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When the desire to drink returns....
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.............bloody complacency! I was away in Birmingham yesterday and today. Good meeting with my new boss, very mutually supportive. Checked into the hotel then went for a walk along the canal. Daydreams about living on a narrow boats finally laid to rest - looked bloody cold and where would I p...
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To Boldly go
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beyond 3000 posts It's been a lot of fun and has helped keep me sober. Thanks to all of you.
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Im still here and hangin in there!
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I just wanted to let everyone know Im still hanging in there, I had a slip up last week but Im back to a week sober today... Still going to meetings everyday and checking into this site. I do alot of reading but still feel too new to post too much. Its getting easier to catch my triggers before The catch m...
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So I raised my hand...
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Monday a student from the town's college came into our noon meeting and asked if anyone would be willing to talk to a group of 50 or so college freshman about their experience with alcoholism and how it started, focusing on the dangers of binge-drinking and how alcoholism destroys lives. The group sec...
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Having a go at another life changing plan
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Well last night I wasn't feeling physically well. I was trembly and achy and nauseous. So I asked a neighbour for a lift to a meeting as I didn't think driving would be a bright idea. On the way there I developed a headache, which turned into a light sensitive headache. Now of course, I spent the next hour a...
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bikerbill
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A Pirate Looks Back At 50
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With immense gratitude I'm wrapping up another sober decade and beginning a new one. Working today hopefully finishing a nice project in Tampa, and it's going to be wonderful day in the 70's. The wife's family wanted to give me a party, but I haven't had a birthday party since I was 20 and after lookin...
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Just so dang tired of this...
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Not really sure what to say here, or why I'm even posting. I'm just so sick and tired of feeling like this. I've been sitting here trying to think of the appropriate word and I think I've found it... Despair. I've used my phone list and talked to one person. It helped some. Tried to call my sponsor, but...
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runnergirl
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Help me...
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Need serious sponsor in my area that can lead me through a long term relationship that I have fudged up!!!
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Fallen
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PAWS
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When I initially got sober I suffered from mood swings, I couldn't sleep, I would get obsessive, I would cry, I fell in love at least 18 times...the first week...in short I was a mess. Now I was going to meetings and talking to others but they would say things like "this is normal" and "no...
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AGO
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Daily Reflections ~ Today, It's My Choice & 24hrs a Day
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. . . we invariably find that at some time in the past we have made decisions based on self which later placed us in a position to be hurt. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p.62 With the realization and acceptance that I had played a part in the way my life had turned out came a dramatic change in my outlook. It was at th...
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Wednesday, March 10, 6:31am
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I've made my rounds in the "drunken, sad sop" and "sober" circles. The birds just started chirpin, that's when you know you're in trouble, at least semi-morally. There arises a sort of moral center when the birds chirp. That is a funny occurrence, but still mostly disturbing....
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Going back out there
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Hi All, In the last few days a fellow AA member has gone back out there. I am upset, but as my sponsor pointed out, no human power could stop her. It makes me feel so fearful and I am sorry if this sounds selfish. I still get cravings quite badly at times where I need to take it a minute at a time. They are less tha...
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Attended my first AA meeting today.. couple of questions.
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Hello everyone. I'm an alcoholic and it's beyond time to quit. I hate waking up, worrying about my first drink. Every day has become like the movie Groundhog Day. I want to quit. I NEED to quit. I've lost girlfriends, friends, and become secluded from my family. I come from an addictive family. My mothe...
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Privacy verses Secrets in recovery....
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We're as sick as our secrets. We all have a right to our privacy. But, when does the privacy end & the secrets begin? This topic came up in group & sometimes I have trouble distinguishing between the two!!!
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Tessa
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Of stories and movie critics
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While reading a book called "The Spirituality of Imperfection" -- which was full of different sayings (True sayings? Untrue sayings? The book kind of lets you draw your own conclusions) -- one of the sayings which stood out to me was, "God created Man because He loves stories.&quo...
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FlyingSquirrel
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Feeling Better - warning long post!
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Since I had created a post a week or so ago that showed how crazy I can be, I thought I'd follow up with a little more positive experience, strength and hope. As I mentioned before, I am facing a lot of changes in the next few months: a new baby, my husband commuting for a while, and moving to another city inc...
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got my brake discs!
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If this works, there should be a picture of a pair of brand new old stock brake discs. If not, just use your imagination! Just to clarify, I have waited almost a year for these - patience and tolerance - in the 'good' old days maybe I would've said the hell with the waiting and either drove with faulty brake...
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bikerbill
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My wife did a wonderful thing for me this morning
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I wanted to share this with my MIP family because it meant allot to me, and it may give someone here a little hope. This morning I woke up a little earlier than normal. My wife was already up getting ready for work, and I was stumbling around trying to find my way to the coffee pot (I don't do well before a fe...
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Something that struck me
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I know it says in the Big Book that we are people who would otherwise not mix, but boy... I so appreciate going to a meeting and seeing people of different ages and backgrounds really relate to and care about each other. The meeting I went to last night was fantastic. I was initially disappointed, tho...
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runnergirl
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My faith's been restored....
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Every now & then I feel my faith waivering in the AA program. Tonight I went to a speaker meeting & ended up losing $16 bucks out of my jeans pocket. I went around where I was sitting looking for the money & figured that was the end of it. A few minutes later a guy heard I'd lost some money & he...
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Tessa
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Nightmares...straight out of HELL!!
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Hi Everyone, Just wanted or rather needed to write about some stuff that has been going on. I have had this weird sinus dryness, not a ton of symptoms, but think I have some form of a sinus infection, low grade. And in the evening it trickles down into my brochi area, and I end up with this dry cough that wil...
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Praying for clarity
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I am going through many changes now and the stress of it all is starting to hit. I'm pregnant, my husband just got a new job in another city and so we will have to sell the house and move. I will quit my job and hopefully find another a while after this baby is born. It will be a good move, back to my hometown...
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Monday Morning Question for our one and only.. Mr. Dean..:)
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We here have been doing a lot of talking about food, good healthy food, and thought a thread for recipes would be fun that we could all share. Pretty sure it would not make the grade of a sticky, but tell me, What are you thoughts........ Toni
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Daily Reflections ~ Turning It Over & 24hrs a Day
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Every man and woman who has joined A.A. and intends to stick has, without realizing it, made a beginning on Step Three. Isn't it true that in all matters touching upon alcohol, each of them has decided to turn his or her life over to the care, protection, and guidance of Alcoholics Anonymous? . . . Any wil...
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Expectations in AA...
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Guy who worked on my car last week after offering him $$ & him refusing now decides that I owe him....in trade!! Which I was in the process of taking him home from an AA meeting tonight since he lost his license for a DUI. Being the high tempered person I can be I pulled over along side of the road &...
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What you should know about OTC medications...Links
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Many OTC drugs can cause reactions such as Toni had last night. Ibuprophen can cause THC levels (Cannabis, also known as marijuana) Which totally threw me for a loop because I've used Ibuprophen. I'm not posting this as a resource to use. But, as a resource to know what you may need to avoid. I am not p...
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Hello Again
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Hi All, Shane here just dropping by to say hello! Hope you're all well. Shane
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A Very Happy Soberversary to you TESSA!!
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H There Tessa, Just to hope to celebrate this glorious 2 year milestone with you dear....breathing in all that glorious gratitude with you.... Hope you will really enjoy your day..... So greatful to you for coming here to MIP and sharing all the wonderful things that you d...
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Just Toni
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Addiction, Lies and Relationships
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I stumbled across this article a year or two ago, and it blew me away. I believe the answer to my alcoholism lies in the 12 steps of AA, but this put into coherent language much of my "problem" The BB addressed my thinking around drinking, but when I read this a huge light came on, she verbalized...
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AGO
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KEEP MY SEAT WARM FOLX
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I am posting this on my daughter's puter cos mine's crashed, so dunno when I wil be back. I am usually at my homegroup today, but am suffering from ?a trapped nerve in my shoulder and neck, and lack of sleep from the pain, so am now going to take some more painkillers and try to catch up on some sleep. Play ni...
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Avril G
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:( so disappointed. Any feedback would be helpful at this point.
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I had a drink last night. Well, I had several drinks last night. I feel so awful about it. Worse than I have EVER EVER FELT about drinking. I know I posted yesterday about having negative thoughts, and a negative attitude....and I just....caved. The worst part was as I was drinking, I was almost in tea...
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ElectricTwist
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Guess my HP has other plans for me....
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As most of you know I've been out of work for the past 2 weeks. Car broke down & finally got it fixed Monday. I've put a few applications in this week & 1 job interview. Now, I'm getting a cold & just don't feel like searching for a job. Just want to lay around this week. Why couldn't I had gotten a...
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Tessa
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We will not regret the past or wish to shut the door on it...
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A new sponsee and I have been going thru the get to know you phase of sponsorhip and I spent a bit of time telling him where I came from during the pre-program days. I have to admit that the time is still fresh for me as it is supposed to be, telling me that the only insulation I have between then and now is the pr...
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Jerry F
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HORRIBLE HORRIBLE TRIGGER
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Wow, I was a footstep away from a drunk/high. I was totally exhausted after work, and came home and fell asleep on the sofa. I woke up half asleep, with the biggest meanest worst craving for alcoholic side-dishes on the planet, and was almost getting my shoes tied to go out and get drunk and high, when I s...
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One week sober.
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Last week at this time I was finishing off a bottle of wine thinking no one would notice. What followed was likely the worst night of my life in terms of sadness and tears. My four-year-old asked me today, "Mommy why were you crying last week?" Hearing this, my other daughter asked, "W...
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runnergirl
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Super Fun AA Girl-Day
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I am so excited about tomorrow!! My friend in AA is a manicurist. As a gift my sponsor bought me a nice sized gift certificate to go see her. Tomorrow my sponsor and I are both going to go get pedicures! How fun!! Then tomorrow night, my other AA sister whom I haven't seen in a few months, is going to have me ov...
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Starting a College Group
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Hi I just found out that the local Community College did have a group but disbanded after people graduated or went on to the bigger colleges. Anybody have advice as to how to approach to get a new Group started. I have seen a few people at the school that I see in meetings.
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kld47
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Youve got to give time, time.
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Whats this mean to you? Pretty self explanatory I guess. I really like this saying.... it takes time for giving time to work..
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SoberSteve
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I'm a klutz!
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I have been working with this guy these last few days taking apart an old corn drier. The thing is like two and a half stories tall. I was up on the ladder with a wrench and an impact gun and I was taking the last bolt and nut apart on this giant row of sheet metal. I honestly can't tell you what happened. I was ru...
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ESH on step 9
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I'm right in the middle of it. Got my list. Worked on the easier stuff first. Took a sort of break to work on something else important. Now, I'm trying not to get uneasy or fussy about continuing on. I feel like it would be good to have feedback related to ESH of others on this step. I imagine there are...
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30 days sober today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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SoberSteve
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Love Jingles
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Thought you might like this... I got an e-mail yesterday about an "event" on another site - it's a 14 day video about getting into recovery... Here is the note they sent I realize you probably receive quite a few pitches, but I hope you'll find this marketing initiative both spirit-lifting...
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Dave Harm
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Insanity: Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results
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Whats this mean to you? I take it as related to drinking and getting no where or even anything in life, where you are doing the same thing over and over but not succeeding. -- Edited by SoberSteve on Wednesday 3rd of March 2010 11:36:12 PM -- Edited by SoberSteve on Wednesday 3rd of March 2010 11:36:2...
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SoberSteve
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Fearless & Thorough
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Finally did it!!!! 4th step is complete!!!! I just got off the phone with my sponsor. Gonna do my 5th step next week. I have been putting this thing off for too long. It's funny because it's been on my mind constantly and I was doing nothing about it. I think I have more names on there than my last one. That's...
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soberdrunk
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Daily Reflections ~ A Lifelong Task & 24hrs a Day
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"But just how, in these circumstances, does a fellow 'take it easy?' That's what I want to know." TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 26 I was never known for my patience. How many times have I asked, "Why should I wait, when I can have it all right now?" Indeed, when I was first p...
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The Fallacy of Defiance
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I found this on www.Blisstree.com after googling the defiance of God's Love which I feel I've been suffering with throughout my recovery & fearing of surrender to an appropriate dependency upon my Higher Power. I can identify with & I'm grateful for the wisdom in this person's words. If an...
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Higher Power? Having a hard time with that....
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Hi all - Just a note to say good morning to everyone.... But also a note to see if I could get some feedback about some thoughts I'm struggling with.... If any of you have read some of my previous posts, you know that I'm struggling with alcoholism. That's a known fact. I'm doing my best to keep it under cont...
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Long Time Lurker checking in
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Hi everyone, my name is Andrew, and I am an alcoholic. I have been reading this forum off and on for a few years, I was initially introduced to web based programs through my studies of codependency actually. I have been sober and an active member of AA most of my adult life, initially getting sober in 1992...
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AGO
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My story with advice needed....
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I posted this in the story section but figured Id post it here for the replies to advice so it dont take up room in that section... THANKS I am 28 years old (born may 1st 1981) and here is my story leading up to today. I remember my first drink being 15 years old. It was champagne in Canada on New Years. My f...
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SoberSteve
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Daily Reflections ~ Hope & 24hrs a Day
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Do not be discouraged. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 60 Few experiences are of less value to me than fast sobriety. Too many times discouragement has been the bonus for unrealistic expectations, not to mention self-pity or fatigue from my wanting to change the world by the weekend. Discouragement is a w...
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