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Really down in the dumps
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Terrible night tonight. Had someone say some pretty tough things about parts of my personality I already hate (basically about me being insecure). Was like salt in a wound. I'm so sick of feeling vulnerable and weak. My heart is absolutely leaden.
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runnergirl
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Meeting Makers Make It
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Just got home from a meeting. It's funny how change still can affect others no matter how long they have been sober in a negative manner. I hear a lot of people say God won't give me more than I can handle. But what happens when things get out of control? How long do I wan't to control things? How long do I wan...
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soberdrunk
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NEED SOME FEEDBACK!
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I have been going to AA meetings for about 3 years and i have a question to ask people on this site who maybe able to give me their thoughts.On some occasions at various AA meetings in different locations i find there can be a certain amount of,(how will i put it) people who i know of that are not happy with pe...
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brett
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What was it like your first time?
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Get your mind out of the gutter... I'm wondering what it was like for you all the first time you said out loud, "I'm X and I'm an alcoholic." I might be ready to say those words soon and I'm afraid. Very afraid of what that will be like.
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runnergirl
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Daily Reflections - We Pause... And Ask + 24hrs a Day
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As we go through the day we pause, when agitated or doubtful, and ask for the right thought or action. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p.87 Today I humbly ask my Higher Power for the grace to find the space between my impulse and my action; to let flow a cooling breeze when I would respond with heat; to interrupt fi...
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Tonight Online Meeting
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Hi All I plan on being on at both times 8 PM and 9 PM. Reason being some people forget the different time zones and daylight savings time changes. I do not know about a chairperson, if needed just chat and see where people are at or get out a 12 and 12, Daily Reflections. Or just questions, concerns, and lif...
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kld47
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4U Newcomers, Lurkers and Questioners
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This forum we use here is very intriguing, as it is utilized not only by people actively working the AA recovery process, but also those who are testing the waters of sobriety and in the exploratory process of their behaviors, trying to determine if they are an alcoholic and if so, if AA is a suitabl...
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Aquaman
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Diseased thinking
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I have sort of learned not to pay too much attention to the thoughts that run through my head cuz they are so nutty most of the time. However, as more time passes, I do sometimes get scary thoughts that I know is my disease talking to me. This would come in the form of "You were only drinking so much th...
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pinkchip
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Dropping in
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Good morning all Just wanted to drop in and say hi, I'm doing fine. Have had alot going on, and working more. Hope all had a good holiday, I'm slowly getting back into meetings as much as possible although my job takes up my time, along with kids. Had some legal matters to attend to and hopefully the matte...
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Tina
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still tired but feeling ok
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Hi all, Today I had these waves of tiredness and slept a lot on the couch. I am in good form but a little worried about how tired I am at times, though I am assured by my fellow members that this is ok. I am down to 2 boxes from 28, all sorted. I have to go to recycle tomorrow. 5 bags of stuffy. I have the filing cabi...
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newcomer
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Daily Reflections ~ Would a Drink Help? & 24hrs a Day
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By going back in our drinking histories, we could show that years before we realized it we were out of control, that our drinking even then was no mere habit, that was indeed the beginning of a fatal progression. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 23 When I was still drinking, I couldn't respond to a...
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Sobrietyspell
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The Promises Coming True...
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"Fear of people and economic insecurity will leave us" Well, I just gotta share this... So, today was my annual review. They started out by saying, "Congrats on your work in AA. There's a big difference and it shows. The first six months of last year you were stressed-out, drunk or hu...
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Aquaman
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A Message of Hope x
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Dear Newcomers@MIP I want to share a little of how I was & a message of hope for the difference A.A., this program & the fellowship have made in my life. When I first came into recovery I had been treading water for seven years in the hope life would get better. My heart despite its feist & self...
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Sobrietyspell
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Daily Reflections - Hitting Bottom + 24hrs a Day
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Why all this insistence that every A.A. must hit bottom first? The answer is that few people will sincerely try to practice the A.A. program unless they have hit bottom. For practicing A.A.'s remaining eleven Steps means the adoption of attitudes and actions that almost no alcoholic who is still dri...
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GOODBYE FOR NOW
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Well, the time has finally come when we have to start moving. Tomorrow we're renting a truck and packing a big load to haul to Chattanooga. Part of that load will be our computer. I'll be "unplugged" by this time tomorrow. Depending on how long it takes to get settled in, I may not be online for...
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jasperkent
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Anyone read this?
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I'm reading a good book right now that is helping me a bit with my negative self-talk... It's called A Path with Heart by Jack Kornfield. Just curious if any of you have read it...
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runnergirl
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but it is more important to list the things that DID work!!
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Saying the serenity prayer to regain sanity finding favorite reads in the big book telling the committee to shut up and then play my favorite music real loud call my sponsor or AA friend someone who has more sober time than me vacuum the heck out of the carpet paint something
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jj
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Daily Reflections ~ An Unsuspected Inner Resource
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With few exceptions our members find that they have tapped an unsuspected inner resource which they presently identify with their own conception of a Power greater than themselves. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, pp. 569-70 From my first days in A.A., as I struggled for sobriety, I found hope in these words...
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How We Get Here
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After reading today's Daily Reflection, I got to thinking about the various ways people find their way into AA. Some people hit bottom and seek help, others are court-ordered, some are trying prove to themselves they aren't alcoholic, some homeless folks are looking for free coffee and a warm spot...
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jasperkent
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My turn to fess up
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I'm so pissed at myself. How can I type an e-mail telling you all that I've been drinking, and feeling pretty down about it, while staring at a glass of wine. I left the store, then went back in... "I don't have to drink it. I can just get it." WTF? Not the first time that has happened. All...
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runnergirl
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The Courage To Change the Things I Can (and yet more sponsor angst).. a little rant I think
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I live in a city that I absolutely love, I moved here from San Francisco (another city that I absolutely love) about 2 1/2 years ago. When I got here I was sort of desperate for an apartment, looked around & settled- yes, settled- for the one I took. Where I've been ever since. The place is run by a slu...
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lukin
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Daily Reflections ~ Accepting Our Present Circumstances
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Our very first problem is to accept our present circumstances as they are, ourselves as we are, and the people about us as they are. This is to adopt a realistic humility without which no genuine advance can even begin. Again and again, we shall need to return to that unflattering point of departure. Th...
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Sobrietyspell
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Dream I had - window into my life with alcohol or am I reading too much into it?
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Last night/this morning I had the most vivid I can remember. Didn't think much of it when I got up other than its vividness. But a few hours later I'm standing in the shower at the gym recapping it and it hit me like a ton of bricks. Here goes. -------------------------- I was the passenger in a car being dr...
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DBZ
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It takes what it takes....
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Do not shut the door on the past. it is what lead up to the point where i was ready to do whatever it takes to be willing to surrender. Whatever it takes, for me, is meetings, working the 12 step program, being of service, reading AA books, praying, working on my conscious contact with God. We differ...
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jj
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I've been drinking
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No, I haven't called my sponsor or told my homegroup. I don't want to. I'm too damned ashamed. My wife left a week ago for a three-week research studies school-thing and I'm single dad for three weeks. While that isn't a big deal...it feels exactly like last year when she was gone five days a week for two...
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Aquaman
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Daily Reflections - No Regrets + 24hrs a Day
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We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p.83 Once I became sober, I began to see how wasteful my life had been and I experienced overwhelming guilt and feelings of regret. The program's Fourth and Fifth Steps assisted me enormously in healing those troubling r...
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Sobrietyspell
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Still Scared
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I was thinking about the last time I drank a couple of weeks ago and why that scared me. I simply could not stop. It was almost like an out of body experience except for the hangover and embarrassment the next day. Somehow made it back home (no driving, took taxis) and fell asleep on the dining room floo...
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Azul
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Happy New Year all
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Hi all! Sorry I haven't been here in an age. All is well, still sober, but really non-plussed with this snow :) Had relatives and travel to Europe and all that stuff and over a month has vanished! Great to be back with you guys! New Year's resolution will be to keep get online and come back more often! Al...
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SteveP
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The Musts of the Big Book......pretty cool
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I was at a meeting last night and one of the guys had gone to a big meeting on working the 12 steps. A workshop. He said last night that he and his sponsor kind of bumped heads on some of the stuff he learned. He brought up the must's in the book so I googled it and this is what I came up with. Enjoy! The "Must...
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soberdrunk
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ugh
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so today i was filling out a college app. for MCC. My mom called me and started a fight, she wasnt drunk but she was high off pills. i just havent been feeling as strong as i normally do...i feel sad and not myself. Lately everyday i feel shitty, im misrable in school because i hate high school i hate my hom...
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shannon elizabeth
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AA whilst still drinking
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why would any self confess A wanna continue going to meetings and still drink in secret? any esh would be grateful belle1
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belle1
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What am I going to do differently?
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A week ago I went on a bender and ended up driving myself in a blackout to a suicide/addiction facility at 4am I was discharged yesterday and find myself in a situation that is screaming for change. Oh, by the way, if you need to check yourself in somewhere for mental/addiction reasons, wait until the ne...
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Dodsworth
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Feeling low
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Hi All, weather really getting to me now, and facing another nine days apparently, I need to keep it in the day as I have plenty to do, a chapter to redraft, half a room to sort out files etc. My aa friends managed to make it to a convention in Galway as they could take main roads. I could not go as my son arrives...
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newcomer
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Winter Vomiting Virus...........
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....is very colourful, very tiring and leaves you ravenously hungry. At 1 a.m. on Friday I wake up wondering why I'm awake. Stomach is boiling and roiling. Decide I want a smoke and a cuppa. Get out of bed and notice that the temperature in the house is hovering below 6C. Boy did I projectile or what. Clea...
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bikerbill
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Keeping it in the day
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Guys, got out of the house today, way hay hay, thrilled. Purchased a state of the art coffee machine, very pleased with it, have experimented with my pipe in the kitchen, which is the frozen one and am nurs with a milk frother, nothing like a good quality coffee to get you going, am nursing my frozen pipe w...
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newcomer
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Bad times
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Just today, I had a fight with my grandmother. She was angry about the fact that I've been drinking, smoking, and not keeping up with my daily life. She even asked me if I was "afraid of her" specifically because I'd been telling lies about a lot of things. I asserted that I wasn't afraid of any...
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johnphilip19
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Happy 36th Anniversary Thomas
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Tuesday is our sailing friend's (and my St. Pete neighbor's) 36th Anniversary. Congrats and hope you're enjoying your Pacific crossing. By my estimates you're in Costa Rica on the other side of the Panama canal. There's a nice little casino in Flamingo beach resort. Hope that you're having a g...
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StPeteDean
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Scared. Trying to be grateful.
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Hi:When I got sober on Long Island they use to say a burden shared is a burden halved.I thought I was sober long enough that people would just think that if this guy doesn't know how to handle his life now he never will. Well guess what. if I don't share I'm just a community of one and I've been told a communit...
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runs10k11714
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Don't Know Where to turn with this issue
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Hi, I have 44 days sobriety from a bottle or two a night of wine habit. I'd been doing that for about 10 years but have had the addiction illness since I was a young child. It's manifested itself in my life in many ways over the years. I finally realized that I'm an alcoholic this past November. I'm 59 y...
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MAL
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Daily Reflections ~ The 100% Step
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Only Step One, where we made the 100 percent admission we were powerless over alcohol, can be practiced with absolute perfection. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 68 Long before I was able to obtain sobriety in A.A., I knew without a doubt that alcohol was killing me, yet even with this knowledg...
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Sobrietyspell
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A rare one
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but I'm sure not the first one...only for me. I got to witness a double coin ceremony this morning at my home meeting, "AA at the Bay"; the Sunday version. Two of our members, husband and wife, both receiving their 3 year anniversary coins at the same time. Got into the fellowship as a mar...
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Jerry F
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REGRETS AND GOALS.
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My sister is finally out of hospital,but she is in a strange quagmire of what steps to take next,(much like myself).I feel like a fraud trying to offer sum advice on her drinking when i have my own alcohol demons.i ask myself why offer advice on mowing ones backyard when mine is 3ft tall,am i being a hypoc...
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brett
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"I Came To Believe"
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So, I work in radio...right. Our music director gets CD's ALL THE TIME sent to him by this, that & the other recording company from every artist under the sun. Some frankly...are crap. Others are very good but just don't fit our station's format. All of them go into a pile on his desk that looks like m...
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Aquaman
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The "Joy" of recovery....
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Can't remember ever going to a meeting where the topic was the "Joy" of recovery and then I never say never anymore. That was this mornings topic at the end of our Wed. speaker meeting and HP does use others to get me to consider what I cannot or willnot do by myself. I shared from my own experi...
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Jerry F
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Run what you brung
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Hi, Pretty deep into my sobriety I still felt unsure with my God thing. So I got a little help. Wife and I found a half froze little puppy on the road.It's about zero out. I go to pick it up and it bites me. Get it home and see if we can keep it alive. It hides in a corner for a couple weeks but will drink a little war...
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Toad
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Daily Reflections ~ United We Stand
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We learned that we had to fully concede to our innermost selves that we were alcoholics. This is the first step in recovery. The delusion that we are like other people, or presently may be, has to be smashed. Alcoholics Anonymous, p. 30 I came to Alcoholics Anonymous because I was no longer able to con...
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Sobrietyspell
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Pajama Big Book Study
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Im just so excited....I wanted to share. A bunch of women in the program have all got together and decided to do a BB study....about 12 of us. First meeting was tonight, just to iron out details, timelines (16 weeks) meeting place (alano club) format etc. Anyhow, I suggested we all meet in our pj's. It pa...
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soberjulie
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Higher Power
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Been in the program for a while now and it is just now occuring to me as of late how important having a higher power in my personal life is. It's real easy for me to go to a meeting and talk the talk. Bringing it home in my own personal life is a different story. As i read the Big Book now all I see are references to...
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soberdrunk
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A CRISIS OF FAITH..... or just an old relative that refuses to leave.....
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Hi All, Today I am feeling good, fear must be bothering someone else today, it has not visited me for a few days.and in those few days. Have been really thinking (not always a good thing, right) but wondering how it gets in, never invited. But there it is, occupying a space in my head, til I make a plea to my H...
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Just Toni
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An interesting story to share...
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I just had an interesting conversation with a friend and thought I'd share it. But first, some background information. When I was newly sober, I dated a guy for a few months and it ended when he gave me herpes and then denied that he gave it to me, judged me for it and broke up with me. Yeah, nice. But on t...
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Simple
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