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Sober identity
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I don't even understand what that could possibly mean for over 1 year, and all at once the fog sloooowly begins to lift. How can I not be my identity? That was always how I blew that phrase off and kept myself from really caring or wondering what more could be revealed. I am sober - so this is my sober iden...
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justadrunk
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I grew a beard
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Wanna know why? It's a really stupid reason. Somewhere in my alcoholic brain I thought that if I changed the face I saw in the mirror it would help me change who I am inside. I've always been this baby faced man-child who everyone seems to let get away with murder and I thought that maybe if I looked more gro...
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Sober McHappy
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Material Possessions, romance and Finance
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Buckle up fellers, this could be a long 'un. we'll start with the motorbike. Caught fire a couple weeks ago and the parts list to repair comes to almost as much as the insurance valuation. Add labour and I reckon it'll be a write off. I'm keeping positive as no one was hurt, it's insured, it's below freezi...
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WARNING! My annonimity has been compromised here.
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Do not use your regular email address here. Someone Googled my email address and found me on this and another forum related to the same thing.. Plus I was stupid for putting my own pic up as my avatar. I never knew they could find you that way.
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Saying sorry
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A while ago, prior to my coming back, I worked with a guy who was an alcoholic and I really used to bust his balls about being in AA. I was constantly making drinking jokes, threatening to spike his coffee, burping at him after a night out, etc. very immature stuff. He was a very calm, mild mannered guy...
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Today's Gift 01-15
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Love must be learned, and learned again and again; there is no end to it. Hate needs no instruction, but only waits to be provoked. --Katherine Anne PorterWe often enter into our relationships believing there is one perfect way to act, and if we can only find that way, we'll be successful, accepted. Bu...
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Today's Gift 01-16
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The self is a calm stable center surrounded by a continuous changing sea. Merge with yourself and be ready for any emergent sea. --Coretta Scott King Wise ones tell us to be true to ourselves. Being true to ourselves means daring to disagree with a loved one, even when we know it might cause painful tens...
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Pythonpappy
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I'm having a very difficult time all of a sudden
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Everything was going great, you might even say I was getting a little cocksure of myself and my newfound mature outlook on sobriety...and then I got absolutely hammered. I'm sitting here asking myself why I did it and I have no answers. None that make sense anyway. I don't drive drunk, fight anyone or e...
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Sober McHappy
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Not much luck finding a sponsor... definitely need one
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Well I made a fine mess this weekend. And by "fine mess" I mean I relapsed & nothing happened other than I pissed off my family & now I feel like a loser YET AGAIN. Basically I just sat on my couch, watched TV, nothing else happened which I think is the worst thing that could ever happe...
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Cruising in AA
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Well folks, I am back from my 7 day cruise. San Juan, St. Maarten, St. Thomas....all very pretty. I had a wonderful time with my partner. I have to say the most unexpected and pleasant thing of the whole trip was the AA meetings on the boat. There were about 7 of us. I had planned on maybe going to one me...
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pinkchip
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Grapevine
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January 15 "I am grateful that the people in AA showed me how to live sober. However, I have learned many things from other sources. I learned about quiet from the breeze floating through the grass on a warm summer day. I have...
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And here comes Step Four
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I can't believe how many ppl, institutions, and principles I have on my list. It's insane. I carry around more resentment and negativity than I even realize. It's ugly.
I woke up today knowing I need to stay close to the program and my Higher Power. Tough stuff coming up in stepwork is coinciding with t...
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Chaya
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$2.00 beers
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Well I went to a local pro wrestling event tonight. Got there and seen behind us was a small window with a sign $2.00 beers, now the old me would have had probably 10 of them and I did think to myself that price isnt too high but that was it, watching others guzzle them down made me sick. So instead I sipped m...
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SereneSteve
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The never ending step 4...
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Goodness, Ive been working on step 4 for a long time! Months! I understand the need for being thorough, and that it's a crucial step. It just seems to be a very drawn out process. I don't know if it's me, or my sponser, or that I just have more work than most to do- but most people I've heard talk about it have m...
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The neighbors
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There is a house 3 away from me that always has a lot of traffic. Lots of different people in and out. I was talking to a couple guys at the meeting tonight. They live there. It's a sober house. Had to go all the way to AA to meet the neighbors. I need to get out of my bubble a little more! Also ran into a lady at a me...
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ChristineG
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Tasha?
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NowOvercastTemperature66.0 °FFeels Like 66.0 °FWind(mph)5.0Sunrise / Set7:42 AM5:51 PMMoonWaxing CrescentMore Astronomy Tonight59 °FRain Showers70% chance of precipitationTomorrow72 °FRain Showers80% chance of precipitationTomorrow Night46 °FRain Showers70% chance of pr...
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Step 5
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"The feeling that the drink problem has disappeared will often come strongly." BB pg 75. What a wonderful feeling this was, when I left my sponsor after doing my 5th step with him. For the first time I experienced real sobriety. My drinking friends also knew that I was on my way to recovery. I...
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gonee
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Dreams
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I got this in an email yesterday.It goes along with something I was told by my sponsor several years ago, that it's not that we aim to high and fail but that we aim to low and succeed and accept things as the best they will ever be. "It must be born in mind, that the tragedy of life does not lie in not re...
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Bob K
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Daily Reflections ~ An Unsuspected Inner Resource & 24hrs a Day
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With few exceptions our members find that they have tapped an unsuspected inner resource which they presently identify with their own conception of a Power greater than themselves. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, pp. 569-70 >From my first days in A.A., as I struggled for sobriety, I found hope in these w...
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Today's Gift 01-14
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If you play with a thing long enough, you will surely break it. --AnonymousSome things shouldn't be played with. Our recovery program is one of these things. When we play with our program, we're taking a risk. We play with the program by missing meetings. Or by not calling our sponsors. Or by skipping t...
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Just need to vent
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I got so angry at my home group meeting one of my really really good friends whos like a mother figure to me also lead my homegroup...Theres someone who i kinda had a crush on HAD i sat at the table with her and the whole freaking time she was talking mad shit about my freind who was leading..making fun of he...
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Where did you learn that?
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I have a sister (actually two sisters) who are still in active alcoholism. I don't get to see them often, once or twice a year, as we live in different states. I try to call them or hope that they call me earlier in the day, as that way maybe they won't be drunk, or quite so drunk yet. The conversations are alw...
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tried any controlled drinking lately
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me neither. though I do react adversely to self willingness, self centerdness, dishonesty and the like (fear) you ?
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Restored!
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Thanks all for your prayer and blessings. The healing power of my friends and their prayer is amazing. I am well again!!
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gonee
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“If opportunity doesn’t knock, build a door.”
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So here I am. Waiting around for someone to notice me. Hoping that someone will pick me. Bursting with the desire to share what I have found... yet... opportunity does not knock. Do I really trust in the path today? Do I really believe I am exactly where I am suppose to be? Do I belong to this moment....
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Attended a baby shower for a former student yesterday.
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I was able to connect with these two young men-(students) because we had similar families. One side that is sober. One side that are abusers. There are not too many normies in this group. Same goes for my family. The party yesterday was to love and support one of the young men who is about to become a f...
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Today's Gift 01-13
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Courage and Patience There are times when the "poor me" mood strikes us all. We complain that things are not better. We bemoan our sorry lot in life. We condemn ourselves and others for not meeting our expectations. What can we do when these destructive emotions engulf us? First, we can rea...
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Pythonpappy
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Sleeping.
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Hiya all just wanted to know if having trouble sleeping is part of the course with early recovery? I havent had a decent nights sleep for 6 nights now and im exhusted!!! Will this right itself with time? Anyone else had this problem? On the plus side have been having lots of late night chats with god
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Marge
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Healing
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So, I just celebrated 5 months on December 31st. Woohoo! The real gift came soon after the New Year. My mom and I have always had a difficult relationship. She was physically and mentally abused by my grandmother who is now 83. As a result I grew up similarly in a very abusive, aggressive, angry, sc...
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mich
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Open hostility towards newcomers?
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I was at a meeting recently, one that I go to almost every day. It's a great meeting that I feel welcome at and a few people I used to drink with go, too- which I think is great. This particular meeting is full of oldtimers, so I often just listen as there is much to learn from these guys. Anyway, one gentleman...
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Col
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Daily Reflections ~ It Doesn't Happen Overnight & 24hrs a Day
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We are not cured of alcoholism. What we really have is a daily reprieve contingent on the maintenance of our spiritual condition. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 85 The most common alcoholic fantasy seems to be: If I just dont drink, everything will be all right. Once the fog cleared for me, I saw for the firs...
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Are We Still Childish? - Grandiose? - Emotionally Sensitive?
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Page 122 & 123 ... ... ... 12 & 12 'When AA was quite young, a number of eminent psychologists and doctors made an exhaustive study of a good sized group of so-called problem drinkers. The doctors weren't trying to find how different we were from one another; they sought to find whatever pers...
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Pythonpappy
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Whisper of the Heart
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I got this from one of the two meetings I went to today ... it's called Whisper of the Heart 1. Make peace with your past, so it won't screw up the present. 2. What others think about you is none of your business. 3. Time heals most everything, give it time. 4. Don't comp[are your life to others and do...
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Pythonpappy
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testing for alcoholism
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I have what may be a silly question - The big book in chapter 3 lays out what it says are ways that people are alcoholics, and without getting into a lengthy explanation of my condition, I was wondering if the suggestion to have a drink and try to stop is actually a worthwhile test - on pp31-31 is suggests th...
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Freedom Fighter/Twelve Step
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New to these boards. Working a traditional 12-step program with a book a friend of mine recommended. They seem to be working well together. The book is a nice supplement that's really helped me get alot stronger (I've been working twelve step for a while but kept having relapses), not sure if anyone's...
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Today's Gift 01-12
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Getting people to like you is merely the other side of liking them. --Norman Vincent Peale What does it mean to like other people? It means giving respect and attention to their opinions and perspectives on life. It means respecting their feelings, attitudes, and values without passing judgment or...
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Pythonpappy
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Checkig in
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Just here to claim my seat. Grateful to be sober today. Went to a meeting, doing some step work, talked to my sponser. I also worked out, spent a few hours with the wife and bought her some new boots and shoes without expecting anything in return. Imagine doing something for someone as selfless. I'm at wo...
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HJF454
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Decided not to go swimming.
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So I just got off work, well a little while ago. The last hour at work, all i could think about is that I wanted to kill off a 8 pack. I was really jonesing for a drink. I kept thinking how this time its ok. But then I started to think about this Ted talk I watched on happyness. And it talks about long term happy...
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mandm
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Resentment
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Resentment is the: harboring of animosity against a person or group of people whom I feel has mistreated me. unresolved anger I have over a negative event which occurred in my past life. seething, aching emotional turmoil I feel whenever a certain person or event is discussed. lack of forgiving, t...
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Phil
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Grapevine
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January 11 "We organize our principles merely so that they can be better understood, and we continue so to organize our services that AA's life-blood can be transfused into those who must otherwise die. That is the all-in...
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Today's Gift 01-11
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Newcomer You've told me I should pray for someone who's been causing me all sorts of problems. But that's not going to change that person, is it? Sponsor I've heard various descriptions of how prayer works. Some say God listens, some say our thoughts affect the energy of the universe and create change...
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Sober anyone?
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I'm so grateful to be sober tonight. There were so many people who came in to this evenings meeting that have been around since I have, that confessed to a relapse tonight. It was shocking how many and I thought of the difficulty people have with the holidays... but then I remembered, we're just alcoh...
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Sick.
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I thank God for His grace given to me. I only realise how vulnerable and weak I am , is when I get sick. My body temperature just has to elevate by 1 degree and I am disabled. Therefore it makes me realise that all 6 billion people on earth are all vulnerable. Despite our arrogance He has shown mercy to us. Phy...
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Praying
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I know that praying is pretty personal stuff, but I wonder if anyone feels comfortable explaining what works for them, or feels right for them?
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Today's Gift 01-10
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Reflection for the Day I must never forget who and what I am and where I come from. I have to remember the nature of my illness and what it was like before I came to The Program. I'll try to keep the memory green, yet not spend my time dwelling morbidly on the past. I won't be afraid to enjoy what is beautiful, a...
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liver
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When I went to the doctor yesterday blood was taken for....whatever they do to find out about your liver. I swear I can feel my liver poking at me now...lol. Won't have the results until tomorrow. Can anyone tell me more about the test? What exactly are they looking for in the blood? Is it something tha...
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Down
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Is it normal to get depressed still while sober? I have been doing everything my sponsor has been telling me to do like going to meetings everyday, calling her once a day, calling 2 sober people other than her a day, service work (giving people rides), meeting up with her once a week to do big book + still w...
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Tasha?
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NowOvercastTemperature59.2 °FFeels Like 59.2 °FWind(mph)2.0Sunrise / Set7:42 AM5:49 PMMoonWaning CrescentMore Astronomy Today66 °FChance of Rain20% chance of precipitationTonight57 °FOvercast20% chance of precipitationTomorrow72 | 57 °FChance of Rain40% chance of precipi...
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Pythonpappy
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Grapevine
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January 10 "I realized that it is possible to believe in a Higher Power, in the efficacy of prayer and meditation, in making a conscious contact with a Higher Power as those concepts, privately understood - or not un...
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Pythonpappy
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Medical marijuana in recovery
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I have been sober for 15 months and am dating a young man who has been in the program for over 4 years. He has a chronic illness and has chosen to treat some of the symptoms with marijuana. I am having an extremely difficult time accepting his choice of treatment. A) he is an alcoholic who attends meeti...
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