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new here
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hello everyone, I am new here, I am powerless over alcohol. I do not drink every day but when I do drink I binge drink and it completely changes me. This happens at least once a month. I become a nasty person, swearing and being very selfish. For the last 3 days I have been drunk every night and can't rememb...
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the pain is easing
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the pain and the grief of the loss of what I once had and what I thought I needed is easing. The pain and the grief has been overwhelming. From the greatest pain comes the greatest lesson. NowI understand when people say they're happy that I'm in pain because they see the learning happen before their eyes...
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Anonymity is spiritual humility in action.
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In modern recovery, anonymity is viewed as harking to a time when alcoholism was seen as a disgrace.By DAVID COLMANPublished: May 6, 2011IM David Colman, and Im an alcoholic. In the 15 years since I quit drinking, Ive neither spoken nor written those words, and now, in doing so, I have more or les...
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Daily Reflections ~ A New Sense of Belonging & 24hrs a Day
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Until we had talked with complete candor of our conflicts, and had listened to someone else do the same thing, we still didnt belong. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 57 After four years in A.A. I was able to discover the freedom from the burden of buried emotions that had caused me so much pain. Wi...
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God Calling ~ Thrill of Protection
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Turn out all thoughts of doubt and of trouble. Never tolerate them for one second. Bar the windows and doors of your souls against them as you would bar your home against a thief who would steal in to take your treasures. What greater treasures can you have than peace and rest and joy? And these are all...
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God Calling - Calm, not Speed
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"All agitation is destructive of good. All calm is constructive of good, and at the same time destructive of evil. When man wants evil destroyed, so often he rushes to action. It is wrong. First be still and know that I am God. Then act only as I tell you. Never be afraid of any circumstances or...
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God Calling - Kill Self Now
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"Self dethroned - that is the lesson, but in its place put love for Me, knowledge of Me. Cease trying to forgive those who fretted or wronged you. It is a mistake to think about it. Aim at killing the self now, in your daily life, and then you will find there is nothing that even remembers injury, be...
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Need prayer for a friend
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A friend and co-worker is going through some really hard times right now and could really use your prayers. There's a nasty divorce in her future due to a husband that went back out a few months ago. She's probably going to loose everything and feels she has no where to turn. I've experienced what the...
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Smell of alcohol...
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This is day 3 for me of being sober! Pretty proud, lol. I'm going to my first AA meeting today and I am a bundle of different emotions. I'm sure its going to be amazing, just reading all the posts about it gets me really excited. Then I worry, then I cry, and so on. I just want to get there even if I stand up in the...
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Wallowing in self pity...
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Hi everyone; I have been lurking around this site probably 6 months before getting sober and have been sober for 4 months next week. It's had been going really well and I did everything that was suggested; did 90 meetings in 90 days, got a sponser, working the steps, etc. But I guess my pink cloud is diss...
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God Calling - Harmony Within
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"You must not expect to live in a world where all is harmony, where others are in unbroken accord with you. It is your task to maintain your own heart-peace in adverse circumstances. Doubt always your power or wisdom to put things right; ask Me to right all as you leave it to Me. Only My wisdom can...
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Daily Reflections ~ A Resting Place & 24hrs a Day
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All of A.A.s Twelve Steps ask us to go contrary to our natural desires . . . they all deflate our egos. When it comes to ego deflation, few Steps are harder to take than Five. But scarcely any Step is more necessary to longtime sobriety and peace of mind than this one. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p....
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I became so hostile to AA - I drank again
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I had 3 and a half years sobriety up until February; I have drunk alcohol 4 times since. My meetings did tail off a bit although I continued meeting with my sponsor and working the Steps, plus carried on with a duty at my home group. I've had a veritable slew of MH problems lately: Panic attacks, Depressio...
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Feels like I'm in an emotional meltdown.
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ll this stuff...........keep fucken crying. Feels like it'll never stop........people are so good to me, a smile, a word and bang I'm gone...........went round to see a guy yesterday, a guy I've allus been scared of in the fellowship.......a gentler man you'd never meet.......fishing, crying an...
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Heard a great one...
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...the other day from someone I'd never met before. He was saying how he had a said to this girlfriend that she hadn't been complimenting him for staying sober. She said to him "well, you haven't bashed your head into a brick wall recently either. You want a medal." rotfl...gave me one big, w...
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Daily Reflections ~ Respect for Others & 24hrs a Day
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Such parts of our story we tell to someone who will understand, yet be unaffected. The rule is we must be hard on our self, but always considerate of others. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 74 Respect for others is the lesson that I take out of this passage. I must go to any lengths to free myself if I wish to find t...
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God Calling - The Rest of God
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"I lead you. The way is clear. Go forward unafraid. I am beside you. Listen, listen, listen to My voice. My hand is controlling all. I can work through you better when you are at rest. Go very slowly, very quietly, from one duty to the next - taking time to rest and pray between. Do not be too bus...
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Step2
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"...could restore us..." Alcoholics Anonymous. We needed restoring and God has the capacity to do it but we must believe that He could. It's been a tremendous comfort to me, to know that God has the capacity, ultimately, and that no human being can mess that up.
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So emotional
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I'm new and didn't know where to go.. Today is day 2 of not drinking heavy on and off for about a year. I drank bottle after bottle of vodka, morning, noon, and night. Nobody knows... not my husband, my girls, my friends, nobody. I drank alone, i'm a stay at home mom, both girls in school all day, so I would...
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Just wanting to hear from you all, why should't we close the door on our past?
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for me, i don't want to forget where i came from and what alcohol had done to my life. i do not want to forget the misery, the sickness, the lies i told and believed.... BECAUSE, the comparison is a great way to see how far i have come and how blessed i am. plus, if i think about drinking the past is there...
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Coming Back From Rock Bottom and Following my Dreams
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Hey Guys, So I'm new to this board but I want to say thank you AA. I recently went through an extremely hard time in my life and hit rock bottom. I abused alcohol. I'm lucky to be alive right now after having attempted suicide while black out drunk. It was because of my fear of my life and a lot of things regard...
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Relapse, with cigs.
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HI All, Coming here because I always believe we MUST tell on ourselves. I have for 7 weeks been a non-smoker, and recently just change that "I'm quitting" to a New I AM NOW A NON SMOKER. Well I ran into a drawer that had an old pack and when I went to throw it out, I heard something, looked and alas...
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KEeping Active Check out the new video
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Check out my new video if you want! Subscribe if you want to. Keep active and follow your dreams! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vaqYIoHeC7E A friend of mind sends me the AA thought of the day every day and there was a quote in it that says Don't Smother each other. You don't grow in the shade. That qu...
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Update my profile 1st May 2011.
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I was just going to leave this as a profile update, but feel the need to re post it here for feedback. Update 1st May 2011. Life is hard, very hard, but I'm still sober. It's been over 5 years since I left the family home and the relationship with my (soon to be) ex wife took an upturn, then gradually slid down...
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God Calling - Share with Me
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"Delight in My love. Try to live in the rapture of the kingdom. Claim big things. Claim great things. Claim joy and peace and freedom from care. Joy in Me. I am your Lord, your Creator. Remember too that I am the same yesterday, today, and forever.... Joy in Me, trust in Me, share all life with M...
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Step2
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"....a Power greater than ourselves..." Alcoholics Anonymous. Such enormous POWER in the nature of our universe. We miss it because of the scales in our eyes not because God is not.
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Daily Reflections ~ Hold Back Nothing & 24hrs a Day
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The real tests of the situation are your own willingness to confide and your full confidence in the one with whom you you share your first accurate self-survey. . . . Provided you hold back nothing, your sense of relief will mount from minute to minute. The dammed-up emotions of years break out of their...
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Rules and Authority
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Spinning off the "Conference Approved Literature" thread, I thought I'd start a new one. Re: the "Akron Pamphlet" - I've heard that before but never knew where it came from. Interesting. Today I fit that definition of an AA. But I did NOT fit that definition when I walked in th...
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Going through a tough time at present
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Hi all, going through a tough time at present, been getting plenty of meetings and doing service on sunday as secretary. I need to find a new sponsor. Will it count that I am up to step 5 or will I need to start again? I did not do the fourth step with my initial sponsor and am really glad I didn't. She has just b...
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Got honest
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I admitted to my home group and my sponser I was drinking daily. I got my 24 hour coin. I have receieved a great deal of support and encouragement. It was a very difficult process to admit since I was also going to meetings everyday. My roommate is in my homegroup. She is now trying to decide if she wan...
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Step2
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"...came to believe..." Alcoholics Anonymous. The walk back to God, starting with belief. It's only a question of being willing. Nothing more is required to make a start. We serve a compassionate God. That's all He asks for in the beginning. -- Edited by gonee on Thursday 5th of May 2011 08...
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God Calling - Let Me Choose
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"Breathe in My very spirit in fervent desire. Keep the eye of your spirit ever upon Me, the window of your soul open toward Me. You have ever to know that all things are yours - that what is lovely I delight to give you. Leave more and more the choice to Me. You will have no regrets." One-Minu...
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Emotional Sobriety and ACOA
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Just been to my first ACOA meeting. Although mt parents weren't alkies to my mind, it was a pretty dysfunctional family. I did the laundry list and scored 14 for 14. Maybe I should do it again though based on a snapshot of how I am today. I'm thinking this may be a needful thing, but initial impressions is t...
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D.I.V.O.R.C.E.
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God Bless Tammy Wynette and Billy Connoly. Every time I think or hear or read the word divorce, i get either a country american version off the song, or a drunken glaswegian version of the song. But anyway, having been prepered to file for a divorce (there it is again), circumstances change and now she...
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Howdy all
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Haven't been around much, but have been lurking here and there. Just wanted to say hi to my friends and let ya know that today, life's pretty dam good! Brian
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back to basics
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gone back to basics. Yesterday I wrote out my gratitude list instead of keeping it in my head. Wrote down the step3,7 &11 prayers and use them. Re read the first 164 pages highlighting several passages. At least one meeting a day and talk to sponsor every day and all my sponsees. We're getting there...
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"..our troubles, we think, are basically of our own making." BB pg62.
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When I first understood this statement in the BB, I realised that I had no excuse to blame anybody else for my condition. But the BB does not leave it there, it gives a practical program of action to remove these "troubles" permanently. That is the good news of the book. When I started to apply...
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Hmmm... Not much sleep last night.
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Workload increasing dramatically at work due to some new business and reorganizations. Normally not an issue, but a lot of the extra work is kind of pointless, slogan-driven demands that are essentially there to make everyone look busy. But boy, do the managers take our busy work seriously. So,...
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God Calling - Souls that Smile
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The answer to the desire of My disciples to follow Me was "Be ye therefore perfect, even as your Father which is in heaven is perfect." To accomplish much, be much. In all cases the doing, to be well-doing, must be the mere unconscious expression of the being. Let the day be full of little pra...
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Daily Reflections ~ Lighting the Dark Past & 24hrs a Day
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Cling to the thought that, in Gods hands, the dark past is the greatest possesion you have- the key to life and happiness for others. With it you can avert misery and death for them. Alcoholics Anonymous pg. 124 No longer is my past an autobiography; it is a reference book to be taken down, opened and shar...
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my God's got a sense of humour
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....and a bloody big shovel. He don't give me more than I can handle in a day. I have to believe that. This'll be why the days are so long. 25 years ago today around this time, my daughter was born. Just over 5 years ago I left the family home. Just about 4 years ago I made written amends to her. She called me and...
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Monday,back at it!
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7;30 a.m. here and ready to head out after a wonderful weekend of rest and downtime with my family.Once again today I will work to remember I am God's work and I will be reaching to do God's work.Though I have been 'graced " with my Higher Powers mercy and grace it does not mean it displaces work.What...
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ADHD and the 12 steps
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Does ADHD have a place in AA? Is AA supposed to cure it? Are Stims okay in AA? I'm interested in peoples opinions on the matter. Thanks Much
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Huntsville Al
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Anybody from Huntsville?Can you people need some help?Please let me know,my friend and I want to come down there and help if needed.
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making amends
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I was told early on when making amends, do it once and do it right. Now the but. After nearly 5 years, now the but. It's been suggested that my amends to my adult children need a little bit of a coda. The initial amends are ok. The ongoing amends are to stay out of their lives but apparently I should explain th...
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Daily Reflections ~ Healing Heart and Mind & 24hrs a Day
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Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 55 Since it is true that God comes to me through people, I can see that by keeping people at a distance I also keep God at a distance. God is nearer to me than I think and I can exper...
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God Calling - Delay is Not Denial
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"As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts." Isaiah 55:9 Delay is but the all-loving restraint of your (Higher Power.) Your life is so linked up with those of others that to let your desire have instant fulfillment mi...
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Grateful for the relapser...
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Cause he is my teacher and sponsor for what will happen should I succumb to the compulsion(s). One of my sponsees who did what we talk about as necessary to drink again came back home...literally to mine and I am grateful. Thank you God. He made it away from home and had actually called me weeks ago to t...
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(((((((Rainspa!)))))))
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Happy Bellybutton Birthday, Helen! Howz Sobriety treating you today, Sister! Very well I hope :D Thank you for being here. Have an especially special day All About You.. Just for Today ;). Godbless. Recovery love & fellowship, Danielle x
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Happy Birthday Rainspa,
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Hi Rainspa, 25 Sober Years, wow, that's a quarter of a century, and centainly deserves one of the biggest cakes, hope so much you have a me me me me day....:) God Bless this day, and many many more Sober Birthdays, Praying for that for you. ...
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