Last night I had a vivid drinking dream. The basic premise was that I was spending the afternoon with a friend and ended up drinking so much that I blacked out for hours of conversation and was trying to remember what happened when I sobered up. The panic. The fear. The shame. The raw guilt that eats at your insides. It has been years since I have felt that way, and it was a good reminder of the hell on earth that is alcohol abuse. The dream made me remember the exact feeling of knowing I spent HOURS talking to another person, and yet having zero recollection what about. It used to happen regularly, and it me feel like I was scum. Thank you, God. Thank you, AA.
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Oh Wow, Adam, ... it's been a while since I had a drink'n dream, but the horror and guilt when I first woke up, ... I'll never forget either ...
I shared this at my next meet'n because it really had a big impact on me, I was devastated ... in the meet'n, I was told to let it pass as a 'Reminder' of what it was like then -vs- now ... that the 'Dream' was 'only a THOUGHT' and noth'n more .... as long as I didn't act on it and drink again, I was fine ... great topic ...
Love ya man and God Bless, Pappy
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For sure. I actually prefer the awful drinking dreams to the more dangerous alluring ones. For a while I was having a reoccurring dream that I was in a new, big city for the night and was planning to go out drinking. I used to do that whenever I traveled somewhere new. From that dream I wake up and remind myself of all those terrible realities that accompanied -- the guilt, the hangovers, the lying, the shame, the fear, etc.
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Drunk dreams, you got to love them. I can relate to the recollection part, even though most of my dreams were one-sided.
There is only one thing I hate about drinking dreams; they lack true authenticity or at the very least, transparency, yet feel so undeniably real. I can sometimes feel the glass swirling around in my hand, or even the smell or taste of alcohol, strangely enough. I know it was only a dream, Adam, but to recall everything with such detail is eerie to say the least. It does have me guessing, though. I mean, does anyone have a dream where you actually felt like you drank? I have.
I won't get into specifics, but it does clarify a few things. Maybe, it's a reminder of why we quit, or maybe it has to do with spirituality and how powerless we can become. Maybe were trying to work out a particular issue in life and our dreams allow us to do that, who knows. Anyway, it makes for good conversation whether you're an alcoholic or not.
If there was one dream, in particular, that stood out above the rest it would probably be the trip I made to "Hanks bar". I'm still trying to figure that one out. Thanks for the reminder, Adam.
-- Edited by Mr_David on Wednesday 20th of April 2016 04:51:15 PM
I know it was only a dream, Adam, but to recall everything with such detail is eerie to say the least. It does have me guessing, though. I mean, does anyone have a dream where you actually felt like you drank? I have.
-- Edited by Mr_David on Wednesday 20th of April 2016 04:51:15 PM
It's been years now since I had one, but I do recall I woke up feel'n the full affects of a hang-over ... and I remember it took more than a few minutes to piece together what just happened ... I recovered within about 1/2 hour, but the mental impact was 'stunning' to say the least ... and I vividly remember that I couldn't wait til the next meet'n later that day ... it was the only place I knew I'd feel 'safe' ... (this was about 6 to 7 years ago ...)(with a year or two sober) ... ...
I've maybe had one or two DDm's since, but I woke up as soon as the alcohol hit my lips in those ... said a 'thank you God' prayer and dozed back off to sleep ...
Pappy
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