I lost an adult child a month ago and sometimes I think about drinking. Use the tools....is what comes to mind. There are a lot of tools to practice in this situation. Gratitude is one I was taught...be grateful for the time I got to spend with her. God told me once a long time ago that He couldn't tell me why, but He could tell me He understands. These are comforting words I carry with me daily. I pray for her. I talk and write about her because it helps. Drinking would not bring her back, nor make anything better. Thank God that today I can ask for help and strength. One day at a time is all I can handle, and if I can't, one minute at a time works too. It's OK to grieve...and I cry somedays...but I know she is in a better place. I haven't been able to make a meeting but I have lots of people who are willing to give me some of their time on the phone....and here too. I dried the yellow roses we had at her memorial and when I look at them I remember all the sunshine she brought into my world. So I stay sober today so I can help others to make it through tough times...life Äoes go on. Thank you for letting me share to help me stay sober too.