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Daily Reflections ~ "I Had Dropped Out" & 24hrs a Day
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We might next ask ourselves what we mean when we say that we have "harmed" other people. What kinds of "harm" do people do one another, anyway? To define the word "harm" in a practical way, we might call it the result of instincts in collision, which cause physical, me...
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I am scared... I cannot stop crying. I am an alcoholic. I was unable to say it before today. I keep saying it to myself. In my head and outloud. I am going to my first meeting in 2 hours and I am scared. I don't want to be an alcoholic but I am. I was on this board before and after a few days maybe a week I had...
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-- Edited by Harobed 2 on Saturday 11th of August 2012 03:50:33 PM -- Edited by Harobed 2 on Saturday 11th of August 2012 04:16:06 PM
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Stand up & dust off
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I drank on wednesday. But only 2 and a half beers. And the whole time I thought "I look ridiculous with a drink in my hand" and envisioned myself as that beer belly 40 year old woman at a bar with a smokers voice and a cigarette. Drinking is not attractive. Anyway, I drank 2 and ahalf, went to bed,...
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Happiness
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Happiness is NOT burying empties in the trash, double wrapped and bagged. Happiness is feeling refreshed in the morning, or tired, but not hungover. Happiness is telling your kids you're drinking tea, and it's really tea. Happiness is making plans with your family, and remembering them. Happine...
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I'm a little boy
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With a little boy haircut, a little boy attitude and a little boys sense of responsibility. I like getting into mischief and I'm always a great puppydog-eyes apologizer. People close to me love me but they never expect much from me and deep down that suits me just fine. For some reason they let me get awa...
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Today's Gift
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Saving the World Today may my prayers help me realize I cannot control everything. To put the world in order, We must first put the nation in order; To put the nation in order, We must first put the family in order; To put the family in order, We must first set our hearts right. -- ConfuciusYou are reading f...
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Angry birds
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My kids (and husband) love the game angry birds. Essentially, you just fling this bird at a big pile of stuff, and try to knock it over with different sorts of birds, that can do different things. The pile gets harder and harder to knock over. Somehow, I have been transformed into an angry bird this we...
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i relapsed..
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Hard to admit, especially since I was doing so good and many members I was talking to in PM even said that I might due to my EARLY marriage...(was this a setup to faIl)? I dont know I just pray you all can forgive me and accept that I am coming back honest and open, after 8 months of sobriety I F'D up but I am bac...
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Question Regarding Medical Marjiuana And Sponsorship.
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Hello, my name is Dominique and I am an alcoholic addict. Before a recent relapse I was in the program for nine months; but during eight of those I was smoking marijuana to relieve the pain from my many stomach diseases, so I only received a one month chip. Now that I am back after my relapse though, I am fi...
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I've decided to take the suggestion of attempting some controlled drinking
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I hope that this doesn't come across as disrespectful to any of you or to the program. I have nothing but love in my heart for both. I just find myself unconvinced that I belong. If I turn out to be wrong I hope that I'll be welcomed back. My reasoning is this, as I get older these downward spirals seem to be le...
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Negativity
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In my opinion the spirit of Alcoholics Anonymous is a spirit of love, compassion, tolerance, and understanding. Our first tradition states - Our common welfare should come first; personal recovery depends upon A.A. unity. I have read on our board posts that are contrary to the beliefs of AA. It b...
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The AA Big Book and 13th Steppers ?
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Hi there. Some of you may remember me. "Doll". I couldn't remember my password and my email address has changed since then so I had to "re-register'. Anyway, it's good to be here again! On 9/22 I will celebrate 5 years! I can't believe how time flies........ Which brings me to my subje...
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Today's Gift
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Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him. --Step Three of Alcoholics Anonymous Let's cut right to the heart of the matter: We get in trouble if we try to run our own lives. Our ego starts to mess things up. We try to control things we can't control. We think we a...
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Today's thought
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Heard at a meeting tonight: "Sometimes you can be too smart for this program, but you can never be too dumb." I think there is a hell of a lot of truth in that.
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Gratitude
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Hey all:) today I just wanted to write about gratitude. I am profoundly grateful for sobriety. My life has changed tremendously since becoming sober. Im grateful for the fellowship of aa.. Never thought I'd say THOSE words lol. The fact that I have God in my life everyday, and that I welcome that relat...
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God Calling - Rule The World
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"What is wrong in your country? Think out quietly, and make these matters your prayer matters. You will see lives you never touch altered, laws made at your request, evils banished. You may never go beyond one room and yet you may become one of the most powerful forces for good in your country, i...
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RIP My Best Friend Ever! (sobbing)
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I'm crying like a freaking baby after me and my sister were crying together about our best friend ever dying... We had her for anout 12+ years and her name was Pumpkin, and she will never ever ever be forgotten... she will be in our hearts forever. Poem: rainbow Bridge: Author Unknown Just this side of...
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Question regarding AA members sharing with Al-Anon
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Question. My spouse is in Al-Anon and I'm in AA. My spouses's Al-Anon sponsor has a spouse who's an alcoholic attending the same AA meetings as I am. I love my group hall (location) and cannot afford to leave but, I wonder since the alcoholic spouse has been sober a lot longer than I, would said spous...
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Yay!
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Yay! After much studying and anxiety, I passed the licensure test to become a Licensed Mental Health Counselor. I put that crap off for 15 years thinking there was no way to get to a license after dropping out of my Ph.D program in clinicial psychology. As it turned out, I had to take 3 grad school clas...
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Backsliding solution
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Sometimes, especially early in recovery, it feels like we are taking two steps forward and one step back. Go forward twelve steps and you'll never have to go back.
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God Calling - Stray Sheep
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"For straying there is no cure except to keep so close to Me that nothing can come between us. Sure of that, you can but stay at My side, knowing that, as I am the very Way itself, nothing can prevent your being in the Way, nothing can cause you to stray." 365 One-Minute Meditations from God Ca...
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Happy Birthday Tasha
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Congratulations on what? .. your 56th BD ??? (aka 29, ... yeah, right!)(Jack Benny never got over 39 either) __________________ -- Edited by Pythonpappy on Wednesday 8th of August 2012 12:28:11 PM
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I've just read "5 people you meet in heaven"
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I just read "5 people you meet in heaven"... And I got some pretty good "ohhh, ok now I get it" moments. But, lookin at my resentments, I'm still kinda like "WTF you do that for?" And then I realized, there was this event that divided my life... Similar to BC vs AD. and I re...
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Global perspective
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I'm genuinely asking. Why do NA and AA rival? Their sybling programs. I'm pretty sure that in the steps themselves, there is only one word change. Do AA and NA rival in your neck o the woods? And what state/providence do you live in? (that's obviously optional by the way) I live in pa and NA and AA are so &qu...
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The honesty part of the program
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Recently, Frodo said, "...because how I'd need to break the law here to do it which would mess with the honesty part of the program..." I have heard something else a few weeks back about the law and the honesty part of the program that I dismissed but Frodo has me curious. Do you think that fol...
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Today's Gift
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If you would be loved, love and be lovable. --Benjamin Franklin We all desire to be loved. Our common human characteristic is our need to count in someone else's life. At least one other person needs us, we tell ourselves, when we feel least able to accept life's demands. How alike we all are. The parado...
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Manageability???
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Admitting unmanageability "What do you mean, 'unmangeable'?" we ask when we first come into the program. (And we are surprised at the smiling faces and suppressed chuckles.) We have been living with our delusions for so long that we really believe everything is okay - or will be okay nex...
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Grandma's Are Smarter Than Teenagers
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Grandmas Birth Control Pills********* The doctor that had been seeing an 80-year-old woman for most of her life finally retired. At her next checkup, the new doctor told her to bring a list of all the medicines that had been prescribed for her. As the young doctor was looking through these, his eyes g...
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WE ALL CLAP FOR TODAY..
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Its a miracle if we can even go a FULL 24 hours/day being clean and sober.... think about it, hence MIP...
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"legitimate resentments"
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Hey all:) I haven't really spoken to my Mother since being sober. This isn't a conscious choice, per se, more an outcome of my own wacky work schedule. Of course, there have been many opportunities to call, she has left me numerous messages.. I've left many in return. I'll call her when I'm at work, to en...
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Selfishness.... Really?
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I heard something at a meeting this morning that I don't know that I've "heard" before. A guy mentioned that sometimes we hold issues/resentments/problems/inner struggles inside and don't share them soon enough. It also takes sharing something with another alcoholic for us to realiz...
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My heart is heavy laden
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I filed for divorce today. I know no big decision in the first year of sobriety. However, I filed the first time a year ago, while I was sober, my husband is an in additive addiction. We were seperated but he begged that I stopped the divorce and to take him back and after 10 months of living apart, we gav...
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Thanks for the the birthday wishes : )
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Thanks everyone : ) It's the first birthday I can remember, that I wasn't truly and utterly disappointed and actually crying about it... you know... when they did not hire a circus, or send me into outer space, or have Elvis come back to life and sing love me tender to me, and only me. They didn't have a thr...
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God Calling - Empty Yourself
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"Rely on Me alone. Pay all out in the spirit of trust that more will come to meet your supply. Empty your vessel quickly to ensure a divine supply. So much retained by you, so much the less will be gained from Me. It is a law of divine supply. To hold back, to retain, implies a fear of the future, a want...
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Meetings!!
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I never stay away from a meeting because I will shut myself out. I will have the key to enter, but I will not be able to open that door.
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velcro wall
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I've always thought I should line one of my dining room walls completely in Velcro - get my kids suits made entirely of velcro - and then just stick them to it. I've thought it would teach them to appreciate detaching in a fun way. Do you guys think they would learn anything? Sometimes it seems like they ar...
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Today's Gift
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Letting go If addiction is about control, recovery is about letting go. If addiction is about denial, recovery is about accepting what is. As we spend time in the program, we learn something unexpected and amazing. Life is so full of twists and turns, it's easier to follow along than to try to straight...
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Hahaha I'm crazy
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Yesterday, I was sitting down to begin the resentments piece of my 4 step. I meditated for a little while before I sat down with it. And then I looked and thought... Resentments? I don't have any... Except myself.
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Picture
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Has any of you seen the picture called Calvary? I ordered it last night and it won't stay out of my head. It depicts a drug addict shooting up into his arm, but it's really his HP's arm (Jesus). It's shocked me but at the same time it rings true. Tracey
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the past
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hey peeps. i'm quite shaken up right now and thought al-anon is the best place i can turn to for advice on this. i may post this on AA too to get advice from recovering AAers. hope that's ok. i've just discovered my fiancé (recovering) has a bit of a criminal past. i knew about one thing that happened (DUI) b...
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Cleaning house
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Hey all:) So, I've decided to clean and organize the heck outta my apartment. I've lived in this apartment for 2 years now. I love it.. 3rd floor of a huge rambling Victorian-era house. Only the couple who own the house and I reside in it-it's simply lovely:) Put simply, my place is a freakin mess-clothe...
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Today's Gift
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I love being able to say, "I was wrong," or "I made a mistake," and not feel like it's the end of the world. --Carol C. Before recovery, we felt so guilt-ridden we couldn't bear to admit we were less than perfect. Since our insides seemed so awful, we clung to an outside appearance o...
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After the Flood
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So yesterday, I was working in another town. Boy was it raining. As I drove back home, feeling a little grumbly (raining again, roads flooded again, bugger) I decided to call off at the food shop to get a few bits and some ready meals (TV Dinners to you, also found some curried haggis tho') The landlady of...
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My best friend relapsed
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My best friend who i got sober with a year and a half ago relapsed 2 days ago. When she told me this morning, it made me question my own sobriety. I feel so lost and confused, I know I can't let my sobriety be dependant on her, but I feel so different now. She is saying she is sick of A.A., the people are messed up...
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Today's Gift
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Returning to Basics Now and then, an AA discussion focuses on the theme of "returning to the basics." This is a good time to shake out the excessive concerns that might be cluttering up our lives. No matter how long we've been living in sobriety, we can never afford to dismiss the basic reaso...
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AA the movie
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Watched my name is bill last night on YouTube. Thought it portrayed alot of the altruism about aa. But I didn't see alot of the oxford group mentioned.
Have you seen the movie? What were yourthoughts?
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A sincere thak you to the people on this board and a sincere goodbye.
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After a lot of serious consideration I've decided that I'm going to deal with my issues in a different way. I've come to believe that alcohol isn't the cause of my problems but simply a symptom. For as long as I can remember I've struggled with my self image, self esteem and a lot of other things relating b...
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Couple of things I thought I'd share
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When I first started going to meetings, I always had a small pad and pen with me so I could jot down things others shared that really struck me. After a while I started carrying a smaller purse (under the guise of less room less clutter Haha!!!) Anyway, I now have a smartphone and use the notepad app on it i...
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need direction on sponsorship
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Hi, I am new and very alone in a new city. I have 47 days of sobriety. I am thinking and feeling with a lot less fog, and feeling lots of emotions and resentments that are hard to know how to deal with, but committed to not drinking a day at a time. Here is what I need to run by people. I am on my 4th step with spo...
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