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Rob


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Omg i am so tired..  Stayed up online and then watchin film till bout 01:40 this morning.. got to sleep by about 2 or alittle after i gues.. .. Bit of a rough night.. no too bad.. t-shirt soaked when i woke up.. bloody sweats....  Actualy i had a dream that it was today and that i had real bad shakes.. not alittle..but like so my arms and everything was jigglin about..   Lol bit wierd.. bit un-nerving.. but nvm.. dreams dont bother me too much..  But i got up at about 6am to come online..


Bit abit figity today..  But omg.. Im so glad i didnt drink last night.. Because by 10:30 this morning i was driving the BIG company van.. which iv never driven before.. didnt have far to take it.. but when i got back i was then given one of the company car keys and had to deliver a package.. bit further this time..  The car is really quick... So much fun!.. i was loving it...  Out on my own in the sun, fast car..  Driving the van was cool too..   if i had drank last night then i may have been over the limit which would have been a big stress... imagine that.. BIG van iv never driven before and compay car for hour or something..   But also not just that..  When i have been drinkni the night before my confidence, self esteem is shit.. and im so self concious.. I mean i was nervous today, confidence not at its peak yet, definately not .. and obviously body going through changes etc..  But i dread to think how it would have been.. i would have probably been ok but it would been stressful as helll and id have been a bag of nerves..


Omg i was thinking.. "First night i dont drink and nxt day im doing this!.. ".. so so so so glad i didnt drink last night.. I was also on fork lift early too cos i had to load the van.. 


Actualy today has been pretty good cos its been so different and varied and it was great to get out in the van and the longer drive in the car which like i say really shifts!.. so much fun!  Though it did get abit crappy towards the end.. and im so bloody tired.. but then


Bit of a bugger though.. i was given bit of paper with name and address of person i had to take the box to.. I looked at the name and though omg. fantastic. "Julie!".. Julies a fit blonde woman who comes into our place and everyone fancies her.. lol shes married with kids so no chances ..but still . i was thinking. "haha,, im gona rub poeples noses in this when i got back.. ".. But .. damn it.. she wasnt home,.. i had not to leave stuff in her garage.. Shit!..lol.. oh well nvm.. it was a laugh.


Apparently I might be off out doing much the same tomorrow..  So.. providing i dont have a drink tonight tomorrow should be cool too.


Im not gona go to a meeting tonight.. iv got two options a step meetin and a big book discussion (i think thats what its called)... and im too tired and i dont really fancy that.. if it was a newcomers or just a wednesday meeting then i might.. but im not.. im gona stay in and chill out (hmm,lol).. Might go out later in the car to clock the miles i walked on sunday.


Hmm pizzas ready..


Hope everyone is doing well..


Rob



-- Edited by Rob at 15:03, 2006-04-05

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Cabbageheadchris


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Hi Rob, Driving company vehicles is to me a great motivator for not drinking + I'm on call every other week (could get dragged out of bed at anytime)


Fast cars are fun, but you do need tobe sober to get the full enjoyment without becoming a statistic!


The best one I use at work is a Mercedes E220 Hearse (£80,000 - about  $160,000) Don't wan't to bend it! Or worse still, get pulled for drink driving. I'm not going to quote performance statistics, but she's quick!


http://img41.imagevenue.com/img.php?loc=loc249&image=62486_herse_001.jpg


Congratulations on day 2. As far as meetings go, I suspect a Big book meeting would not be that much use to you until you have had a look at 'The Big Book' (Stocked in all Libraries).


Got to go, just got in and it's time to hit the kitchen!


Hope you have a good sober evening without too much sweating or shaking!


Bye for now


 


Chris.



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Hi Chriss.. Well as herses go it looks pretty cool.. Actualy i thought before a herse would have suited me.. would be great for sleepoing in the back in wales when shell is closed.


Actualy, ages ago, when i was drunk, i bouth the big book 3rd edition off of ebay.. didnt really read bugger all of it.. but i have that and my stayin sober book, and meetings list in box it the big book came in... not having much chance to read it at mo.. im getting through the stayin sober book, slowly... i would read some tonight but im sooo tired.. hard to focus..


But yeah i figured same really... one iv read a chunk of it then it might make sense.. .. and the steps meetin i went to the other day.. well too early for that i think at this stage..    Might be able to make one tomorrow but if im this tired again then i doubt it..


Hmm iv noticed some meetings are called newcomers and others beginners.. hmm i guess more beginning the program...?


Friday night i have about 3 realistic options of meetings close by.  Well one is very close, the other is pretty close and the other is abit further away, lol, though depends what part of that town that one is in.



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I'm so glad today was a good day for you,Rob. You've deserved one. You deserve many more, too. Keep that in mind---you deserve as many good days as you can get. Just allow yourself that. I believe it, and since I do, I think you should. Don't like it? Ok, call me a BEACH, LOL, love Wren

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Lol. ok thanx Wren.. 


Well 45 mins and offi closes.. and i dont have any real urge to go there now.. did fancy it a bit earlier.. a drink i mean.. lol.. soz. im soo tired..


Just took half a sleeping aid tablet, nothing strong or addictive.. "One A Night Nytol".  Gota sleep tonight..  Hopefuly be out in car or van again tomorrow.. dont mind too much either way. but love the power of the car... but if iv im using the van ill be using forklift too so either is cool..  Gets me out of the bloody warehouse anyway. and out on my own.. freedom.. nice to have people around but often nice to work more on my ya own.. well i like it.. no squabbling.. no waiting for other people, no being rushed by other people.. no one trying to take control.. Can just get on with it.. less stress..  And less self concious..   Soo hopefully be out as much as possible tomorrow.. actualy if the wine glasses have to be deliverd i could be out for ages..


ok waffling again.



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Quite a hearse....

Anyway, good luck Rob, don't give up-

Things that worked for me-

1. Asking a higher power for help keeping me sober in the morning and thanking it (him? her? them?) in the evening (mind you I did not want to do this 5 months ago, but I did, and I think it helps a lot)

2. Going to a meeting and calling other alcoholics daily

3. Getting a sponsor and calling him

4. Dowloading and listening to AA speaker mp3s

5. Trying to help others or in lieu of that, at least receive help from others-

JB



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