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So what's the deal with conventions?
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The only conventions I've been to have been either outdoor camping events, little local things, or one day conventions in hotels etc. so being at a loose end on saturday I went to the Northern National Convention in Blackpool. How many shares did I hear? 2. How many speaker events did I get to? 0. Why? w...
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First meeting tonight and feeling a bit out of place
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I really need some kind of support to quit drinking, I've tried it on my own before and only lasted 3 weeks. My problem is that I'm agnostic and AA is very spiritually based. I feel like a hypocrite during the prayer at the end of the meeting.. I don't believe that "God" will help me quit drinkin...
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Checking in....
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Hey guys. Work schedule has been demanding for the last couple of weeks and will be through mid-april. I finally made a church-based recovery meeting last night, first meeting in a week. I doubt I will have a chance again til this weekend, but I plan to go to my normal group and finally get things goi...
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dawn chorus
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it's 05.45 am in the uk. I'm awake and sitting at the kitchen table. The coffee is hot and strong. I woke up with a smile on my face after 7 hours unbroken sleep. The birds are singing and the sun is rising. I know I don't need to worry about what I said or did yesterday. I'm pleasantly hungry and have food in th...
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A letter about Overeaters Anonymous
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Hi, Seeing the Overeaters Anon is based on the principles of AA, I was wondering would it be ok if I could share on this board about my struggles. I'm not expecting anything really in return. It's just so I have somewhere that I can share. I do have a sponsor, sometimes I just need to feel like I'm being h...
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Tracey C
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Duly Noted
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So I've taken some time to ponder my previous posts and consider some of the advice I've been given from a few of you. I've also spoken with a fellow Christian AA member with whom I am very close. My work schedule completely blew away my chances to get to meetings as the only time I been off before 8 this we...
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Mad_Jasper
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I finally got in! What's with java?
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I have been limited to only participating through reading all of your posts, and now suddenly my java is ok. Anyone understand this?
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lilyemmagrace
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Knee jerk reaction...only
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I get those unsolicited awarenesses of how cunning, powerful and baffling this disease is. My subconscious must have been bleeding off some gas as when I was finishing work on a project for another long time member yesterday afternoon and I was wet and cold and dealing with a flu that was trying to en...
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Jerry F
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Introvert.
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I used to be an introvert. Alcoholism caused that, not mine but my dad's. My 1st day at school was bad. I went to over 15 different schools, so you can imagine what it did to me. Alcohol was the solution to that. It made me an extrovert, if only temporarily, which is why I did not want to get into recovery. I ha...
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gonee
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Why does some stuff reduce me to tears?
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driving back from me mum's last night with the ipod on too loud I found some songs got the tears rolling down my cheeks. Probably not what I'd expected neither. Tom Robinson's Martin. The pogues waltzing Matilda. Johnny cash wanted man. Leadbelly goodnight Irene (ok that ones obvious) Hendrix hey Jo...
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Been a busy day, got a busy weekend to come.
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So - renewed the passport this morning, went to Mum's and took her for lunch straight from the hairdressers. Limped aong cus I've wrenched my knee, got a frozen shoulder and a wry neck. If I were a horse, they'd shoot me. Had half an hour kip on her spare bed then weeded the side garden finally got to a meeti...
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bikerbill
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My sponsors 1st birthday.
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The man that saved my life would have been 24 years sober this year, but instead he celebrates 1 year. This man has such a compassion for souls. He would go on a 12 step call and win the newcomer over, and yet his own life was not in order. He has always been a wonderful friend to me, and he had the humility to ha...
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gonee
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Sobriety, Magic , Realisations and Conscious Contact
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At my first meeting of Alcoholics anonymous I had the obsession to drink removed, period. I know what I was before that meeting and how I felt and how deeply I enjoyed the sensations of being High and drunk and bombastically lost. Most importantly of all I know how I felt after that meeting, and how PRO...
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got a whole new problem.
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gold plated. The clutch slave cylinder seal popped last night on the bike. I changed the seal after limping the bike home and found I don't have any clutch fluid. I can get some this morning though. What's all this to do wi recovery? Well in the drinking days this would have been god's judgement on me for p...
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Sowing what you reap
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No doubt I've spent many years sowing seeds of discontent. I've shared some of my stories with you guys here over the last month. Sunday brought about a decision to make amends to a neighbor concerning a series of bad actions/reactions that almost resulted in us coming to blows. I called him, left a m...
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Mad_Jasper
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living problems
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I dried out December 8, 2010. I went to a private psychiatrist who put me on 2 mg/day klonopin, seroquel, effexor, Lunesta and I kept neurotin. I just cannot afford the scrips anywhere but the VA outside of the Kpin and I get the Lunesta from CVS. The rest I get from the VA. I made an appointment to the...
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Bobby C
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God Calling - A Life Apart
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" I reward your seeking with My Presence. Rejoice and be glad. I am your God. Courage and joy will conquer all troubles. First things first. Seek Me, love Me, joy in Me. I am your Guide. No perils can affright you, no discipline exhaust you. Persevere. Can you hold on in My strength? I need...
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gladlee
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SoberSteve's Daily Journal... To Infinity and beyooooooond!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Day 1 sober will be tomorrow, my mom found out I was drinking again, thank God she didnt tell my dad or Id be homeless. I am required to go to meetings daily or I will be kicked out. I am almost 30 years old dealing with all types of Sh&T, feeling alone, living with my parents this old, financial situat...
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Brand New- Where to start?
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Hey everyone. Im brand new, Ive tried to quit drinking before without really committing to AA, but now Im ready. I need a change NOW. Where do I start???
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holly1885
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my dad
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Im 16 and my dad is an alcoholic. There is nothing i want more then for my family to stay together and be happy but i do not know when or if that is even possible. In the fall of last year we had an intervention for my dad, he refused to have treatment but said that he would just stop drinking. His drinking has g...
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NYC Here I Come
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Going to the city, and when I am there I will be celebrating 28 years! Hot damn! Anybody know a small-ish, step or study meeting in Manhattan they can particularly recommend?
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leeu
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How do I tell people how to dance without getting drunk?
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Hi, my name is Sol Auerbach. I run a charity called "The Better Life: the Quit Smoking and Substance Abuse Society". Its a little known charity based in NY in which im just getting off the ground. with this charity I give out free books to help people stop smoking, drinking, and drugs. My ques...
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The Stuff of Dreams and Nightmares
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This too shall pass. It's half one in the morning here in the UK. I've just woke up in a flat spin panic, from an awful nightmare. I was dreaming that I'd gone back to my ex wife, moved into the house, built a relationship with my son and daughter and then.............it all went wrong. My ex wife turned int...
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bikerbill
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God Calling - Evil Mountains
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"Faith and obedience will remove mountains, mountains of evil, mountains of difficulty. But they must go hand in hand."
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gladlee
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We do it over & over.
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My wife and I worked with a newly married couple who are expecting their first child. They are so keen to work the program. Reason: Husband unemployed; marital stress; and living with in laws. I hope this one's different. Later on in recovery, they will have a baby, husband gets a nice job and they have t...
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gonee
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God Calling - Go Forward
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"Rest in Me, quiet in My love, strong in My power. Think what it is to possess a power greater than any earthly force. A sway greater, and more far-reaching than that of any earthly king. No invention, no electricity, no magnetism, no gold, could achieve one millionth part of all that you can ach...
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gladlee
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Feelings... nothing more than feelings....
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The thing I've heard from so many of my AA fellows is that once they got sober, they suddenly had all these FEELINGS they had been numbing with booze that they now had to deal with... all kinds of emotional highs and lows, etc. I feel weird because I'm the opposite. When I was drinking, everything was a big...
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Disease woke up before I did
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Woke up in a funk, that's the way I always woke up. 9 months sober and I don't like that feeling any more. I used to thank that was the way life was. Today I know better, I have a choice today I choose to be happy. That simple!
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I'm crawling back
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Well I'm back here again for the first time since last summer. I feel like the lowest of the low right now. I'm scared of my lack of control around liquor. I've made an ass out of myself for the millionth time. I've lost my house keys and the keys to my new work. I'm lucky to be alive I think. Just wanted to let e...
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WHEN I LOOK BACK
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Morning!.Blessings of this day to you. Today I would like to especially thank my Higher Power,whom I choose to call God, for allowing me to have a 63rd birthday. In those years, 25 or more were accompanied by active addiction, 26 years,3 months and 23 days(who ever counts!)freedom from active addic...
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Daily Reflections ~ The Teaching is Never Over & 24hrs a Day
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Abandon yourself to God as you understand God. Admit your faults to Him and to your fellows. Clear away the wreckage of your past. Give freely of what you find and join us. We shall be with you in the Fellowship of the Spirit, and you will surely meet some of us as you trudge the Road of Happy Destiny. May God...
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Man brings beer to DWI court appearance
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http://failblog.org/2011/03/23/epic-fail-photos-probably-bad-news-because-drinking-before-court-isnt-hardcore-enough-- Edited by StPeteDean on Wednesday 23rd of March 2011 08:13:53 PM
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Prayer for Toni.
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Please pray for our friend Toni. She is not well. She is my special friend and many of you who know her, will know what a warm hearted person she is. Thanks. Gonee.
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gonee
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Tips for Newbies to control cravings
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Just found the online board and chats 2 days ago and am a newby. I am very, very good at starting, make it a few days, and then something bad happens - stress, kids, work, crazy ex, friends - and oh that first drink takes it all away. The cravings start like clockwork at 5 pm because that was my time for a fir...
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The meeting after the meeting.
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We had a meeting after the meeting last night. This used to be the norm in my early days and it really helped me a lot. I was able to share things here which I normally could not. Topics like religion, relationships are easily discussed at these informal meetings. No traditions and no concensus needed. N...
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hmmm. Been asked something. Heart says yes head not sure.
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so I've spent the morning with a woman and her dogs walking round the lake. Had a fine time all innocent and stuff. This of course is the woman who agreed wi me that we should back off.
So now she asks can I drive on the wrong side of the road. Am I ok with hot countries. Have I got a passport? Would I like to go t...
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A Gift of the Program
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I just had to share about something that happened today that is definitely a gift of the AA program! I'm interviewing for jobs. I'm a transactional lawyer, and I got laid off a few months ago so I do LOTS of interviews (getting pretty good at it, actually!). Anyway, today I had a phone interview. Blah bla...
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Happy (belly-button) Birthday Sobrietyspell!!
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To my sisterfriend (((((Danielle))))) I'm so glad you were born! May all the love and light you bring into the world be returned to you a thousand-fold! Have a beautiful day!
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30 Days
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Had a great weekend. Spent some time with my ex-wife and her husband and my daughter. Worked out Saturday and Sunday. Had a nice 3 mile run. Went shopping and bought some new clothes as I've lost 16lbs since my last drink. And capped it all off with a great meeting tonight. It was a small, intimate g...
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Nine Months
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9 months since my last relapse. Longest stretch since I was 14. That's 31 years ago. Holy shiggitz. Thanks, ya'll. WE did it. Pat each other on the back. (except you...yeah you...the hot one. You need a hug ) Peace, Rob
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Aquaman
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Since starting medication I feel terrible and want to stop AA/Sponsorship
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A Consultant Psychiatrist put me on some medication for my panic-attacks - they had made life miserable for me lately and contributed to my drinking for the firat time in 3-and-a-half years. He did warn me that, initially, they might make my anxiety worse. After 10 days on them it's like I'm on another...
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Made a BIG amends!
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Dear AA community, I have made 3 amends so far, and yesterday made a very big one, to my boss. I had spoken with my sponsor, several friends in the program with a lot of sobriety time, and had prayed about this amends thoroughly beforehand. I decided to make this amends because it is the right thing to do, d...
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Daily Reflections ~ No More Struggle... & 24hrs a Day
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And we have ceased fighting anything or anyone- even alcohol. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p.84 When AA found me I thought I was in for a struggle, and that AA might provide me the strength I needed to beat alcohol. Victorious in that fight, who knows what other battles I could win. I would need to be strong, th...
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Sobrietyspell
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Recovery, Wife and God - II
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She texted me this morning to let me know that it didn't matter how many letters I sent... should would not change her mind. ( I refused to sign the divorce papers and sent a letter instead) I did not respond and will not respond to the curcumstances. I will contine to focus on pleasing God and loving my...
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Mad_Jasper
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ok this is getting odd now.
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so yesterday eileen had some of my stuff droppedoff at my house from her house.
All my vinyl but nothing to play them on. Lots of photos of the kids when they were little. Road maps by the dozen. Wine goblets and decanter????? Wedding photo on top of the pile. 30 years worth of old screws and buggered tool...
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bikerbill
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little things kick you in the balls.
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inpm I'm unpacking and sorting out the meagre goods and chattles that my ex wife had delivered to my house and keep turning up the odd photo. Mostly the kids when they were little. A few of me an her like wedding photos and stuff. Then amongst the vinyl there's the studio shot of me and the kids taken maybe 6...
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Married 29 years; sober 22 years; 51 years old.
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It's our wedding anniversary today. I thank God that He spared us many years of suffering. Some of the sober years were very difficult and it nearly broke us apart, but we persevered with our program. We are now rich in experience and have been able to save many marriages. We found that the 12 steps of rec...
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Today is my first day. Start Antabuse tomorrow.
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In conjunction with meetings, I start Antabuse tomorrow. Without it, I simply will not stop on my own.
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Jimhere4u
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Say Yes to the Dress
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My beautiful (engaged) daughter-so hurt by her mom's disease-is comingback into my life in a happy, healthy way. I recently got to tell her I wanted to give her her wedding dress, and she let me!! She picked it out this week and I ordered it, and she showed me the bouquet she'd like and I'm going to get that...
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Drink responsibly...what does that mean to you and
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what are your experiences with it? When I was sixteen a group of high school buddies and I discovered there was such a beer called Near Beer; anyone remember it? We went into full discussion about it and what it could facilitate for us under agers such as; we didn't have to present an ID and therefore h...
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