|
|
Praying for Strength.
(Preview)
Hi, its been a-long time since I've been here. I've made a pact with myself to quit drinking today. My life is so out of control its not funny. I quit taking care of myself, my home, and my overall life. I'm so disgusted with myself. I dont have the energy to do anything but sit and drink, if I'm not drinking I...
|
shanaqua
|
5
|
627
|
|
|
|
|
|
Sorry All
(Preview)
Hey All, I got drunk last night and I am starting over. More later. Not feeling so well. Sorry. Tom
|
turninggrey
|
25
|
1123
|
|
|
|
|
|
I wish I could sponsor you.
(Preview)
Sponsorship is not about exercising authority over any body. It is a spiritual partnership. The sponsee wants to submit to someone he can trust and who will enhance his life spiritually. Someone who will give honest counsel about his condition and make valued suggestions on how to improve. I gave my...
|
gonee
|
11
|
1366
|
|
|
|
|
|
It Gets Better
(Preview)
I have been thinking lately, about how much easier my life has become since I've been married. And how strange and unexpected this has been. The day I moved out of my mother's house, I became responsible for everything about myself. Paying the bills, making sure there's food in the fridge, making s...
|
barisax
|
3
|
909
|
|
|
|
|
|
Fears that go undiscussed have a way of growing and overtaking our lives
(Preview)
Today's thought from Hazelden is: Watching a child acquire language, I realize, again, that naming things demystifies them. --Mary Casey Sharing with another our fears of starting a new job, ending a relationship, getting into therapy, or even joining a social club will help us keep the fear in per...
|
Larry_H
|
3
|
712
|
|
|
|
|
|
The new Movie "Stone"
(Preview)
I just saw this movie a couple days ago that features Robert Deniro and Edward Norton this weekend. The professional reviews are mixed, I think in large part because those writing them are probably not alcoholic or understand emptiness and spriritial change as we do. IMO the movie is very creative w...
|
Rob84
|
3
|
815
|
|
|
|
|
|
Worse Eye Trouble
(Preview)
Hi All My eyes are worse then originally thought. I have Conjunctivitis of the Eye. I am now on heavy eye drops that are like steroids. I have to take them 4 times a day. It is like a milky substance but/will is supposed deaden anything in there. The Eye Doctor said I got this like you would pink eye but wors...
|
kld47
|
2
|
678
|
|
|
|
|
|
10 months sober today.
(Preview)
Well, in one hour it will officially be 10 months. I just re-read some of the posts I made on here from the past, and it brought me back to a place I never wish to go again. It reminded me how much suffering I really went through in addiction. I'm not perfect by any means, progress not perfection for sure, bu...
|
paul86
|
12
|
1610
|
|
|
|
|
|
Daily Reflections ~ Nothing Grows in the Dark & 24hrs a Day
(Preview)
We will want the good that is in us all, even in the worst of us, to flower and to grow. AS BILL SEES IT, p. 10 With the self-discipline and insight gained from practicing Step Ten, I begin to know the gratifications of sobriety -- not as mere abstinence from alcohol, but as recovery in every department of m...
|
Sobrietyspell
|
0
|
1183
|
|
|
|
|
|
Dear Alcohol
(Preview)
Dear Alcohol, We have been through so much together. I remember when we first met; on a warm Arizona midnight in January, sitting alone in my room. I was sixteen and naive, broken and searching, for something, anything that would give me freedom from myself. You came to my window every night from t...
|
jennamia
|
14
|
1371
|
|
|
|
|
|
Taking responsibility for our own attitudes, actions, and neglects
(Preview)
Today's thought from Hazelden is: There's only one corner of the universe you can be certain of improving, and that's your own self. So you have to begin there, not outside, not on other people. --Aldous Huxley Taking responsibility for our own attitudes, actions, and neglects is far more difficult...
|
Larry_H
|
4
|
738
|
|
|
|
|
|
New here :)
(Preview)
hello, I have read many posts here and have finally decided to go to an AA meeting. Do I need to do anything special to go to an AA meeting? i want to go this thursday and change my life for the better. After drinking for close to 20 years I want to change. I work in a public job ... are all AA meetings discreet wh...
|
Carn
|
8
|
1049
|
|
|
|
|
|
Step 2
(Preview)
Many of the AA's today are still on step2. They acknowledge the existence of a higher power, like the AA group but never seemed to grow from there. The early AA's were men and women of great spiritual stature because they worked the steps. Many AA groups have taken things to the extreme, where even the lo...
|
gonee
|
7
|
1291
|
|
|
|
|
|
sharing in a aa meeting tommorrow
(Preview)
hi ....will be sharing tommorow at a aa meeting and i am wondering .I guess what im really saying is hwere to i start i truly appreciate the courage of a person who gets up there and shares is or story and now its my turn any suggestions .love you all have a nice day.
|
attilio
|
15
|
1918
|
|
|
|
|
|
Ugh.
(Preview)
Really REALLY wanting to drink tonight. Not doing it, but watched a movie to take my mind off of shit, "Casualties of War" and it depressed me worse. Boredom is a killer. Or, I'm thinking about myself too much. Yeah, that. Blah.
|
AmyWillWin
|
24
|
1110
|
|
|
|
|
|
4 years ago today
(Preview)
Right about now I was entering the last 12 hours of what I believe, hope and work for, was my last drunk on earth. Coming right about the end of a 6 week accelerating binge, which saw me drinking harder and longer, making a complete arse of myself at public and private events, knowingly driving and riding...
|
bikerbill
|
21
|
957
|
|
|
|
|
|
Greetings and a question...
(Preview)
Hey folks, I just joined and am enjoying this forum immensely. I have been sober for a year and a few twenty four hours and have an alcoholic history that dates back to childhood. I'm 56 now. This site is helping me to understand AA and some of the issues that arise at meetings and with the recovery process...
|
mosinjoe
|
18
|
1085
|
|
|
|
|
|
Paradox
(Preview)
Hi, She is pissed at God. She wants to die and escape her illnesses. She wants to live and to heal and she keeps getting older and weaker. Depth and Weight Wayne
|
Toad
|
4
|
711
|
|
|
|
|
|
Daily Reflections ~ Solace For Confusion & 24hrs a Day
(Preview)
Obviously, the dilemma of the wanderer from faith is that of profound confusion. He thinks himself lost to the comfort of any conviction at all. He cannot attain in even a small degree the assurance of the believer, the agnostic, or the atheist. He is the bewildered one. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADIT...
|
Sobrietyspell
|
0
|
581
|
|
|
|
|
|
Found an AA Ring.....
(Preview)
While helping my mother pack, we came across a ring that we believe to be my grandfathers. He wasn't an alcoholic, but she said the ring was given to him for going with my grandmother to all her meetings and setting up the meetings (chairs, coffee, donuts, etc). I've tried to find more info on the ring...
|
Kigs
|
3
|
937
|
|
|
|
|
|
Steps 6&7
(Preview)
You know many of us made resolutions never to lie or never to drink alcohol, but we always failed with our strong resolve. Just like we are powerless over alcohol, we are also powerless over our defects of character. That is why we have step6&7. When we are ready, then God removes. If we are not ready...
|
gonee
|
9
|
1249
|
|
|
|
|
|
Daily Reflections ~ A.A.'s "Main Taproot" & 24hrs a Day
(Preview)
The principle that we shall find no enduring strength until we first admit complete defeat is the main taproot from which our whole Society has sprung and flowered. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, pp. 21-22 Defeated, and knowing it, I arrived at the doors of A.A., alone and afraid of the unknown....
|
Sobrietyspell
|
0
|
1089
|
|
|
|
|
|
California Help
(Preview)
I need some help. I want to talk to someone in the Sacramento Area that is very strong in the AA basics. Please respond.
|
Rainspa
|
1
|
509
|
|
|
|
|
|
Hopefully, comforting words ......
(Preview)
Excerpt from a letter Bill wrote in 1958. "About this slip business - I would not be too discouraged. I think you are suffering a great deal from a needless guilt. God is not asking us to be successful. He is only asking us to try to be. That you surely are doing and have been doing.. So I would not stay...
|
louisa
|
4
|
1072
|
|
|
|
|
|
Daily Reflections ~ A Daily Tune-Up & 24hrs a Day
(Preview)
Every day is a day when we must carry the vision of God's will into all of our activities. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 85 How do I maintain my spiritual condition? For me it's quite simple: on a daily basis I ask my Higher Power to grant me the gift of sobriety for that day! I have talked to many alcoholics who h...
|
Sobrietyspell
|
0
|
487
|
|
|
|
|
|
Anger can be a healthy emotion, provided we don't wallow in it or attack other people
(Preview)
Today's thought from Hazelden is: Anger dwells only in the bosom of fools. --Albert Einstein Anger can be a healthy emotion, provided we don't wallow in it or attack other people. When we express anger honestly and without reservation, we can prevent walls of resentment from building up and blockin...
|
Larry_H
|
4
|
1335
|
|
|
|
|
|
As if I need MORE of a reason
(Preview)
I found out last night that my mother was hospitalized Wednesday night for a supposed suicide attempt. This isn't her first one...ahhh, memories of holding her in my car by her hair driving her to the ER after she OD'ed when I was nineteen (she kept trying to jump out of the car), what a Brady Bunch mome...
|
AmyWillWin
|
12
|
883
|
|
|
|
|
|
PLEASE READ STEP 2 BY GONEE....
(Preview)
just a heads up on the share by gonee, "step 2" very good reminder. jj/sheila
|
jj
|
0
|
364
|
|
|
|
|
|
Happy Joyous and free
(Preview)
We often use the terms happy and joy (joyous in anticipation) synonymously. Happy is a reaction to the immediate environment and circumstance, truly a flash in the pan, as it made me happy, I was happy to see you ,that it really makes me happy. Consequently when things go a rye then that makes me unhappy...
|
Gzepe
|
2
|
1423
|
|
|
|
|
|
Relationships.. (women!)
(Preview)
I bet this has been posted loads of times... Initially I struggled to get a grip on page 69 of BB, I don't/didn't have a sex inventory but I got around it by changing the word sex to love. And boy was it there. I find nobody talks about it, except for the don't do it bit. I find it difficult to associate with pe...
|
Jorvick
|
6
|
1425
|
|
|
|
|
|
Morning
(Preview)
Hi Just thought I'd drop in, I'm doing ok. Guess I have to get out of myself and start working on a few things. Missed a few meetings do to work and being sick for week and starting to feel it. Things are changing financially and feeling a bit a crunch out my pocket book, as well as my surroundings. So I gue...
|
Tina
|
4
|
548
|
|
|
|
|
|
HI EVERYONE!
(Preview)
Sorry I've been absent - my internet went bye bye, due to lack of interest in paying the bill (sigh, still working on certain areas) and due to the fact that I have become much more productive as a result, I'm probably not gonna have internet at my house for a good long time. But I'll check in once in awhile...
|
FlyingSquirrel
|
5
|
569
|
|
|
|
|
|
When you do all the talking you only learn what you already know
(Preview)
Today's thought from Hazelden is: When you do all the talking you only learn what you already know. --Anonymous One of the secrets for finding answers to any emotional problem is to talk with fellow members we can confide in fully. We don't need to look any farther than our sponsor or the members who are...
|
Larry_H
|
2
|
925
|
|
|
|
|
|
Sometimes, is it just better to quit and say, I've had a good life?
(Preview)
I'm really getting sick and tired of struggling with this disease and trying to make myself better for other people. I hate what I come home to every night - an alcoholic husband who looks like hell and sometimes can't put a sentence together. Now my precious son is coming home from Afghanistan and he...
|
MAL
|
9
|
1206
|
|
|
|
|
|
How soon?
(Preview)
Should I get a sponsor? First meeting last night, went wonderfully, can't wait to go back (really). I would really like to get to know the person somewhat, but I know it's vital that I get one asap. Does it HAVE to be same sex? Does that really matter? I don't really care either way but I wondered why t...
|
AmyWillWin
|
15
|
1004
|
|
|
|
|
|
New to all this...
(Preview)
Hi All, I need help but don't know how to get it...There's no doubt I'm an alcoholic but I've also been diagnosed with a mood disorder (which I believe most of my extended paternal family suffers from in some form, along with alcoholism - go figure!). I'm on medication which has helped immensely but st...
|
losinIt
|
9
|
713
|
|
|
|
|
|
Humble Pie
(Preview)
Humble Pie Humility is a difficult subject at best we mostly associate humility with humiliation or being humble as being less than. I have come to the understanding that its not about thinking less of yourself, its about thinking of yourself less. For when we are in the service of our fellows are we no...
|
Gzepe
|
2
|
880
|
|
|
|
|
|
I'm a real mardy arse at the moment.
(Preview)
Is it a self fullfilling expectation? I'm running up to my soberversary and find I'm getting petulant (That's mardy), demanding, critical, all this negative vibe man! It happened like this last year and the year before and the year before that. I've taken a week off work, but need to get busy. It's jus...
|
bikerbill
|
2
|
607
|
|
|
|
|
|
Daily Reflections ~ My Checklist, Not Yours & 24 hrs a Day
(Preview)
Gossip barbed with our anger, a polite form of murder by character assassination, has its satisfactions for us, too. Here we are not trying to help those we criticize; we are trying to proclaim our own righteousness. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 67 Sometimes I don't realize that I gossiped...
|
Sobrietyspell
|
0
|
686
|
|
|
|
|
|
AA is beautiful
(Preview)
Today i missed my aa meeting and i realized the immense good a meeting does for me.I know how i feel when i get to a meeting and when i dont.I say AA is beautiful because of all the beautiful people that mustard all their courage to share to,to shake hands,to make the best coffee ever,to give of their time.f...
|
attilio
|
4
|
532
|
|
|
|
|
|
Most of us are IN recovery from Alcoholism, but we still have different preceptions
(Preview)
Hi Everyone, Was re-reading a few times a Post that got so involved with the Chips and what they mean to each of us. For me I was such a hard and fast relapser, for soooo long, about 7 years of relapsing, and in the first 2 or 3 years would go in and get a white 24 Chip..after that 3 years was too humiliating to...
|
Just Toni
|
10
|
1475
|
|
|
|
|
|
New to Sobriety
(Preview)
Going to my first meeting tonight. Enough is enough. I've been in tears on and off all day, so I'll make sure to take some kleenex. I thought that if I admitted that I was an alcoholic then everyone would think I was weak because I couldn't just stop drinking on my own, but I no longer car what anyone else...
|
AmyWillWin
|
17
|
1062
|
|
|
|
|
|
How can I encourage my partner to make healthy decision's
(Preview)
My partner has been out of rehab for 6 months now. He goes to AA but is in at the time of the meeting and out as soon as he leaves. I attend Al-alon and AA. I am becoming healthy and learning so much about the disesase. I try to encourage him by talking to him and telling him to think about decisions for mor...
|
unhappy
|
4
|
882
|
|
|
|
|
|
Do I need to pick up a 24 hour chip and start my time over?
(Preview)
Hey all...I have been clean and sober since april 15, 2010. I was a binge drinker, but my addiction of choice was always prescription pills. Today, I decided to take 1 percocet that I found at my parents house (which was my usual source until a few years ago). I did not look for the bottle, or take the no...
|
chiquita2201
|
9
|
1597
|
|
|
|
|
|
If I was doing any better, I would need to be two people
(Preview)
If I was doing any better, I would need to be two people. I spent Tuesday morning in an operating room under general anesthesia in yet another failed attempt to remove a boulder size kidney stone from my right kidney. By the Grace of God and AA I woke up on the green side of the grass and sober. Over the yea...
|
Larry_H
|
7
|
1292
|
|
|
|
|
|
Find a meeting anywhere in the US by text. FREE
(Preview)
Hi brothers and sisters, I've created an app to help AA members worldwide. Pay nothing other than what your phone company charges to send and receive texts. Text "AA" followed by your zip code to 484-843-1767 details at www.mytextupdate.com I apologize if this comes off as spam. I create...
|
anonprogrammer
|
0
|
509
|
|
|
|
|
|
Sobriety- a precious gift
(Preview)
What a precious gift my God chose to give me. Without sobriety in my life nothing worked. When I got sober in AA and started to live life again, I realised what it was just to breathe again. I stopped asking my God for petty little things. He had given me the most precious of all gifts SOBRIETY which was LIFE...
|
gonee
|
1
|
649
|
|
|
|
|
|
Congratulations on your 1st Soberversary, CARLOTTA !!!
(Preview)
Good Morning, Just thinking of you and wishing you one wonderful day! 365 days at 24 hours each, so fantastic. BIg Hugs and Love being sent to you. Tonicakes
|
Just Toni
|
9
|
949
|
|
|
|
|
|
We may have learned to be miserable, but we can choose to unlearn it
(Preview)
Today's thought from Hazelden is: Misery is optional. We may have learned to be miserable, but we can choose to unlearn it. Though we can't control what happens to us, we can determine how we will interpret and react to what happens. We can moan about the things we don't like, using them as excuses for se...
|
Larry_H
|
3
|
623
|
|
|
|
|
|
New to recovery and stuck in close quarters with family - they're driving me crazy!
(Preview)
Hi there. I got sober four months ago in Virginia and am now visiting my mother and step-father for 3 weeks in Switzerland. I know that doesn't sound that bad, rather good, but, they are driving me crazy and I find myself very angry at them just for the way they are. I'm finding that I am blaming them (in my h...
|
AnDreaM
|
10
|
1112
|
|
|
