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Third day back
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Back after being out for 5 years, after 12 years of sobriety. I have to deal with all the horrible thing I did to my family, especially my wife who wont talk to me. Wish I could make amends for what I have done. The mental abuse I put her through has made her want to die. Have to accepet that I cant do anyt...
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Pain the touchstone to progress!
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I knew Him only through my afflictions. In my weakened state, all my ego & selfish pride disintergrated, & nothing was left but the wretched disease of alcoholism. In the abyss of this misery it seemed like heaven's doors were firmly shut, but my Creator knew what's best. The potter knew, but...
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gonee
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On a sober holiday!!
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On the island of Mallorca. Might not get to a meeting when I´m here (arrived last Sat, leave this Sat), so MIP is a lifesaver! :) Thanks for being here, accessible the time! All I need is an internet cafe, like the one I´m in right now! :) Steve
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Leave your Monkey in the woods!!
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IT SEEMS AS IF I HAVE LEFT MY MIND IN THE WOODS.I HAD MEANT TO POST ON ANOTHER FORUM AND IN SPIRIT OF THE LANGUAGE AND RESPECTING THE MESSAGE OF OUR FELLOWSHIP HERE ,I DELETED POST AND MOVED TO ANOTHER FORUM.PERSONAL RECOVERY DEPENDS ON UNITY AND HERE I CONTINUE TO SHARE THE MESSAGE OF OUR FELLOWSHIP AN...
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Good chemistry.
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The body will respond to the impulses from the brain. If we feed positives, like good music, our brain will respond to that stimuli & release the good chemistry. Alcoholics altered that chemistry by abuse of alcohol which destroyed our body & mind. The 12 steps were designed as a way of living...
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gonee
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God Calling ~ Songs on the Way
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"Many of My disciples have had to stay on in the dark, alone and friendless, singing as they went. For you, too, there must be songs on the way. Should I plant your feet on an insecure ladder? Its supports may be out of your sight, hidden in the secret place of the Most High, but if I have asked you to s...
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God Calling ~ True Success
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"Rejoice indeed that you see. My Hand in all the happenings and the keepings of the day. Protected, the Israelites crossed the Red Sea; so you are protected in all things. Rely on this and go forward. You have now entered upon the stage of success. You must not doubt this. You must see this. B...
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Newbie question re: Stage 1 tendencies
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Hello I am not sure where else to ask this question. I have googled and read several articles from a variety of sources, and I don't really see the answer to my question. Yesterday for the 7/4 holiday, my stepson's fiance came over for a visit. Around 3p she opened the bottle of wine she brought saying sh...
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HopeAlive
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New, Sad, and Confused
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Hi, this is my first post here. After yet another horrible disaster from a weekend of drinking I am trying to accept that I have a problem. I don't crave alcohol, so I want to believe that I do not have a problem. However, once I start I cannot stop. This has led me to nights of drinking myself to oblivion, w...
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God Calling ~ Savior and Savior
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"If you believe it is My Hand that has saved you, then you must believe that I am meaning to save you yet more, and to keep you in the way that you should go. Even a human rescuer does not save a man from drowning only to place him in other deep and dangerous waters. But rather to place him on dry land - and...
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gladlee
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Alcoholic 1st!
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When I came to AA, my sponsors made me focus on just one issue alone, my alcoholism. I had many questions for them, but the 12 steps were practiced first and I believe that is one of the reasons I had stayed sober for last 22 years. I was cross addicted to the pills the psychiatrist prescribed, but I found th...
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gonee
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The daily walk.
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The AA book says that Selfishness, selfcentredness is the root of our problems. Many of us think that this is a new concept. The Bible talks about dying to ourselves. The old man must die so that we can be born again. This is not a once for all thing. Got to carry my cross daily.Top of FormIt means death to m...
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gonee
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God Calling ~ Expect the Good
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"Can you get the expectant attitude of faith? Not waiting for the next evil to befall you but awaiting with a child's joyful trust the next good in store? God Calling edited by A.J. Russell
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Avril. 21st soberversary today
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Lovely share tonight Av. You might not remember but your the one that put the las nail in the coffin lid of my doubts. I thanks you for your straight talking and for you and JC having me in your home that first Christmas and all the other times since
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Perseverance of a Leaf
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About 4 hunting seasons ago, I would sit in my tree stand from mid October until mid December for Bow and Shotgun Deer hunting in upstate New York...I would watch the earth come alive as day broke the night and just the opposite as dusk brought the dark. Approx. 30 yards from my stand was this bush with th...
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God Calling ~ Guardian Angels
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"You are mine. Once I have set My stamp and seal of ownership, all My hosts throng to serve and protect you. Try to picture a body guard of My servitors in the unseen waiting, longing, efficient to do all that is necessary for your well-being. Feel this as you go through the day. Feel this and all is...
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gladlee
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Daily Reflections ~ Giving Up Centre Stage & 24hrs a Day
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For without some degree of humility, no alcoholic can stay sober at all. . . . Without it, they cannot live to much useful purpose, or, in adversity, be able to summon the faith that can meet any emergency. Twelve Steps And Twelve Traditions, p. 70 Why do I balk at the word "humility"? I am not h...
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Projecting again!
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Shit man, when am I gonna learn! My neice has recently qualified as a teacher. She's been struggling to find a permanent position in the UK. She's now got a position............in Iraq, FFS! One part of me recognises her achievement and that what she does is shag all to do wi me. The other part tells me th...
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bikerbill
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No Surgery
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Hi All Saw both Doctors yesterday. The Ortho one said there is swelling and tissue damage but with more intense therapy it may clear up--go back in about 3 months to see what is happening. The other one has put me on double the dose of some meds to help clear up the celluitis--was taking one pill of each in t...
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Leonard and I at the morning...
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And so was our Friend Paul who just emailed me that the information that I was given about the demise of Leonard F was not timely...Seems twas another Leonard who passed and I get to see my bud in the near future in the flesh. So there just when I thought the picture was one way, it wasn't that way at all and...
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Came to believe.
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We cannot come to believe in anything, until we carefully examine the evidence that is presented to us. AA does that with it's basic text. The 1st 40 pages of the book, convinced me that I was powerless over alcohol & needed a power greater than myself. The experiences of the 1st one hundred people p...
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God Calling ~ Expect Many Miracles
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"My guardianship is so wonderful. Expect not one miracle, but many. Each day's happenings, if of My working and under My control, are miracle-works." God Calling edited by A.J. Russell
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Just want to stop hurting
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Right now I like to say I'm between steps 1 and 2. So far, I just....I'm finding it so hard to function like I should just because I just want so badly to stop hurting and in my head I have a strong feeling this isn't the way it should be. Thoughts?
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unnerved by inquisitive aa members
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Hi All, I've had some drama lately, just got over a house fire last week and am reaping the rewards of a job done badly, my own fault, a fellow AA member has unnerved me a lot lately as she is quite intrusive with questions on my private life and was quite offensive on an occasion last week. I gently pointe...
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Happy Belated Birthday, Pinkchip!
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I'm so sorry this is late, dear brother. I meant to come on & post for you yesterday but got distracted as I bathed my mobile & it's gone to phone heaven, I think! I'm hoping it's just in a deep deep sleep & will wake once dried out in it's coffin of dried rice lol Happy Birthday, Mark. I hope you h...
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God Calling ~ Why Doubt?
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"Trust and pray. It is not sin for one who knows Me only as God to doubt Me, to question My love and purposes. But for one who knows Me as you do, as friend and Savior.... for that one to doubt My purpose and saving power and tender love is wrong indeed." 365 One-Minute Meditations from God Ca...
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Daily Reflections ~ I Am A Channel & 24hrs a Day
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Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings. Twelve Steps And Twelve Traditions, p. 70 THe subject of humility is a difficult one. Humility is not thinking less of myself than I ought to; it is accepting a compliment graciously. God can only do for me what He can do through me. Humility is the result of k...
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Leonard F has left the room...
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Aloha fellow recovering members of Alcoholics Anonymous. Locally one of our members has left the rooms and will only be returning in spirit as he is remembered from time to time for the ESH he has left us with. I met him in1995 when we both worked at a local rehab. He and I were doing the youngsters.....
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~ 60 Days...By the Grace of God
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Today is day 6o without a drink! This is officially the longest I have gone without drinking in over twenty years and it feels amazing. I truly feel that I am not in this alone and my relationship with my Higher Power continues to grow. It delights me to invite Him into my days and to align my will with His. E...
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I need to not drink anymore...
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Hello I'm Ron and am fairly new to this, have been to few meetings but never go back...my son Griffin turns 3 tomorrow and I have made a promise to myself to stop drinking. I want to become a sober father, for him to look up to me. This is day 3...with all my strength.
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Step 1 :: Dear Universe...
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Dear Universe , I need your help. I know that alcohol makes life easier in certain immediate fashions. It makes life harder in much more serious fashions too. I look at others who have not gone to get help and I see the tornado of a world they suffer in. But for THAT moment, the drunk momen...
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Sustained interest
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I don't know what is wrong with me. I'm having trouble sustaining interest in anything. One day I'm all excited about something and the next day I have no interest in it or I can just keep my interest in something only for a short period of time. Is this common in recovery or is there something wrong with me...
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Xanax
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i know this is an aa help website but i have a question relating to xanax. i just went through a difficult breakup and needed something to ease the pain. Instead of pounding shots of vokda, i ddecided to swallow almost an entire bottle of xanax. At first i felt great, but when i fell asleep i slept for almos...
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God Calling ~ My Secret
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"You are being guided, but remember that I said, "I will guide thee with Mine eye." And My eye is My set purpose - My will. To guide with My will is to bring all your desires into oneness with My will, My desires. To make My will your only will. Then My will guides you." God Calling...
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Focus on my defects.
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I have to focus on myself and my recovery through the 12 steps. There is no other human being involved here except in step 9. In my early days of my recovery I squandered so much of my time worrying about others. Increasingly, my focus, became on my defects of character & removing them. Other people h...
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gonee
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God Calling ~ Painful Preparation
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"Help and peace and joy are here. Your courage will be rewarded. Painful as this time is, you will one day see the reason of it, and see, too, that it was not cruel testing, but tender preparation for the wonderful lifework you are to do. Try to realize that your own prayers are being most wonderful...
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Staying Centered
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As my wife and I continue to pray and plan for our future(but not at the wasted expense of today)we feel comforted that we can be secure enough to venture farther afield than we thought, to be receptive with all of God's children, to consider the ideas that definitely challenge us and to reach out to love...
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Daily Reflections ~ Identifying Fear... & 24hrs a Day
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Identifying Fear. . . . The chief activator of our defects has been self-centred fear. . . . Twelve Steps And Twelve Traditions, p. 76 When I feel uncomfortable, irritated, or depressed, I look for fear. This "evil and corroding thread" is the root of my distress: Fear of failure; fear of ot...
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Thank you MIP.
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One of the greatest things about those on a recovery program is that, even on a forum like this we can feel the power of these individuals. There are many such people over here who live on a truly altruistic plane. They give so much of their time & effort. I just want to say to all of you that I am truly ble...
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Is it okay to challenge others?
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I'll admit it. I get really frustrated with this one lady in my group. She received her one month chip right after I joined but then laspes because her husband is also and alcoholic. She has 4 children but refuses to believe that they are effected by their parents' drinking. Anyway, today she said she wa...
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Left a picnic this evening....
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Hi... This is the first time I attended a summer picnic at a friends sober... My boyfriend and I stayed for 3 and a half hours then the folks were starting to drink more then earlier in the evening. I wanted to go home because, frankly...I felt like downing about 7 beers. My boyfriend took me home, but told...
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Just started going to aa meetings
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I just went to my 1st AA meeting last weds. its been 9 days ive been sober.i know its a long process and yesterday was very tough for me,it being july 4th and all.i was just wondering if there is any advice anyone could give me since i just started going to meetings and still dont know what to quite expect.
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Is it ok to count time in jail/prison in 'how long' a person's been clean?
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A dear friend is celebrating 9 months sober & clean. She is not counting her few months in jail. I suggested (gently) that she does include that time, but she just smiles and shakes her head 'no.' She just wants to count the time where she herself said 'no' to herself, not the time where she was forced...
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Feeling Grateful...
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Today...I'm feeling grateful, and for good reason. I'm celebrating my 10th year in sobriety at the end of this month and today's my actual sobriety date. For that...I'm feeling grateful. It all started for me this day ten years ago and I hope it will continue on for many years to come. I sobered up 10 yea...
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God Calling ~ Riches
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"Never let yourself think, "We cannot afford this," or "We shall never be able to do that." Say, "The supply for it is not here yet, but it will come if we should have it. It will surely come." Persevere in saying that and gradually a feeling of being plentifull...
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Daily Reflections ~ A New Direction & 24hrs a Day
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Our human resources as marshalled by the will were not sufficient; they failed utterly . . . Every day is a day when we must carry the vision of God's will into all our activities. Alcoholics Anonymous, pp. 45, 85 I hear talk of the "weak-willed" alcoholic, but I am one of the strongest-wille...
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God Calling ~ You are invincible
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"To the passenger, it may seem as if each wave would overwhelm the ship or turn it aside from its course. The captain knows by experience, that in spite of wind and wave, he steers a straight course to the haven where he would be. So trust Me, the captain of your salvation." 365 One-Minute...
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God Calling ~ Attack Fear
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"Learn daily the sublime lesson of trust and calm in the midst of storm. Whatever sorrow or difficulty the day may bring, My tender command to you is still the same - love and laugh. Love and laughter, not sorrowful resignation, mark real acceptances of My will. Leave every soul the braver and h...
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INDEPENDENCE FROM DRINKING!
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Happy 4th of July ALL... thanks for welcoming me to the boards. I'm Allen and I am a grateful recovering Alcoholic. I'm 29 and I live in Austin,TX. The life I know best is over... thank god! There are a boatload of challenges these days but, I'm beginning to understand that those challenges have always...
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AllenIdle
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Our real Independence Day!!
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As our country celebrates its own Independence Day,' WE' in our daily journey of freedom from active alcohol addiction also quietly celebrate our freedom from the devastion of our previous lives.This day for our family is low keyed,savoring in the joy of each others company(Yes even WICKED UNCLE E...
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