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my inner child
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hi again , today is a weird day for me , yesterday i connected with my inner child about some painfull childhood experiences , i was driving home , it was so overwhelming , i almost couldnt drive and the pain was so immense as if i was only 5 again , i got the thought to drinkk and it consumed me, but it wasnt dri...
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Daily Reflections ~ Sacrifice Unity Survival & 24hrs a Day
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The unity, the effectiveness, and even the survival of A.A. will always depend upon our continued willingness to give up some of our personal ambitions and desires for the common safety and welfare. Just as sacrifice means survival for the individual alcoholic, so does sacrifice mean unity and sur...
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Daily Reflections ~ A Rippling Effect & 24hrs a Day
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Having learned to live so happily, wed show everyone else how. . . . Yes, we of A.A. did dream those dreams. How natural that was, since most alcoholics are bankrupt idealists. . . . So why shouldnt we share our way of life with everyone? TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 156The great discovery of s...
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Step 3
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Everything's got a moral, if only you can find it. --Lewis Carroll We must make many choices in our recovery. Some of these will strengthen our character, for they will be hard to make and sometimes even harder to accept. One of the most meaningful sayings in our program is Let go and let God. We understa...
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eastcoastscott
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Writing b/c I don't want to...
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Thirty days sober today, first time in about twenty years. Things are pretty great. However, I've hit a bump. I'm pissed and continually irritated with everything since Sat. morning. I feel resistant to using all the tools in place for relief, so I'm writing this just to say it outloud. Pisssed...
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angelov8
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Help..
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I am becoming extremely depressed over my situation, and thoughts of suicide.... I was at a meeting the other night and the emotions were so hard to deal with. I walked out crying half way through sharing. I can't take it anymore. Lawyers fees are piling up, haven't seen my son in 7 months, and I stand to...
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The AA Birthday
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Today someone in a meeting I went to said she was 2 years old. That got me reflecting once again on my AA birthday (see "Gack!" thread for more) On the coin we receive in commemoration of our AA birthday, are the following words: "To Thine Own Self Be True" I believe those words are...
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FlyingSquirrel
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help
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Hey this is Jeannie Haven't been on for awhile but I do check in once and again. Lots of great stuff and new comers- welcome. Let's get to it - I have a great problem with my partners sons girlfriend. It is obvious that she is using him and expects him to wait on her hand and foot. She just turns my stomach...
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jeannie
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Note to All@MIP
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Can I kindly remind everyone who visits & posts at MIP that in keeping with Tradition 12 we put principles before personalities.Though we cannot guarantee its privacy it is hoped that our private messaging service can be assumed to be private unless someone is receiving abuse from another...
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Sobrietyspell
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Gratitude for what we don't have
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Sometimes I have trouble seeing the forest through the trees. Finding gratitude in simple things is difficult at times. Someone suggested thinking about what I am grateful I don't have now after almost 9 months sober: Grateful I dont have: Dry heaves every morning Vicious hangovers Constant pai...
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pinkchip
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"Normal" isn't always healthy
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Awhile back I shared with everyone that I received a letter from my daughter. A daughter I haven't seen in eight years. We have made plans to spend the fourth of July together. At that time, I'll meet my son-in-law for the first time, as well as two grandchildren. But there is more to this story then just m...
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Dave Harm
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Getting a much needed AA renewal!!!!!!!!!
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Welp, I am done with my latest 4th Step, and ready to share with my sponsor over breakfast on Sunday. It is getting easier to take inventory, and not to attach the "poor me's" or a bunch of beating-myself-up to it. It is not nearly as long (thank God) as the first time around. But it shows me exac...
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jonijoni1
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How would you answer this ? or would you answer at all?
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I'm focusing my thoughts on things other than my terminally ill father today, it being Father's Day and all. So I started the thread on the definition of sobriety because I needed help with the below email I rec'd. I was hoping you all could shed some light for me. As I know all too well where that line o...
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Doll
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Dream Theater - The 12 Step Saga
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One of my FAVORITE bands has released a grouping of songs, each from different albums, which (when put together in a certain order) form what's call "The 12 Step Saga." The songs were written by drummer Mike Portnoy, and the opening line of the first song says it all ... "Cunning, Baff...
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joelo
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A couple of reflections on the "Our Father" prayer
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Some people don't like saying it and that's totally fine. Hopefully this won't turn into a discussion about whether it should ever be said at meetings or any other religious discussion... I'm not religious myself, was Agnostic for a while and even Atheist at one point, but I was raised Catholic (sti...
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FlyingSquirrel
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Are you a Recovering Alcoholic that lives with Asthma?
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Hi To all,
Just wanted to ask, hoping that with large polulation of this site, that I might be able to communicate maybe in Private Messaging, and ask some questions I have regarding the New Asthma Medications on the market. If you have asthma, then you know that the law changed as to what these medica...
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toni baloney
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Temptation
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So I went to a family party with my mom and dad today. There was lots of alcohol (beer and hard liquor). Some how I was able to refrain from drinking any of it. It wasn't easy.
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kkotz401
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Daily Reflections ~ A Two-Way Street & 24hrs a Day
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If we ask, God will certainly forgive our derelictions. But in no case does He render us white as snow and keep us that way without our cooperation. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 65When I prayed, I used to omit a lot of things for which I needed to be forgiven. I thought that if I didnt mention tho...
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Sobrietyspell
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Do you know your Drinking pattern?
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One of the things that really helped me bust through the remainder of my denial was writing down (and memorizing) my drinking pattern of behavior, or my "MO". For me, I'd get bored or lonely, feel sorry for myself, tell myself that I deserve to have a drink (and that I could just have one or tw...
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StPeteDean
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....restore us to sanity
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When most of us come into recovery, our lives are like living in a blender. The chaos and mayhem are unbearable. Our emotions are on steroids and we can't make sense of anything. That was me anyway, so it became perfectly clear to me that my first objective was to regain my sanity. With abstinence, a clea...
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eastcoastscott
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Violence
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HELP! Trying to cope. I've never been violence before (with my wife) I KNOW she is trying to use my alcoholism to justify her affair and our ulitmute divorce, (yet to come I guess) . I've never been violent. I'm about to lose it. A drink sounds great. I know it won't help. I'm ready to leave, but don'...
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Made it back home.
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I went back tonight, my first meeting in 2 years. It was a step study and this week it's step 10. Perfect. I recognized a few of the faces but nobody recognized me. I prefer it that way, I needed a low profile for this first meeting back. I hadn't been to this particular meeting in about 5 yrs. My old home grou...
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karen
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Some had asked but I cant find the thread : "Where in the BB....."
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Pg. 133, 4th edition, "The Family Afterward" : "But this does not mean that we disregard human health measures. God has abundantly supplied this world with fine doctors, psychologists, and practitioners of various kinds. Do not hesitate to take your health problems to such perso...
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Doll
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Some stuff I'm uneasy about...
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My twin sister has been in and out of prison/jail for the past 25+ yrs. She is alcoholic/addict and everything that goes along with that while living on the streets. We (her family) rarely hear from her unless she is back in jail and needs money or stamps, etc. About 2 yrs. ago she applied for SSI and she is...
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karen
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Mixed emotions
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Today is father's day. A made-up day that seems to cause me to feel a variety of emotions. I have two children, my Dad died when I was 21, (39 now.) I was holding my Dad's hand in the hospital when he died...I was drunk. Every year, my kids give gifts and spend time with me. After a while, my wife and them w...
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4 days sober and really really struggling
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I was hoping someone could impart some words to help me get through this very challenging time. This is the first time I have really tried to stop drinking- I have attended meetings in the past but never stopped getting drunk. I feel that the odds are significantly stacked against me staying sober be...
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Bicyclemechanic
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NEW
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WELL..JUST FOUND THIS TONIGHT...THE DAYS HAVE BEEN LONG AND LONELY...MY NIGHTS SLEEPLESS..KEEP THINKING THAT I'LL GET UP A NEW DAY WILL BE BETTER.....JUST MOVED TO A NEW AREA AND THERE NO MEETINGS FOR MILES....NO CAR NO FRIENDS IN THE AREA.....THE ONLY THING THAT COMES TO MIND IS ......LET GO AND LE...
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beverly
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Peace
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I wanted to share what I felt this past Sunday with all of you.... I decided to re pot my peace lilies;one of which was from my grandfathers funeral(my Granny got 9 of them and wanted all the grandbabies to have one) so I brought one home and have had it here for 1 month now, I took them both outside so I coul...
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I did it again...
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I can't seem to stop. I'm a binge drinker and I've been in and out of AA for about 10 yrs. I do want badly to stay sober but every 3 or 4 months I get drunk and then I'll drink once a week for about a month. Then the whole thing starts all over again. I hate myself the day after I drink. The guilt and remorse is just t...
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karen
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Daily Reflections ~ Today, I'm Free & 24hrs a Day
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This brought me to the good healthy realization that there were plenty of situations left in the world over which I had no personal powerthat if I was so ready to admit that to be the case with alcohol, so I must make the same admission with respect to much else. I would have to be still and know that He, not I...
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AA's Definition of Sobriety
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Does it mean, you can have a drink or 2 or a slip when taking a swallow (or drinking "non" alcoholic beer which btw has alcohol in it!) , as long as you don't get DRUNK, you're fine? It doesn't count? Or does sobriety mean what Bill W and Dr. Bob intended - COMPLETE ABSTINENCE ? ~ Jen 1940 AA Preamb...
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Doll
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For Inspiration
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I just got a starfish pendent from my Grandma that reminded me of this story. Thought I would post it. Once upon a time, there was a wise man who used to go to the ocean to do his writing. He had a habit of walking on the beach before he began his work. One day, as he was walking along the shore, he looked down the...
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kkotz401
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NOT practicing these principles in all our affairs...
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so i just signed up for this website because my sponsor told me to find online AA things. and because i have swine flu and i am stuck at home. (my NC-suggested quarantine ends in 2 days, yay!) so i am pretty new with only 4+ months under my belt. and i don't really know how stuff works in the program. but a few o...
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tatigaal
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How to help others.
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I'm still having a hard time with staying sober. I AM going to meeting now, and trying to start an the steps. Trying to focus on me and healing myself. I nkow that I am no where near being the person to really give advise, but... I had a meeting with my boss, (at a bar.) While I was there ,about an hour, he h...
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Toxic Shock...
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Aloha Family... I've been in toxic shock before...overdose of alcohol; too much, too quickly, too compulsive. Then I was led into recovery and I have never had to do that again yet at the moment I am coming down from toxic shock from another angle... I was called out to and agreed to a 12th step this mor...
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Jerry F
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I LOVE THIS ONE
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I want my higher power to live in my heart full time, but he'll only take a 24 hour lease. It's amazing how good I feel when I get connected to my Higher Power. I do this when I pray and meditate in the mornings.or when I speak to or help someone in the program. Or when I attend meetings. I love the peace I feel...
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Tina
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sober
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21 mos. sober, working my steps. have a sponser. talking to my higher power/god. have a defect of character. i've been raised to believe that if it smells like crap it probably is! so do'nt piss on my leg and tell me it's raining out. spirtitual awakening, there will be many false prophets. be careful w...
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maybee
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HAPPY FATHERS DAY!!!
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Morning Just want to wish the men on MIP board, for all those as well who are Fathers and STEP Fathers a very warm HAPPY FATHERS DAY!! Hope this day brings lots of Happy Moments for all of you. Tomorrow may it bring peace and happiness Tina
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Tina
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The A.A. way of living is not an easy one.
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A.A. Thought for the Day The A.A. way of living is not an easy one. But it's an adventure in living that is really worthwhile. And it's so much better than our old drunken way of living that there's no comparison. Our lives without A.A. would be worth nothing. With A.A., we have a chance to live reasonably...
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Dad begins chemo tomorrow.
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The cancer, this time, is in-operable. Chemo was his only choice. So, my dad decided to give it a shot. At 73 and in such bad health all ready, I just don't know if he'll survive the treatment. That's some ROUGH stuff to say the least. I'm so scared for him ~ I have asked my HP to remove my fear and replace it wi...
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Doll
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Is my program working?
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In February I decided that I wanted to apply to our national police force. This would require me to write an exam, fill out reams of paperwork, do the gruelling physical exam, interview, polygraph, medical exam, psych exam, background security check and final assessment. After that, 6 months at a po...
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Tradition 10
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Hello to all, I am looking for other folks opinion on a local matter that has caused some controversy. A friend of ours is a newspaper write. He wrote an article that some want to debate referring to the traditions . I am the local Intergroup Chairperson & am looking ofr feedback. Your thoughts are a...
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LuckySailor
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Where to go from here?
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Over the past several months, I've gotten to know a few of you. I respect your opinions and different views. We all have different paths in life and different outcomes. I guess, as sad as it may seem, I'm still stuck on step 1. I know I'm not happy as a drunk, but I don't see it much better sober. I kno...
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formula for happiness
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http://video.msn.com/?mkt=en-us&vid=43e75704-4f56-44a5-810e-e40224b17b58&playlist=videoByTag:tag:new%20year%2C%20new%20you:ns:Gallery:mk:us:vs:1&from=MSNHP&tab=m123030726899...
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Sick of being sick
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self sabotage
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Hi , if i didnt know that my best thinking got me into the rooms of AA here is my confirmation,i aplied to university to start a course in october in addiction counselling , and i went for my interview process friday and saturday just gone , and i will find out by this friday if i got in.So i have been having th...
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natshen
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Ugh. Burning resentment now. Need some support.
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I had it out with my sponsor today. Now ex-sponsor. This has been building up for a while. I have been slowly realizing he can't take me any further, plus he only has 14 months more sobriety than I do and I need to move on. I do think, at heart, he is a good person, but he has a really nasty streak running th...
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pinkchip
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Dealing With Emotions
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Seen a lot fo discussion on emotions here lately. So I thought I'd keep it going and put in my two cents. My dominant emotions and feelings in early recovery were: abandonment (lover and family), helplessness, anger (mostly at myself), fear (of loneliness, of drinking, AND of being sober), insecur...
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jonijoni1
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reworking the steps????
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No sooner than we had a conversation here about pain/back prob's, my back goes out yesterday, the pain taking my normally 110/70 blood pressure up to a whopping 150/98!! So, the HP has me sitting here on my butt for the day, worrying about work (some crap has hit the fan lately.... I have a crappy attitu...
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jonijoni1
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Dream Free Sleep
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Since stopping drinking and getting into the programme, generally I've enjoyed refreshing, dream free sleep. While drinking I was either plagued with nightmares or just passed out. Recently though, I've been dreaming while asleep and remembering them. Most times they're quite pleasant but som...
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bikerbill
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Depression and Fear, must be cousins.......
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Hi All,
I have been battling some bouts of depression, and when they are there, in comes FEAR.
I have always tried to use that old truth saying anaolgy, that Faith and Fear CANNOT co-exist.
Then the battle begins, every circumstance in this world, no matter how big or small is simply in God's Hand...
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toni baloney
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