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Coolest thing...
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...coming home from a meeting and feeling connected to something greater than myself. ...feeling a sense of calm rather than complete panic. ...meeting two people who know me and I know them before we even know each others' stories. I had never met either woman before, but instantly felt I knew them....
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God's got the trouble shovel out again.
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OK, so here's what's going well. Got a new job Have handed over my old responsibilities to the guy who's doing my old job (actually split it between 5 other guys.) Running up on two new projects. My house is almost packed up for a move Friends are waiting to help Where's the trouble then? Landlady of the ne...
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Sick and loving it
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Out of no where yesterday I got ridiculously sick. I threw up in a parking garage and continiued to do so all night long. Sweating, tossing and turning all night. Now I know to most of you this would be seemingly terrible I'm psyched that this is not drug/ alcohol induced. I'm becoming a "normal&qu...
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I'm a Member
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hello lovely people,
Just wanted to stop by and report that I have officially joined an AA group inn my city - and today I am celebrating 12 days sober. This Sunday it will be 2 weeks sober - I can't tell you how good it feels to keep accumulating those 24 hours'
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Oh how much I hate baseball season...
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I love baseball and everything associated with it, the only problem is as any other AA/ baseball fan knows, is that a nice cold beer goes best whether at home or at the park. This being my 63rd day in recovery it's very hard to seperate the two and it bums me out that until I can accept that i don't need one dri...
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A Pebble in the Water Makes an Effect
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I'm a writer. Stories pour from my mind as fast as I pour wine into my glass. Without it, I'm stoic. Nothing. What do I do? I'm free when I write. I love myself when I can finally speak, express the thoughts that spin in the back of my mind every minute of every day. Why is it so controlled by drink? Whe...
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In Memory of
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I was just thinking of some things my sponsor said to me way back when. I think he was a mathematician because he was always adding and subtracting things from my life when he talked. I was dating a woman who drank and she didn't understand the whole total abstinence thing and to make a long story short I wa...
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Robin W on alcoholism
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Hi all -- can't believe how long it's been since I've been on here. Can never seem to use the computer now that my son has discovered video games. ;) Great to be sober and see lots of new folks on here...gotta love the online fellowship. Anyway, have been able to have to the computer to myself (he and his mo...
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Happy to have found this board
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I have relapsed so many times out of fear and anxiety from going to meetings and dealing with people face to face. I've always had bad social anxiety but it got even worse with using/drinking. I started going to this one meeting every week, but I know that's not enough and I'm very uncomfortable speakin...
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Minding my own business
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I was walking by a hospital the other day and I could hear the patients shouting 13 13 13 13 13. The fence was too high to see over so I peeked though a crack in the fence. Then someone poked me in the eye and they all started shouting 14, 14, 14, 14, This really amused me from another site and it sure lets me kno...
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Solution
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Service work kept me high and dry today. I'm getting all tangled up in AA now. My son will talk to himself sometimes, when he's trying to find courage. He's very afraid of heights. So afraid that even if I just lift him up too high, he gets very scared. A bird built a nest in our wreath out front, and the...
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My sponsor quit answering my calls.
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I'm not sure what I did, or didn't do... but I haven't been able to get ahold of my sponsor for several days, and I'm not sure if that means I'm "fired" and I'm just suppose to quit calling? Is that what happens if someone doesn't want to work with you anymore? I only had this sponsor for a coupl...
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The day i surrendered...
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I just read, "I just need to "say" it", a post here on the board. It reminded me of spining the wheel, the marble going around and around.. and every time it seemed to land on the good "Party" stuff. Shooting pool, drag racing, disco dancing (yah, I'm old lol), loud music, booties shakin', wild cars, fa...
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Long Week
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About a week ago, I had a day from hell. One of the guys I do a group thing with relapsed and beat a guy to death. So he's up on murder charges. There but for the grace of God go I. One of my sponcees told me his father was on life support, dying of cancer. Its too bad; he's actually a good man. I painted myself int...
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AA Thoughts for today.
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Meditation "Perhaps one of the greatest rewards of meditation and prayer is the sense of belonging that comes to us. We no longer live in a completely hostile world. We are no longer lost and frightened and purposeless. We know that God lovingly watches over us. We know that when we turn to Him, a...
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The History Of AA in England.
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Hope some may find this interesting. I was giving it a little study tonight as I often do, just like the Big Book, so very much to take in and its a life long understanding and learning. So no rush. Also under study for me is the European structure and hand book full of interesting info. I live and learn :} ...
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Heading out in a minute!
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Stoppin in to say hey and hoping all are workin in the solution guided by the God of your own understanding.IF NOT! WELCOME, our program offers a new way of life practised by the application of spiritual principles in all affairs of your actions and deeds.Guided by your Higher Power "life"...
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God Calling - I Make the Opportunities
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"Never doubt. Have no fear. Watch the faintest tremor of fear, and stop all work, everything, and rest before Me until you are joyful and strong again. Deal in the same way with all tired feelings. Times of withdrawal for rest always precede fresh miracle-working. My work in the world has bee...
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Feeling good - thinking of drinking again.
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When I came to AA around the 1st of the year, I felt nothing but the rawness of my open wounds for the first week or so, and was overwhelmingly grateful to be sober... floating in the clouds. I started going to less meetings after the first week, because I was SO HAPPY, and seemingly "not that bad&qu...
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Kinda sad
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My grandsponsor is ailing and tonight I heard my sponsor was taking him to a meeting so I went out of my way to get there. He has not made it out to many meetings lately. He did not look good. He is a super fiesty loud italian guy and he was very frail and not the same. I have had the same grandsponsor my whole...
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Happiness is not the point. !
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*~*~*~*~*^Daily Reflections^*~*~*~*~* HAPPINESS IS NOT THE POINT I don't think happiness or unhappiness is the point. How do we meet the problems we face? How do we best learn from them and transmit what we have learned to others, if they would receive the knowledge? AS BILL SEES IT, p. 306 In m...
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"I knew I would live, and that was far more terrifying"
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I'm trying to read the stories at the end of the BB more, as whenever I read them, I identify more and more. I'd read many of them when I first come in, round about three years ago, but they often didn't register at the time. Anyway, I was re-reading "Empty on the Inside" the other day (starting o...
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The Morning Fog
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Reading the posts on this board, I see that telling our stories is a part of the MIP tradition. What follows is where I was, what happened, and how I am now. I think I was always an alcoholic. My first drunk came in 1987, when I was 2 years old. My parents were hosting a dinner party and while I don't rememb...
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Thought For Today
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"Fear is often the force that prevents me from acquiring and cultivating the power of faith. Fear blocks my appreciation of beauty, tolerance, forgiveness, service, and serenity." - daily reflection
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Faith is a necessary coping skill
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This is something I often spout off in meetings. I was reminded of it when reading Wolfie's post of the daily reflection. When I came into AA, I really had faith in nothing. Hence, I was paralyzed and crippled with fear and anxiety about literally everything. Slowly in recovery, everything has cha...
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Today I had a choice
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I could have started my day with a meeting--love those early morning meetings. Instead, I chose to start my day with a difficult conversation with my husband who is 3 weeks out of a detox, but not in recovery. (Imagine that: an alcoholic marrying an alcoholic--wonder how that happened). Tomorrow, I...
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No real desire to drink.......
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I just wanted to post that for at least 6 months, I really do not want to drink! I am not trying to jinx myself nor am I claiming I am "cured" or anything like that, I just wanted to assure folks who wonder if they can ever get periods of freedom, apparently it happens. I have been in this state bef...
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Treat Yourself as you Treat Others
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At my Step 3 discussion meeting last night, we talked about "letting go and letting God".
I have heard this phrase before, outside of the AA context. Talking about it along with step 3 last night made me meditate on what it means to me. What it means to me is what I have written in my signature...
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Not seeing child for weeks to attend 24/7meetingsHeHellH
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Hello, I have a few questions to ask (reaching out one final time) about my situation. Quick version of the story...Met my Guy 2years ago. Ended up pregnant very quickly 3 months into the relationship about 2months later i Found out oxy meth alcohol were his everyday staples. I helped clean him up last...
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Tell me what you think of this line
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in my home group`s meeting script: "If you cannot refrain from texting, you will be asked to take it outside by a home group member." OH pardon me, I`m a home group member. I don`t think any other home group member has any authority oer me, regardless of what some screwy "group conscien...
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DUI and GM lease
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Just throwing this out there. Maybe someone has dealt with this. I am thinking of leasing a GM equinox. But I had my 2nd dui 4 1/2 years ago. The truck I was driving was a lease. I was near the end of the lease but the contract took the truck and I had to pay all the months left on it. I get it...i messed up....
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"The truth is Natasha, I do want to be with you."
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And then he gives me a big hug. He must have felt a huge release to just say it finally, after not knowing what he could ever do to get me to stop drinking for over a year now. He was trying the "tough love" approach, and it was hurting him too, not just me. I'm sure someone recommended he do it, a...
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Today I was reminded of the importance of step4. 5. 6
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I just posted a heartful share more or less about my past but as always on how working my program had enabled me to change. And I just wanted to say to anyone who may be struggling with this..Hay just do it.and without fear. Mine was along time ago. But I was ready for them. I wanted to move on along my path to b...
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I wanted to slip away...
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but you wouldn't let me drift into the abyss. Although I was drowning in the unfathomable depths of my own coal black soul, you never let go of my hand. I could always see your reflection dancing above me as I looked up through the water and tried to wave goodbye. Your hands wouldn't wave and you pulled me t...
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I knew to this, and would love to talk to someone who understands what im going through.
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Hello everyone, Im new to this and have just recently admitted my addiction. I have always struggled with addiction, well since I was a freshman in high school. I've done just about every drug in the book, and have drank since i was 14. My latest addicition was to oxycontin. I am now in a suboxone program...
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I'm somebody.
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I had my first meeting with my new sponsor today. I was excited to talk with her and get to know her a bit. We went out for lunch and hit it off immediately. She's an art teacher, I'm a music teacher. We talked of budget cuts and misunderstanding. Over compensating with volunteer work and having that...
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"Skid Row Bill"
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Came across this newspaper story from 1955 totally by accident - I was googling something completely different and saw this on list of hits -- and was blown away by it, not just about the destructivesness of the disease and the pathos, but the desire of some good people to try to what they could to help us...
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A question on tradition one
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-- Edited by Wolfie55 on Thursday 19th of April 2012 07:24:02 AM -- Edited by Wolfie55 on Thursday 19th of April 2012 07:38:16 AM
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Bacon and Eggs
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-- Edited by Wolfie55 on Thursday 19th of April 2012 07:38:54 AM
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What If I was sick with cancer instead of alcoholism?
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I'm wondering this morning, how to go about today, after having this thought: What if I was sick with cancer instead of alcoholism? So far, ALL of the people who know I have alcoholism on my husbands side of the family, have not said a word to me. Not offered an "are you okay"? Stopped inte...
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Just need to "say" it
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I am an alcoholic. No doubt in my mind. I am. I am grateful I found my seat in AA before I am came in in hand-cuffs or a straight-jacket. I'm even more grateful that I made it in the door before I ended up in a casket. For today, I won't drink. And hopefully, I won't wear hand-cuffs or a straight-jacket, eithe...
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The perfect day
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When I walked out of work the other day I walked into what was one of the loveliest early afternoons I think I've ever seen. Blue skies with a couple of fluffy clouds, the temperature was absolutely perfect, and the landscape was lush and green from the recent rains we'd had here. "This is a perfec...
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question
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Hi I have a question. Is it possible for a drinker to have blackouts even when they're not drinking at the time? An incident occured while my husband was in a full on rage early one morning. He hadn't been drinking but he has no memory of what happened. I believe him about it as the look on his face was pu...
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Acoa related
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Hi, This morning I woke from a deep sleep, with the sudden realisation, that I am where I am because of me. Not from anyone/anything else. Soley from the choices I have made for my life. In the Laundry List book Step 5 reads - We admitted to our Higher Power, To Ourselves and to another human being the ex...
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I had my very first newbie today :}
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My first newbie was am inbox message...well its a newbie to me :} and I am a newbie on here too. haha. The message was for some help for me to look up on a link that was included that will encourgaed me each day :} How kind AA people are alwasy thinking of others and giving a helpful hand. Thank you for my inbo...
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The Promises- misleading advertising?
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Sometimes I wonder, when the promises are read out, Whether many of those present actually understand the context in which they are written. It seems at times like a "what's in it for me" kind of sales pitch with many people thinking that it relates to the number of meetings they attend and t...
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Why I feel better today
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I feel better because: I listened. I shared. I went to more meetings. I was honest and said I was terrified. I made a phone call and admitted I didn't have a clue what I was doing (a difficult and humbling thing to admit after working the Steps on the other side of my program). I received kind and gentle guid...
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just got out of rehab
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getting ready for some meetings and need to find me a sponser
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Confident in Faith
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May 1979, a young pup of 31 years, riddled with addiction from an early age in '59 (and before)I applied and got employment in a program for People With Disabilities(how ironic,as I was the one with Major disabilities)It was only God's(of my understanding) grace and mercy that got me through the fir...
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Aloha Luigi
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Aloha guys and gals...just want to jabber a bit; release some thoughts that have been running around in my head for several days and needing to speak out kindly of one of our local brothers in the fellowship who just crossed the hallway into the other rooms. I use to call him "Weegie", short...
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