Sorry for your loss, Chaya. You are right, this is a horrible disease. Those of us who are able to find a HP to guide us through to the other side are truly the blessed and lucky ones. Thanks for reminding me of that.
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I asked God for all things that I may enjoy life. He gave me life so that I may enjoy all things.
(((Chaya)))...God you're so right...a truely horrible disease. I hear what it's done to you in the past and how it tries to take you out presently and I've listened as you trudged one step after the other to get where you are at in sobriety and how to want to keep it and then I also hear the alternative who was one month younger than you and I think again..."there but for the grace of God..." That's where we all are at, at the moment...in the grace of God. I'm grateful for your post for many more reasons than one. Mahalo for bringing it here. (((hugs)))
Hey Chaya.. I'm very sorry to hear this news. My sympathies and prayers are with you. I'm 36 so it's shocking to hear of this happening to someone around our age.
It's tragic when an alcoholic doesn't get help for their disease. Don't let her loss be in vain. One of my best drinking buddies died and it was the turning point of my sobriety. I had been floundering for a couple years to that point.
This disease does want us dead. Last night it was telling me lies. Because the better part of me sees this tragedy and is grateful for my sobriety and to be alive, the disease tells me lies. It knows it's losing and is trying a little harder. I'm not going for it. All I have to do is turn to my brothers and sisters in this program and I see the truth. My ex's disease tried to wrangle me in last night. It was seductive and played on my weaknesses. It took all my might but I turned away. Now, things look better by the light of day. I am strong. I am sober.
