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Do I have a problem?
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I really don't know were to start. I drink almost every night. Not to the point of passing out. But every night I have some drinks and if I am going to be honest I must say that I throw in a percocet or two. I feel fine in the mornings (most of the time) I still get up and take care care of my family and home. A...
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Women's Meeting... just what I needed
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Wow, went to a women's meeting tonight, and about 30 women there, discussion format, and I loved every moment of it. I am going to make it a second homegroup. I know it is where I truly "belong". ((((hugs))))
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My daughter's grades make me feel like a failure myself
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1GEOMETRYF58Olson, Darrell06-15-20102ENGLISH 1F31.1Larson, Cristopher06-09-20103COORD SCIENCEF51.4Flanagan, Catherine06-15-20104FAMILY HEALTHUnsatisfac33.2Gudgeon, Corie06-14-20105NJROTC 1C-72Weinstock, Jeffrey06-01-20106WALKINGF52.8Levin, Joanne06-15-2010 An &q...
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Daily Reflections ~ A.A. Regeneration & 24hrs a Day
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Such is the paradox of A.A. regeneration: strength arising out of complete defeat and weakness, the loss of one's old life as a condition for finding a new one. A.A. COMES OF AGE, p. 46 A thousand beatings by Barleycorn did not encourage me to admit defeat. I believed it was my moral obligation to conque...
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Oh well..............the best laid plans.......
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......of mice and men gang aft agley, to quote Robert Burns. So as my son and daughter do not want to see me, thus they don't want me to attend my Mother in Law's funeral (Consequences of my past actions) I think the next right thing to do is put their needs before my wants. I've discussed this with Eileen w...
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Help-I do not know how to be apart of the human race
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My new baby and a cool quote from Ghandi
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"Prayer is not asking: it is the longing of the soul. It is the daily admission of one's weakness. It is better in prayer to have a heart without words than words without heart." M.K. Ghandi Peace, Rob
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This made me laugh
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This came from a site that a newbie spammed into the AA story thread.
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When we make amends
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Today's thought from Hazelden is: Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others. --Step Nine When we make amends we need to be clear about what we're apologizing for and the best way to say we're sorry. What we are really doing with our amends is tak...
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I need a sponsor.
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I have been attending meetings but have not been able to break out of my shell and participate. I have been sober since January 30th and am surprised I have made it this far. I need to find a sponsor and get started on the steps. Any suggestions would be appreciated.
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5 years sober and nobody noticed
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Am I wrong to expect my wife to aknowledge my anniversary ? She never has and I guess I was expecting her to say something. I don't expect a party or anything like that but maybe a simple hug or congrat's. I guess I should just be grateful for my 5 years and the friends I've made in AA who do understand what I'...
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I need help...I can't do this anymore
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I have been in AA before and now I need to come back because I am powerless over alcohol. I was arrested last night for DWI and various other traffic offenses. I am severely depressed right now as a result of what has happened. I don't know how I let this happen to me again. I don't know why I let myself dri...
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still suckin' air (and it sucks at times)
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Yah, doing ok..... been sleeping a lot when not doing "self care" crap.... off to a meeting tomorrow.... I am on some medication that is probably doing me a world of good, albeit sleepy at the "wrong times" and up half the night at other times (tonight, for instance).... not on th...
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Sad News
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Bear with me, this could be a long one. I neeed to unburden. It's just turned midnight over here in the UK and sleep won't come. Monday morning, my much loved Mother in Law died in her sleep around 0830 and I feel sort of empty and sick and tearful and fearful. I want to cry but the tears won't come. But if they...
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Daily Reflections ~ Open-Mindedness & 24hrs a Day
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We have found that God does not make too hard terms with those who seek Him. To us, the realm of spirit is broad, roomy, all inclusive, never exclusive or forbidding to those who earnestly seek. It is open, we believe, to all men. AS BILL SEES IT, p. 7 Open-mindedness to concepts of a Higher Power can open d...
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Did I relapse?
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I put up my first post today about starting AA and being sober for six days. So....my parents are out of town and I go by their house to feed the cat. There was a bottle of Absolut in the freezer. I took one swig. Then, I felt so guilty, I almost put my finger down my throat to free myself from it. I regret it deep...
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Oh, the struggle with perfectionism!
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Today's thought from Hazelden is: I was so mixed up I tried to be perfect at avoiding perfectionism! -- Kathryn G. Oh, the struggle with perfectionism! Of all the clubs we can use to beat ourselves with, that one may be the worst. With all the "musts," "must nots," "shoulds...
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Changed my profile pic.
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Just received some pics of me on a protest ride from last Sunday, pics taken by Chippy Wood, staff photographer of Bike Magazine and an all round thoroughly nice bloke. So uploaded just the one as a profile pic. Yep, this is me doin' what I do best.
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Feeling a bit better today
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It sinks in. We did our best and it was good enough. Still toggling between being OK and crying my eyes out. Rob's baby girl looks a belter, glad I looked at the picture again. As one goes out, one more comes in. Thanks for your support, allaya.
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feeling left out
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I'am having the damnest time building relationships in A.A. and outside of it. I'am not sure if I really want any, but I know I must or I will die. That the plain truth of the matter. I very much try and strike up conversations with others in the rooms, and feel like I'am trying to hard and feel fake. No o...
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Back on line
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I traveled from Florida to New York last week via motorhome and I have been staying in a friends driveway for the past week. They had no internet and while I was on the road I had no internet access. I am now at my son's house in Albany NY and finally have internet access. You sure miss it when you an't g...
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"As from a hot flame"
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A comment on another thread got me thinking about this -- and not wanting to highjack that one, I thought that I'd start one here about "hot flame" moments. I had a couple recently and I think that it showed to me that this program works if I work it and keep working it. Someone who doesn't know...
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Just Had to Share This
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Good Morning All, I just had to share this with someone. This past Tuesday I had a very big scare. I was having sever chest pains and ended up spending the day with a bunch of medical folks. Doctor doesn't think it was a heart attack, but says he believes I do have an issue with the sack around my heart....
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My expectations have overpowered my acceptance...
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Therefore I am outside of Serenity...at the moment. It's all little stuff, really, when compared to ther people's troubles. The production guy got snotty with me at work, "f-bombed" me a couple of times because my creative quality process wasn't fast enough for him. Ya see, he's never be...
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Mom's Home
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Hi All Looks like the power of Prayer really works. While gone on Saturday, Dad called me and said that Mom had called and said the Doctor had just been in and said she could go home if she wanted to. My Dad went donwtown and picked her up. Since I got home a couple of hours ago she seems to be Ok. She of course...
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I did not believe.
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I did not believe that a power greater than myself could restore me sanity, otherwise I would not have relapsed at my 1st entry into AA. I was convinced that I was powerless over alcohol and that I was a real alcoholic, but I was just not convinced that the 12 steps could get me well. "Being convince...
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gonee
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Judy's AA Story
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I'm now age 33 going on 34. I'm from Kenya and at age 10 my parents moved to a rural place in a southern state. This was a move I did not agree with. Anyway, I resented the way the children treated me, so I worked really hard in school. I reasoned, if I did well then I could go to any college I wanted, which I d...
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urchin
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Newcomer, 3 days sober, probably going to get fired tomorrow. Need help please
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I am new to the program and trying to get sober. I am 80% sure I will be fired tomorrow from my job in California. I do not know what to do--if I should take my knocks and exit gracefully or tell my bosses about my disease as I think it is legally a disability in CA. I never used at work but have had underperf...
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2010 Founders Day Information: Happy 75 Years, AA!!!!
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copied and pasted from www.akronaa.org Hope to see some of you there, if you can make it! Joni______________________________________________________th ANNIVERSARY OF ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS JUNE 11, 12, 13, 2010 AKRON, OHIO BIRTHPLACE OF A.A.NEW FOR FOUNDERS' DAY 2010 This year marks the 75...
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Cliques in large meetings
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I'm a happy sober for 25 years woman who moved 3 years ago to a new hometown where I had heard that the women's fellowship was strong. Until this move, I'd attended meetings in my hometown and surrounding area for 22 years and was in a routine with familiar faces and meeting friends. I've heard it said t...
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caromack
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Prayer Request Update
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Hi All It is a Real Bad Bladder Infection and all the pressure caused some of the problems. A couple of other people I know have had the same thing happen to one of their parents also. Today things seem to be a bit better. My Mom knows where she is at and who people are at least. She is quite well groggy and dr...
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Hi Everyone...
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Hello my dear friends.....hve been reading the Board about twice a week... Cannot really sit and write, I have a 5th and 6th Vertibrae, that got very slammed together in a very old car accident, it flairs up at times, and did take the necessary steps that are needed when ever it flares about once every ye...
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Just Toni
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Diggin' the new job (so far)
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Well, I started work at the local rehab center this past Monday, and it's going great. I know, it's only been a few days, and I'm still giving it time, but it has been very rewarding and meaningful for me. It's cool to be able to look at dynamics of the group from the other side. I was almost instantly awa...
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Reffner
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Staying sober when someone else in the house drinks...
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It will be 2 mos tomorrow that I havent had a drink. In the beginning--I guess during my "pink cloud" phase it didnt bother me that my husband had a drink in front of me. He doesnt have a problem with drinking, I do. The last week or so, I have been resenting him drinking in front of me...I have...
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Give me strength
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If you want to know how an alkie's doing, look at his dog.
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if i had a dog, he'd be cowering under the table just now. my life has been manic the past 2 weeks. I've been working too many hours, not getting enough meetings, forcing myself to do things and go places for all the wrong reasons, not getting enough sleep, not talking to enough normal (i.e.Alkie) people...
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bikerbill
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eeks
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relapse..... few days of drinking and drugs.... loneliness and insanity captured my mind and heart, and no matter what I did I could not fill the hole..... this is a big problem, and it needs to be addressed and wokred out because I don;t want to be a tornado anymore, and I don't want to die.... My ex stopp...
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Daily Reflections ~ Forming True Partnerships & 24hrs a Day
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But it is from our twisted relations with family, friends, and society at large that many of us have suffered the most. We have been especially stupid and stubborn about them. The primary fact that we fail to recognize is our total inability to form a true partnership with another human being. TWELVE S...
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First time not drinking around friends...what do you say?
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Hi, My husband and I just got invited out with friends for dinner. I am already worried about how I will explain my not drinking. I have made it through a couple situations with people by simply saying, "I am trying to cut alcohol out"...and people have really accepted that ...saying tha...
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Give me strength
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By the Grace of God
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The last four days I have really struggled with memories. Where do I start? You see these memories I thought were long gone and accepted. What brought them to light was an e-mail from an old childhood friend. This is kind of lengthy, but it really has really touched many emotions in me. Humility, gratit...
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Dave Harm
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Prayer Request
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Hi All Late this afternoon My Mom was taken by Ambulance to the local Hospital. I was not home, My Dad called me and said she ws incoherent and was trying to get out of the house in only a nightgown. She did not know her name, my dads name, where she lived, nor knew who her sisters were. She did know the Presid...
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First post
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Hello all. Thanks for letting me join the program. I am as much a beginner ad a beginner can be. Attended my first meeting on Monday (actually attended two the same day). I bit overwheleming and confusing. I've only been sober for six days. As of right now, I have no desire for a drink. Reason being, I feel...
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JB3
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We Will Not Regret The Past
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I too have been reawakening some childhood memories of late. Going through many old photographs - my dad had a top notch camera and I'm finding pristine black and white negatives that are over 50 years old, that haven't seen daylight in almost as long. Pictures of me, my parents, friends some of whic...
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barisax
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AA 75 years old
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I owe a huge debt of gratitude to Alcoholics Anonymous. I never want to forget how I cried some 22 years ago. No one understood. Only the man from AA understood. He knew me better than I knew myself then, because he was there and he got out of there and now he wanted to get me there. He not only came to tell me wh...
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gonee
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Harm Reduction a losing battle for me.
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I have been in A.A. for a lot of years and have had several 1 to 2 year stretches of sobriety. In the last two years I have experienced the most growth in sobriety that I have ever. Growth defined as learning to act in new ways in spite of my fear, being engaged in meaningful relationships, seeking challe...
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nate
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An Honor and a Privelage
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My group and individual counselors at the Shrink Shack I go to had a talk and after tossing some names around asked me if I would lead & organize a men's recovery group. No AA stuff, no therapy-structure, just a sober social night every-other Tuesday. We can use their conference facilities for a wh...
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Aquaman
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Tonights meeting
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I see that there will be a meeting tonight. How does that work? It says it will be at 9 eastern time. Is that 8 Houston time?
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The Texan
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What does MIP mean to you?
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Just a general discussion question. What does Miracles In Progress mean to you? How has it helped you start or add to your program of recovery? How often do you use the MIP site? Just reply with your ideas, feelings, thoughts, and give us an idea of how you are benefiting from having MIP as a part of y...
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John
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a feeling never killed anybody
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Emotions/feelings are internal things that actually give me choices to make. to wallow in, to curse, to blame, to react on or about, to display, to internalize, to make known.... to turn into resentments...... someone else is not the cause of my problems or feelings. my reactions are. how i...
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jj
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Program 1st then fellowship.
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I have to always focus on the program of recovery first. That takes effort. I found that when I put program first, my life became more manageable. I began to be OK around my fellowship of AA friends. Those that are on the program were easy to fellowship with, because we were always talking about our own in...
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gonee
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Daily Reflections ~ Opening Up To Change & 24hrs a Day
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Self-searching is the means by which we bring new vision, action, and grace to bear upon the dark and negative side of our natures. With it comes the development of that kind of humility that makes it possible for us to receive God's help. . . . we find that bit by bit we can discard the old life -- the one tha...
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