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Feeling good - thinking of drinking again.
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When I came to AA around the 1st of the year, I felt nothing but the rawness of my open wounds for the first week or so, and was overwhelmingly grateful to be sober... floating in the clouds. I started going to less meetings after the first week, because I was SO HAPPY, and seemingly "not that bad&qu...
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Kinda sad
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My grandsponsor is ailing and tonight I heard my sponsor was taking him to a meeting so I went out of my way to get there. He has not made it out to many meetings lately. He did not look good. He is a super fiesty loud italian guy and he was very frail and not the same. I have had the same grandsponsor my whole...
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Happiness is not the point. !
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*~*~*~*~*^Daily Reflections^*~*~*~*~* HAPPINESS IS NOT THE POINT I don't think happiness or unhappiness is the point. How do we meet the problems we face? How do we best learn from them and transmit what we have learned to others, if they would receive the knowledge? AS BILL SEES IT, p. 306 In m...
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"I knew I would live, and that was far more terrifying"
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I'm trying to read the stories at the end of the BB more, as whenever I read them, I identify more and more. I'd read many of them when I first come in, round about three years ago, but they often didn't register at the time. Anyway, I was re-reading "Empty on the Inside" the other day (starting o...
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The Morning Fog
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Reading the posts on this board, I see that telling our stories is a part of the MIP tradition. What follows is where I was, what happened, and how I am now. I think I was always an alcoholic. My first drunk came in 1987, when I was 2 years old. My parents were hosting a dinner party and while I don't rememb...
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Thought For Today
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"Fear is often the force that prevents me from acquiring and cultivating the power of faith. Fear blocks my appreciation of beauty, tolerance, forgiveness, service, and serenity." - daily reflection
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Faith is a necessary coping skill
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This is something I often spout off in meetings. I was reminded of it when reading Wolfie's post of the daily reflection. When I came into AA, I really had faith in nothing. Hence, I was paralyzed and crippled with fear and anxiety about literally everything. Slowly in recovery, everything has cha...
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Today I had a choice
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I could have started my day with a meeting--love those early morning meetings. Instead, I chose to start my day with a difficult conversation with my husband who is 3 weeks out of a detox, but not in recovery. (Imagine that: an alcoholic marrying an alcoholic--wonder how that happened). Tomorrow, I...
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No real desire to drink.......
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I just wanted to post that for at least 6 months, I really do not want to drink! I am not trying to jinx myself nor am I claiming I am "cured" or anything like that, I just wanted to assure folks who wonder if they can ever get periods of freedom, apparently it happens. I have been in this state bef...
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Treat Yourself as you Treat Others
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At my Step 3 discussion meeting last night, we talked about "letting go and letting God".
I have heard this phrase before, outside of the AA context. Talking about it along with step 3 last night made me meditate on what it means to me. What it means to me is what I have written in my signature...
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Not seeing child for weeks to attend 24/7meetingsHeHellH
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Hello, I have a few questions to ask (reaching out one final time) about my situation. Quick version of the story...Met my Guy 2years ago. Ended up pregnant very quickly 3 months into the relationship about 2months later i Found out oxy meth alcohol were his everyday staples. I helped clean him up last...
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Tell me what you think of this line
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in my home group`s meeting script: "If you cannot refrain from texting, you will be asked to take it outside by a home group member." OH pardon me, I`m a home group member. I don`t think any other home group member has any authority oer me, regardless of what some screwy "group conscien...
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DUI and GM lease
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Just throwing this out there. Maybe someone has dealt with this. I am thinking of leasing a GM equinox. But I had my 2nd dui 4 1/2 years ago. The truck I was driving was a lease. I was near the end of the lease but the contract took the truck and I had to pay all the months left on it. I get it...i messed up....
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"The truth is Natasha, I do want to be with you."
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And then he gives me a big hug. He must have felt a huge release to just say it finally, after not knowing what he could ever do to get me to stop drinking for over a year now. He was trying the "tough love" approach, and it was hurting him too, not just me. I'm sure someone recommended he do it, a...
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Today I was reminded of the importance of step4. 5. 6
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I just posted a heartful share more or less about my past but as always on how working my program had enabled me to change. And I just wanted to say to anyone who may be struggling with this..Hay just do it.and without fear. Mine was along time ago. But I was ready for them. I wanted to move on along my path to b...
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I wanted to slip away...
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but you wouldn't let me drift into the abyss. Although I was drowning in the unfathomable depths of my own coal black soul, you never let go of my hand. I could always see your reflection dancing above me as I looked up through the water and tried to wave goodbye. Your hands wouldn't wave and you pulled me t...
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I knew to this, and would love to talk to someone who understands what im going through.
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Hello everyone, Im new to this and have just recently admitted my addiction. I have always struggled with addiction, well since I was a freshman in high school. I've done just about every drug in the book, and have drank since i was 14. My latest addicition was to oxycontin. I am now in a suboxone program...
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I'm somebody.
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I had my first meeting with my new sponsor today. I was excited to talk with her and get to know her a bit. We went out for lunch and hit it off immediately. She's an art teacher, I'm a music teacher. We talked of budget cuts and misunderstanding. Over compensating with volunteer work and having that...
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"Skid Row Bill"
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Came across this newspaper story from 1955 totally by accident - I was googling something completely different and saw this on list of hits -- and was blown away by it, not just about the destructivesness of the disease and the pathos, but the desire of some good people to try to what they could to help us...
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A question on tradition one
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-- Edited by Wolfie55 on Thursday 19th of April 2012 07:24:02 AM -- Edited by Wolfie55 on Thursday 19th of April 2012 07:38:16 AM
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Bacon and Eggs
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-- Edited by Wolfie55 on Thursday 19th of April 2012 07:38:54 AM
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What If I was sick with cancer instead of alcoholism?
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I'm wondering this morning, how to go about today, after having this thought: What if I was sick with cancer instead of alcoholism? So far, ALL of the people who know I have alcoholism on my husbands side of the family, have not said a word to me. Not offered an "are you okay"? Stopped inte...
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Just need to "say" it
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I am an alcoholic. No doubt in my mind. I am. I am grateful I found my seat in AA before I am came in in hand-cuffs or a straight-jacket. I'm even more grateful that I made it in the door before I ended up in a casket. For today, I won't drink. And hopefully, I won't wear hand-cuffs or a straight-jacket, eithe...
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The perfect day
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When I walked out of work the other day I walked into what was one of the loveliest early afternoons I think I've ever seen. Blue skies with a couple of fluffy clouds, the temperature was absolutely perfect, and the landscape was lush and green from the recent rains we'd had here. "This is a perfec...
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question
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Hi I have a question. Is it possible for a drinker to have blackouts even when they're not drinking at the time? An incident occured while my husband was in a full on rage early one morning. He hadn't been drinking but he has no memory of what happened. I believe him about it as the look on his face was pu...
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Acoa related
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Hi, This morning I woke from a deep sleep, with the sudden realisation, that I am where I am because of me. Not from anyone/anything else. Soley from the choices I have made for my life. In the Laundry List book Step 5 reads - We admitted to our Higher Power, To Ourselves and to another human being the ex...
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I had my very first newbie today :}
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My first newbie was am inbox message...well its a newbie to me :} and I am a newbie on here too. haha. The message was for some help for me to look up on a link that was included that will encourgaed me each day :} How kind AA people are alwasy thinking of others and giving a helpful hand. Thank you for my inbo...
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The Promises- misleading advertising?
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Sometimes I wonder, when the promises are read out, Whether many of those present actually understand the context in which they are written. It seems at times like a "what's in it for me" kind of sales pitch with many people thinking that it relates to the number of meetings they attend and t...
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Why I feel better today
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I feel better because: I listened. I shared. I went to more meetings. I was honest and said I was terrified. I made a phone call and admitted I didn't have a clue what I was doing (a difficult and humbling thing to admit after working the Steps on the other side of my program). I received kind and gentle guid...
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just got out of rehab
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getting ready for some meetings and need to find me a sponser
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Confident in Faith
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May 1979, a young pup of 31 years, riddled with addiction from an early age in '59 (and before)I applied and got employment in a program for People With Disabilities(how ironic,as I was the one with Major disabilities)It was only God's(of my understanding) grace and mercy that got me through the fir...
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Aloha Luigi
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Aloha guys and gals...just want to jabber a bit; release some thoughts that have been running around in my head for several days and needing to speak out kindly of one of our local brothers in the fellowship who just crossed the hallway into the other rooms. I use to call him "Weegie", short...
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18 months today.
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or 500 and something lots of 24 hours. Days turn into weeks turn into months turn into years. It doesn't feel much different from any other day unlike the year milestone, but that is a good thing. Just another day of me enjoying this new shot at life I have, with a light heart and a clear head. It's nice, y...
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Newcomers - the bright spot in our lives
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I remember my first AA convention. Actually, up here in the maritimes, we call them round-ups. It was 1998. I think I had about four months in. There was a young lady who had gone to the event to support a colleague from work but during the banquet speaker's talk she realized that she herself was alcoholi...
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Today's thought from Hazelden.
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To try to extinguish the drive for riches with money is like trying to quench a fire by pouring butterfat over it. --Hindu proverb In recovery, we learn what we truly want and what is only a symbol of our desires. Do we truly want to use our energies pursuing success, or are we seeking approval from others...
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THE FALSE COMFORT OF SELF-PITY
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Self-pity is one of the most unhappy and consuming defects that we know. It is a bar to all spiritual progress and can cut off all effective communication with our fellows because of its inordinate demands for attention and sympathy. It is a maudlin form of martyrdom, which we can ill afford. AS BILL SE...
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Meditation & Prayer
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From 24hrs a Day
Meditation for the Day
There are two paths, one up and one down. We have been given free will to choose either path. We are captains of our souls to this extent only. We can choose the good or the bad. Once we have chosen the wrong path, we go down and down, eventually to death. But if we ch...
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When I got busy, I got better.
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My wife has got an Alanon book by that title. I have not even read that book but I was so impressed by that title, that as soon as I get sick, I remind myself about it. I get busy with my steps and the newcomers. It helps when all else fails.
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Do I belong?
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I normally hang out on the Al-Anon side of this board and in Al-Anon F2F meeting rooms. It's where I started. It's where I began my road to recovery. Two days ago, I finally admitted that I am an alcoholic, too. It came after about 3 months of fearlessly looking at myself and my drinking patterns with the h...
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My sponsee 19yrs sober.
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What started of as a little spark 19 years ago with my friend, has spread so rapidly. My friend was 14 months dry and flirting with the idea of going back. He met with me and asked me to help him. We revived a small group which had died and started a family recovery workshop. Life was tough for all of us. But in...
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my journey
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For me growing up i felt like a freak in school so when i picked that first drink up that was the soloution for me just WOW it didnt take me long to cause chaos.I,d become a asshole in drink end up in hospital or in a police station for the night it didnt take me long to get in to other things id turn to crime anyt...
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You All Have A Nice Day Now
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You all have a nice day now and try not to be too judgemental.
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Even in the jungle
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where it seems to be darkest you find those spots of radiant light and are reminded that the light isn't at the end of the tunnel or even the tuna; it comes from above. Gratitudes tempering what could be resentments and then not. I was inventorying my life today...morning to present and started with &...
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More Human
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A spiritual awakening is not about becoming more divine, it's about becoming more human. - Lama Suryas Das It's nice to be human again.
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Another question
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sorry. I need a coffee. I posted a question from Tradition One of the AA Approved Traditions Checklist: Do I spout platitudes of love while engaging in and secretly justifying behavior that bristles with hostility? -- Edited by Wolfie55 on Thursday 19th of April 2012 09:22:19 AM -- Edited by Wolfie...
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Brothers in our defects
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We recovered alcoholics are not so much brothers in virtue as we are brothers in our defects, and in our common strivings to overcome them. AS BILL SEES IT, p. 167 The identification that one alcoholic has with another is mysterious, spiritualalmost incomprehensible. But it is there. I feel it. Toda...
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Keep coming Back it gets better.
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Hi all first time poster and very excited to have found you all online here. Here is our share that I never did send off to our share magazine ! But maybe one day. ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, Happy, Content, Sober and Serene,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, Why, Because I decided to' keep coming back.' This is m...
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God Calling - Life is a Love Story
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"You need Me. I need you. My broken world needs you. Many a troubled heart will be drawn nearer to Me by you. Oh! It is a glorious way, the upward way, the wonderful discoveries, the tender intimacies, the amazing, almost incomprehensible understanding. Life with Me - is a love story. All yo...
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Anyone One Tonight?
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Yes, this is my first post but I could really use someone to talk to tonight. It's been a really bad couple of weeks and I'm posting here so I think it goes without saying that I've got no where else to turn. Any long timers got an ear to bend?
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So how was YOUR day
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Hi. So how was your day? I started mine by attending a group session at the Forensic Hospital, part of the Correctional Facility out here, a volunteer thing I got involved with as part of my job. It's for inmates with co-occurring disorders, mental illness and addiction. Its interesting. Anyway, one...
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