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mixed feelings......s
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Let me start by saying I am truely thank full for my soberity, and I wish all f you best and hope you all have a great holiday. That said Ive been having alot of mixed feelings lately, all are based on life being somewhat boring now. So I took 7 months to get myself on stable ground, family is happy, kids are he...
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I want to be sick?!
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Went to a good women's meeting tonight, but because I was new there and it was all women I think it really triggered my insecurity. After the meeting I started getting anxious for work tomorrow as well as obsessing over my ex (it's been a year already). I thought about what I will do with the next 15 minute...
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Daily Reflections ~ The Perils of the Limelight & 24hrs a Day
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In the beginning, the press could not understand our refusal of all personal publicity. They were genuinely baffled by our insistence upon anonymity. Then they got the point. Here was something rare in the world a society which said it wished to publicize its principles and its work, but not its indi...
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Today's Gift 11-27
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... satisfaction is a lowly thing, how pure a thing is joy. --Marianne Moore Our perfectionism generally dashes all hopes of self-satisfaction. But the program is here to show us that we can make progress. We can learn to believe that we are doing any task as well as we need to do it, at this time. Our job i...
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Grapevine Quote of the Day Nov 27
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November 27 "There is always grace for the days I'm helpless." Allyn, Wash., February 1997 From: "Another Hand to Help Me Along" Best of the Grapevine, Vol. 3
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I'm the partner of an alcoholic.. and I don't understand.
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First time poster here. Bare with me. My partner, my best friend and the love of my life is an alcoholic. I'll preffice this by saying - I have had no personal experience with alcoholism before. And I'm finding it difficult to understand this disease. A bit of back ground. High achiever. Smart and sel...
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Need help getting wife's support!
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I am a 40 something male married 12 years, 3 young children. I/my wife has been dealing with my alcohol problem since before our marriage. I have been good at times, but have been terribly impaired to the point of near disaster many, many times. I have managed to become and remain very successful in term...
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Wisdom of the Rooms
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November 26, 2012 Quote of the Week "When you get to your wit's end, you'll findthat God lives there" Before recovery, when I got to the bottom I just moved over and started digging another hole. I would leave jobs, relationships, and even states looking for a different solut...
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Today's Gift 11-26
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OptimismWhat I think about surrounds me. What I allow to be entertained in my mind becomes a reality. If I think negatively, I will attract negativity in my life. On the other hand, if I concentrate on developing positive thoughts, I will attract positive people and events to my life. My potential wil...
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Trying weekend!!
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With out going into to much detail, I'm having a very trying weekend. My son (19, in college) made a very "unwise" decision Friday that could have caused legal issues. He was with his cousin, my wife's sister's son, and they did something very stupid. I am having great resentment toward...
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On thin ice
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I'm struggling. Really struggling. Tearfully opened up about it at a meeting tonight. I want so badly to make it to 30 days but it feels like its been forever. I need to change what I'm doing because it's not working. I'm not fully giving myself to the program. I don't have a strong enough sponsor to guide...
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discontent
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I'm an alcoholic named Ame. I've been a recovered alcoholic in AA for over twelve years. Today has been plodding and rough. I have a surgery coming up and find myself thinking of the free high coming. I feel bored and panicky by turn. Panicky when I think about lack of money/lack of a job right no...
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Today's Gift 11-25
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God gave burdens, also shoulders. --Yiddish proverbSome days we wake up, and we know we can't get out of bed. We lie there, trying to force ourselves, but none of the usual motivations work. We may be depressed, we may be grieving, or we may simply be tired. It's hard to resist the temptation to believe t...
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Grapevine Quote of the Day
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November 25 "I know that I will never be sober long enough to be alcohol-proof."
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Stupid drunk girls
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I went to see Twilight this past weekend (like any good gay guy would). There was a whole row of women sitting behind me. I would guess they were in their mid 20s. They were all loud and they each had coffees from starbucks. 1 of them is really drunk and saying stuff like "You guys aren't my friend...
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Holiday Greatings
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Happy Thanksgiving to all of my beloved MIP brothers and sisters! To all of our new comers, you are family here. Stick close during the holidays, which is the thoughest time of the year to stay sober.
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I'll be praying frequently
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As my first holiday season sober is upon us, I'm trying to not fall into the usual default pity party. That's my typical 'go to'.. I avoid my family and have the perfect excuse to sit in a bar all day. I'm grateful that will not be the case this year:) I'm not spending today with family- I just know I'm not rea...
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The first Thanksgiving
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That is a cliche name for a topic but there are some cool firsts this year. I'm not going to say my life is perfect. God would probably smite me lol. But...This is literally the first time in my adult life that I have had people come over to my house for Thanksgiving. 4 years ago, I lived in filth and didn'...
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Today's Gift 11-22
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The expression of praise as thanksgiving, gratitude, and joy is among the most powerful forms of affirmation. --Catherine PonderPraise inevitably has a multiple effect. It positively acknowledges another human being, enhancing his or her well being, while making us feel good. This offering of...
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Have a wonderful Thanksgiving : )
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Tomorrow we will be getting up at 3:30am to carry our (hopefully) sleeping children to the car for our 1.5 hr drive to the Minneapolis airport. From there we will head to Roanoke Virginia, and should have a delicious Thanksgiving dinner with my brother. We're all really excited. I'm a little nervo...
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Oh, so you thought everything was so honky dory ALL the time... um nope...
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Well I just pulled this stunt (as Neophyte mentioned in another post entitled: It's never them, it's always me) with my hubby last night. Big time resentments going on - or as we would call it in the olden days "not talking to that ass". We are both capable of carrying on the silent treatmen...
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Grapevine
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November 21 "The emotional balance that eluded me is returning with prayer." Seattle, Wash., April 1974 From: "Prayer" Spiritual Awakenings
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Today's Gift 11-21
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Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. --Matthew 6:34 To worry about something ahead of time is a waste of time and energy that could be better spent on living a full life today. For instance, if we spend hours today worrying about an important test at schoo...
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New guy here!
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Hello everyone, excited to be here. I got out of a self-admitted rehab 2 months ago, after about 30 yrs of drinking. Have been going to at least 1 meeting a day since then. Have been feeling pretty good, trying to take it easy and learn all that I can. The one main problem that I am dealing with right no...
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Finally admitting it
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Sunday, November 19, 2012. Hi I'm Bethany, and I'm an alcoholic. I've been debating with that statement in my head for a long time now, and tonight I finally went to my first meeting...and I can't wait to go back!! I listened and spoke to some pretty amazing people tonight. I received some free liter...
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Daily Reflections ~ Thy Will, Not Mine & 24hrs a Day
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. . . when making specific requests, it will be well to add to each one of them this qualification. ". . . if it be Thy will." TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 102 I ask simply that throughout the day God place in me the best understanding of His will that I can have for that day, and that I b...
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Today's Gift 11-20
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We can stop making mountains out of molehills.Learning to let go of the choices other people make takes away much of the angst we have grown accustomed to. Letting go of the outcome of all experiences, even those that involve us, frees our minds from the needless worry that keeps us stuck. The more we fo...
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It's been a good week.
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Hi all. I'm a bit busy at the moment but I thought I'd give you a progress report. Got my divorce finalised on Wednesday. No bitterness, anger or regrets. Just a gentle turning of the page, and excitement about what the next chapter of my life will be like. Finished my civil construction course. That me...
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Long term sobriety
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I had 10 years sobriety. I then started feeling confident and stopped going to AA meetings. I now have around 2 weeks sobriety. Has this happened to anyone like me with several years sobriety?
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I will be in Roanoke VA from Thurs - Tues
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Anyone from this message board from Roanoke VA? I could use a ride to a meeting sometime during the dates Thurs - Tues.
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Is Thanksgiving coming or is it already here?
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Was down in the dumps the other day and I was projecting a loneliness in advance. I am fairly antisocial, and live alone, so Thanksgiving could be "just another day" if I don't put some effort into making sure I get some turkey somewhere! Of course, it's not really about the turkey, is it? Do...
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All these things floating around my head
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For one, I'm thinking about how much contempt I had for alcoholics and addicts when I was younger. I remember being at a show in San Francisco when I was about 19. This one guy was so plastered and he fell backwards, his head landing on top of my foot. I can remember my utter disgust as I swiftly pulled my foo...
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Thank you
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Just wanted to thank those who gave me a birthday wish. I been without internet for a while and missed it. I just got it turned back on so I hope to be around more. Here is my favorite birthday song. -- Edited by billyjack on Monday 19th of November 2012 11:09:03 P...
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Daily Reflections ~ "I Was Slipping Fast" & 24hrs a Day
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We A.A.'s are active folk, enjoying the satisfactions of dealing with the realities of life, . . . So it isn't surprising that we often tend to slight serious meditation and prayer as something not really necessary. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 96 I had been slipping away from the program...
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Thoughts on sponsorship - (for Chaya)
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Sometimes we do make a really huge deal out of getting a sponsor don't we! LOL I sure did at least. It feels like this really huge thing, and really it's not. We are not marrying this person... but we take it that seriously sometimes! As if it must be the one and only, and we can never move on. We're sca...
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Day One (again)
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Its almost been a year since I entered a 28 day rehab, one week after leaving I started drinking again until I got in a lot of trouble at work for not showing up because I was afraid to be drunk on duty. I was then put on antabuse and was pretty much a dry drunk for two months and picked up again. I have continued...
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Some Days, This is how I Feel
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This requires NO reading and takes about 2 seconds... I just love this...some days this is just how some people feel..... d: When you feel ke you have just had enough..... When you feel like you have just had enough..... https://mail.google.com/mail/u/0/?ui=2&ik=559728c3f5&view=...
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Did anyone see the new movie "Bill W"?
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Looks like its coming out on DVD on December 11th :) http://www.page124.com/
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Wisdom of the Rooms
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November 19, 2012 Quote of the Week "If you want to make God laugh,tell him your plans" Before recovery, I had a lot of plans. I was going to do this and accomplish that, and when things didn't work out I'd use alcohol to fuel my self-will and strengthen my determination. It was during t...
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Today's Gift 11-19
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Let your tears come. Let them water your soul. --Eileen MayhewWe often want to sit down and cry, but the tears don't seem to come. For years we may have struggled to keep ourselves from crying because we've been made to feel that tears are a sign of weakness. And we certainly don't want to look foolish an...
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Old Joke for Old Folks
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A Retiree's Last Trip to Kroger Yesterday I was at my local Kroger buying a large bag of Purina dog chow for my loyal pet, Jake, the Wonder Dog and was in the check-out line when a woman behind me asked if I had a dog.What did she think I had an elephant?So because I'm retired and have little to do, on impulse...
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6 months.. Holy crap:)
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Today marks 6 months of sobriety for me.. I can hardly believe it. It seems like just yesterday I was sitting in this very same kitchen suicidal and completely spiritually bankrupt. Truly a miracle, I believe. These past months have been pretty rocky for me.. The true work is not physically putting do...
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Checking in
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Hi All! I haven't been on this board in awhile--busy living life on life's terms. All is well. 10 months sober. Going to meetings. Calling my sponsor. Not drinking Living. It's good. Amazing doors have opened for me as I'm learning to ask for my HP's will for me and the power to carry it out: opportunit...
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On line share
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Hi, By the grace of my Higher Power and the fellowship of AA I have been sober 21 years. I have been very active in AA service but now I am older I am finding it difficult to get to as many meeting as I would like. I would like to share with a member on a one to one and general, at my age it doesn't matter if a male of f...
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Got sorta chewed out at a meeting today ; )
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There was a little bit of confusion over how to get the door unlocked at the clubhouse today. The older gentleman who was having a bit of a problem was holding up the line of us freezing Wisconsinites wanting to get in... but that wasn't a big deal. We're used to being cold most of our lives. What I though...
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Alcoholism and kids
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My children are so amazingly sweet and precious... when they are asleep! It seems that most of the other hours in the day leave me wondering how I can dislike these little people I love so much! LOL Recovering with young children doesn't make me special or unique. It doesn't mean I have it worse, or ha...
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5 days without meetings is getting to me
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Since I wasn't able to get to meetings this week I worked really hard on keeping up with my readings and talking to my sponsor. Tonight I chose to miss my meetings I've attended the last three weeks to help out my mom. I'm paying for it now. I am so irritable I can't even stand me. The girls are driving me craz...
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Meeting # 2
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My husband went to his second Alanon meeting. He did nothing but complain about how it wasn't all about him, how the topic wasn't useful for him, how people didn't make him feel welcome, how the topic of service was totally useless to anyone and people had stupid things to say, how he doesn't fit in, how...
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Relapse after 8 years
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I am so disgusted with myself. After 8 years of sobriety, I have relapsed and been heavily drinking for the past 2 months. My youngest son moving away triggered it. No excuse though. I need to stop. Just pulled out all my AA coins and some jewelry that I had engraved myself. Tonight is the last ni...
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Progress ( nowhere near perfection:)
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Just a silly story that I wanted to share with you all:) I left college about 10 years ago.. It was about that time that years of drinking started to catch up with me and I ceased being a "functional alcoholic". I simply cared nothing for anything aside from my torrid affair with the bottle. So...
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