Hey guys, hope all is well with everyone. Work has been a nightmare-I dread waking up in the mornings. I feel like I'm having a late 20's-life crisis...
But it's been 54 days without a drink and that I'm grateful for. I had a dream where I was at a party or some social event with loud music and lots of people. I remember seeing a friend I haven't seen in a while and he said have a drink with me. I said no thanks, I don't drink. 'C'mon one drink...' Ok. I had a glass of wine or champagne or something. I half woke up and was actually sweating until I realized it was only a dream. Whew!
I admit I am not utilizing the program to the fullest. I go to a meeting once a week. But even at my lowest points lately, the thought passes my mind for a split second, then poosh, gone. I don't consider alcohol a part of my life anymore.
Of course my poolhall just got their liquor license AFTER I stopped drinking...oh well Thanks for reading and take care everyone.
Man, oh man! I hated those damned drinking dreams. Once I dreamed I was so drunk & was stumbling, about to fall down some steps (or something) and literally fell outta bed! I, too, was relieved it was not real, but for a few moments I had the "oh CRAP! what have I done" on the brain. NOT a good feeling. Drinking dreams are common for early sobriety and sometimes if I'm really stressed or feeling a bit crazy I'll have one. Had a guy in my HG who's 42 yrs sober share that he'd had one about a week back. Said it almost killed him and he felt 'hung over' all day. He decided he was resting on his laurels and hadn't been making enough meetings.
Might not be a bad idea to try to make some more meetings. Have you gotten a sponsor? Reading the Big Book? I want you to succeed, so get busy. K?
((((hugs)))
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Best advice i got is that early on you need to put the same effort into your recovery that you did into drinking esp early in sobriety. Hang in there man the dreams will stop soon.
keep posting
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It's great to hear from you again. I was just wondering how things were going for you the other day, especially with the economic news!
Congrats on day 54!!! That is a terrific achievement. It's wonderful how the days slowly start to build and we get stronger and better every day.
For me, I need my meetings and I need to work the steps. If I don't, then I know that my stinking thinking will come back and that I'll pick up again.
And, the drinking dreams are horrible. I hate them! It's always good to wake up and realize that it was only a dream and to remember how I felt when I thought that I had taken a drink.
Please keep posting and letting us know how things are going for you, won't you?
Take care,
Carol
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Congrats on your days of sobriety! Awesome feat!!!
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Good to see you here. Must be just days away from your 2 months now. That's great!
Those dreams can be a killer. I too have woken in the middle of the night with the cold sweats from "drinking dreams" and thw though of "OMG! What have I done!" after the first one.
Then the reality of; night-bed-I'm not drunk-it was a dream sunk in and back to a nervous sleep to wake in the morning in a natural normal state and feeling pretty glad it was just that: a dream.
At the very next meeting after the first dream I brought it up, thinking it was just me, only to find out it's a normal reaction. The body is still craving the drug; alcohol.
Kinda like when you get a craving for a banana. Your body cells are telling you that you need potassium but since they don't know the "word" they send the message to the brain; What we need is in "that long yellow thing" that the brain translates to "banana" for you.
OK, that made it easier to accept the following dreams to come. They ALL still caused a "cold sweat-wake up" though. This time with a; Phew, just a dream!
Hang in there, these are telling you that you are on the right path.
Have a great sober day. Bruce
PS: I don't like spelling mistakes.
-- Edited by matay at 14:02, 2008-09-26
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gday mike, i dont remember how far into sobriety, the drinking dreams take to go away, but they do, i havent had one for years. when your mind settles down a bit you will enjoy going to work, every one has to do it, im an artist in textile art, and at the moment im working on a piece that i started a few days ago, that wont be finnished until 6 months time, day in and day out i enjoy life, cheers peter.
Dreams are getting stranger and stranger. I'm sure alot of it is what you read or watch on tv right before you sleep. Two nights ago it was where a girl who was murdered. I kept begging her to leave with me, but she stayed. In the dream, it was a famous story of a girl who kills other teenage girls, so I knew the outcome, but I tried to stop it. Like that Twilight Zone-I think it was the Profesor from Gilligan's Island knows that Abraham Lincoln is gonna be assasinated but can't stop it.
Anyway, I came to work on a Saturrday to do some light work, and now I have all this free time I'll check out a meeting. Can't miss HBO tonight though. Sugar Shane Mosley vs Ricardo Mayorga...should be exciting. 57 days and not the slightest urge to drink. I stopped caffeine (at least in coffee) and been feeling pretty good these days (except the market :( ) Take care everyone!
Thanks for reading and take care everyone.
