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Omgstfu and GO
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Im so annoyed at myself. I keep telling myself i am going to make a meeting. But... [insert justification here].
Reading through lit, my brain telling me i've got down my first 3 and I'm ready for the 4 step.
Tell me ruhig, just how honest are you if when asked you'll claim 3 years, instead of just saying...
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Such Deep Despair..
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Such Deep Despair It wasn't very long ago, I felt such deep despair and woe. I prayed to a God I thought I knew, Who hated me for the things I'd do. In tears I prayed, just let me die, For life had seemed to pass me by. All I ever did was fail. God let me die, send me to hell. I didn't want another drink, ...
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My anniversary.
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I've been married for 6 yrs today. I remember the look in his eyes, completely in love and happy. I knew I was fooling him already back then. But he was fooling me too. If only we could have been so honest from the start. If only he wouldn't have hid smoking from me for 5 yrs, and I wouldn't have hid drink...
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A great one from AA speaker Ray O'K (may he RIP)
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I'm paraphrasing, but it's something like: "Funny thing about alcoholism -- it always seems to kill those who don't have it." Steve http://quietmindrecovery.org/AA/index.htm
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Good night All.
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Hi all just wanted to say good night and God Bless you all. My new found AA friends. You brighten my days and inspire me so very much. I thank you all. Another sober day, Whoop,Whoop, now for my prayers of gratitude and thanks. Polly.X :}
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Joining Online Forums
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Hi, Im an Alcoholic whos is new to online forums. Ive been using AA for about a year and Ive been sober for 5 months. Id like to contribute here to learn more and to offer support to others who need it. I guess I should introduce myself so Ill tell a bit about my story... I began Drinking at age 13 and Ive been...
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Are you a Newcomer looking in ? This may help.
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Reading this made me smile to myself of the long lonley days of knowing I needed to do somthing about my drinking for years. AA has saved my life and for that I am full of gratitude. Polly.X IDo you think you may have a problem with alcohol?YesNo1.Do you feel you are a normal drinker?2.Have you ever awake...
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First Timer
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I have been sober 1 day now. Drunk for the last 5 years. I had a drink yesterday morning in fact, blew off work to do it. Got the greatest wife and family in the world. After unreasonably getting angry at her for stupid crap, I am finally realizing that I as much as I've fought it, I am powerless over alc...
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40 days
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I came to AA on the 26th of Dec. I stayed sober 40 days. Relapse drinking was worse than any other drinking I've ever done. I came back to AA on the 26th of March. Today I am sober 40 days again. Tomorrow will be a very special day for me, but I am still grateful for this one. I barely made it to 40 days last t...
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New to all of this
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I lived through college not having one drop of alcohol. I went to coffee shops and talked philosophy and literature. I just never had the desire to drink. Then my best friend from high school moved back into town after I graduated, and introduced me to all the local bars. My mom often told me to be careful...
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Step 11.
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I have nothing that God has not given me. Therefore I own nothing and I have nothing. Everything has been a gift from my Father in Heaven. If that be the case, where then is room for any anxiety and worry? Therefore Step 11 says: "Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contac...
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Brand New...Help!
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Hi everybody. Anybody out there? I just registered and wrote my bio. How can I post it? How can I see it and retreive it?
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The Four Absolutes.
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I as Just reading this and thought I would share it with you,Its long so will be in a few posting. Enjoy, I did. Polly.x *~* The Four Absolutes *~* Foreword Spelled out as such, the Four Absolutes are not a formal part of our AA philosophy of life. Since this is true, some may claim the Absolutes should be i...
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Daily Reflections ~ Hold Back Nothing & 24hrs a Day
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The real tests of the situation are your own willingness to confide and your full confidence in the one with whom you share your first accurate self-survey. . . . Provided you hold back nothing, your sense of relief will mount from minute to minute. The dammed-up emotions of years break out of their con...
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Happy bio Bday belatedly, Mr. David!
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I bet you thought we'd forgotten? I do miss a lot of birthdays but today's your lucky day! How was the force with you, Brother? ;) Love & fellowship, Danielle x
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Daily Reflections ~ The Forest and the Trees & 24hrs a Day
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. . . what comes to us alone may be garbled by our own rationalization and wishful thinking. The bene-fit of talking to another person is that we can get his direct comment and counsel on our situation. . . . TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 60 I cannot count the times when I have been angry and frus...
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Trapped in the barn.
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Yesterday it started to sprinkle while the goat and pony were tied up to a tree, so I set out to free them, allowing them to take cover in the barn if they so desired. I threw on the fishing hat that was laying on the picnic table as I casually meandered by. Seemed like it was going to be a nice gentle rain, sm...
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Sobering. Humble.
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I'm a Certified Nurses Aide. It's my job to help elderly recover from surgery and or to die with dignity.
I've had this job for a year. And there is a first time for everything.
I walk into this womans room. Never seen her before. Begin on personal care. And as I am putting her shirt over her head, she spas...
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Don't just talk about it... BE about it.
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Call a someone in AA. Does she want help planting some flowers? Maybe she would like to go out for tea. We could read the big book together and talk about it. Maybe just go for a walk together. Does she need help cleaning out a closet? Or organizing the attic? That's my plan of action today. What's yours?
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The 12 Steps to understand.
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I was just reading this and thought I would post it in the hope that any new members may be able to find confort with them. A program of loving that saves our lives. :} The 12 Steps and Principles Honesty Step 1. We admitted that we were powerless over alcohol - that our lives had become unmanageable. Hope...
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I Looked For Years ! ..
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I was never content with anything,the crass was always greener on the other side. I wished I had more money. I wished I was married. I wished people understood me. I wished I could stop drinking...Hmmm. All wishes. Looked For Years I looked for years, But could not see That all my mistakes Were caused b...
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Research
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Lost my 24s on day 13.
I did my taxes yesterday and found out I owe over $2000. I have exactly $1.12 in my savings account.
My family went out to dinner to celebrate my sister's birthday and a glass of wine was poured for me. I ordered a coke, but drank it and the wine. I had the one glass, and after th...
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Daily Reflections ~ Cleaning House & 24hrs a Day
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Somehow, being alone with God doesn't seem as em- barrassing as facing up to another person. Until we actually sit down and talk aloud about what we have so long hidden, our willingness to clean house is still largely theoretical. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 60 It wasn't unusual for me to...
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Living in the Now..
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Just though I would share what I did when I first got my Daily Reflections book. I read the first page January 1st I am a Miracle. How true is that for all of us :} I then went stright to my birth date June 9th. Living in the Now.. First we try living in the now just in order to stay sober and it works. Once the ide...
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Writer cannot write without drink
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So, here I am... listening to the same song on loop for the--fuck, who knows how many times. And I've already had five or six glasses of wine. My writing is intense when I drink, but I know I need to stop. I need to slow down. I need to stop putting my mind through this roller coaster, but it's the best way...
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we are not saints....
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If even the best of us on our best day had our character defects tattoed on our forehead we might pull our cap down to hide it. - something a longtimer said in a meeting tonight.
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The 10th step...
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Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it. See I know it. I also know how to do it. I have a loving, caring wife who doesn't refrain from giving me suggestions about self care. A couple of weeks ago I blinded myself in my right eye. I wasn't wearing safety glass...
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another first timer
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I woke up this morning and learned that I texted to my brother and posted some things online last night after I had blacked out that were not nice, so here I am! I've known I have been an alcoholic for several years and have tried many times to stop unsuccessfully. I'm tearing up as I type this because it h...
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Today I am responsible for my sobriety.
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Today I have choices and I choose to work at staying sober. I work at this not to be unhappy and sad. I work at this to be happy and fee.~*~A.A. Thoughts For The Day~*~^*^*^*^*^(\ ~~ /) ( \ (AA)/ )(_ /AA\ _) /AA\^*^*^*^*^Arrogance "I am a firm believer in bothguidance and prayer....
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It's one of those days...
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...when I can hardly recall what the past was like. Intellectually I can recount the horror story in intricate detail but, today, there is no emotional memory being dredged up. Just the facts, m'am, just the facts. Rather, gratitude, hope and serenity are what I am feeling. I love days like this!!! S...
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Daily Reflections ~ Healing Heart and Mind & 24hrs a Day
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Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 55 Since it is true that God comes to me through people, I can see that by keeping people at a distance I also keep God at a distance. God is nearer to me than I think and I can exp...
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Those little old ladies.
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They look at you with their hands on their cheeks, jaw dropped just a bit... as you go through the check out line with 2 little kids, 4 bottles of wine, and a box of macaroni and cheese. But my wine and cheese are organic... that proves I care about us right? I'll wait in the parking lot for her to come out, so...
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Memories
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Since starting to read the pages Polly suggested, memories are flooding my head like a movie reel when I go to bed. Some of them really jolt me, like when we were at the local RSL club. I was about 12, running around with friends outside and around the pokie machines. Mum was dancing with this older man...
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Hi :)
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My cousin called. She's graduating college in two weeks. She lives with her boyfriend of 4 years. She relapsed last year. She feels the anymosity our parents( aunts and uncles) are tearing our family apart. Which is true. But she called me and asked if I was still in the program, and I said yes. And so she...
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"Socially Acceptable Alcoholic"?
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http://www.sadanduseless.com/2011/08/how-to-properly-hide-booze-in-your-facebook-pictures/
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God Calling - Share with Me
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"I am the same yesterday, today, and forever. Joy in Me, trust in Me, share all life with Me, see Me in everything, rejoice in Me. Share all with Me as a child shares his pains and cuts and griefs and newfound treasures and joys and little work with his mother. And give Me the joy of sharing all with yo...
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You know what is amazing...
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...that one person who says that one thing to me. And that one thing is what touches my soul. In my newness and in the handful of meetings I've been to (I've just passed the point where I can no longer count the number of meetings on my fingers and toes), I'm amazed when the person I would have avoided in my o...
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The girl who melted my heart...Miss Blue
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To my favorite girl, Miss blue.One of my earliest recollections of sobriety came from the most heavenly of sources, my friend Miss Blue. There was just something about her, maybe it was her delicate nature or something like that, but something was different for sure. She had this smile that stretche...
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Try Not To Forget
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One of my sponcees lost his father to cancer last night. Fortunately, he's got almost 5 years in and a solid program so he should be OK. I lost my mother to that in 1996. I think I had 3 weeks under my belt. Everyone was complimenting me on how well I was handling it. But I wasn't handling it at all. I was just wa...
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Transition time
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A northeastern upstate New Yorker to a just north of Miami Florida in Pompano, the transition begins.It always begins with prayer,gratitude and an awareness of true blessings that LIFE free from the devastation of addiction brings.As long as I don't pick up I have a chance of many dreams to pursue...
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Happy 31st Bio Birthday, SoberSteve!
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I hope you're having a beautiful day enjoying you & your sobriety, brother! God bless you ;) Danielle x
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Whiney little poo
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I'm carrying my husbands midnight snack dish to the sink this morning, and I stop 4 or 6 times to stoop and pick up toys scattered down the hall, and a few that have trickled down the stairs. The same dish he walked past this morning, and the same toys he walked around. Am I just the maid? My whole inside sw...
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Need Help/Advice
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Hi, I have been sober for 7 months. About a month ago I finished an outpatient rehab. It was a lifesaving program. I have been sick for 10 years with Fibromyalgia. I am having a very hard time physically and connot get out to meetings. I have been doing some online but keep hearing I need to get out to meeti...
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New White Chip
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Tonight at my home group I got up when the secretary asked if anyone would like to recommit to their sobriety.
I had been nervous about this all week because all the folks there had seen me get one just two weeks ago.
I found myself thinking, "I wish I could tell everyone that I only had ONE drink,...
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Pages 62 - 68 of Big Book
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Hi, I'm not sure who posted about their sponsor, telling them to read these pages daily, but I am holding them responsible for taking the scales off my eyes. I read those pages at least 5 times yesterday, whenever I felt bothered about something. Then last night I was up from about 1-3.00am going throu...
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It is a simple program
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Go to a meeting. Say what is in my heart and soul, even when it means my voice cracks and tears flow. Get hugs. Listen to the guidance. Feel better. Rinse. Repeat.
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God Calling - Kill Self Now
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"Self dethroned - that is the lesson, but in its place put love for Me, knowledge of Me. Cease trying to forgive those who fretted or wronged you. It is a mistake to think about it. Aim at killing the self now, in your daily life, and then you will find there is nothing that even remembers injury, be...
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I think I found a higher power loophole for myself!
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I refuse to believe in any man made definition of god, heaven, hell or afterlife. In fact I've searched and found them all to be laughably rediculous. As you can imagine this has made acceptance of the Alcoholics Anonymous program somewhat difficult...impossible actually...but last night lying i...
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Fortune Cookie
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Earlier tonight we had fortune cookies with dinner. I saved mine until later. When the men got home from their meeting, one of them was telling me about an amends he had made at the meeting. The day before he had picked up his nine-month coin and another fellow who was his rival in a romantic relationship...
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I seriously considered telling you that I was dead
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Yeah, that's right. I was going to come on and pose as my girlfriend who was honoring a request left in my suicide letter for her to log in to my account here and tell you goodbye and that I wished you all well and hoped that my horrible end somehow compelled you to stay sober.
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