Im drinking 28 or more units a night and im still not getting drunk.
i can drink all night and not get smashed.
Its 03:05 here in the uk and iv been drinking for hours and im still not smashed yet.
I wil be stopping drinking in the next day or two because of work commitments. Not really sure how im gona feel after drinking so much then not drinking. Gona bring on the intense dreams and sweats I expect. Hopeuly nto the fear though. Quite often get a huge sense of fear and that intercepts my intense dreams also.
Been bit of a crappy xmas holiday due to excessive drinking for almost all of it. Feeling sick each day. Staying in bed most of each day. Only coming alive at night time or afternoon to drink again and that carry on into early hours of the morning.
Chemically tolerant alcoholic here also...been tolerantly abstinent for the past 33 years. At 5 years abstinent the sickly yellow-green color hue in my skin went away. The tan looks better. Your body is telling you something you ain't listening to and the tolerance is saying you're good to go. NOT!! You got organs in your body that are allergic and wanting you to stop while only one part of your system is saying "I'm not getting it poison me some more". That's why being under the influence is called intoxification.
Reading your post and slipping into my old "tolerance" shoes I get to remember all the stuff that was happening that I wasn't aware of at the time including slipping into toxic shocks and having my sense of feelings dulled to zero and loosing control to the point that it wasn't drinking anymore but a suicide attempt.
Read your post again as if you were reading the post from someone else and see what picture you form of the situation. What you do next is your...errrr the next drinks choice.
Keep coming back and thanks for the memories...really...they will help me stay sober today and wish to help the next drunk who wants total abstinence and their life back.
hi BB, this website is for those who have a desire to stop drinking and to connect with other alcoholics, we help each other. Do you want to stop drinking? drinking so much and not getting drunk happens just before "wet brain" sets in.... and i haven't heard of anyone recovering from wet brain. might want to think about that one, but not too long. admitting i am powerless over alcohol and asking for help with a desire to quit drinking is how I got started in the AA program. hope to see you join the MIP group. jj/sheila
-- Edited by jj on Saturday 7th of January 2012 08:28:35 PM
BB, I don't know how old that you are, but you may want to let your Dr. know that you're quitting. Consider tapering off the last couple of days to lessen the impact. Like others said, this message board is about getting and staying sober. Welcome and good luck.
That sounds like a true nightmare. By the end I could drink just about anyone under the table too. I would be up and functioning after drinking insane amounts....then I would always have that next one that sent me into stumbling around and passing out.
So you want to quit for work? Not cuz its an expensive habit that is a waste of your time, ruins your health, blocks your spirituality, causes depression, and wrecks all your relationships? Are you tolerant of all those things or denying just how bad this problem is?
AA is definitely someting you might want to think about.
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