Gosh, Robert, for me it was about "setting the habit". Part of me avoided it because I was a bit scared of looking at what I had done and thought during the day, so I sort of told myself "whoops, forgot to do it last night", when deep down, I knew I was avoiding it. Who wants to look at their own doodoo? So I do my serious inventory (not the situation by situation one) before I light my candle for my evening devotions. I had to make it an engrained habit, while at the same time, giving myself the gift of my spiritual moment afterwards. I still don't get to it every single night, I admit. Sometimes a few days slip by, and I know that there is probably something I'm avoiding, so I make myself park my butt and do it. The anticipation is always worse than the reality. As time progressed, and my personal program grew, I found that my list of no-nos from the day decreased. Staying on top of myself, yknow, checking my motives or agenda out periodically. I'll do about anything to not feel guilty, it's one of my biggest defects.
So, now that I"ve wandered all over the place---I just needed to make it a habit, and do something good for me afterwards. Wren
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Funny, isn't it, how friends and a Power greater than ourselves can neutralize nightmares?
Yeah, it is work. But rather than be disciplined by life, or other people, or situations, I try to do the habit, like Wren says. Then we avoid what seems to be booby traps; which can most certainly be avoided by preparing in advance. The inventory is a first serious step. The gains FAR outway the discomfort of facing our former selves. You'll see! You will. Your recovery is all yours. No one can take it away from you, -except you! Start experiencing these miracles. They are just out of view, around the corner of our next action! Be Happy. -paul
