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You can always tell who the alcoholic is by looking for the guy everyone walks on eggshells around.

 

Wow. That is me. I am that guy; even stone cold sober. 5 years today as a matter of fact. I don't exactly consider this a character defect though. I've come to accept that it's just a part of my make up. I have this uncanny ability to make a household or work environment bend to give me what I want, which is to be left alone, and it's still not enough. The world I live in has to be rattled every few years because the shine just wears off of everything that I set my sights on after awhile. A majority of us come from extremely unstable backrounds to where it becomes ingrained into who we are. And because it's not affecting my sobriety I am content with how low the bar is set. 

What comes natural to others I see - such as being an easy going fella, has to be a conscious decision and needs constant effort for me. Or else I slip right back to my default position, which is fuck you. And it has nothing to do with staying sober.



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BIG Congrats Visionz on 5 years ...

That seemed impossible for me at one time ... but as I practiced improving my 'conscience contact' with the guy upstairs, and the constant meetings, I became more of the guy I wished to be ... close friendships became easier ... doing 'the next right thing' was not so much a struggle as it was to begin with ... Others seemed not to be so 'edgy' around me, as had been in the past ... Once I got rid of the sign around my neck ('for instant Asshole, just add alcohol') I began to feel better about myself ...

Keep in mind, this is still a 'One Day at a Time' deal ... for all of us ...



Love ya man and God Bless,
Pappy



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Congrats on 5 years, V.

You're on the road of happy destiny...

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