Hi, When I got clean and sober I started to get all kinds of emotions. Scared the tar out of me. I did not want to feel that stuff. Hell !! sometimes I would bust out crying for no reason at all. Then I would feel rage. Then I felt like I was going crazy. I guess I did not know that the booze and the dope had been shutting these emotions down. ( while making me crazy) So I guess I am saying I came in needing to be patient with myself while I learned to identify and understand this scary new thing. Later I could learn which one's were worth responding to. But I did need to accept that I was going to feel them. I found trusted friends to share them with. I has gotten way better. Wayne
good morning Wayne, there is something in the air today, that share is so true! my girlfriend is newly sober and she witnessed something that took her back to her horrible childhood and she nearly drank over it. but she didn't. she called me to "check in" and we said how horrible that person acted but she did not have to drink over it. if she had drank she would feel even worse now. i reminded her she did not have to go through this alone, and she said she just felt so raw she knew she had to talk to someone or drink. she chose to reach out and i am so glad she did. thank you for this feelings topic, we are powerless over so much!!! we learn we can get through painful feelings without drinking... i reach out to others who have waded through the pain ahead of me. thanks jj
-- Edited by jj on Monday 7th of June 2010 01:21:11 PM
Hey Wayne, Oddly enough...abstinence bottomed out my emotions. I stopped feeling or wanting pleasure. Then as sobriety grew, so did my emotions, and I'm slowly learning how to have them properly. I started drinking alcoholically at 14 and that's when I stopped maturing. My first anger or frustration impulse is still to throw a fit. But men don't throw fits. I'm still not sure what we do other than "turn it over to God." That's good enough for now.
I wish God would show me where I lost my damned flash-drive. That's kinda pissin' me off.
