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Sponsorship
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I am very grateful to my sponsor for guiding me through my recovery. I was just over 3 years sober when I embarked on a thorough 4th & 5th step. My sponsor had told me I was going to get roaring drunk. It is frightening to see so many in AA without a sponsor, asking the same questions day in and day out. Fro...
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The Alcoholic And Impulsiveness
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Disclaimer: This is not my writing but it is interesting and as an Alcoholic I can identify with it. Larry, ------------------- The Alcoholic And Impulsiveness The alcoholic has little patience and does not like waiting for anything. This is combined with the fact that typically they also have r...
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They are called steps 4-12, those are what align my will with Gods will
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AGO started a post with steps 1,2,3 in 30 seconds. But this statement : They are called steps 4-12, they are what align my will with Gods will. This is a real eye opener for me. A very Key statement. Just as a boat or a plane can be on automatic pilot, my life...
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Good to know that I can feel...
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So, I was talking with my wife the other night after rehab and I was saying that I felt numb and forgot how some emotions even felt. I was wrong. I'm still in touch with rejection and sadness. I'll give the resentment & anger to God. Today I shared E,S & H regarding how I was able, with the poer and g...
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Cunning, Baffling and Powerful...
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Hey ya'll, First off - I'm okay. Still sober and exactly 28-days no cigarettes! So, after my last relapse I stepped up my recovery efforts to include Intensive Out Patient Treatment and I had a light-bulb moment from putting 2+2+2 together and getting 6 that has stuck in my head for two days now and I'm l...
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Daily Reflections ~ Spiritual Health & 24hrs a Day
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When the spiritual malady is overcome, we straighten out mentally and physically. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p 64 It is very difficult for me to come to terms with my spiritual illness because of my great pride, disguised by my material successes and my intellectual power. Intelligence is not incompat...
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Sober evening with former partner in insanity......
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Met up with a friend who has been sober 7 years, from another country last evening. I have been sober 5 years, two months. He and I were partners in insanity about 15 years ago......it was great to see him and for us to both be working programs. We hugged and kiss and had tears in our eyes and laughed at the j...
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Small, Quiet Signs Of HP
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So, today is a big event in my life. It is being handled through a union grievance process. I am 100% in the right, but the situation does not always follow right or wrong, but grim, cold corporations and lawyers who really need step 3 very badly. Anyhow, my HP is God. I am Catholic, so pretty much its...
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Daily Reflections ~ A List of Blessings & 24hrs a Day
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One exercise that I practice is to try for a full inventory of my blessings. . . . AS BILL SEES IT, p. 37 What did I have to be grateful for? I shut myself up and started listing the blessings for which I was in no way responsible, beginning with having been born of sound mind and body. I went through seventy-f...
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The Alcoholic And Feeling “Different”
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Disclaimer: This is not my writing but it is interesting and as an Alcoholic I can identify with it. Larry, -------------------The Alcoholic And Feeling "Different" For most of their life, the typical alcoholic has felt they were "different" and that they didn't fit in wit...
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More Drama, but Ceased Fighting (at least for today)
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Last night I completely broke down. The urge to get p$ss-drunk was there. I called my sponsor to talk. She was in the car with another sponsee who was practicing "primal scream therapy" (a "fun" tool we have used in the past, more for humor than anything else) from the safety of my...
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Alcoholics Are General Managers Of The World
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Disclaimer: This is not my writing but it is interesting and as an Alcoholic I can identify with it. Larry, ------------------- Alcoholics Are General Managers Of The World The alcoholic sees the world from the perspective of a mind that's addicted to a depressant. (alcohol) As a result, their v...
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STEP 1: We admitted we were powerless over our addictions
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STEP 1: We admitted we were powerless over our addiction, an that our lives had become unmanageable. I just thought people could do this first step with me, so we all can join in. My name is Tina and I am addict. I am addicted to drinking vodka, beer, smoking and to video games. I am powerless over my addcti...
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The Alcoholic And Resentment
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Disclaimer: This is not my writing but it is interesting and as an Alcoholic I can identify with it.Larry, ------------------- The Alcoholic And Resentment The alcoholic has a vault-like memory for every injustice they feel they've suffered and they will harbor a great deal of resentment towar...
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Just Checking In
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Hi everyone,
Just thought that I would say 'hello' to old friends, and new ones too!
I'm still sober and celebrated my fourth AA birthday back in February.
I finished my university course at the end of January and passed with a grade that I am pleased with.
Unfortunately, on my first day off fro...
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For those who believe in the power of prayer...
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Hi Guys, I have a favor to ask... I have been looking for a little part time job for months now with no results. I don't want to work at a bar! I don't want to be around drinks. I'd like a coffee shop or a little office job or something. I need something to get me out of the house. I work freelance from home right n...
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Loss of my grandfather
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Hello to all of you wonderful ppl, Spoke to my mom just know and tomorrow is the one yr anniversay of my granfathers passing. My grandmother is with my mom and has had a very ruff couple of day(they were together for 65yrs). I pray today for her my mom and myself (for them mostly) to be able to get through the...
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had a bad day
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Sorry i had to edit this. scared someone from work would recognise me lol. had a bomb scare outside work today and it scared the crap out of me. I know now PTSD is still there. I flipped out almost. Others not scared. me really scared. Wierd thing wierded me out cause ive been having worried thoughts that a...
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The Alcoholic And Perfectionism
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Disclaimer: This is not my writing but it is interesting and as an Alcoholic I can identify with it. Larry, ------------------- The Alcoholic And Perfectionism The alcoholic tries to over-compensate for their low self-esteem and self-worth by trying to be a perfectionist and will often demand p...
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Day 1?
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Hello. I guess the first thing would be to admit I have a problem. I have only ever said it to one person before. And that would be my boyfriend. But for some reason I don`t think he understands just how much of a problem it is. I really can`t pinpoint when it started. I guess probablly around the time...
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The meeting I attended tonight was a step meeting
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and we read step number 4 (from the 12 & 12). Lot's of good stuff in there and it's been awhile since I've read it. Maybe it's time for another step 4. How about a roll call. Have you done your 4th step yet? If so, how was it, and if not, when? -- Edited by StPeteDean on Sunday 16th of May 2010 08:23:1...
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Last Drunk,
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Hi, May 17 ,1979 I had my last drink. I remember it clearly. I drank to get to the place of no pain. Just as I had always done. It worked. No pain. Shortly after " my time came", my time came. My sufficient bottom was offered to me. the "pitiful and incomprehensible moral degeneration&qu...
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Moral Inventory
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Today's thought from Hazelden is: Moral Inventory It is fortunate that we can think in secret, because our thoughts would quickly get us in trouble if others could read them. In our thoughts, we can choose what we wish to reveal to others before we speak or act. In the long run, however, we do not really c...
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Excited and scared...
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Hello friends. I hope everyone is doing well today. Things here at home are simply average, in a good way . I got a call from a local rehab center this morning to set up an appointment for an interview. Not an intake interview, but a job interview ! I spoke with the lady in charge of the program and she w...
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Normal People
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Try to not judge others. See yourself as everyones equal; not better and not worse than others. Try to be free from the erroneous thinking of normal people. Have compassion on the normal people who have thinking errors about shame and guilt. They have not healed their original wounds that happen...
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A life of an Addict, this is a sad story.. and true.
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My ex husband lived most of his life going in and out of prision, when he was out of prision, which usually lasted a few months, he would drink, do drugs, like pot and he would go live on the streets. This guy was not dumb and when he wanted to have a job, he did work, but that never lasted long. He had book smart...
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Thinking of a career change...
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I love my job as a radio advertising salesperson and copy-writer. It's fun. I'm making a positive contribution to the culture and economy of my little corner of the world...but sometimes I see my job in another light: I am instrumental in consumerism. I AM the effin' media, I just try to use my Powe...
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Bah, and assorted F-bombs
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Been driving my soon to be ex-wife around since she lost her driving privileges. Took her to a meeting tonight, and all it took was one sentence out of her mouth to send me off the deep end. Why the f*** can she not manage to stop rubbing salt in the wound that she created when she did an early 9th step on me a...
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HE Restoreth my soul!
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Hi All, Just wanted to share some great news. I have been in a deep dark depression, and getting back to meetings....well nothing was budging.....I have been doing a ton of Prayers my Higher Power.... And Dean Post yesterday was right where I was at, was looking at another 4th Step.....and then finall...
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I AM RECOVERY
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Morning! This coming Saturday(22nd) director of Joseph's House , a facility for people recovering from substance abuse is putting on a 1st ever 'Walkway over the Hudson! to celebrate those in recovery.I live in upstate New York in a town called Poughkeepsie.Last year the community paved a bu...
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Daily Reflection ~ One Day At A Time
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Above all, take it one day at a time. AS BILL SEES IT, p.11 Why do I kid myself that I must stay away from a drink for only one day, when I know perfectly well I must never drink again as long as I live? I am not kidding myself because one day at a time is probably the only way I can reach the long-range objective of...
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attempts to scam at meetings?
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First off, if this thread is too negative or otherwise inappropriate, feel free to delete. Or if a thread like this already exists please merge if necessary - wouldn't know how to search for it in this case. Yesterday was my 5th meeting in total so I'm not totally sure of the lay of the land. But something...
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The decision to be happy is ours to make
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Today's thought from Hazelden is: The trouble is not that we are never happy - it is that happiness is so episodical. --Ruth Benedict Happiness is our birthright. The decision to be happy is ours to make, every day, when confronted with any experience. Too many of us grew up believing that life needed t...
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"We had a new Employer" Pg 63 AA book
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"Being all powerful.He provided what we needed, if we kept close to Him and performed His work well." When this realization dawned on me, I begin to see how powerful the AA program really was. In 1992 I sat at my office desk one morning, with just over 4 years of sobriety and truly began to pond...
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Being Present
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Today's thought from Hazelden is: Being Present Realtiy can be a difficult place to live. Sometimes it seems impossible to stay in the here and now. From time to time we all revisit the past and yearn for the future. This is natural. Being present every minute of the day is impossible for anyone. Still...
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Happy Sobriety Birthday Toad!!
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Congratulations!! This gives me hope and more hope. Keep Coming Back!
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Prayer
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I found that my prayer today is totally different from what it was in the past. What changed. My prayer used to be a string of petty requests and futile petitions to God. I was eventually taught to change that to a prayer of thanksgiving and praise for God, primarily because of the things which He had alre...
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Vacation from Hell with Pending Hidden Blessings
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Yeah...(AGO) Lee is very aware of all the phases & symptoms of the Relapse Progression, Gorski-style!! Definately on guard and taking action. Scary thing, ain't it?Anyway, here's the gift I got yesterday-went to a Collin Raye concert and he sang this (just for me?) What I Need (Karen Taylor-G...
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Daily Reflections ~ Freedom To Be Me & 24hrs a Day
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If we are painstaking about this phase of our development, we will be amazed before we are half way through. We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p 83 My first true freedom is the freedom not to have to take a drink today. If I truly want it, I will work the Twelve Step...
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Why my life is peaceful.
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I used to be a selfish and self centred person, who was a restless, irritated and discontented individual. Through recovery I learnt how to give. This has been my daily practise. To give quitely and stop complaining about what others are not doing or doing wrong. It's difficult but I always try to focu...
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Meditation
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Meditation. I have recently started, tried before and gave up, trying again now and it is helping. My sponsor meditates and i really want to do it as i know it helps her and i want it to help me. It has been helping recently find a connection to i guess my HP. my sponsor says prayer is talking to HP and medit...
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Unbearably painful night/divorce/grief/"goodbyes"...
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God, I don't even know how to start this post. Tonight my husband who I will soon be divorced from met me at the house to clean out the basement together. It was hard work, and you should see the tree lawn! There were already people in SUV's coming by to pick through some useful stuff that we set out, because...
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STILL ALIVE, STILL SOBER.................
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Still wondering who or what keeps stealing my TIME??? I swear that whoever says there are 24 hours in a day must lead a very boring life!! I dunno how I ever found the time to drink. I am secretary for my church now, which is almost like a full time job, I am starting to get into crafting (mostly making c...
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"RU a friend of Bill's"?
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Had my first "RU a friend of Bill's" question today. Was on the train this AM and reading today's entry in Daily Reflections and guy across me asked that. I smiled and said yes. Turned out that he was visiting from another country for three weeks. I gave him some meetig tips on local meetings a...
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Checking in
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Hello to you all! I just wanted to say I never really realized that I was isolating myself so much from my A.A. home group, until I started going back again regularly. It is amazing how much better I feel when I go to my meetings, even if I can't stay for the metting at all or for just 30 min. I think my favorite...
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Daily Reflections ~ We Forgive... & 24hrs a Day
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Often it was while working on this Step with our sponsors or spiritual adviser that we first felt truly able to forgive others, no matter how deeply we felt they had wronged us. Our moral inventory had persuaded us that all-round forgiveness was desirable, but it was only when we resolutely tackled St...
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I want a nap.
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No real reason. 5-year old daughter is being a bit demanding and I have work to do today, but no overwhelming issues. No passengers in my mental canoe that don't belong there. I just want to lay back on my favorite old sofa with the shredded web-decking and the bottomed-out springs, rest the brim of my...
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Just checking in
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Not been on line for a while, busy days past and ahead. Got conned at work on Tuesday, I was asked if I would escort 2 engineers on site, as I was going to be there for a couple of hours anyway on another job. I was told the engineers would be done by 1 p.m. They didn't finish until 5 p.m. and we were 80 miles from...
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Vacation from Hell
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Took 2 weeks off from work...just back now and have to return to work tomorrow. Dreading it...hate the place...need to hang in until retirement, which is just a few years. . Went to see my sister and my daughter. Visit with sister didnt go so well, but we have since resolved most of it and committed to con...
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4th & 5th step retreat.
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Just got back from my wonderful retreat. We had 5 first timers at our retreat of the 21 who had attended. The seaside resort was nice. Friday night was 3rd step and fellowship time. All of us took the 3rd step prayer in the AA book. Saturday day was 4th step workshop, some fellowship and then 5th step shari...
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