sorbsauce.....
I have been wallowing in self-shitty for last few days and haven't been keeping up with the postings as much. Also kind of afraid what would come out of my fingers ...so have been afraid to post much....
You remind me so much of myself... certain things --even happy events can make me feel down --or even guilty for having a good time or enjoying life for a while. And I have had trouble finding good and true friends and it hurts like Hell and I do internalize so much. I think I was so much better when I got and stayed sober for a while and worked the Steps. It was like some kind of magic--or maybe miracle--because for a good while I didn't worry nearly as much and things didn't bother me nearly as much.
Guess I am trying to say is there is hope ....hang in there...I'm 'new" again myself and experiencing alot of the things you described all over again. Things will get better for you...for me, too.
Thanks leavetherest. I hope once I start working the steps I'll feel better. And you can give advice. You were sober for a while and slipped. You still have more experience. I'm going to start a new thing. I don't feel like going to page 2 haha. I feel pretty good today. AA made me laugh a lot.
