I was only 14. I didn't even drink. Just was curious as to why because my ex passed away. He was a huge whiskey drinker. It has been 6 years and I still am grieving terribly. Just a legit question. I feel like my Mom knew something I didn't so that's why she had me drink it. I have a tendency to be over responsible. I've been in recovery for 10 years and am still trying to figure out what is on my plate to deal with instead of getting other people's stuff tossed on my plate. I've been seriously manipulated then hoodwinked in the past, so it can be very difficult for me. I was that kid that rushed to Mom's aid. Gotta undo that stuff because it can kill me. My Mom would screw me over then punish me for it so she could be the Almighty God. I did some wrong stuff, but I didn't realize the family dysfunction dynamics fully. This stuff can be brutal, as I use my heart more than my head. Dumb me.
You've been through a lot, annt. And some, perhaps a lot, of it has a bearing on your sobriety. Have you tried Alanon meetings? Alanon can be very helpful in situations like yours...
