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clarity
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clarity if ya got one foot in the past and the other in the future...i guarentee ya, your gonna piss all over today! which, by the way, is exactly what im doing....over and over and over and over....like the ferris wheel...........geezeeeeeeeeee my son is almost 25.....next month.....alchie, drug...
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New to the forum
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Hi everyone, my name is Jeff. I've been sober since 8/1/07. I do have a few questions for anyone willing to answer. 1. I am an Atheist. As you can imagine, the spiritual side of AA is a major obstacle for me. Are there any other members on this forum that are not believers? 2. My sobriety has been going on...
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smoking and alcoholism
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Been hit hard with all day alcohol cravings last couple of days. That coupled with a negative mood and a bout of low self-esteem have me scared. I am beginning to smoke noticibly more than even last month. As I'm doing it, I sometimes feel I'm substituting the desire to end discomfort with alcohol with...
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But a Symptom
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Greetings, "We think drinking is but a symptom". It has not been all that easy for this alky to see that booze and dope was only ten percent of my problem. The longer I am clean and sober it seems like the more Subtle Symptoms start creeping around my space. Great News is that if my "Bo...
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learning/Wanda says hello!!
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Wanda/learning just left a quick message saying that her computer is down and needs work, but that she is doing very well, and she is sending hugs. :o)
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You just GOTTA see this!!!
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1dQCqXao3Eo
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My Two Cents Worth
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Hi...I'm LeeU & new 2 this board, Not new to AA. I'm (getting to be) an "old timer" with stunted maturity LOL! I'm also a "loner" & don't do tons of live mtgs. anymore, so cyber sobriety really floats my boat and keeps me in balance with my program. DOS 4/6/83. Glad to b...
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Self Acceptance
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Hello, Woke up this morning and realized I was all that I had. The good, the bad, the ugly , the beautiful, the sad. God did not make a mistake when he made me. Toad
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What did you get out of rehab?
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http://alcoholism.about.com/u/sty/pro/rehab_lessons/
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None
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Good Day, Just to say greetings. Toad
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People Meeting People
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This place is filling up now, the convention will begin tomorrow sometime in the afternoon. Danielle and I have finally met, and she and her partner Carl are lovely young people. It's amazing that everywhere you look there are people chatting one to one, people who would normally never ever meet in...
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Seriously need some advice & POV's
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Hi all, Serious issue for me here. I've got a great sponsor. I've also got depression and anxiety that I've been getting treated for years. Re-uptake inhibitors have worked well in controlling rage outbursts, panic attacks and suicidal urges. AA and being free of additional mood-altering chemi...
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People Pleasing
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Would it be a surprise that for this alcoholic who is a therapist and has never gone 6 months in adulthood without being in some kind of relationship, that I have some serious people pleasing and codependency issues? I knew coming into AA that codependency was the most major thing feuling my alcoholi...
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Hello all, new to the board
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Hi everyone, After years of problems, I'm trying to take a stand against what I sometimes believe to be stronger than myself. Probably no secret that it's my drinking. I'm probably alot further along than most who seek help, but my assumption that I can do it on my own has lead me back every time. 33 years...
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I appreciate the prayers!
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Hey All, A while back I asked for prayers to help with the prep work for my annual testing situation. The prayers really helped and I feel ready for my first day (of three) of testing. I'll keep you posted on the results, but the preparation work you helped me with really helped reduce the stress and all...
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So...I'm a little new...should I even be here?
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Hi everyone, This is the first time I've really actually signed up for a message board like this and posted, on my own. I've been thinking, for the last few months, that a board like this might actually encourage me to face what has seemingly haunted me for just about a year now as well as to reassure me tha...
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God Doing For Us What We Can't Do For Ourselves
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Had a great God moment today, something that I could never have done before I went into the programme, ever. A person that I manage made some errors, and I didn't necessarily realize how serious they potentially were until my boss commented upon the issue hypothetically in the afternoon. Long story s...
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Goodbye for now
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Just got in from a meeting, and just having a quick security check around the house then we will sleep in front of the TV until 3am, when we will set out for Manchester airport and on to Malta. Looking forward to meeting up with Daniella on Monday (heehee, I get a head start on you with the tan hopefully swee...
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Darned Technology!
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So, our home PC is sick. Maybe dead, I dunno. My participation will be sporadic and brief until I get it fixed and/or replaced. I'll stop in from work when I can! Peace, Rob
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Keeping it Simple
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Greetings, Read the new post this morning. A couple FELT very confusing. I am a real alcoholic. The Blue Book describes what that really means. I also am an addict. What the Blue Book says about alcoholics applies to my other addictions also. I know when I am looking for an easier softer way and wh...
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NEW TO THE FORUM
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NEW TO THE FORUM A FRIEND SEND ME THIS LINK... I BEEN DRINKING SINCE I WAS 13 YEARS OLD I AM NOW 24... LAST YEAR I QUIT FOR A FULL YEAR BECAUSE MY MOM HAD A STROKE AND I PROMISE I WOULDNT ... AFTER A YEAR PASSED I STARTED DRINKING AGAIN AND I GOT A LOT OF CRAZY STORY'S I REGRET ... I AM TRYING TO STOP BUT ITS REALLY HA...
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Continuing 12th step...
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Aloha Family...I took and followed thru on a "community" 12step this morning with the local Liquor Commission. They are not aware of any class of person I am including recovering alcoholic or member of any recovering group. I do it because of all of the experiences and awareness I have b...
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Ridin'the WindS
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Howdy, Glad to hear Aquaman lived to share again. I get to ride the emotional turmoil winds once again. Never is fun. The good news is that a bit of sober time helps cause I can remember I made it through the last storm clean and sober. Very Grateful the program is stronger and wiser than my storms. ...
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Day 1...again.
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Building resentment and anger. After all that hooey about a sober fishing trip I bought three singles at the bait shop. This wasn't an accident. It took several muscle-groups and a conscious decision to open that cooler door. I didn't want to call anyone on my phone list, I didn't want to call my spon...
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Telling my story at inpatient rehab
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In 2 days I will tell my story at an inpatient rehab. I have always be told that I am not to say "No" to service and it is a privilege to be asked to tell my story. I do believe it is a privilege. Nonetheless, I am a bit scared because of 2 main recurrent fear based thoughts. 1. The last time I went...
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God Damn It.
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(Opening words chosen very carefully.) Ok, so I've been sober 8 1/2 months now. I'm working with a sponsor who has been sober 10 years. I was raised Catholic but no longer consider myself to be one - the thought of organized religion still fills me with revulsion and particularly the use of the phrase...
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New to the forum
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Hello everybody, I am a 28 year old male from England and have seriously struggled with alcohol since my early 20's, however since I was made redundant in August things have taken the turn for the worst and have started drinking every day usually into oblivion. Today however I have had enough of this...
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Sponsee stuff again
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I posted a few weeks ago about a new-ish sponsee I have who is dragging her feet about doing any work. Im starting to think she asked me to be her sponsor so she could satisfy her rehab counsellor. Ive pretty much had it with the drama phone calls, and her unwillingness to take suggestions. I want to.........
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Back in the saddle again!
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Batman Begins - Bruce Wayne's Dad (or Alfred, I can't recall) "Why do we fall down, Bruce? So we can learn how to get back up again." I'm better for the experience. Didn't spiral. Now I know - gotta work that program hard without fail. No lapses. No renting any headspace to anger. God will step...
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Just for today
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Howdy, Just for today I need to let go and let God. Hold on to the program and allow life to unfold. This to shall pass. Toad
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Daily Reflections ~ Focusing & Listening + 24hrs a Day
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There is a direct linkage among self-examination, meditation, and prayer. Taken separately, these practices can bring much relief and benefit. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 98 If I do my self-examination first, then surely, I'll have enough humility to pray and meditate - because I'll s...
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Really new and have lots of frustration and questions
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Well, I will start by saying that I am a hopeless alcoholic. I can't tell you all how much I have appreciated reading your HOPEFUL posts. It can be done, can't it? I don't understand how I wake up bound and determined to get through the day living in God's will, then end up with a bottle in my hand. I hav...
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Can I hold onto a lie until a suitable time?
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Hear me out...Ive been sober for 5 days. Ive been speaking with my sponsor over the last week. He finally has time to meet with me tomorrow evening to read some BB and talk. This is what I want, to start the program over again. Thing is, I've been through some relapses with him and have false-started sever...
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Good Morning.
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Hope this note finds you reasonably well. Talked with a fellow trudgger last night. He will celebrate 29 Years this coming Saturday. We spoke of reasonableness. Not the giant of our dreams nor the dwarf of our fears. Simply a part of the whole. As I read some new posts I felt the pain of early recover...
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so this may be a touchy one... but..
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I appreciate all the feed back from the first post i made, went better than i had really expected it to, but I feel i need to point out something about my self and see what anyone might think.. I noticed alot of people have turned to god to help them through addiction.. well I am a firm believer that there is n...
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Crappy Halloween
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WARNING - NOT a flowers and butterflies share. Last night while the rest of the family went to an annual Halloween pot-luck & family social that I always LOVE going to. There's a poetry slam & I'm the reighning champion. Until last night. Wife & I had a wee tiff and my headspace was in the neg...
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Daily Reflections ~ Keeping Optimism Afloat & 24hrs a Day
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The other Steps can keep most of us sober and somehow functioning. But Step Eleven can keep us growing. . . . THE LANGUAGE OF THE HEART, p. 240 A sober alcoholic finds it much easier to be optimistic about life. Optimism is the natural result of my finding myself gradually able to make the best, rather tha...
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"In all our affairs"
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....."tried to practice these principals in all our affairs" Wooooohoooooo........thats a toughie today! People drive me crazy you know! The committee of idiots that lives in my head gets very judgemental about others. I caught myself thinking of others as "stupid" and &q...
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Grateful
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Hi, Just suiting up and showing up today. Still figgering out the in's and out's of the site. Pleasantly surprised to find very good sobriety. Humorusly mosty better than my own. That is very good . No A.A. Poster Child here. ...
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Happy Halloween with caution guys
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Happy Halloween everyone. Just wanted to say I hope everyone has a safe and sober, but awesome time. Halloween is one of the hardest nights to be sober (next to new years eve probably the biggest challenge). I just wanted to write a quick post to newcomers and others close to my time in this program. ...
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Feeling Feelings
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I was six years clean and sober when I realized I could feel happy and sad at the same time. For this alky that was almost to much to stand. The long beginning of letting go of my need to control to feel safe. I am still some-what broken, so when I say I am sober by the Grace of God and my willingness to work the s...
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Daily Reflections ~ I Cannot Change The Wind
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It is easy to let up on the spiritual program of action and rest on our laurels. We are headed for trouble if we do, for alcohol is a subtle foe. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 85 My first sponsor told me there were two things to say about prayer and meditation: first, I had to start and second, I had to continue. W...
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Once More
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Read this a bit of time ago. "The alcoholic at certain times has no effective mental defense against the first drink. Except in a few rare cases, neither he nor any other human being can provide such a defense.His defense must come from a Higher Power." Blue Book p. 43. ...
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The Gift
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Mornin' Might be a good day to be clean and sober. Think I will ask for that gift. Puttin' along, Toad
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Question on traditions
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Some meetings in my area are able to run 'free' ads in the local newspaper to let the public know about meetings. Some ppl leave a contact : first name and last initial with a phone # for their groups meeting. Is this violation of tradition 7 and possibly 11 ?
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sober fishing
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Yesterday I decided to give myself a break from job-hunting and get out into the great outdoors. Actually, Mother Nature decided for me. It was such a beautiful day, she demanded that I get out and and enjoy her! I live in the Smoky Mountains, so I went trout fishing. I had some trepidations. Even "...
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Just rambling about... karma, love, and Higher Powers
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Sometimes, just by rambling I can clear up the confusion in my own mind. So where this goes I really don't know. I'll let my Higher Power guide me. First, let me introduce you to my Higher Power. Her name is Love. And for me it is the essence of unconditional Love. This Love can be found in many different rel...
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Dave Harm
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The Trickledown Theory of Unconditional Love
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God loves me, this I know. He loves me unconditionally. Therefore: His love for me is based on who HE is. Therefore: I have not earned His love, nor can I earn His love. Therefore: I cannot be separated from His love.When I obey Him, He will bless me.When I disobey Him, there will be consequences for m...
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The Trickledown Theory of Conditional Love
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God loves me, but .. He loves me conditionally. Therefore His love is based on my performance. Therefore I have to earn His love by pleasing Him. Therefore, When I please Him, I feel loved. When I don't please Him, I feel rejected. Therefore, if God who is "all-loving" does not always love, a...
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Prayers if you have the time...
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Hey All, I am starting the annual event at my job that causes me immense amounts of stress. It has been my excuse to drink and slip in the past, and it was where I found MIP 2 years ago. If you have a spare moment, if you can send a prayer my way to give me the strength, clarity, confidence and motivation I wil...
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