It is human to be disappointed when we don't get what we want. But when we dwell on our disappointment, as if we should have gotten what we wanted, then we forget to trust that God may have something different in store for us. Many of us pray, "Thy will be done," but more often than not, when we don't get what we want, we forget it may be God's will that we not get it!
We can only know the present moment. This is our life all of it. When we worry about future wants and past disappointments, we don't leave room in ourselves for the present. When we let God take care of the future and live the best we can right now , we can feel assured we'll be ready for the better things that are in store for us.
Thank you so much for this! I am amazed at how much I am still trying to be in control all the time, even in my prayers. I think, "If I pray for patience, something bad will happen to teach me patience, so I'd better not. If I ask God to help me manage my anger, someone is really going to piss me off, so I better just pray for God's will, not mine to carry me through the day." I REALLY NEED TO LET GO AND LET GOD. The truth is, bad things and disappointments DO happen in sobriety. Character defects resurface. THere is always a lesson, and the less I try to control and manage things that are outside of my power, the better. This is so ingrained in my core being. I suffered abuse and neglect as a child and learned early on that to survive, I need to control my environment. EVERYTHING was my fault. I thought I was in charge of my destiny and to blame for all of life's challenges. It is so liberating to give up on that power trip. Ironically, to let go and let God, is to become empowered. It is vital to healing and sobriety. Again, thank you. Today I will be OK with just being human and leave Godly work to my higher power. PEACE! HK
