When I spoke with my Mother, and there wasn't a canon ball shooting around inside me - I felt it.
When I looked at my son, and he looked at me, and we knew just what it meant - I felt it.
When Zach and I disagreed on something all the way home, and then went our seperate ways, with a quick glance and an "I love you" - I felt it.
When I called my neighbor, to tell her how much gratitude I have for her being in my life, that they are such a blessing to me - I felt it.
When baby Oreo was born unexpectedly, and I fell in love with her little baby goat smell, and touched her immediately instead of keeping my distance - I felt it.
When I didn't call my alcoholic Dad today - I felt it.
When I looked at pictures of me and my daughter during the height of my alcoholism, and felt free to remember the good times, instead of only the bad - I felt it.
I thought, there really wasn't all that much too this 5th step. But I feel I was wrong.
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Thanks for everything. Peace and Love on your journey.
We pocket our pride and go to it, illuminating every twist of character, every dark cranny of the past. Once we have taken this step, withholding nothing, we are delighted. We can look the world in the eye. We can be alone at perfect peace and ease. Our fears fall from us. We begin to feel the nearness of our Creator. We may have had certain spiritual beliefs, but now we begin to have a spiritual experience. The feeling that the drink problem has disappeared will often come strongly. We feel we are on the Broad Highway, walking hand in hand with the Spirit of the Universe.
Sounds like you are walking hand in hand with the Spirit of the Universe to me!
Tasha, I really love reading your posts, you use words to describe things very well. So often I almost feel like I'm right there beside you on your journey. (In a way, I am ) I am so happy for you that you are progressing along your journey, and happy for me that I'm able to take it with you. (((hugs))) Peace
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I asked God for all things that I may enjoy life. He gave me life so that I may enjoy all things.
Also - I have nails - for the first time in my life, I have fingernails that need to be clipped because I didn't chew them off! I don't even know how to care for them! They are all weird shaped from a lifetime of biting. I couldn't believe it this morning when I scratched myself putting my contacts in!
Miss Tigress - I don't know anything about cutting - but I thought of you immediately as I realized that I'm not chewing on myself anymore, and it just happened naturally, and that it most likely is in the same family as cutting but to a mild degree. I have tried to stop so many times, but this time, I wasn't even thinking about it.
I also thought of your eating disorder, when I realized I keep forgetting to eat until my tummy tells me so lately. Hence, I am not just eating emotionally like I know I have. Before, I was never ever hungry because I had plenty of emotional trips to the kitchen, I just forced myself to limit it, and never really realized it was emotional eating, until I started feeling hunger pangs lately, and realized I'm living off instinctual eating the past few days, and therefore must have been doing otherwise for it to be noticeable now.
It feels great. Thank you guys - thank you God - thank you AA.
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Thanks for everything. Peace and Love on your journey.
) I am so happy for you that you are progressing along your journey, and happy for me that I'm able to take it with you. (((hugs))) Peace