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INSANE THINKING-its all lies and whats us back out there
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grew up in a loving single parent household, neither parents are alcoholic. I got drunk a few times in highschool but it was when I hit 18 I really remember alcohol being a solution. But my disease would tell me real alcoholics always remember everything of the first time they got drunk. I felt differen...
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My side of the street is messy
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I have been going along convincing myself I am fine and I was doing great while over focusing on other people's problems. That is always a good distraction from looking at myself (sarcasm - it's a bad habit). It blew up yesterday and I lost it on my boss at work. I might be unemployed shortly and that is...
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RELAPSE......WHY!!!!
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I WANT TO NOT TO BUT I DO.
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Im still here....
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Its been a while... I was doing great,I got back with an old Punk Rock Band of mine and recorded an album and started playing out again...However,This disease has kicked my ass yet again.I know that I cant do this on my own... I'm helpless and do not have the will power to fight this addiction by my se...
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The dump and bounce
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When a newcomer comes here and posts that they need help and we all reach out and offer suggestions, how come they almost never come back and say how their meeting was? How come they almost never come back and say they found a sponsor? How come they can't even be accountable on a freakin message board? W...
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Gender-Bending...
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No...I'm not getting a procedure (but I did once...oh let's save that for another day) I made two good female friends in rehab. A "sober-buddy", if ya will. One (Nikki) who has gone on to a 90-day inpatient and we keep in touch. She wants to get into NA & AA when she gets out. Her female...
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This is a program of attraction
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When i first came to AA i wondered why it wasn't better advertised. LOL then i found out most people do not want to 'be fixed' when they are sent to AA meetings from the court system, and the ones who have struggled with wanting and needing sobriety are the ones who seek out AA for help. Last night at my h...
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I used cocaine
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Okay so I would have 30 days today, but yesterday I used cocaine at work. One of my coworkers had it and offered it to me, I accepted. I feel horrible it is like all the progress I have made over the past few weeks has been destroyed. I didn't drink though although it made me want to, but I am taking anabuse...
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Who is in Service work?
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Just started a two year term as my group GSR. Attended my first area assembly. Gonna be fun learning the business side of AA. Guess I gotta stay sober another two years now. Dang commitments.
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dale63
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God and AA
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Have something in common They help those that help themselves Sobriety, like anything, takes work Faith without works is dead half measures availed us nothing The result was nil until we let go of our old ideas dead nothing nil Think they were trying to say something there? We have to do actual work, ac...
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LinBaba
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The Persistence of this illusion Astonishing!
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Many of us Real alcoholics pursue this into the gates of Insanity or Death. We learned that we had to (fully concede) to our innermost selves that were alcoholics. This is the first step in recovery = Concede = Admit Complete Defeat! The Delusion! that we are like other people Or! so called - Norm...
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Full Flight
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How to handle things when your wife has an afair
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I don't know how to hadle this and am not doing very well
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Out of the country again for a bit...
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Going to the far east for a couple weeks on business so will probably be checking in more than normal. Thanks to everyone for posting, it continues to be a great resourse for everyone.
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CoDa
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hello everyone, Yes, I agree 100% that we should have a Codependents forum on the site. Just bare with me, let me get my barings some and I'll start putting one together and notify everyone of its existance once I have the work done. Just be patient, as right now, I'm not operating at full capacity, jus...
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John
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90 days
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Go me. And all of you. This song is *not* what you think. It's what you kept telling yourself. Keep on keepin' on.
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Posted this over in NA...
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Hi, my name is Rob and I am an addict. WOW, it feels GREAT to say that without a qualifying statement of some kind or another afterwards! I'm 44 years old, an 18 month member of AA and an out-patient with 6 & 1/2 months clean & sober. I've been a member over across the cyber-hall at the AA MIP Board...
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Was reading Alanon Boards
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I was reading from the Alanon Board here and I got so annoyed that I had to call my sponsor. I really don't get it. I always figured I was the sickest person in the whole picture. I mean I know my ex is a few cards short of a full deck...and he was a drunk too so I guess I could qualify for Alanon...But...I sti...
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pinkchip
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When did you first get your start on a "spiritual awakening"?
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Ive heard many stories, some got it the first day they were sober, others after 6 months or a year clean, some only after doing the steps, curious to know when yours was and what happened?
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NEVER ENDING
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I am back Currently in the middle of a 3 week long binge, trying to really stop and get back in the program. I am really just sick and tired of this and really need to get clean once and for all. I am 23 now and really feelking like i am just fucking up my life. I'm like really depressed and need to get out of this b...
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happinessisawarmgun
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Had some drinking thoughts
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Hi all. Just making an effort to reach out. I think once I have practiced this long enough, I will become more used to picking up phone and posting and doing other things to tell on my disease. I am very tired as I only got a couple hours sleep last night (insomnia... UGH.) I napped for 2 hours today on the cou...
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Causes of Relapse Survey
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Hello! I'm studying addiction, alcoholism, and relapse and their connection to family history. In order to make my results as accurate as possible, I need a large population to survey. I would be very thankful if you could spare a few minutes for a quick, simple, and 100% anonymous survey to help me le...
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I wish the poor man had reached out before he did this.
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http://gizmodo.com/5726667/the-agonizing-last-words-of-bill-zeller?skyline=true&s=i
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AmyWillWin
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My Quarterly Review at work. Humph!
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OK, my rating was levelled down. I'm OK with that because I guessed it was likely to happen. But the reasons given. God give me strength! Apparently I'm inflexible - because I'm careful about exceeding my contracted hours. I'm Dogmatic - because I don't back down quick enough (not playing their game)...
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Middle of Relapse now
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Why do I do this? I have tried so hard, been 14 months now since I first tried to stop, most I had was 69 days.. I am a chronic relapser, even with all the support here... I dont know why, perhaps someday you will all have a RIP thread for me.. I had it all lost it etc etc etc heres where I am now... living at my par...
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Prayer in trouble times.
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I found the following to be very true whenever I am really in my darkest hour."If something is troubling, the recommendation is to pray without ceasing. Even though we cannot see or hear, it does not matter. God who sees our hearts, will hear and release that burden. That's why sometimes diffic...
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Thanks to AA -- again
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Hey all, wasn't able to post on here very much in the last week, as was back home visiting family. First time that they've seen me since I've been in the Fellowship. The family is pretty dysfunctional, lots of conflict and spiteful comments going back and forth, but I love 'em. Prior to AA, I'd allow mys...
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Relapsing.
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Hey everyone- haven't checked in here lately and figured I should. I was back out for a while- a pretty long, painful stretch, actually. The move from the Big Island to Oahu has taken a toll on me. I like it on the Big Island way more than I do here- I was in the city the first year and that wasn't such a great en...
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Not Strung Out
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The snow is blowing dense and fast, completely parallel to the ground, dumping about a foot and half so far, no signs of letting up. I am having my favorite snowed-in, planned ahead for it, non-vegetarian sandwich: whole grain toast, horseradish mayo, sliced turkey breast, natural potato chips, an...
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Life's a Bitch Then You Die? I think not.
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SoberSteve's thread reminds me that there are a lot of us who have bought the title of this thread. It's a funny expression of cynicism... I first heard it in the 70s I think. In spite of my disease, I can't say I ever really bought into it. I had my moments of desperation certainly - both before, during...
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the simple truth of my home group
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TheHi bill alcoholic . I am a member of the best dam home group on a Monday night.any night for that matter. It is a mens big book study. Not. A just a discussion meeting. We have a lot of new guys from many of the homeless shelters and treatment centers . We are not a people who would normally not mix. For sure...
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Does anyone know a good CODA forum similar to this? John can We have a Codependents Anonymous board on this site?
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Cant seem to find one anywhere..thanks -- Edited by StPeteDean on Tuesday 11th of January 2011 01:38:23 PM
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SoberSteve
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RIP Gerry Rafferty
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another one taken by this illness.
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bikerbill
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The gift of Hope
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Morning! By God's grace ,another day to carry our message of hope to someone near you.This is not a magic formula but a gift that is offered to any of us who are willing to accept it! When you receive it, you will wonder how you lived wothout it. Believe me,life will continue to rain down full bore,we will a...
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Went to my first AA meeting
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I have been wanting to go to an AA meeting for a long time now. But fear has always held me back. So tonight I put on my big girl panties and headed out. I was scared to death. I figured I'd get met with "looks" and whispers. You know what I found?? A roomful of the absolutely nicest, kindest...
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Hey
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Phil from Ontario Canada Just dropping by to wish everyone a good 2011 One day at a time Keep on truckin ehh
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Faith
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Today's thought from Hazelden is: God does not require that we be successful, only that we be faithful. --Mother Teresa It is probable we have never equated success with faith. Being successful meant accomplishing worthy goals and receiving the expected praise. We may have even considered that re...
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FACING MY HARD HEART
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I can remember how things were before I really incorporated"spiritual principles" in my actions and life.How I finally realized I didn't just ask my Higher Power,whom I chose to call God,to help me forgive because I really didn't "want' to forgive,kind of grudge to the grave me...
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miracle in progress !!!
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Definitly one of us. Fantasic story. I dont even know him, yet I rejoyce for him. link to the whole news story.http://www.cbsnews.com/stories/2011/01/06/earlyshow/leisure/celebspot/main7218743.shtml
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Joni Joneeeeeee
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I just wanted to say how proud I am of you, it is incredibly refreshing to see someone put as much diligent thought and effort into the steps as you are now doing, the difference between you now and the last few years is incredibly profound They say "stick with the winners" in AA, I'm stickin wi...
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LinBaba
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The Responsibility Declaration
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"I am responsible. When anyone, anywhere, reaches out for help, I want the hand of AA always to be there. And for that: I am responsible." When I went to my very first large Speaker meeting in late August of 1992 a man walked out to the Podium in front of about 600 people and said; "My name i...
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Nobody wants to do step 4.
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I have been through Intensive Outpatient (IOP) therapy TWICE. I have been to an AA retreat. My boyfriend recently had an experience on an ecstacy like research chemical. He was crying because he said he could see that I hold on to resentments of other people. He said I play the victim by thinking th...
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SEX
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I have posted before here about my BF and getting sober. Anyway...long story SHORT- he has been sober for 3 weeks now and doing very well. A whole new attitude and has been taking antabuse every day. Since he has been sober we have had NO SEX whatsoever. Ive said something to him but he has said things...
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New to the forum!
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Hey everyone. Well I'm Chris and I've been two days without a drink. I'm trying to make this THE time I finally do it. I'm a pretty severe alcoholic. I occasionally go a few days without but for the most part I drink heavily every night. I can't do it anymore, I'm throwing in the towel to the bottle!! Just wa...
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Christmas can be deadly
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Hello all. I am new here. Seriously struggling with the holidays and am afraid I will do something drastic. Last Sunday night I actually called the Suicide Helpline, only to hang up because I was so hysterical and couldn't hold my emotions. I know I'm on the edge. And alcohol is not my friend. I ha...
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Fallon
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The 12 steps to tolerance and love.
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As I started to work on the 12 steps in my life, despite myself I started to grow spiritually. I became more tolerant of those who were sicker than me. A little love expressed by finding something good in the other persons character, won many of those people into recovery. A newcomer I had met 6 months ago...
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gonee
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Close call
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I've been rather busy with the holidays and forgot to post this. In November I was working, building a deck on a condo. This condo's back yard was right on a canal with no other access except through the unit. The owner was away during the days and told us that we could help ourselves to beverages in the r...
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StPeteDean
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Grand-Sponsor passed....
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Please say a prayer for all the friends and family of Connie C., my grand-sponsor. My sponsor is very very sad, and is now without a sponsor. She had her for 20 years. I have known and learned from Connie for 11. Connie fought leukemia and parkinsonism (beginning of parkinson's disease) for years. She i...
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jonijoni1
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Step One meeting- HUGE breakthrough
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Tonight's Beginner's Meeting was on Step One. I realized something I was missing that is very important to my recovery. In recent years, when I have had a relapse between periods of sobriety, alcohol was the thing that got me started every time. But it was the drugs that would end up bringing me to my kn...
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jonijoni1
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I Stand at the Door
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I Stand at the Door By Sam Shoemaker (from theOxford Group) I stand by the door. I neither go to far in, nor stay to far out. The door is the most important door in the world - It is the door through which men walk when they find God. There is no use my going way inside and staying there, When so many are still out...
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billyjack
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WOMAN TO HELP IN MANHATTAN?
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I have a woman friend in Manhattan who has come to me for help. But I'm far away, and I'm a male. Are there any women out there in the Big Apple with strong sobriety who'd be willing to call my friend, or to be called by her? My friend is in her forties, and struggling with booze and cocaine. Thanks!
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