I didn't drink yesterday and this morning I feel great! My head is clear, I feel amazingly good both physically and emotionally. It's times like these when I can't even imagine waking up hungover, depressed and sick, ever again. I need to find a way to hang on to this feeling. I need to find a way to remember the alternative memory of the dark place drinking takes me. It's my sincere hope that posting here will help me keep these things at the forefront of my thoughts. Like a diary of sorts. I guess it doesn't matter if anyone replies. I'm still finding it useful to put how I'm feeling into words.
-- Edited by Wobbly McStumble on Monday 28th of October 2019 12:00:28 PM
A number of times a day I find myself having the intense desire to drink, but these have been fleeting and I've been able to get over it without much difficulty. I expect it to get more challenging as time goes on. A few weeks ago I successfully made it through a 30 day sober experiment. This week has been easier than the first week of that 30 days. Maybe that break in my alcohol consumption cycle has had a lasting effect?
Another day is over and I am retiring for the evening sober and content.
I am up at this ungodly hour due to a wind storm that knocked out our electricity and woke up my 5 year old. She is now in bed with my wife and I and I cant sleep.
I'm not gonna lie, it's kind of nice to be laying here with them, listening to the wind howl outside. If I had been drinking I'd be out cold. I hope the power remains out and my daughters stay hone from school. I'm really grateful for their company these days. I always am...but it feels special right now.
I'm new here as well. I'm not even sure if I'm an alcoholic after 30 years non-stop with no real attempt to quit. The only times I've quit was purely to feel better physically. I'm not sure if that constitutes a valid reason to give it up. It just seems like it would make me even more miserable.
This doesn't look like a very active forum, so I doubt there will be any feedback, but cheers to all!
mezsat, determining if you are an alcoholic is not about amount or time. It is a control question. There are folks out there who got sober in their early 20s that consider themselves stone cold alcoholics even know they had a 4 year drinking career.
For all of you newer folks, Wobbly McStumble aka Tipsy McStagger (search for posts by TM) has entertained us and getting sober for close to 10 years? How long Tipsy er a Wobbly?
It gets harder, then easier, then harder again, then easier again its a roller coaster but in the long run it tends to get easier. Google: Post Acute Withdrawal Syndrome.. As the third member of AA mentioned, God should be able to to just about anything - but he sure didnt do much for me while I was trying to beat this thing by myself. (Im paraphrasing, dont remember his exact words)
-- Edited by FlyingSquirrel on Friday 10th of December 2021 12:25:51 PM
