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I feel like crying
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The effects of my drinking is so bad. I feel like crying. I am ashamed. My head is pounding. I have the shakes. I have to go into work for a few hours and honestly don't know if I can drive. I still feel like I might even be a little drunk still. The self- loathing has definitely kicked in.
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How I'm MAKING IT for Today
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And Lord knows, I have shown myself lately, that I really want to MAKE IT in this program; in LIFE. My Alanon Aunt/"Mom" had her open heart surgery. They told us all was well after the surgery, but then as the evening came on, she was bleeding profusely from the chest tube. I was beside myself w...
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Misery is an Option
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From "Walk Softly and Carry a Big Book" Misery is an option. But acceptance and gratitude did not come as standard equipment either.
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Feeling angry and resentful ! VENTING!
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Yesterday (13th) was my belly button birthday. For the most part it was a good day. UNTIL my mother called! The first words out of her mouth (of course) were "Happy Birthday" the rest of the 30 minute conversation was ALL about MY SISTER and how her life is going with starting new job, movi...
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AA Thought for the Day
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AA Thought for the Day (courtesy AAOnline.net) February 16, 2009 Slogans As I was sitting at a meeting the other evening, a lady was speaking and she mentioned the three slogans: "Live and Let Live," " Easy Does It," and "First Things First," and that she was having t...
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As Bill Sees It
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As Bill Sees ItPg. 47 Seeing Is Believing The Wright Brothers' almost childish faith that they could build a machine which would fly was the mainspring of their accomplishment. Without that, nothing could have happened. We agnostics and atheists were sticking to the idea that self-sufficiency...
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Pocket Sponsor
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Day Sixteen/8:00 AM: The most important thing to know about Step Three, turning our will over to a Higher Power, is that all we can do is DECIDE to do it. There is no "will" we can wrap and send. Once we make the decision that we want to, it is basically done. I decide to align my will with that of...
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Detachment
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The concept of letting go can be confusing to many of us. When are we doing too much or trying too hard to control people and outcomes? When are we doing too little? When is what we're doing an appropriate part of taking care of ourselves? What is our responsibility, and what isn't?
These issues can cha...
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managing my mind
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I struggle with the differing ideas on choosing sobriety over drinking. What I mean is, I chose to stop drinking a few days ago because I was scared of what I would do the next time I drank. Over the last 3 weeks I have broken the following items in my apartment: desk lamp, floor lamp, guitar amp, recliner,...
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Alcohol Always Lied to Me
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I saw where this had been posted back when, but thought it was a good time to post again. Have a safe, sober day!! Alcohol Always Lied to Me I Drank for Courage...and woke up night after night horrified. I Drank for Sophistication...and became crude. I Drank to find Peace...and ignited a war within mys...
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Hi ya all
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Happy Valentines Day!!! I have been so self absorbed lately that I really havent taken much time to respond to what others are sharing! For that, I apologize...I have read alot of the posts today and I feel bad because I just havent had the interest, energy or the want to read whats going on......I soooo...
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AA Thought for the Day
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AA Thought for the Day (courtesy AAOnline.net) February 15, 2009 Life on Life's Terms As we go through the day we pause, when agitated or doubtful, and ask for the right thought or action. We constantly remind ourselves we are no longer running the show, humbly saying to ourselves many times each day &...
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As Bill Sees It
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As Bill Sees ItPg. 46 True Ambition--and False We have had a much keener look at ourselves and those about us. We have seen that we were prodded by unreasonable fears or anxieties into making a life business of winning fame, money, and what we thought was leadership. So false pride became the reverse s...
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Valentine's Day
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For children, Valentine's Day means candy hearts, silly cards, and excitement in the air.
How different Valentine's Day can be for us as adults. The Love Day can be a symbol that we have not yet gotten love to work for us as we would like.
Or it can be a symbol of something different, something better...
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Control
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Sometimes, the gray days scare us. Those are the days when the old feelings come rushing back. We may feel needy, scared, ashamed, and unable to care for ourselves.
When this happens, it's hard to trust ourselves, others, the goodness of life, and the good intentions of our Higher Power. Problems s...
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A Whole Recovery
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Hi Everyone! I am back. I have eliminated many things in my life and am changing 110% I have not smoked pot in over 2 months, I have not had a cigarette in 19 days and hav not had a drink in 3 days. I am surprised at how well it is going, especially the cigarettes!! I hope you are all well. Allison
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Looking for Old Friends
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I am looking for old sobriety buddies that used to hang out in the rooms in Santa Monica CA from 1996-1999. My sponsor at the time was Aggie.
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How do you know if you're an alcoholic?
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Hello. I think I may have a problem with alcohol, but I wanted to get the board's opinion. I hope you don't mind this sensitive question. I'm too embarrassed to ask anyone at this point. I've never been a drinker. My dad, who I met twice, was supposedly an alcoholic according to my mom. I never got into the...
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AA Thought for the Day
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AA Thought for the Day (courtesy AAOnline.net) February 14, 2009 Happiness I have found a joy in living that has nothing to do with money or material success. I know that incomparable happiness that comes from helping some other fellow get straightened out. Don't get me wrong. We are not a bunch of ang...
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Our Companions
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As Bill Sees ItPg. 45 Our Companions Today, the vast majority of us welcome any new light that can be thrown on the alcoholic's mysterious and baffling malady. We welcome new and valuable knowledge whether it is issues from a test tube, from a psychiatrist's couch, or from revealing social studies....
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Daily Reflections ~ We Can't Think Our Way Sober
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To the intellectually self-sufficient man or woman, many A.A.s can say, Yes, we were like youfar too smart for our own good. Secretly, we felt we could float above the rest of the folks on our brain power alone. AS BILL SEES IT, p. 60 Even the most brilliant mind is no defense against the disease of alcoho...
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24 Hrs a Day ~ 13th Feb 09
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A.A. Thought for the Day Sometimes we can't help thinking: Why can't we ever drink again? We know it's because we're alcoholics, but why did we have to get that way? The answer is that at some time in our drinking careers, we passed what is called our "tolerance point." When we passed this poi...
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AA Thought for the Day
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AA Thought for the Day (courtesy AAOnline.net) February 13, 2009 Essentials Any alcoholic capable of honestly facing his problems in the light of our experience can recover provided he does not close his mind to all spiritual concepts. He can only be defeated by an attitude of intolerance or bellig...
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Daily Acceptance
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As Bill Sees ItPg. 44 Daily Acceptance "Too much of my life has been spent in dwelling upon the faults of others. This is a most subtle and perverse form of self-satisfaction, which permits us to remain comfortably unaware of our own defects. Too often we are heard to say, 'If it weren't for him...
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Trusting Ourselves
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What a great gift we've been given - ourselves. To listen to ourselves, to trust instinct and intuition, is to pay tribute to that gift.
What a disservice not to heed the leadings and leanings that so naturally arise from within. When will we learn that these leadings and leanings draw us into God's r...
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Daily Reflections ~ The Root of Our Troubles
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Selfishnessself-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of all our troubles. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 62 How amazing the revelation that the world, and everyone in it, can get along just fine with or without me. What a relief to know that people, places and things will be perfectly okay without my...
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24 Hrs a Day ~ 12th Feb 09
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A.A. Thought for the Day As we look back on all those troubles we used to have when we were drinking, the hospitals, the jails, we wonder how we could have wanted that kind of a life. As we look back on it now, we see our drinking life as it really was and we're glad we're out of it. So after a few months in A.A., w...
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addiction/dependance
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I left AA over a number of issues. I attended AA faithfully for 10 years and I still practice the steps. When I relapsed after that period of time I had to employ medicine in an attempt to save my life.I had an anxiety disorder and was nearly dead from alcohol and opiates together. To keep from another rela...
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AA Thought for the Day
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AA Thought for the Day (courtesy AAOnline.net) February 12, 2009 Selfishness Selfishness -- self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles. Driven by a hundred forms of fear, self-delusion, self-seeking, and self-pity, we step on the toes of our fellows and they retaliate. Some...
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Wisdom of the Rooms
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Wisdom of the Rooms February 9, 2009 Quote of the Week "Resentment - Taking poison and hoping the other person dies." Boy was this a shocker the first time I heard it. I was new in recovery and I had so many resentments that I didn't even know about them all yet. What I also didn't realize was tha...
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As Bill Sees It
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As Bill Sees ItPg. 43 How Much Anonymity?, p. 43 As a rule, the average newcomer wanted his family to know immediately what he was trying to do. He also wanted to tell others who had tried to help him--his doctor, his minister, and close friends. As he gained confidence, he felt it right to explain his ne...
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Letting Go of Those Not in Recovery
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We can go forward with our life and recoveries, even though someone we love is not yet recovering.
Picture a bridge. On one side of the bridge it is cold and dark. We stood there with others in the cold and darkness, doubled over in pain. Some of us developed an eating disorder to cope with the pain. Some...
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Daily Reflections ~ The Limits of Self-Reliance
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We asked ourselves why we had them [fears]. Wasnt it because self-reliance failed us? ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p.68 All of my character defects separate me from Gods will. When I ignore my association with Him I face the world and my alcoholism alone and must depend on self-reliance. I have never found...
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24 Hrs a Day ~ 11th Feb 09
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A.A. Thought for the Day If we're going to stay sober, we've got to learn to want something else more than we want to drink. When we first came into A.A., we couldn't imagine wanting any thing else so much or more than drinking. So we had to stop drinking on faith, on faith that some day we really would want s...
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Divinely Led
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Send me the right thought, word, or action. Show me what my next step should be. In times of doubt and indecision please send your inspiration and guidance. -- Alcoholics Anonymous
The good news of surrendering ourselves and our life to a Power greater than ourselves is that we come into harmony wit...
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As Bill Sees It
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As Bill Sees ItPg. 42 Self-Confidence and Will Power When we first challenged to admit defeat, most of us revolted. We had approached A.A. expecting to be taught self-confidence. Then we had been told so far as alcohol was concerned, self-confidence was no good whatever; in fact, it was a total liab...
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I'm a mommy!
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Hey everyone... it seems like forever since I've been on here! Well now I really don't have much time at all to get on the computer, David O'donel was born last Wednesday, February 4th at 9:04am! He weighs 5 pounds 7 ounces, and is 19 inches long... sooooo tiny, but he is healthy and will hopefully put...
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AA Thought for the Day
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AA Thought for the Day (courtesy AAOnline.net) February 11, 2009 Immunity We have seen the truth demonstrated again and again: "Once an alcoholic, always an alcoholic." Commencing to drink after a period of sobriety, we are in a short time as bad as ever. If we are planning to stop drinkin...
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New to all this
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Hi there, My name is David and I'm an alcoholic. I'm sober now and really glad for that. Life has been tough recently and I've just joined AA and stumbled across this page whilst looking for some online support. I've hurt and embarrassed people who mean so much to me, and with a sober head on I can't believ...
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Daily Reflections ~ I Don't Run The Show
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When we became alcoholics, crushed by a self-imposed crisis we could not postpone or evade, we had to fearlessly face the proposition that either God is everything or else He is nothing. God either is, or He isnt. What was our choice to be? ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p.53 Today my choice is God. He is everyt...
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24 Hrs a Day ~ 10th Feb 09
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A.A. Thought for the Day Since I realized that I had become an alcoholic and could never have any more fun with liquor and since I knew that from then on liquor would always get me into trouble, common sense told me that the only thing left for me was a life of sobriety. But I learned another thing in A.A., th...
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Sober dog
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This is Estela, she has been going to meetings for over 2 years. She was rescued from Spain by my wife. When she started going to meetings she was still easily scared. Her confidence has grown and our fellow members have commented that meetings have done her the world of good as well. She refuses to dr...
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Thanks for 20 Years
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Right about now, exactly 20 years ago I set down a half glass of beer. I had no idea at the time that I wouldn't have a drink of alcohol for 20 years. I had no plans to go to AA the next day - but that's where I wound up. That was just a day, and today is just another day, and tomorrow will be just another day. Th...
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Membership Rules?
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As Bill Sees ItPg. 41 Membership Rules? Around 1943 or 1944, the Central Office asked the groups to list their membership rules and send them in. After they arrived we set them all down. A little reflection upon these many rules brought us to an astonishing conclusion. If all of these edicts had been i...
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Letting Go of Guilt
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Feeling good about ourselves is a choice. So is feeling guilty. When guilt is legitimate, it acts as a warning light, signaling that we're off course. Then its purpose is finished.
Wallowing in guilt allows others to control us. It makes us feel not good enough. It prevents us from setting boundari...
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Letting Go of Sadness
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A block to joy and love can be unresolved sadness from the past.
In the past, we told ourselves many things to deny the pain: It doesn't hurt that much.... Maybe if I just wait, things will change.... It's no big deal. I can get through this.... Maybe if I try to change the other person, I won't have to cha...
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A.A. Thought for the Day
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AA Thought for the Day (courtesy AAOnline.net) February 10, 2009 Discovery I've learned since being in AA that the more I worry about me loving you, and the less I worry about you loving me, the happier I'll be. I discovered a fellowship of human beings that I'd never seen before. I learned how to have se...
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Daily Reflections ~ Getting The "Spiritual Angle"
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How often do we sit in AA meetings and hear the speaker declare, But I havent yet got the spiritual angle. Prior to this statement, he had described a miracle of transformation which had occurred in him not only his release from alcohol, but a complete change in his whole attitude toward life and the liv...
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24 Hrs a Day ~ 9th Feb 09
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A.A. Thought for the Day In the past, we kept right on drinking in spite of all the trouble we got into. We were foolish enough to believe that drinking could still be fun in spite of everything that happened to us. When we came into A.A., we found a lot of people who, like ourselves, had had fun with drinkin...
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Long Time Away
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Hi, my name is Maggie and I'm an alcoholic! It's been a long time since I've said that. I've been sober since July 2000. I haven't been to a meeting in about four years. I've been doing really well...just moved to a new state, got an awesome job, got a little money in my savings account...but I'm defin...
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