being convenient sober car pool? I don't think he'll drive. I'm so sick of this. I sho...
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Daily Reflections ~ Long-Term Hope & 24hrs a Day
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Since most of us are born with an abundance of natural desires, it isn't strange that we often let these far exceed their intended purpose. When they drive us blindly, or we willfully demand that they supply us with more satisfactions or pleasures than are possible or due us, that is the point at which w...
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I'm giving myself a treat now.
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I am tasked to go to Glasgow for work reasons and I'll be there for 3 nights. So.................... I'm leaving the car at home, taken the cat to the cattery and I'm getting the bete brun out, the bike, the beast, I shall be a road warrior for a few hours. Going up the A1, call off at Mum's for a cuppa, then A1...
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bikerbill
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Good grief! Had to crawl in the window!
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I'm Ellen E. but I couldn't get in the regular way so I had to start over again. It all started when my grand-daughter downloaded a virus onto my laptop. I had to reset it to the original settings, which means I lost all my bookmarks. I rely too much on them, I admit. I should write the url down in my journ...
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