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30 Days
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Had a great weekend. Spent some time with my ex-wife and her husband and my daughter. Worked out Saturday and Sunday. Had a nice 3 mile run. Went shopping and bought some new clothes as I've lost 16lbs since my last drink. And capped it all off with a great meeting tonight. It was a small, intimate g...
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Nine Months
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9 months since my last relapse. Longest stretch since I was 14. That's 31 years ago. Holy shiggitz. Thanks, ya'll. WE did it. Pat each other on the back. (except you...yeah you...the hot one. You need a hug ) Peace, Rob
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Since starting medication I feel terrible and want to stop AA/Sponsorship
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A Consultant Psychiatrist put me on some medication for my panic-attacks - they had made life miserable for me lately and contributed to my drinking for the firat time in 3-and-a-half years. He did warn me that, initially, they might make my anxiety worse. After 10 days on them it's like I'm on another...
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Made a BIG amends!
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Dear AA community, I have made 3 amends so far, and yesterday made a very big one, to my boss. I had spoken with my sponsor, several friends in the program with a lot of sobriety time, and had prayed about this amends thoroughly beforehand. I decided to make this amends because it is the right thing to do, d...
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Daily Reflections ~ No More Struggle... & 24hrs a Day
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And we have ceased fighting anything or anyone- even alcohol. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p.84 When AA found me I thought I was in for a struggle, and that AA might provide me the strength I needed to beat alcohol. Victorious in that fight, who knows what other battles I could win. I would need to be strong, th...
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Recovery, Wife and God - II
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She texted me this morning to let me know that it didn't matter how many letters I sent... should would not change her mind. ( I refused to sign the divorce papers and sent a letter instead) I did not respond and will not respond to the curcumstances. I will contine to focus on pleasing God and loving my...
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ok this is getting odd now.
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so yesterday eileen had some of my stuff droppedoff at my house from her house.
All my vinyl but nothing to play them on. Lots of photos of the kids when they were little. Road maps by the dozen. Wine goblets and decanter????? Wedding photo on top of the pile. 30 years worth of old screws and buggered tool...
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little things kick you in the balls.
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inpm I'm unpacking and sorting out the meagre goods and chattles that my ex wife had delivered to my house and keep turning up the odd photo. Mostly the kids when they were little. A few of me an her like wedding photos and stuff. Then amongst the vinyl there's the studio shot of me and the kids taken maybe 6...
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Married 29 years; sober 22 years; 51 years old.
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It's our wedding anniversary today. I thank God that He spared us many years of suffering. Some of the sober years were very difficult and it nearly broke us apart, but we persevered with our program. We are now rich in experience and have been able to save many marriages. We found that the 12 steps of rec...
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Today is my first day. Start Antabuse tomorrow.
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In conjunction with meetings, I start Antabuse tomorrow. Without it, I simply will not stop on my own.
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Say Yes to the Dress
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My beautiful (engaged) daughter-so hurt by her mom's disease-is comingback into my life in a happy, healthy way. I recently got to tell her I wanted to give her her wedding dress, and she let me!! She picked it out this week and I ordered it, and she showed me the bouquet she'd like and I'm going to get that...
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Drink responsibly...what does that mean to you and
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what are your experiences with it? When I was sixteen a group of high school buddies and I discovered there was such a beer called Near Beer; anyone remember it? We went into full discussion about it and what it could facilitate for us under agers such as; we didn't have to present an ID and therefore h...
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not irish not catholic!
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My name is Bill and I'm a recovered alcoholic! Saint patricks day I woke I did my apon awakening. I asked god to remove my self pity dishonest and self seeking motives. I spent time with my god asked him to remove from me my selfishness my fears my resentments and dishonesty. Just like the booze I can not wi...
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Daily Reflections ~ Love and Tolerance & 24hrs a Day
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I have found that I have to forgive others in all situations to maintain any real spiritual progress. The vital importance of forgiving may not be obvious to me at first sight, but my studies tell me that every great spiritual teacher has insisted strongly upon it. I must forgive injuries, not just in w...
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Renegade’s from recovery
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Renegade Someone who rebels and becomes an outlaw Deserter, turncoat, recreant, apostate, and a ratter The soap box is the domain of the passionate zealot who is wholly convinced of his half insane crusade. There was once a time when they bought into the line right down to the sinker. Some skirted the...
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Meditation practices
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Hello, Greetings and respect to all members. I would be deeply grateful if anyone who felt comfortable to, could share with me techniques used to meditate. I would also love to hear any experiences members have had, ie; visual images, spiritual experiences, epiphanys of thought , increased calm...
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Hi. just joined.
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Hi, new here. I drink too much. Supose thats obviouse considering iv just joined an alcoholics website. What im really looking for is a secular perspective on alcoholism. I want to sort out my drinking but i dont want the whole god stuff rammed down my throat. Is this site fairly secualr? If not can an...
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self centered vs. being of service
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this is borrowed from a devotional reading, it is not my own. Do you ever suffer from Me Syndrome? You know, that time of the day or the month when you feel that now is the time for me? I sure do; often in fact. If it doesn't help or benefit me, I don't want to do it! "You, my brothers, were called to be free...
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Received this email from my 10 yr old daughter.. (long post, sorry)
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I have never in my life been so hurt. I know that I deserve every word in this e-mail, but that doesn't make the pain hurt any less. To give you a bit of the backstory. My mom moved into my apartment while I was in rehab (she owns the building and had the apartment upstairs) without telling me about it. I had n...
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Sharing the problem and not the solution
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I have read back on old posts and have seen that this has come up before where people chair without having six months sober. I have mixed feelings about it. I was at a meeting where someone had a long time but has been relapsing for a long time now. I think it did share the problem and it kind of filled me with...
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Admission (for one)
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So my husband has taken the kids up to get takeaway for dinner. Most nights I cook for them. From scratch. Tonight I can barely type straight: it's been a weekend-long bender, and I have to damp it down again, and I have to quit my insanely stressful job, but the other fact remains that I have to quit drinki...
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turning the page gently?
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I tried. I really tried. But the page got turned with a bang. Over 5 years ago I left the family. I drank myself inro the ground. I'd done some bignasty harms to my family. I got sober over 4 years ago. I made amends to the best of my ability and make ongoing amends.
My adult son and daughter control my life by...
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God Calling - Your Resolutions
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"The difficult way is nearly over, but you have learned in it lessons you could learn in no other way. Wrest from Me, by firm and simple trust and persistent prayer, the treasures of My kingdom. Such wonderful things are coming to you, joy, peace, assurance, security, health, happiness, laugh...
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Green Beer!
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Just saw a post on Facebook from a nephew..."took the day off to drink beer!" Wow who does that. He just got married, and had a baby girl. Funny how I wouldn't have thought a thing about that till i sought recovery. Just sounds soooo stupid. You can drink beer any day. Sorry just had to ve...
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New topic, Step 1 stuff, etc etc
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. -- Edited by Dynaheir on Friday 18th of March 2011 07:05:59 AM
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Daily Reflections ~ Mysterious Ways & 24hrs a Day
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. . . out of every season of grief or suffering, when the hand of God seemed heavy or even unjust, new lessons for living were learned, new resources of courage were uncovered, and that finally, inescapably, the conviction came that God does "move in a mysterious way His wonders to perform."...
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Another path in a quest for a happy, healthy sobriety
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Over on the CODA Board we are starting a Book study and a step study, it's based on Melody Beatty Books, but truthfully the step study will be using (and I quote) "I am going to be using "The Codependent's Guide to the Twelve Steps" as my core resource in starting the step threads for this...
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Recovery, Wife and God.
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I've struggled a lot the last few days trying to reconcile my recovery, my relationship with my wife and God. I would not be sober today had it not been for my total surrender to God and by focusing on pleasing Him. But I also could not reconcile signing the divorce papers and focusing on my recovery bec...
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Alcoholism - 2nd Hand
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I can't say that I really understand that I was an alcoholic until a week or so after I quit drinking. Aside from the one night I exploded at my wife, I was pretty much a happy drinker (at least as it appeared to others). Ironically, the man that helped me recognize my alcoholism and join AA is now on a sel...
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Thank God for Misery
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First thing this morning, I mailed the divorce papers back without my signature and I immediately felt obedient to God. It set the tone for the rest of the day. I perused the forums here to catch up on everyone. I read through my scriptures and meditation book. I wanted to make a meeting tonight, but my w...
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Daily meditations - March 17
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GOD CALLING - No Greater Joy "Withdraw into the calm of communion with Me. Rest in that calm and peace. Life knows no greater joy than you will find in converse and companionship with Me. You are Mine. When the soul finds its home of rest in Me, then it is that its real life begins." ACOA - Tim...
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She filed for divorce today
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The papers are on my doorstep. I will sign when I get home.
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Daily Reflections ~ As We Understand Him & 24hrs a Day
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My friend suggested what then seemed a novel idea . . . "Why don't you choose your own conception of God?" That statement hit me hard. It melted the icy intellectual mountain in whose shadow I had lived and shivered many years. I stood in the sunlight at last. It was only a matter of being willi...
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Three weeks sober today!
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Stressful period at work = working the program
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Lot of new product launches at my company now, which means lots of decisions having to be made fast, some of them turning out better than others... This being the backdrop, my boss's boss's boss told me in a meeting to urgently see her the next day...and then postponed to the NEXT day. With no clue as to...
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Spiritual Principles Overcome Triangle Of Obsession
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Hey Everyone! Three weeks ago today my wife's sister tried to kill herself by overdosing on pills after some family dysfunction and domestic violence.Today there is a peace which we all have received.My wife is okay,my mother in law is back in Florida,the sister is getting intensive outpatient tre...
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Daily Reflections ~ The God Idea & 24hrs a Day
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When we saw others solve their problems by a simple reliance upon the Spirit of the Universe, we had to stop doubting the power of God. Our ideas did not work. But the God idea did. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 52 Like a blind man gradually being restored to sight, I slowly groped my way to the Third Step. Havi...
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Please read the Daily Reflection on spiritual growth.... great read
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saturday i was thinking about spiritual growth that AA talks about and i was just wondering how we know if we are exercising our spiritual side, wondering how we know we are growing spiritually...... Bamm! the daily reflection for Sunday put it in a clear way for me to touch and see. the Daily Refl...
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Simple steps.
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The AA 12 steps have been a source of strength for me with it's wonderful design for living. As I continue to work them, I have a found a life of peace and serenity that I never dreamed possible. I teach the steps. I read the steps. I know the steps by heart. It is the actual working of the steps, that I had foun...
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Tsu-mommy!
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My boys and I woke up this morning and the news showed the devastating earthquake and tsunami in Japan. I was shocked and saddened and turned off the tv when I realized the extent of the tragedy...and that I didn't want my 4 and 7 year olds to see the graphic, disturbing images. My 4 year old asked what the...
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Wife and Separation
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So in a furry, my wife leaves me two weeks ago. She said she wasn't happy and she thought divorce was the only way for her to find happiness. She never felt at home at the house, for several reason. We had been looking for a new house just a few weeks ago. She hadn't been able to find a job like she lost beca...
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Daily Reflections ~ A World of the Spirit & 24hrs aDay
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We have entered the world of the Spirit. Our next function is to grow in understanding and effectiveness. This is not an overnight matter. It should continue for our lifetime. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 84 The word "entered" . . . and the phrase "entered into the world of the Spirit&qu...
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Daily meditations - March 13
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GOD CALLING "Wait before Me, gently breathing in My spirit. That spirit which, if given a free entrance, and not barred out by self will enable you to do the same works as I did, which being interpreted... will enable Me to do the same works, and even greater than I did when on earth - through you.&qu...
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Someone listened
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After five years of being a sober alcoholic in an industry with so many active alcoholics ( painting and decorating ) it's not even funny, I was spell bound yesterday when an ex workmate of mine called me out of the blue 5 years after working with him I might add and said, " I'm in real trouble m...
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Alano club lock-up
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Hi all. After a meeting I was talking to a fellow who is a board member for our local Alano club and he mentioned a debate about how to handle comings and goings for the club. I said I might ask here for feed back on how such things are handled at other clubs. Currently in our town there are keys to the club and...
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Daily meditations - March 12
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GOD CALLING - Simplicity "Simplicity is the key note of My kingdom. Choose simple things always. Love and reverence the humble and the simple. Have only simple things here. Your standard must never be the world's standard." A WALK IN DRY PLACES - Popular Gossip Higher Thinking The new...
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Decision taking while in crisis mode
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Talked to my sponsor again today. Poor bugger is so patient. So today he reminded me that I'm in the middle of a crisis and the best decision I could take is to decide to DO NOTHING. 3 hours later, with the relate counsellor for a one on one and what does she say? EXACTLY the same. But we also talked boundarie...
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Tigers above, tigers below...
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I just got back from visiting my kids... back to the reality of my life, which is not at all what I want it to be. I think a lot about moving back, since I am so unhappy here, near my family of origin (what was I thinking?!!) Last night, I feel like I read something I was supposed to read by Pema Chodron, and...
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Amazing stuff!
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When I started counseling a couple of days after I quit drinking, I was in sad shape. I was in withdrawals, broken, filled with guilt and disgust for the man I had become. The counselor had great concern over my pain and suffering and spoke in depth about Romans 8:28: "And we know that all thing...
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Daily Reflections ~ Good Orderly Direction & 24hrs a day
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It is when we try to make our will conform with God's that we begin to use it rightly. To all of us, this was a most wonderful revelation. Our whole trouble had been the misuse of willpower. We had tried to bombard our problems with it instead of attempting to bring it into agreement with God's intention fo...
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