Alcoholics Anonymous

Trinity Archer · Trinity Archer

I'm a writer. Stories pour from my mind as fast as I pour wine into my glass. Without it, I'm stoic. Nothing. What do I do? I'm free when I write. I love myself when I can finally speak, express the thoughts that spin in the back of my mind every minute of every day. Why is it so controlled by drink? Whe...

Wolfie55 · Wolfie55

I was just thinking of some things my sponsor said to me way back when. I think he was a mathematician because he was always adding and subtracting things from my life when he talked. I was dating a woman who drank and she didn't understand the whole total abstinence thing and to make a long story short I wa...

SteveP · SteveP

Hi all -- can't believe how long it's been since I've been on here. Can never seem to use the computer now that my son has discovered video games. ;) Great to be sober and see lots of new folks on here...gotta love the online fellowship. Anyway, have been able to have to the computer to myself (he and his mo...

bizzaro me · bizzaro me

I have relapsed so many times out of fear and anxiety from going to meetings and dealing with people face to face. I've always had bad social anxiety but it got even worse with using/drinking. I started going to this one meeting every week, but I know that's not enough and I'm very uncomfortable speakin...

maire rua · maire rua

I was walking by a hospital the other day and I could hear the patients shouting 13 13 13 13 13. The fence was too high to see over so I peeked though a crack in the fence. Then someone poked me in the eye and they all started shouting 14, 14, 14, 14, This really amused me from another site and it sure lets me kno...

justadrunk · justadrunk

Service work kept me high and dry today. I'm getting all tangled up in AA now. My son will talk to himself sometimes, when he's trying to find courage. He's very afraid of heights. So afraid that even if I just lift him up too high, he gets very scared. A bird built a nest in our wreath out front, and the...

justadrunk · justadrunk

I'm not sure what I did, or didn't do... but I haven't been able to get ahold of my sponsor for several days, and I'm not sure if that means I'm "fired" and I'm just suppose to quit calling? Is that what happens if someone doesn't want to work with you anymore? I only had this sponsor for a coupl...

John · John

I just read, "I just need to "say" it", a post here on the board. It reminded me of spining the wheel, the marble going around and around.. and every time it seemed to land on the good "Party" stuff. Shooting pool, drag racing, disco dancing (yah, I'm old lol), loud music, booties shakin', wild cars, fa...

Wolfie55 · Wolfie55

About a week ago, I had a day from hell. One of the guys I do a group thing with relapsed and beat a guy to death. So he's up on murder charges. There but for the grace of God go I. One of my sponcees told me his father was on life support, dying of cancer. Its too bad; he's actually a good man. I painted myself int...

Polly · Polly

Meditation "Perhaps one of the greatest rewards of meditation and prayer is the sense of belonging that comes to us. We no longer live in a completely hostile world. We are no longer lost and frightened and purposeless. We know that God lovingly watches over us. We know that when we turn to Him, a...

Polly · Polly

Hope some may find this interesting. I was giving it a little study tonight as I often do, just like the Big Book, so very much to take in and its a life long understanding and learning. So no rush. Also under study for me is the European structure and hand book full of interesting info. I live and learn :} ...

mikef · mikef

Stoppin in to say hey and hoping all are workin in the solution guided by the God of your own understanding.IF NOT! WELCOME, our program offers a new way of life practised by the application of spiritual principles in all affairs of your actions and deeds.Guided by your Higher Power "life"...

deb365 · deb365

"Never doubt. Have no fear. Watch the faintest tremor of fear, and stop all work, everything, and rest before Me until you are joyful and strong again. Deal in the same way with all tired feelings. Times of withdrawal for rest always precede fresh miracle-working. My work in the world has bee...

justadrunk · justadrunk

When I came to AA around the 1st of the year, I felt nothing but the rawness of my open wounds for the first week or so, and was overwhelmingly grateful to be sober... floating in the clouds. I started going to less meetings after the first week, because I was SO HAPPY, and seemingly "not that bad&qu...

pinkchip · pinkchip

My grandsponsor is ailing and tonight I heard my sponsor was taking him to a meeting so I went out of my way to get there. He has not made it out to many meetings lately. He did not look good. He is a super fiesty loud italian guy and he was very frail and not the same. I have had the same grandsponsor my whole...

Polly · Polly

*~*~*~*~*^Daily Reflections^*~*~*~*~* HAPPINESS IS NOT THE POINT I don't think happiness or unhappiness is the point. How do we meet the problems we face? How do we best learn from them and transmit what we have learned to others, if they would receive the knowledge? AS BILL SEES IT, p. 306 In m...

SteveP · SteveP

I'm trying to read the stories at the end of the BB more, as whenever I read them, I identify more and more. I'd read many of them when I first come in, round about three years ago, but they often didn't register at the time. Anyway, I was re-reading "Empty on the Inside" the other day (starting o...

Aspgrl · Aspgrl

Reading the posts on this board, I see that telling our stories is a part of the MIP tradition. What follows is where I was, what happened, and how I am now. I think I was always an alcoholic. My first drunk came in 1987, when I was 2 years old. My parents were hosting a dinner party and while I don't rememb...

Wolfie55 · Wolfie55

"Fear is often the force that prevents me from acquiring and cultivating the power of faith. Fear blocks my appreciation of beauty, tolerance, forgiveness, service, and serenity." - daily reflection

pinkchip · pinkchip

This is something I often spout off in meetings. I was reminded of it when reading Wolfie's post of the daily reflection. When I came into AA, I really had faith in nothing. Hence, I was paralyzed and crippled with fear and anxiety about literally everything. Slowly in recovery, everything has cha...

very very tired · very very tired

I could have started my day with a meeting--love those early morning meetings. Instead, I chose to start my day with a difficult conversation with my husband who is 3 weeks out of a detox, but not in recovery. (Imagine that: an alcoholic marrying an alcoholic--wonder how that happened). Tomorrow, I...

turninggrey · turninggrey

I just wanted to post that for at least 6 months, I really do not want to drink! I am not trying to jinx myself nor am I claiming I am "cured" or anything like that, I just wanted to assure folks who wonder if they can ever get periods of freedom, apparently it happens. I have been in this state bef...

Aspgrl · Aspgrl

At my Step 3 discussion meeting last night, we talked about "letting go and letting God". I have heard this phrase before, outside of the AA context. Talking about it along with step 3 last night made me meditate on what it means to me. What it means to me is what I have written in my signature...

tydasu · tydasu

Hello, I have a few questions to ask (reaching out one final time) about my situation. Quick version of the story...Met my Guy 2years ago. Ended up pregnant very quickly 3 months into the relationship about 2months later i Found out oxy meth alcohol were his everyday staples. I helped clean him up last...

FlyingSquirrel · FlyingSquirrel

in my home group`s meeting script: "If you cannot refrain from texting, you will be asked to take it outside by a home group member." OH pardon me, I`m a home group member. I don`t think any other home group member has any authority oer me, regardless of what some screwy "group conscien...

SUSIE · SUSIE

Just throwing this out there. Maybe someone has dealt with this. I am thinking of leasing a GM equinox. But I had my 2nd dui 4 1/2 years ago. The truck I was driving was a lease. I was near the end of the lease but the contract took the truck and I had to pay all the months left on it. I get it...i messed up....

justadrunk · justadrunk

And then he gives me a big hug. He must have felt a huge release to just say it finally, after not knowing what he could ever do to get me to stop drinking for over a year now. He was trying the "tough love" approach, and it was hurting him too, not just me. I'm sure someone recommended he do it, a...

Polly · Polly

I just posted a heartful share more or less about my past but as always on how working my program had enabled me to change. And I just wanted to say to anyone who may be struggling with this..Hay just do it.and without fear. Mine was along time ago. But I was ready for them. I wanted to move on along my path to b...

justadrunk · justadrunk

but you wouldn't let me drift into the abyss. Although I was drowning in the unfathomable depths of my own coal black soul, you never let go of my hand. I could always see your reflection dancing above me as I looked up through the water and tried to wave goodbye. Your hands wouldn't wave and you pulled me t...

tkuhel12 · tkuhel12

Hello everyone, Im new to this and have just recently admitted my addiction. I have always struggled with addiction, well since I was a freshman in high school. I've done just about every drug in the book, and have drank since i was 14. My latest addicition was to oxycontin. I am now in a suboxone program...

justadrunk · justadrunk

I had my first meeting with my new sponsor today. I was excited to talk with her and get to know her a bit. We went out for lunch and hit it off immediately. She's an art teacher, I'm a music teacher. We talked of budget cuts and misunderstanding. Over compensating with volunteer work and having that...

SteveP · SteveP

Came across this newspaper story from 1955 totally by accident - I was googling something completely different and saw this on list of hits -- and was blown away by it, not just about the destructivesness of the disease and the pathos, but the desire of some good people to try to what they could to help us...

Wolfie55 · Wolfie55

-- Edited by Wolfie55 on Thursday 19th of April 2012 07:24:02 AM -- Edited by Wolfie55 on Thursday 19th of April 2012 07:38:16 AM

Wolfie55 · Wolfie55

-- Edited by Wolfie55 on Thursday 19th of April 2012 07:38:54 AM

justadrunk · justadrunk

I'm wondering this morning, how to go about today, after having this thought: What if I was sick with cancer instead of alcoholism? So far, ALL of the people who know I have alcoholism on my husbands side of the family, have not said a word to me. Not offered an "are you okay"? Stopped inte...

very very tired · very very tired

I am an alcoholic. No doubt in my mind. I am. I am grateful I found my seat in AA before I am came in in hand-cuffs or a straight-jacket. I'm even more grateful that I made it in the door before I ended up in a casket. For today, I won't drink. And hopefully, I won't wear hand-cuffs or a straight-jacket, eithe...

Frodo · Frodo

When I walked out of work the other day I walked into what was one of the loveliest early afternoons I think I've ever seen. Blue skies with a couple of fluffy clouds, the temperature was absolutely perfect, and the landscape was lush and green from the recent rains we'd had here. "This is a perfec...

Tracey C · Tracey C

Hi I have a question. Is it possible for a drinker to have blackouts even when they're not drinking at the time? An incident occured while my husband was in a full on rage early one morning. He hadn't been drinking but he has no memory of what happened. I believe him about it as the look on his face was pu...

Tracey C · Tracey C

Hi, This morning I woke from a deep sleep, with the sudden realisation, that I am where I am because of me. Not from anyone/anything else. Soley from the choices I have made for my life. In the Laundry List book Step 5 reads - We admitted to our Higher Power, To Ourselves and to another human being the ex...

Polly · Polly

My first newbie was am inbox message...well its a newbie to me :} and I am a newbie on here too. haha. The message was for some help for me to look up on a link that was included that will encourgaed me each day :} How kind AA people are alwasy thinking of others and giving a helpful hand. Thank you for my inbo...

Fyne Spirit · Fyne Spirit

Sometimes I wonder, when the promises are read out, Whether many of those present actually understand the context in which they are written. It seems at times like a "what's in it for me" kind of sales pitch with many people thinking that it relates to the number of meetings they attend and t...

very very tired · very very tired

I feel better because: I listened. I shared. I went to more meetings. I was honest and said I was terrified. I made a phone call and admitted I didn't have a clue what I was doing (a difficult and humbling thing to admit after working the Steps on the other side of my program). I received kind and gentle guid...

lastofadyingbreed · lastofadyingbreed

getting ready for some meetings and need to find me a sponser

mikef · mikef

May 1979, a young pup of 31 years, riddled with addiction from an early age in '59 (and before)I applied and got employment in a program for People With Disabilities(how ironic,as I was the one with Major disabilities)It was only God's(of my understanding) grace and mercy that got me through the fir...

Jerry F · Jerry F

Aloha guys and gals...just want to jabber a bit; release some thoughts that have been running around in my head for several days and needing to speak out kindly of one of our local brothers in the fellowship who just crossed the hallway into the other rooms. I use to call him "Weegie", short...

Frodo · Frodo

or 500 and something lots of 24 hours. Days turn into weeks turn into months turn into years. It doesn't feel much different from any other day unlike the year milestone, but that is a good thing. Just another day of me enjoying this new shot at life I have, with a light heart and a clear head. It's nice, y...

Wolfie55 · Wolfie55

I remember my first AA convention. Actually, up here in the maritimes, we call them round-ups. It was 1998. I think I had about four months in. There was a young lady who had gone to the event to support a colleague from work but during the banquet speaker's talk she realized that she herself was alcoholi...

justadrunk · justadrunk

To try to extinguish the drive for riches with money is like trying to quench a fire by pouring butterfat over it. --Hindu proverb In recovery, we learn what we truly want and what is only a symbol of our desires. Do we truly want to use our energies pursuing success, or are we seeking approval from others...

Frodo · Frodo

Self-pity is one of the most unhappy and consuming defects that we know. It is a bar to all spiritual progress and can cut off all effective communication with our fellows because of its inordinate demands for attention and sympathy. It is a maudlin form of martyrdom, which we can ill afford. AS BILL SE...

Sobrietyspell · Sobrietyspell

From 24hrs a Day Meditation for the Day There are two paths, one up and one down. We have been given free will to choose either path. We are captains of our souls to this extent only. We can choose the good or the bad. Once we have chosen the wrong path, we go down and down, eventually to death. But if we ch...

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	A Pebble in the Water Makes an Effect (Preview) I'm a writer. Stories pour from my mind as fast as I pour wine into my glass. Without it, I'm stoic. Nothing. What do I do? I'm free when I write. I love myself when I can finally speak, express the thoughts that spin in the back of my mind every minute of every day. Why is it so controlled by drink? Whe...	Trinity Archer	10	405	Apr 30, 2012 by Jerry F
	In Memory of (Preview) I was just thinking of some things my sponsor said to me way back when. I think he was a mathematician because he was always adding and subtracting things from my life when he talked. I was dating a woman who drank and she didn't understand the whole total abstinence thing and to make a long story short I wa...	Wolfie55	4	508	Apr 29, 2012 by SteveP
	Robin W on alcoholism (Preview) Hi all -- can't believe how long it's been since I've been on here. Can never seem to use the computer now that my son has discovered video games. ;) Great to be sober and see lots of new folks on here...gotta love the online fellowship. Anyway, have been able to have to the computer to myself (he and his mo...	SteveP	6	462	Apr 29, 2012 by SoberSteve
	Happy to have found this board (Preview) I have relapsed so many times out of fear and anxiety from going to meetings and dealing with people face to face. I've always had bad social anxiety but it got even worse with using/drinking. I started going to this one meeting every week, but I know that's not enough and I'm very uncomfortable speakin...	bizzaro me	13	444	Apr 28, 2012 by Polly
	Minding my own business (Preview) I was walking by a hospital the other day and I could hear the patients shouting 13 13 13 13 13. The fence was too high to see over so I peeked though a crack in the fence. Then someone poked me in the eye and they all started shouting 14, 14, 14, 14, This really amused me from another site and it sure lets me kno...	maire rua	5	747	Apr 28, 2012 by bizzaro me
	Solution (Preview) Service work kept me high and dry today. I'm getting all tangled up in AA now. My son will talk to himself sometimes, when he's trying to find courage. He's very afraid of heights. So afraid that even if I just lift him up too high, he gets very scared. A bird built a nest in our wreath out front, and the...	justadrunk	5	322	Apr 28, 2012 by Polly
	My sponsor quit answering my calls. (Preview) I'm not sure what I did, or didn't do... but I haven't been able to get ahold of my sponsor for several days, and I'm not sure if that means I'm "fired" and I'm just suppose to quit calling? Is that what happens if someone doesn't want to work with you anymore? I only had this sponsor for a coupl...	justadrunk	30	4941	Apr 28, 2012 by justadrunk
	The day i surrendered... (Preview) I just read, "I just need to "say" it", a post here on the board. It reminded me of spining the wheel, the marble going around and around.. and every time it seemed to land on the good "Party" stuff. Shooting pool, drag racing, disco dancing (yah, I'm old lol), loud music, booties shakin', wild cars, fa...	John	9	416	Apr 28, 2012 by Fyne Spirit
	Long Week (Preview) About a week ago, I had a day from hell. One of the guys I do a group thing with relapsed and beat a guy to death. So he's up on murder charges. There but for the grace of God go I. One of my sponcees told me his father was on life support, dying of cancer. Its too bad; he's actually a good man. I painted myself int...	Wolfie55	11	449	Apr 28, 2012 by Polly
	AA Thoughts for today. (Preview) Meditation "Perhaps one of the greatest rewards of meditation and prayer is the sense of belonging that comes to us. We no longer live in a completely hostile world. We are no longer lost and frightened and purposeless. We know that God lovingly watches over us. We know that when we turn to Him, a...	Polly	4	3317	Apr 28, 2012 by Polly
	The History Of AA in England. (Preview) Hope some may find this interesting. I was giving it a little study tonight as I often do, just like the Big Book, so very much to take in and its a life long understanding and learning. So no rush. Also under study for me is the European structure and hand book full of interesting info. I live and learn :} ...	Polly	3	358	Apr 28, 2012 by Polly
	Heading out in a minute! (Preview) Stoppin in to say hey and hoping all are workin in the solution guided by the God of your own understanding.IF NOT! WELCOME, our program offers a new way of life practised by the application of spiritual principles in all affairs of your actions and deeds.Guided by your Higher Power "life"...	mikef	2	380	Apr 26, 2012 by gonee
	God Calling - I Make the Opportunities (Preview) "Never doubt. Have no fear. Watch the faintest tremor of fear, and stop all work, everything, and rest before Me until you are joyful and strong again. Deal in the same way with all tired feelings. Times of withdrawal for rest always precede fresh miracle-working. My work in the world has bee...	deb365	0	246	Apr 26, 2012 by deb365
	Feeling good - thinking of drinking again. (Preview) When I came to AA around the 1st of the year, I felt nothing but the rawness of my open wounds for the first week or so, and was overwhelmingly grateful to be sober... floating in the clouds. I started going to less meetings after the first week, because I was SO HAPPY, and seemingly "not that bad&qu...	justadrunk	13	838	Apr 26, 2012 by SteveP
	Kinda sad (Preview) My grandsponsor is ailing and tonight I heard my sponsor was taking him to a meeting so I went out of my way to get there. He has not made it out to many meetings lately. He did not look good. He is a super fiesty loud italian guy and he was very frail and not the same. I have had the same grandsponsor my whole...	pinkchip	6	391	Apr 26, 2012 by pinkchip
	Happiness is not the point. ! (Preview) **~~~~^Daily Reflections^~~~~ HAPPINESS IS NOT THE POINT I don't think happiness or unhappiness is the point. How do we meet the problems we face? How do we best learn from them and transmit what we have learned to others, if they would receive the knowledge? AS BILL SEES IT, p. 306 In m...**	Polly	2	1591	Apr 26, 2012 by Fyne Spirit
	"I knew I would live, and that was far more terrifying" (Preview) I'm trying to read the stories at the end of the BB more, as whenever I read them, I identify more and more. I'd read many of them when I first come in, round about three years ago, but they often didn't register at the time. Anyway, I was re-reading "Empty on the Inside" the other day (starting o...	SteveP	6	378	Apr 26, 2012 by Polly
	The Morning Fog (Preview) Reading the posts on this board, I see that telling our stories is a part of the MIP tradition. What follows is where I was, what happened, and how I am now. I think I was always an alcoholic. My first drunk came in 1987, when I was 2 years old. My parents were hosting a dinner party and while I don't rememb...	Aspgrl	10	457	Apr 26, 2012 by Polly
	Thought For Today (Preview) "Fear is often the force that prevents me from acquiring and cultivating the power of faith. Fear blocks my appreciation of beauty, tolerance, forgiveness, service, and serenity." - daily reflection	Wolfie55	4	1774	Apr 26, 2012 by Polly
	Faith is a necessary coping skill (Preview) This is something I often spout off in meetings. I was reminded of it when reading Wolfie's post of the daily reflection. When I came into AA, I really had faith in nothing. Hence, I was paralyzed and crippled with fear and anxiety about literally everything. Slowly in recovery, everything has cha...	pinkchip	7	1014	Apr 25, 2012 by Polly
	Today I had a choice (Preview) I could have started my day with a meeting--love those early morning meetings. Instead, I chose to start my day with a difficult conversation with my husband who is 3 weeks out of a detox, but not in recovery. (Imagine that: an alcoholic marrying an alcoholic--wonder how that happened). Tomorrow, I...	very very tired	6	466	Apr 25, 2012 by Polly
	No real desire to drink....... (Preview) I just wanted to post that for at least 6 months, I really do not want to drink! I am not trying to jinx myself nor am I claiming I am "cured" or anything like that, I just wanted to assure folks who wonder if they can ever get periods of freedom, apparently it happens. I have been in this state bef...	turninggrey	9	693	Apr 25, 2012 by jj
	Treat Yourself as you Treat Others (Preview) At my Step 3 discussion meeting last night, we talked about "letting go and letting God". I have heard this phrase before, outside of the AA context. Talking about it along with step 3 last night made me meditate on what it means to me. What it means to me is what I have written in my signature...	Aspgrl	2	361	Apr 25, 2012 by Big Book Believer
	Not seeing child for weeks to attend 24/7meetingsHeHellH children help what to do advice abandoned (Preview) Hello, I have a few questions to ask (reaching out one final time) about my situation. Quick version of the story...Met my Guy 2years ago. Ended up pregnant very quickly 3 months into the relationship about 2months later i Found out oxy meth alcohol were his everyday staples. I helped clean him up last...	tydasu	7	3827	Apr 25, 2012 by tydasu
	Tell me what you think of this line (Preview) in my home group`s meeting script: "If you cannot refrain from texting, you will be asked to take it outside by a home group member." OH pardon me, I`m a home group member. I don`t think any other home group member has any authority oer me, regardless of what some screwy "group conscien...	FlyingSquirrel	14	1287	Apr 25, 2012 by bikerbill
	DUI and GM lease (Preview) Just throwing this out there. Maybe someone has dealt with this. I am thinking of leasing a GM equinox. But I had my 2nd dui 4 1/2 years ago. The truck I was driving was a lease. I was near the end of the lease but the contract took the truck and I had to pay all the months left on it. I get it...i messed up....	SUSIE	4	3811	Apr 25, 2012 by SUSIE
	"The truth is Natasha, I do want to be with you." (Preview) And then he gives me a big hug. He must have felt a huge release to just say it finally, after not knowing what he could ever do to get me to stop drinking for over a year now. He was trying the "tough love" approach, and it was hurting him too, not just me. I'm sure someone recommended he do it, a...	justadrunk	15	484	Apr 25, 2012 by pinkchip
	Today I was reminded of the importance of step4. 5. 6 (Preview) I just posted a heartful share more or less about my past but as always on how working my program had enabled me to change. And I just wanted to say to anyone who may be struggling with this..Hay just do it.and without fear. Mine was along time ago. But I was ready for them. I wanted to move on along my path to b...	Polly	1	536	Apr 24, 2012 by Fyne Spirit
	I wanted to slip away... (Preview) but you wouldn't let me drift into the abyss. Although I was drowning in the unfathomable depths of my own coal black soul, you never let go of my hand. I could always see your reflection dancing above me as I looked up through the water and tried to wave goodbye. Your hands wouldn't wave and you pulled me t...	justadrunk	4	386	Apr 24, 2012 by Polly
	I knew to this, and would love to talk to someone who understands what im going through. (Preview) Hello everyone, Im new to this and have just recently admitted my addiction. I have always struggled with addiction, well since I was a freshman in high school. I've done just about every drug in the book, and have drank since i was 14. My latest addicition was to oxycontin. I am now in a suboxone program...	tkuhel12	11	1151	Apr 24, 2012 by augieben
	I'm somebody. (Preview) I had my first meeting with my new sponsor today. I was excited to talk with her and get to know her a bit. We went out for lunch and hit it off immediately. She's an art teacher, I'm a music teacher. We talked of budget cuts and misunderstanding. Over compensating with volunteer work and having that...	justadrunk	6	446	Apr 23, 2012 by SteveP
	"Skid Row Bill" (Preview) Came across this newspaper story from 1955 totally by accident - I was googling something completely different and saw this on list of hits -- and was blown away by it, not just about the destructivesness of the disease and the pathos, but the desire of some good people to try to what they could to help us...	SteveP	2	632	Apr 23, 2012 by justadrunk
	A question on tradition one (Preview) -- Edited by Wolfie55 on Thursday 19th of April 2012 07:24:02 AM -- Edited by Wolfie55 on Thursday 19th of April 2012 07:38:16 AM	Wolfie55	15	897	Apr 23, 2012 by Polly
	Bacon and Eggs (Preview) -- Edited by Wolfie55 on Thursday 19th of April 2012 07:38:54 AM	Wolfie55	6	456	Apr 23, 2012 by Polly
	What If I was sick with cancer instead of alcoholism? (Preview) I'm wondering this morning, how to go about today, after having this thought: What if I was sick with cancer instead of alcoholism? So far, ALL of the people who know I have alcoholism on my husbands side of the family, have not said a word to me. Not offered an "are you okay"? Stopped inte...	justadrunk	12	361	Apr 22, 2012 by Ruhig
	Just need to "say" it (Preview) I am an alcoholic. No doubt in my mind. I am. I am grateful I found my seat in AA before I am came in in hand-cuffs or a straight-jacket. I'm even more grateful that I made it in the door before I ended up in a casket. For today, I won't drink. And hopefully, I won't wear hand-cuffs or a straight-jacket, eithe...	very very tired	6	385	Apr 23, 2012 by justadrunk
	The perfect day (Preview) When I walked out of work the other day I walked into what was one of the loveliest early afternoons I think I've ever seen. Blue skies with a couple of fluffy clouds, the temperature was absolutely perfect, and the landscape was lush and green from the recent rains we'd had here. "This is a perfec...	Frodo	2	335	Apr 22, 2012 by Fyne Spirit
	question (Preview) Hi I have a question. Is it possible for a drinker to have blackouts even when they're not drinking at the time? An incident occured while my husband was in a full on rage early one morning. He hadn't been drinking but he has no memory of what happened. I believe him about it as the look on his face was pu...	Tracey C	6	298	Apr 22, 2012 by StPeteDean
	Acoa related (Preview) Hi, This morning I woke from a deep sleep, with the sudden realisation, that I am where I am because of me. Not from anyone/anything else. Soley from the choices I have made for my life. In the Laundry List book Step 5 reads - We admitted to our Higher Power, To Ourselves and to another human being the ex...	Tracey C	2	333	Apr 22, 2012 by Tracey C
	I had my very first newbie today :} (Preview) My first newbie was am inbox message...well its a newbie to me :} and I am a newbie on here too. haha. The message was for some help for me to look up on a link that was included that will encourgaed me each day :} How kind AA people are alwasy thinking of others and giving a helpful hand. Thank you for my inbo...	Polly	3	356	Apr 21, 2012 by Polly
	The Promises- misleading advertising? (Preview) Sometimes I wonder, when the promises are read out, Whether many of those present actually understand the context in which they are written. It seems at times like a "what's in it for me" kind of sales pitch with many people thinking that it relates to the number of meetings they attend and t...	Fyne Spirit	9	3846	Apr 21, 2012 by Polly
	Why I feel better today (Preview) I feel better because: I listened. I shared. I went to more meetings. I was honest and said I was terrified. I made a phone call and admitted I didn't have a clue what I was doing (a difficult and humbling thing to admit after working the Steps on the other side of my program). I received kind and gentle guid...	very very tired	5	317	Apr 21, 2012 by Polly
	just got out of rehab (Preview) getting ready for some meetings and need to find me a sponser	lastofadyingbreed	13	474	Apr 21, 2012 by Polly
	Confident in Faith (Preview) May 1979, a young pup of 31 years, riddled with addiction from an early age in '59 (and before)I applied and got employment in a program for People With Disabilities(how ironic,as I was the one with Major disabilities)It was only God's(of my understanding) grace and mercy that got me through the fir...	mikef	6	319	Apr 21, 2012 by vixen
	Aloha Luigi (Preview) Aloha guys and gals...just want to jabber a bit; release some thoughts that have been running around in my head for several days and needing to speak out kindly of one of our local brothers in the fellowship who just crossed the hallway into the other rooms. I use to call him "Weegie", short...	Jerry F	7	1405	Apr 21, 2012 by justadrunk
	18 months today. (Preview) or 500 and something lots of 24 hours. Days turn into weeks turn into months turn into years. It doesn't feel much different from any other day unlike the year milestone, but that is a good thing. Just another day of me enjoying this new shot at life I have, with a light heart and a clear head. It's nice, y...	Frodo	19	393	Apr 20, 2012 by justadrunk
	Newcomers - the bright spot in our lives (Preview) I remember my first AA convention. Actually, up here in the maritimes, we call them round-ups. It was 1998. I think I had about four months in. There was a young lady who had gone to the event to support a colleague from work but during the banquet speaker's talk she realized that she herself was alcoholi...	Wolfie55	11	934	Apr 20, 2012 by Polly
	Today's thought from Hazelden. (Preview) To try to extinguish the drive for riches with money is like trying to quench a fire by pouring butterfat over it. --Hindu proverb In recovery, we learn what we truly want and what is only a symbol of our desires. Do we truly want to use our energies pursuing success, or are we seeking approval from others...	justadrunk	5	1881	Apr 20, 2012 by Polly
	THE FALSE COMFORT OF SELF-PITY (Preview) Self-pity is one of the most unhappy and consuming defects that we know. It is a bar to all spiritual progress and can cut off all effective communication with our fellows because of its inordinate demands for attention and sympathy. It is a maudlin form of martyrdom, which we can ill afford. AS BILL SE...	Frodo	9	3873	Apr 20, 2012 by Polly
	Meditation & Prayer (Preview) From 24hrs a Day Meditation for the Day There are two paths, one up and one down. We have been given free will to choose either path. We are captains of our souls to this extent only. We can choose the good or the bad. Once we have chosen the wrong path, we go down and down, eventually to death. But if we ch...	Sobrietyspell	1	301	Apr 20, 2012 by Polly
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