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Drunk Dreams
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I had one last night. I was happy to realize I was sober this morning. These must be gifts from God to remind us. I don't want to go back, ever. I have been having a few thoughts of drinking recently, but that's all they have been, they were idle thoughts. These drunk dreams are a good way to knock that hor...
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79 Days -- Just checking in.
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It's amazing. If you had told me on March 2nd, 2010, that I would be where I am on this date (today), I would have probably laughed in your face. My date of sobriety is 3/3/2010, and it still seems like it was ages ago. That wrecked and frail man, only a few drinks away from death, hoping that the next drink wo...
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My prayer for you.
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I pray, for each and every one of you who may be hurting, or depressed or relapsing or weeping. I pray that God gives you strength, serenity and peace. I pray that you will be protected from any harm that may come to you. For those that may be separated from your loved ones, I pray that God holds you in the com...
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Daily Reflections ~ Turning Negative To Positive & 24hrs a Day
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Our spiritual and emotional growth in A.A. does not depend so deeply upon success as it does upon our failures and setbacks. If you will bear this in mind. I think that your slip will have the effect of kicking you upstairs, instead of down. AS BILL SEES IT , p. 184 In keeping with the pain and adversity whi...
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Same old story....
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nothing I've done is going to sound unusual around here I know but maybe writing it will help me with the choice I've got to make.I sit here once again deciding that I have to quit, again.I'm forty eight years old and I've been fighting this same thing since I first took a drink at maybe 12 or 13.It always t...
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Something to remember
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"We focus on anything that isn't going our way and ignore all the beauty in our lives!Its easy to be grateful when everthing runs smoothly,but we find ourselves obsessed with the things that are wrong even though everything else may be wonderful..Even when we are suffering from illness or debi...
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Reflection for the Day
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Today's thought from Hazelden is: Reflection for the Day Every man and woman who has joined The Program and intends to stick around has, without realizing it, made a beginning on Step Three. Isn't it true that, in all matters related to their addictions, each of them has decided to turn his or her life o...
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The secret, for us
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Today's thought from Hazelden is: "The secret, kid," said the seal, bending toward him and speaking behind his flipper, "is to have a good compass and a following wind." --Will Watkins Sid Seal, Houseman The secret, for us, is to never let our recovery become "dead in the...
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Desparate cry for prayer
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I am at the end of my rope, literally, hanging on by a thread. I do NOT want to drink, but I also do not want to go on this way emotionally. The grief over not only my relationship, but over my mother, grief at the person I have become, I am in more pain than I have ever been and I am F--ing SOBER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ...
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My Last Drunk - New Website!
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Hello, My name is Barry R and I am an alcoholic. I have started a new website, www.mylastdrunk.com and it is a place for you to share your "last drunk" story with other alcohlics and carry the message. Here is my last drunk story: My last drunk was January 25th 2008.The night began around 5p...
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Showing Up is Key
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Been "Showing Up" this week, at AA meetings, as well as "showing up" to do the things I love that are productive and good, which I have left by the wayside not only during drinking, but for a long time before the slip, when I was obsessed with hiding from reality and my own Truths. I w...
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The Alcoholic And Isolation
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Disclaimer: This is not my writing but it is interesting and as an Alcoholic I can identify with it. Larry, ------------------- The Alcoholic And Isolation Many alcoholics become what we call solitary drinkers. They can't stand to be around most other people, and their drinking is done primaril...
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Happy 42nd Bellybutton Birthday, Flying Squirrel!
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Happy Happy Joy Joy for Today, Glenn. I hope you've had a very special 24 hours feeling loved, loving & loveable. Thinking of you this happy sober day, Danielle x
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Serenity
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Hi, I have been in recovery for twenty years. Most of the twenty years have been sober, but in the last 4 and a half years I have had 5 relapses. The relapses are short lived, a couple of days, but they have been killer relapses and I know it is a miricle I am still alive. As soon as I relapse I get ri...
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Hiya :)
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Tipsy McStagger
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New and Confused
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Hi, my name is Chris J, and I am an alcoholic.I have found a home group here and and sponsor from my home group. But I thought it would be helpful for me to also find something like this online. Being new to this, many things have been brought to my attention(since im no longer ignoring everything). The mai...
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List reasons why you don't want to drink alcohol
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I read it is important to make a list of why you don't want to drink, then keep that list with you, so here is my list. You can make the list here, or just write it to yourself, if you want to. I read this does help. Evertime you want to drink, read the list. That is what I am going to do. 1. Health reasons. I don't w...
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Sowing tiny seeds
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Today's thought from Hazelden is: Perspective: It only takes a tiny seed to experience a different way of life Sowing tiny seeds, a ritual that farmers experience each spring, is the beginning of the life forms that will sustain them and many other families for the coming year. The miracle that a tin...
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Empowered agents of God!
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Morning everyone! For a lot of us it is back to the work week,our encounter with the worldly adventures of life. As I put on my ARMOR(my spiritual readings and my sword and shield of spiritual principles)I will try and spend this day as an empowered agent of the God of my understanding.I pray that this...
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The Role Of Shame In Addictions
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Disclaimer: This is not my writing but it is interesting and as an Alcoholic I can identify with it. I called it guilt instead of shame. Larry, ------------------- The Role Of Shame In Addictions Recent research indicates that "shame" plays a rather important role in addictions. If th...
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OFF Topic, but does anyone use Skype for webcam internet calling??
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Someone was showing me this software, and it only works on a "free" basis to other users of same. I have heard of it, like in very remote foreign countries. you can buy a little camera at Target for 20 to 40 bucks. Well I am so conservative, haha, maybe more of a scady cat when it comes to programs...
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Just Toni
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Steps 1-2-3 in 30 seconds
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1. We admitted we were powerless over alcohol - that our lives had become unmanageable. Show up at a meeting of Alcoholics Anonymous, raise your hand, state your name followed by "I am an alcoholic" congratulations, you have taken step one, none of us flew in on the wings of victory, if a pow...
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Daily Reflections ~ Happy, Joyous and Free & 24hrs a Day
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We are sure God wants us to be happy, joyous, and free. We cannot subscribe to the belief that this life is a vale of tears, though it once was just that for many of us. But it is clear that we made our own misery. God didn't do it. Avoid then, the deliberate manufacture of misery, but if trouble comes, cheerf...
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Brokenness
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The worst days of my drinking life and sobriety turned out to be the best things to share with newcomers. Its my broken life that was of maximum benefit to others. When I got sober in AA I was very excited, because such a huge addiction had been conquered. I was in for a big surprise, because recovery meant...
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UN-BEE-LIEVABLE "AA miracle" stuff!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Wow, wait til you hear this one. I am at my grandmother's calling hours today, my sponsor had stated that she was going to go with me to pay her respects. We get there and I see tons of relatives (grandma had 12 kids, and just to give you some background, my mother died drunk, in the car with another drunk, th...
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Sponsorship
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I am very grateful to my sponsor for guiding me through my recovery. I was just over 3 years sober when I embarked on a thorough 4th & 5th step. My sponsor had told me I was going to get roaring drunk. It is frightening to see so many in AA without a sponsor, asking the same questions day in and day out. Fro...
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The Alcoholic And Impulsiveness
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Disclaimer: This is not my writing but it is interesting and as an Alcoholic I can identify with it. Larry, ------------------- The Alcoholic And Impulsiveness The alcoholic has little patience and does not like waiting for anything. This is combined with the fact that typically they also have r...
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They are called steps 4-12, those are what align my will with Gods will
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AGO started a post with steps 1,2,3 in 30 seconds. But this statement : They are called steps 4-12, they are what align my will with Gods will. This is a real eye opener for me. A very Key statement. Just as a boat or a plane can be on automatic pilot, my life...
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Good to know that I can feel...
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So, I was talking with my wife the other night after rehab and I was saying that I felt numb and forgot how some emotions even felt. I was wrong. I'm still in touch with rejection and sadness. I'll give the resentment & anger to God. Today I shared E,S & H regarding how I was able, with the poer and g...
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Cunning, Baffling and Powerful...
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Hey ya'll, First off - I'm okay. Still sober and exactly 28-days no cigarettes! So, after my last relapse I stepped up my recovery efforts to include Intensive Out Patient Treatment and I had a light-bulb moment from putting 2+2+2 together and getting 6 that has stuck in my head for two days now and I'm l...
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Daily Reflections ~ Spiritual Health & 24hrs a Day
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When the spiritual malady is overcome, we straighten out mentally and physically. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p 64 It is very difficult for me to come to terms with my spiritual illness because of my great pride, disguised by my material successes and my intellectual power. Intelligence is not incompat...
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Sober evening with former partner in insanity......
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Met up with a friend who has been sober 7 years, from another country last evening. I have been sober 5 years, two months. He and I were partners in insanity about 15 years ago......it was great to see him and for us to both be working programs. We hugged and kiss and had tears in our eyes and laughed at the j...
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Small, Quiet Signs Of HP
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So, today is a big event in my life. It is being handled through a union grievance process. I am 100% in the right, but the situation does not always follow right or wrong, but grim, cold corporations and lawyers who really need step 3 very badly. Anyhow, my HP is God. I am Catholic, so pretty much its...
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Daily Reflections ~ A List of Blessings & 24hrs a Day
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One exercise that I practice is to try for a full inventory of my blessings. . . . AS BILL SEES IT, p. 37 What did I have to be grateful for? I shut myself up and started listing the blessings for which I was in no way responsible, beginning with having been born of sound mind and body. I went through seventy-f...
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The Alcoholic And Feeling “Different”
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Disclaimer: This is not my writing but it is interesting and as an Alcoholic I can identify with it. Larry, -------------------The Alcoholic And Feeling "Different" For most of their life, the typical alcoholic has felt they were "different" and that they didn't fit in wit...
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More Drama, but Ceased Fighting (at least for today)
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Last night I completely broke down. The urge to get p$ss-drunk was there. I called my sponsor to talk. She was in the car with another sponsee who was practicing "primal scream therapy" (a "fun" tool we have used in the past, more for humor than anything else) from the safety of my...
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Alcoholics Are General Managers Of The World
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Disclaimer: This is not my writing but it is interesting and as an Alcoholic I can identify with it. Larry, ------------------- Alcoholics Are General Managers Of The World The alcoholic sees the world from the perspective of a mind that's addicted to a depressant. (alcohol) As a result, their v...
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STEP 1: We admitted we were powerless over our addictions
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STEP 1: We admitted we were powerless over our addiction, an that our lives had become unmanageable. I just thought people could do this first step with me, so we all can join in. My name is Tina and I am addict. I am addicted to drinking vodka, beer, smoking and to video games. I am powerless over my addcti...
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The Alcoholic And Resentment
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Disclaimer: This is not my writing but it is interesting and as an Alcoholic I can identify with it.Larry, ------------------- The Alcoholic And Resentment The alcoholic has a vault-like memory for every injustice they feel they've suffered and they will harbor a great deal of resentment towar...
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Just Checking In
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Hi everyone,
Just thought that I would say 'hello' to old friends, and new ones too!
I'm still sober and celebrated my fourth AA birthday back in February.
I finished my university course at the end of January and passed with a grade that I am pleased with.
Unfortunately, on my first day off fro...
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For those who believe in the power of prayer...
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Hi Guys, I have a favor to ask... I have been looking for a little part time job for months now with no results. I don't want to work at a bar! I don't want to be around drinks. I'd like a coffee shop or a little office job or something. I need something to get me out of the house. I work freelance from home right n...
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Loss of my grandfather
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Hello to all of you wonderful ppl, Spoke to my mom just know and tomorrow is the one yr anniversay of my granfathers passing. My grandmother is with my mom and has had a very ruff couple of day(they were together for 65yrs). I pray today for her my mom and myself (for them mostly) to be able to get through the...
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had a bad day
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Sorry i had to edit this. scared someone from work would recognise me lol. had a bomb scare outside work today and it scared the crap out of me. I know now PTSD is still there. I flipped out almost. Others not scared. me really scared. Wierd thing wierded me out cause ive been having worried thoughts that a...
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The Alcoholic And Perfectionism
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Disclaimer: This is not my writing but it is interesting and as an Alcoholic I can identify with it. Larry, ------------------- The Alcoholic And Perfectionism The alcoholic tries to over-compensate for their low self-esteem and self-worth by trying to be a perfectionist and will often demand p...
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Day 1?
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Hello. I guess the first thing would be to admit I have a problem. I have only ever said it to one person before. And that would be my boyfriend. But for some reason I don`t think he understands just how much of a problem it is. I really can`t pinpoint when it started. I guess probablly around the time...
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The meeting I attended tonight was a step meeting
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and we read step number 4 (from the 12 & 12). Lot's of good stuff in there and it's been awhile since I've read it. Maybe it's time for another step 4. How about a roll call. Have you done your 4th step yet? If so, how was it, and if not, when? -- Edited by StPeteDean on Sunday 16th of May 2010 08:23:1...
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Last Drunk,
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Hi, May 17 ,1979 I had my last drink. I remember it clearly. I drank to get to the place of no pain. Just as I had always done. It worked. No pain. Shortly after " my time came", my time came. My sufficient bottom was offered to me. the "pitiful and incomprehensible moral degeneration&qu...
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Moral Inventory
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Today's thought from Hazelden is: Moral Inventory It is fortunate that we can think in secret, because our thoughts would quickly get us in trouble if others could read them. In our thoughts, we can choose what we wish to reveal to others before we speak or act. In the long run, however, we do not really c...
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Excited and scared...
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Hello friends. I hope everyone is doing well today. Things here at home are simply average, in a good way . I got a call from a local rehab center this morning to set up an appointment for an interview. Not an intake interview, but a job interview ! I spoke with the lady in charge of the program and she w...
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Normal People
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Try to not judge others. See yourself as everyones equal; not better and not worse than others. Try to be free from the erroneous thinking of normal people. Have compassion on the normal people who have thinking errors about shame and guilt. They have not healed their original wounds that happen...
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