Cor! I am finding work hard, they treat me differently to everyone else because of my illness. I am doing my best but they just keep fishing for mistakes... dunno how much longer I can put up with it.
Hey Robert, just 3 and a half more months until university starts, right? Then you can smile and wave bye bye. In the meantime, what you said last week---just keep smiling at them, they won't know what to make of it. I have this motto, and hope I don't offend anyone with it, but I use it often (in my head) when I'm out in the world and people start getting to me. " I don't have to have them over to dinner, and I don't have to sleep with them, so they can blow off". I only see them for eight hours. My real world starts when I leave theirs. Wren
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i found god in myself/and I loved her/i loved her fiercely--Ntozake Shange
Try saying the Serenity Prayer while you are pretended to listen to somethink a jackass might be saying. It works for me in meetings, on the rare occasion that I Have to listen to someone going on and on and on about something that no one really wants to hear about. It really works.
One time this woman was real upset about how her hair came out, and she was going out to lunch with some friends she had not seen in a long time. Well she was one of the Regulars at the meeting, so we knew she would not be offended, because we all liked her. And when she starting talking about her "hair" we laughed so hard, all of us, and she did blush a little and bring an end to her share.
There was a meeting with a Birthday person, that was Secretary to the meeting. she got up and talked about how EVERYDAY of her 10 years, she had only felt HAPPINESS. Made me think to myself, Get Real, or.... what drug are you on? Prayed for her little speech to be over with.
Then someone suggested to me, that when they are forced to listen to someone's stuff that is not related to the Disease or Recovery, that what they did was Silently say the Serenety Prayer inside, to offsett the annoynance. I tried it once, and it did work, so I didn't have to leave it behind, cause I didn't hear it.
So try it when you are going through those moments when you feel isolated and separated from your co-workers. "God Grant the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the Courage to change the things I can, and the Wisdom to know the difference." Really works for me.
Three more months, wow, that would be a lot of Prayers.
But the "Courage to change the things I can". You have done that by going to the University. Hope these 3 months go by fast, for you.
