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another ER trip.... doing better
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Early this morning, was dealing with severe pain, lasted about 30 minutes, constant really bad pain in my back, and off and on pains in my leg, the sciatic nerve, and numbness in my leg.... I was hurting so bad I was bawling, and I rarely ever cry.... finally got myself calmed down just a bit, tried to ca...
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Daily Reflections 11/5
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"THE QUALITY OF FAITH" This. . . has to do with the quality of faith. . . . In no deep or meaningful sense had we ever taken stock of ourselves. . . . We had not even prayed rightly. We had always said, "Grant me my wishes" instead of "Thy will be done." TWELVE STEPS AND TWELV...
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Let's Make a Deal
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The relationship just wasn't working out, and I wanted it to so badly. I kept thinking if I just made myself look prettier, if I just tried to be a more loving, kind person, then he would love me. I turned myself inside out to be something better, when all along, who I was was okay. I just couldn't see what I w...
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Lucky.....
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Hey all, Just got back from a meeting and Im realizing how lucky I am. Someone shared something that makes me REALLY realize..God does for us what we cant do for ourselves!!! Today, Im lucky because I lost my job but not my license to practice! Had I continued on the path I was on, I very well could of had it m...
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can anyone make it in chat for a meeting?
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At Lani's suggestion..... I thought I'd see if anyone could come in chat for an online meeting.... sometime today, or tomorrow afternoon/evening would even be ok? Obviously any time is fine for me, not like I can do much of anything else right now, living on the computer mostly... so I guess if som...
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Online chat????
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Hey there ya'll..... I was trying to get on the online chat room. For some reason it wont let me connect but I have been able to in the past...Wanted to hit a meeting on here Tues but couldnt sign in...Any ideas?=Lani
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scared... I can't take this :(
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I've almost passed out 3 times tonight... I can't get up anymore and I'm really scared, I can't deal with this :( was stupid enough to try to move a big bag of dog food from the washer to the dryer (having to lift it over a space of about 2 feet), was hurting from that, back in bed, took my meds when it was ti...
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24 Hrs a Day ~ 4th Nov 07
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A.A. Thought for the Day ~ I can do things that I never did before. Liquor took away my initiative and my ambition. I couldn't get up the steam to start anything. I let things slide. When I was drunk, I was too inert even to comb my hair. Now I can sit down and do something. I can write letters that need to be wri...
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Denial
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Denial is fertile breeding ground for the behaviors we call codependent: controlling, focusing on others, and neglecting ourselves. Illness and compulsive or addictive behaviors can emerge during denial. Denial can be confusing because it resembles sleeping. We're not really aware we're doi...
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first time on the forum
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I am new to the forum and new to AA, I have been sober since May 21st and I attend a home group meeting and have a sponsor but I thought I might try a forum since I can't get to a meeting everyday because of my work. I am finding that staying emotionally sober is very difficult because by being sober I am starti...
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think I'm going to the ER
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a friend is telling me I should go to the ER, I think I'm going to, because it is showing more symptoms of herniated disc, that maybe they'll do something? last time they didn't do anything cuz I didn't have these symptoms. Seems like it's all just getting worse too and I can't deal with this much longer...
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24 Hrs a Day ~ 3rd Nov 07
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A.A. Thought for the Day ~ I have charity, another word for love. That right kind of love which is not selfish passion but an unselfish, outgoing desire to help other people. To do what is best for the other person, to put what is best for him or her above my own desires. To put God first, the other person sec...
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Daily Reflections 11/3
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FOCUSING AND LISTENING There is a direct linkage among self-examination, meditation, and prayer. Taken separately, these practices can bring much relief and benefit. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 98 If I do my self-examination first, then surely, I'll have enough humility to pray and m...
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Stressed out :(
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Ugh... my back went out again, late yesterday afternoon... it's been giving me problems lately, but not so bad that I couldn't tolerate it, then yesterday it came on pretty sudden, the sharp pains and cramped up so bad... been stuck on the couch only getting up if I have to. I'm refusing to let myself g...
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24 Hrs a Day ~ 2nd Nov 07
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A.A. Thought for the Day ~ I have faith. That thing that makes the world seem right. That thing that makes sense at last. That awareness of the Divine Principle in the universe which holds it all together and gives it unity and purpose and goodness and meaning. Life is no longer ashes in my mouth or bitter...
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Attitude is everything!
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Today will be what we make it. Regardless of the weather, the kinds of work to be done, the personalities crossing our paths, we'll feel joy and peace if that is our choice. Agonizing over circumstances that aren't to our liking or dwelling on our failure to control other people, whether friends or foe...
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Daily Reflections 11/2
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KEEPING OPTIMISM AFLOAT The other Steps can keep most of us sober and somehow functioning. But Step Eleven can keep us growing. . . . THE LANGUAGE OF THE HEART, p. 240 A sober alcoholic finds it much easier to be optimistic about life. Optimism is the natural result of my finding myself gradually able to...
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Feel Your Emotions
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"The key is to not resist or rebel against emotions or to try to get around them by devising all sorts of tricks; but to accept them directly, as they are."-- Takahisa KoraEmotions are energy in motion. They bring us information if we are willing to experience them. Unfortunately, many of u...
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Applying for school!!
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Well, this time next year I will hopefully FINALLY be back in college! And.... enjoying the wonderful COLD weather in IOWA!! lol Yep, putting in my application to Iowa State and Iowa Lakes. Been looking into Iowa State for awhile - best Ag program in the US..... Problem will be funding.... but.... ya k...
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Cool article
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urces for Mind, Body, and Soul Tuesday, August 01, 2006 The Power of Surrender by Raymond David Salas Did you know that no matter how happy (or not) you are in this moment you can be happier? Do you know the quickest way to access all of your true potential and actually experience it, instead of just h...
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24 Hrs a Day ~ 31st Oct 07
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A.A. Thought for the Day ~ I have more peace and contentment. Life has fallen into place. The pieces of the jigsaw puzzle have found their correct position. Life is whole, all of one piece. I am not cast hither and yon on every wind of circumstance or fancy. I am no longer a dry leaf cast up and away by the bre...
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Happy Halloween!!
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Happy Halloween to you all!! Cant wait to see my neice and nephew (2 and 4) dressed up!! Its ususally a big ole deal here!! Chili and cornbread, tons of candy! My friend from AA reminded me of "first halloween w/out alcohol". We typically get out our fire pits and sit in the front and partake of...
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24 Hrs a Day ~ 1st Nov 07
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A.A. Thought for the Day ~ I have hope. That magic thing that I had lost or misplaced. The future looks dark no more. I do not even look at it, except when necessary to make plans. I try to let the future take care of itself. The future will be made up of todays and todays, stretching out as short as now and as lo...
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On the lighter side.....No offense girls :)
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Q:How many women inMENOPAUSE does it take to change a light bulb ? Woman's Answer:One! ONLY ONE!!!! And do you know WHY? Because no one else in this house knows HOW to change a light bulb! They don' t even know that the bulb is BURNED OUT!! They would sit in the dark for THREE DAYS before they figured it ou...
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Friendship
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Oh, this is the creature that doesn't exist . . . . In fact, it never was. But since they loved it, a pure beast came to be. -- Rainer Maria Rilke The unicorn, serene and white, is a strong and graceful animal with the body of a horse. A single white horn grows from its brow, making it unique among all animals....
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Daily Reflections 11/1
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I CANNOT CHANGE THE WIND It is easy to let up on the spiritual program of action and rest on our laurels. We are headed for trouble if we do, for alcohol is a subtle foe. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 85 My first sponsor told me there were two things to say about prayer and meditation: first, I had to start and sec...
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Change
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The only sense that is common in the long run is the sense of change--and we all instinctively avoid it. -- E. B. White Nature reveals to us a world that is always changing. No two sunsets are alike. Winter brings invigorating days while spring brings new buds and blossoms every day. Summer brings lazy w...
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New, yet not so new
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Hello all, I'm Crystal and I'm an alcoholic and a drug addict. Never hit an AA message board before, so I thought I would give it a shot and see how it works (no pun intended, of course). Glad to be here!!
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The God Memorandum
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THE GOD MEMORANDUMTHE GOD MEMORANDUM I read this last night. It is long but you can Google it to find it. I was given it one night in an AA meeting along time ago. I don't remember reading it then but I still had it all these years later. God knew I needed to read it last night and so there I found it tucked away b...
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Meditation.
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Over the years I have gleaned more and more useful information from the far East. Ever since I was a kid I loved exploring cultures that were foreign to me and have always appreciated things (from wherever- not just the far East for certain) beautiful and serene. It was no surprise to my parents that in...
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The Cost
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A dispatch was sent out to law enforcement personel Sat. night to breakup a brawl in the eastern part of Sangamon County (IL). At this particular tavern over the course of the past year authorities have been called out 32 times over disturbances. A second call for backup had to be emitted...
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New Alanon Group
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We had our concurrent Alanon mtg Mon nite. Had one newbie come. It was wonderful. The AAers did their thing and we had our own space. I learned alot trying to explain what Alanon was all about. It is humbling. Someone was there for me when I needed it the most. They say if you want to keep then you must pass it...
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Daily Reflections 1031
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AVOIDING CONTROVERSY All history affords us the spectacle of striving nations and groups finally torn asunder because they were designed for, or tempted into, controversy. Others fell apart because of sheer self-righteousness while trying to enforce upon the rest of mankind some millennium of...
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Good news....
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Hey all: Its been a great day!! Sun was shining, trees are gorgeous and Im still not working!! But have lots of prospects and a second interview tomorrow with a company I would LOVE to work for. Had a few interviews and a couple more in the works. In God's time and whatever his plan is for me is ok with me. Alt...
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FOOD FOR THOUGHT
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Now that I am older God grant me the senility to forget the people I never liked anyway, the good fortune to run into the ones I do and the eyesight to tell the difference. Now that I'm older here's what what I have discovered. I started out with nothing and I still have most of it. My wild oats have turned i...
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24 Hrs a Day ~ 30th Oct 07
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A.A. Thought for the Day ~ I have real friends, where I had none before. My drinking companions could hardly be called my real friends, though when drunk we seemed to have the closest kind of friendship. My idea of friendship has changed. Friends are no longer people whom I can use for my own pleasure or p...
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Thanks for the replies
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Thank you to all who replied to my very first posting yesterday. I am so very glad to be a member of this forum and of course, AA. Your words of love and encouragement are very inspirational and helpful. I certainly realize now that during my first 5 years of sobriety, I was nothing more than a 'Dry Drunk'....
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broken hearts and god
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please help me i cried and god said "i am". and so i drag my ass to meetings and get involved with helping newcomers and do the stuff im supposed to do for my recovery. so i cry and laugh and watch miracles, a girl we all thought wasnt gonna make it comes to the halloween dance last night looking gr...
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Self Value
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We have a real life of our own. Yes, we do. That empty feeling, that senses that everyone except us has a life - an important life, a valuable life, a better life - is a remnant from the past. It is also a self-defeating belief that is inaccurate. We are real. So is our life. Jump into it, and we'll see. Today,...
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New to the forum!
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Greetings all, Well, sadly, on Oct 20 I threw away 5 years, 4 months & 1 day of sobriety by drinking a few beers. I had a bad fight with my wife and felt it might finally be over, so why not just give up on everything and start drinking again? I must say, the experiance was not what I thought it would be. Oh...
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Daily Reflections 10/30
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LIVE AND LET LIVE Never since it began has Alcoholics Anonymous been divided by a major controversial issue. Nor has our Fellowship ever publicly taken sides on any question in an embattled world. This, however, has been no earned virtue. It could almost be said that we were born with it. . . . "...
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We Project Our Strengths
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"Any situation that you find yourself in, is an outward reflection of your inner state of beingness."-- El MoryaWe have discussed that OUR WORLD MIRRORS WHO WE ARE BACK TO US. When we get upset by something outside of us, our reaction shows us that we have an inner wound to be healed.Just as w...
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24 Hrs a Day ~ 29th Oct 07
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A.A. Thought for the Day ~ My relationships with my children have greatly improved. Those children who saw me drunk and were ashamed, those children who turned away in fear and even loathing have seen me sober and like me, have turned to me in confidence and trust and forgotten the past as best they coul...
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Daily Reflections 10/29
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OUR SURVIVAL Since recovery from alcoholism is life itself to us, it is imperative that we preserve in full strength our means of survival. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 177 The honesty expressed by the members of A.A. in meetings has the power to open my mind. Nothing can block the flow of ene...
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Acceptance
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A magical potion is available to us today. That potion is called acceptance. We are asked to accept many things: ourselves, as we are; our feelings, needs, desires, choices, and current status of being. Other people, as they are. The status of our relationships with them. Problems. Blessings. Fina...
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Emotional Walls
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Have you ever tried to love someone, but you could feel their emotional walls? You can feel them not letting you in. You can feel the little person trapped inside. Or have you ever felt somebody trying to get to you, but you can feel yourself stopping it? This is how most of us experience relationships. T...
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24 Hrs a Day ~ 27th & 28th Oct 07
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27th A.A. Thought for the Day ~ Seventh, I can help other alcoholics. I am of some use to the world. I have a purpose in life. I am worth something at last. My life has a direction and a meaning. All that feeling of futility is gone. I can do something worthwhile. God has given me a new lease on life so that I can...
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Perspective
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Today I really need to eat some humble pie! I have lost perspective on what life really means....When working with my patients I always believed that I was so lucky to have my health, etc. I always tried to be a happy, joyous person and bring a little something to their lives. God knows I got back more th...
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A True Story
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The Sandpiper by Robert Peterson She was six years old when I first met her on the beach near where I live. I drive to this beach, a distance of three or four miles, whenever the world begins to close in on me She was building a sand castle or something and looked up, her eyes as blue as the sea. "Hello,&...
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Hangin' with AAers
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Hi AA, I go to AA mtgs in my small town when I can't go to Alanon about 30 miles away. Our Alanon is small or nil so when I drive down I am disappointed when we don't have a mtg. Usually I don't go if the weather is bad like snow and ice. The last time I went another Alanoner came and we had a good mtg. When we walked t...
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