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The Miracle of My Life
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Wasn't sure how to title my post, but right now my life is feeling like a miracle, so I went with that. I just wanted to thank all who post here for sharing their ESH so that I may benefit. I have recently begun my recovery journey, and with the help of a treatment group, fellowship meetings, reading litera...
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God Calling - Too much talk
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"Union with Me is the one great overwhelming necessity. All else follows so naturally, and union with Me may be the result of just consciousness of My presence. Be not too ready to speak to others. Pray always that the need may be apparent, if you are to do this, and the guidance very plain. My sp...
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Daily Reflections ~ Entering a New Dimension & 24hrs a Day
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In the late stages of our drinking, the will to resist has fled. Yet when we admit complete defeat and when we become entirely ready to try A.A. principles, our obsession leaves us and we enter a new dimension freedom under God as we understand Him. AS BILL SEES IT, p. 283 I am fortunate to be among the ones...
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Advice PLEASE
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I have been drinking very heavily for a long time now. Last night, my boyfriend made me choose between him or the alcohol......but before he did, he called my family, and told them what ive been doing. I was extremely hurt about that, because I really didnt want my family to know I had a problem. I hones...
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Daily Reflections ~ A.A. is Not a Cure-All & 24hrs a Day
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It would be a product of false pride to claim that A.A. is a cure-all, even for alcoholism. As Bill Sees It, p285
In my early years of sobriety I was full of pride, thinking that A.A. was the only source of treatment for a good and happy life. It certainly was the basic ingredient for my sobriety and even t...
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Dry Drunk
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When I came to AA I was described as a dry drunk. A man who though not drinking still behaved as if he was, a sober horse theif. After nearly 5 years of growing sobriety last night I threw myself right back to day one. Without drinking and in the space of 30 minutes I rejected the programme entirely. I denied...
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God Calling - April 16
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"Love, love, love. Tender love is the secret. Love those you are training, love those who work with you, love those who serve you. Dwell on that thought - God is love. You, too, must put love (God) into action in your lives. God is love... no judging. God is love... no resentment. God is love......
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Personal time of meditation
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As I spend time today reflecting on my personal faith beliefs I know we all can tune into the idea that no matter how misguided our thinking may lead us down the path of worry and fear ,we can trust that no situation is bigger than our ultimate Higher Power and that that Powers love is glorified by experien...
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Daily Reflections ~ Learning to Love Ourselves & 24hrs a day
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Alcoholism was a lonely business, even though we were surrounded by people who loved us We were trying to find emotional security either by dominating or by being dependent upon others . . . We still vainly tried to be secure by some unhealthy sort of domination or dependence. AS BILL SEES IT, p. 252 Whe...
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Surprised by recovery
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What has surprised you most about recovery?
After 20 months I am surprised how well I feel emotionally. Gone are the daily depression and feeling sluggish. My mind is sharp and I want to do things. I did not realize that it was possible to feel this much alive.
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Not sure if this worked,Jaelyn/mom and pop!
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-- Edited by mikef on Friday 22nd of April 2011 05:48:07 PM
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Helping someone who's not really an alcoholic -- advice?
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Hi all, So, I have what is kind of a funny situation. My ex-boyfriend (we are friends) has a very difficult relationship with alcohol. His father has been a life-long alcoholic, was abusive to him and his mother, and is now dying. He is somewhat obsessed with avoiding following in his father's footste...
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Why the AMA defines Alcoholism as a disease (explained)
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I read a post this morning from a woman who was struggling with the concept that Alcoholism is a disease, when it "can be willed away". An exert from her post states; "The patients that bother me the most are the ones with liver disease: either failure or hepatic encephalopathy. Their mental status h...
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My name is Lauren and I'm finally realizing I am an alcholoic
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There, I said it, yuk! The Big Book I hauled out and dusted off two weeks ago was found at a garage sale.... 4 or 5 years ago. I've skimmed through the odd page, but this last time light bulbs went off and I connected, also, I stopped beating myself up and realize I do not have control over this over glamoriz...
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Complimentary Drinks - Really?
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Traveling for a few days with work. What I used to love to do is get a hotel with a hot tub and tv in the bathroom and drink the night away. Sometimes I'd hit the hotel bar if I was feeling adventurous, but mostly I just liked to drink in my room... alone. My boss recommended a nice suite to stay at. It's pri...
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The Promises
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The promises do come true. We will intuitively know how to handle situations that used to baffle us. I dealt with a situation yesterday and intuitively knew that the only way to handle this was with rigourous honesty. The situation has devastated me. I knew what I had to do and I did it. I had to do this to p...
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Daily Reflections ~ Brothers in Our Defects & 24hrs a Day
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We recovered alcoholics are not so much brothers in virtue as we are brothers in our defects, and in our common strivings to overcome them. AS BILL SEES IT, p. 167 The identification that one alcoholic has with another is mysterious, spiritualalmost incomprehensible. But it is there. I feel it. Toda...
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Jaelyn in the house! (of God)
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Thank you all for support and prayers...10:00 pm last night,God has blessed us all with Jaelyn Amiah McNeil,5 lbs, 12 ounces of shimmering light!(she said I could break her anonymity :) :) My younger 23 yr old daughters 1st.(have a 45 yr old daughter also) have 5 grandchildren and 1 great grand child...
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Grateful for a Clear Memory
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I got to see the President speak at a fundraising rally last night! It was amazing, my seat was about 60 feet from the podium. Check it out! I had to wait in line for 20 minutes at the bar to buy a bottle of water, after two drunk old ladies cut in front of me -- they knew what they were doing, they were talking ab...
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REFLECTION ON A BEHAVIOR AND A SOLUTION
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Have you ever been caught up in a heated verbal argument with a loved one or even another person and had someone interrupt the situation(say a phone call or something) and you respond like"Oh HI, HOW ARE YOU,YES YOU HAVE A GOOD DAY ALSO in an undramatic controlled manner and then when that interac...
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Going off line for a bit.
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bit.due to life Changing personal developments around the consequences of my past behaviours I'll not be publicly posting for a while. Some of you may get a pm. I'll be sticking close to my brothers in fellowship on my side of the pond. Thanks for your help and support. I'll be back but it might take a whi...
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Jaelyn Alliah on the way!
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Please join us in prayer and gratitude as my 23 yr old daughter is in hospital getting ready to deliver her first child.Toxemia(something similar) so Drs want to induce labor this morning for eveyone's safety.We have trust and faith in God and His will be done!Devon(son in law ) and my wife slept ov...
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Deep love growing
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I'm blown away at the moment with the deep level of love I am experiencing for this fellowship of recovery we have in the world. I feel loved, liked needed and also I have hope in the core of me today. I cannot express in word form how much my very being is bursting with love and appreciation for the twelve st...
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Hospital
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The Good Lord has brought me through. I am just out of the hospital after a double coronary artery bypass. I was not feeling well and had some of the symptoms of a heart attack so I decided to go to the emergency room for a check up. The EKG and blood enzymes indicated that I had not yet had a heart attack...
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Sudden sensations
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quarter to midnight. Been to a meeting now back home. No different tonite than on so many other nites the past few years. As you know I've lived alone for over five years.. So why have I got this sudden feeling of being so lonely? This big old house is so empty and the quiet that I normally enjoy, it just feel...
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Great quote in this months' Grapevine
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Hey all, sorry haven't been by for a couple of weeks. Anyway, this quote made me think back to an earlier thread about someone saying that they heard some folks in the rooms trying to tell others that they weren't alcoholics because they hadn't drunk enough, etc. Anyway, in this months' Grapevine on pa...
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God Calling - Life is a Love Story
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"You need Me. I need you. My broken world needs you. Many a weary troubled heart needs you. Many a troubled heart will be gladdened by you, drawn nearer to Me by you. Health, peace, joy, patience, endurance - they all come from contact with Me. Oh! it is a glorious way, the upward way, the wonder...
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Documentary, "Drunk in Public"
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This documentary was brought up briefly way back in the threads when it first came out, but I'm wondering if anyone has seen it? I can't find a way to watch it besides paying $30 to buy the DVD, but I was thinking I might do that and then donate it to my local library. It would seem like a good resource to have,...
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Higher Powered
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Such a great trip to my soul city, and long-overdue renewed bonding with my sister. Very grateful for all the blessings we were given on our trip, especially hooking up with people decades sober & straight, from back in the day! NH feels like a dead zone in comparison to NY, so I am needing to work on n...
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Daily Reprieve
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For some reason these words keep ringing in my head throughout the day. I know it's a one day at a time program. The Book says we have a daily reprieve contingent on the maintenance of our spiritual condition. Think I got that right. Anyways, I go to a bunch of meetings, pretty much every day and this isn'...
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Getting Dumber and feeling more serene
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So it was rainy today and it affected my work and as a result I've had the day off. Short on funds at the moment so rather than stay home bored and broke I thought I'd go to a meeting of Alcoholics Anonymous. Did something today when asked to share I never thought I would. I said " Hello my name is Jamie...
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God Calling - The Two Joys
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"My children, I come. Hearts eager to do My will, send out a call that ever I find irresistible. I know no barrier then. Resignation to My will keeps Me barred out from more hearts than does unbelief. Can anything be such a crime against love as being resigned? My will should be welcomed with a g...
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Trouble with relationships
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I'm a year and a half sober and feel so lost. I look in the mirror and don't recognize myself. I feel empty in the few relationships I do have and I don't know what my life goals are anymore because I have changed so much since completing the 12 steps. Has anyone else felt this way?
Any replies will be much a...
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75 days
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I'm now 75 days clean from drugs and alcohol....I'm so thankful for the grace...this is not an easy journey but then again something worth doing never is...my problems haven't gone away but I now can at least face them with a clear head. My relationship with my wife whose also an alcoholic is drifting a...
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...that God could... BB Pg 60.
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This is such a comfort to me, knowing that God could, knowing that He has the capacity to. That He has all the resources and that no human being can mess that up. Knowing that He is the ultimate authority. That He will authorise circumstances to make me grow. Knowing that He will not put me beyond my endura...
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Daily Reflections ~ Love & Fear as Opposites
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All these failings generate fear, a soul-sickness in its own right. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 49 Fear knocked at the door; faith answered; no one was there. I dont know to whom this quote should be attributed, but it certainly indicates clearly that fear is an illusion. I create the illus...
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NPR on "wet houses"
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http://www.thisamericanlife.org/radio-archives/episode/...
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Grumble
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That time of year again. Bonus time. Was on target for 12.5% bonus at the end of February. Final figures are in. 8%. How did I drop 4.5% in one month? apparantly there is the fiddle factor, the How - How did I achieve my targets, apparantly not in an honourable way, so my bonus rate has been revised down. I'l...
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Daily Reflections ~ Anger: A "Dubious Luxury" & 24hrs a Day
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If we were to live, we had to be free of anger. The grouch and the brainstorm were not for us. They may be the dubious luxury of the normal men, but for alcoholics these things are poison. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 66 Dubious luxury. How often have I remembered those words. Its not just anger thats best lef...
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If Bill was the sail Dr. Bob was the anchor
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If Bill was the sail Dr. Bob was the anchor The least two likely of men , as they were less than kin and more than kind, more than friends and less than brothers. Bill was the consummate entrepreneur, someone of import I reckon, a mover and a shaker with a masculine allure was his conjured up se...
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AA Waltz/Absitinence is the leading cause of relapse
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This was an answer to a PM someone sent me, so I thought it was time for this to be reposted here, some of it was written by a friend of mine, the first part was written by me, but none of this is "mine", this is just stuff I have heard1, 2, 3, slip 1, 2, 3, slip is called the "AA Waltz", we se...
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Daily Reflections ~ Resentment is the "Number One Offender" & 24hrs a Day
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Resentment is the number one offender. It destroys more alcoholics than anything else. From it stem all forms of spiritual disease, for we have been not only mentally and physically ill, we have been spiritually sick. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 64 As I look at myself practicing the Fourth Step, it is e...
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Is there a middle ground?
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Hi guys, I know it's usually bad internet etiquette to start a forum post without lurking around the site a bit first but I'm kind of drunk and I apologize for my rudeness. So without further ado: Hi, my name is Leslie and I'm pretty sure I'm an alcoholic.... or at the very least have some serious alcohol...
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God Calling - Never Feel Inadequate
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"Obey My commands. They are steps in the ladder that leads to success. Above all, keep calm, unmoved. Go back into the silence to recover this calm when it is lost even for one moment. You accomplish more by this than by all the activities of a long day. At all cost, keep calm, you can help nobod...
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One of those mornings.
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One of those mornings. The ones where you wake up just before the alarm goes off and lay there. You know you should feel grateful for where and how you are and what you have, but you just lay there. Eyes wide, alone, letting your mind wander unproductively. or at least you think it's unproductive. Tune ou...
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A list from people who know...
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http://www.time.com/time/specials/packages/completelist/0,29569,2063930,00.htmlWho's Afraid of Virginia Wolfe and The Lost Weekend. I bet We The Peopl...
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Im hoping I'm using this forum correctly.
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Hi I just need someone to talk to right now. I don't know where to begin. Ever since I was 17 I wanted to be a bartender. I was one on and off I am 25 now. I began partying with high school friends my junior year. I was 15 or16.
I buy beautiful cocktail dresses... For when I go to places to drink.
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God Calling - Gentle With All
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"Love and laugh. Make your world the happier for your being in it. Love and rejoice on the grey days. Be gentle with all. Try to see the heart I see, to know the pain and difficulty of the other life that I know. Try, before you interview anyone or speak to anyone, to ask Me to act as interpreter bet...
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Wifes opinion is her Mothers
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What are you supposed to do when your wife has never seperated from her mother emotionally or mentally and all her opinions are her mothers ???? This includes the "truth" about people places and things and sometimes they are important things that affect our marriage. I've tried pointin...
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maybe I'm learning
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tonight that special someone called and asked me to help. Asked me to take her to a meeting. So I took her and she had her drinking hat on. Somethimg wrong with this picture and I so desperately wanted to fix her.. But a flash of reality. I'm as powerless over alcohol re:her as I am with me. Nothing I could do...
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