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JerryF


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Aloha MIP Recovery....yes it has been a while.  I lost my computer and therefore my hard drive and then would just look in on you guys without re-logging an registering and I needed to do it now as I got struck suddenly by weirdness and baffling nature of my disease.  Imagine returning from my home group a meeting I co-founded over 20 years ago and with which I was just celebrating my 37th year of sobriety...Do I have a reprieve and guarantee?   Not even!!  So many lessons accompany me where ever I go and with whoever in the program I network with.  I gave my coin to my sponsor to add his mana (spiritual power) to and it made the circuit of the meeting and came back...I shared and then I listened and then when the meeting was over I left for home.  While traveling into town I heard a commotion going past me and looking in my rearview mirror notice a pickup truck going the opposite way dragging a young dog behind it.   SHIT!!  I freaked out and made a wild u turn and went after the truck which was stopped in the median strip.  I pulled in front of him and went back to see if I could help and the young brindle Pit Pup was in the bed bleeding badly from its feet.  I proved I was powerless and my emotions were going wild for it.  I checked to see if I had anything to help and I didn't however the owner who was also very affected had some assets and with a friend was helping the scared young pit.  I left and came home and talked about it some with my wife while still being frightened and upset.  My wife left to go shopping and.....my head wanted a drink badly.  SHIT!! again I just was ready to put my coin in my truck key chain and still my head voice was saying get a drink fast!!

So the  life time lesson continues...It never goes away we must keep it away and continue to practice what we have learned about keeping it away.  What an old familiar feeling...the "need" to drink because I cannot feel what I am feeling without it.

My gut feels upset.  My head feels confused and woozy and my spirit feels weak.   ((((hugs)))) smile



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Jakamo


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Welcome back!

Hi I'm Jakamo, I'm an alcoholic. I'm new(-ish) here.

That is indeed a sad and messed up story (the dog). Life throws us obstacles and excuses to drink. To overcome them and not succumb to our urges is one of the greatest successes an alcoholic can thrive for.

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It's great to hear from you Jerry, ... oh man, what a horrible thing to witness and the fact that you were so helpless to do anything to aid the dog ... makes me cringe just to envision it ... I am glad you shared this here cause we can never let up our guard against that first drink ...

I was start'n to get a little worried that your health had kept you from post'n more ... glad to learn that wasn't the case ...


Love ya man and Akua Bless you,
Pappy



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mikef


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Hey Jerry!

Good to hear from you..Thanx for the continued message of HOPE .Shout out to 37 years of freedom from active addiction ODAT. With God (of your own understanding) all things are possible..smilesmile



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Hi Jerry good to hear from you.


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Mornin'
Very sorry to hear the tell.
Grateful to hear the tell.
My gut feels upset.
Trembling.
Weak Spirit knows it's way home.
Knows there is strength in that weakness.
Blessings Brother.
Toad

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JerryF


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Mahalo brothers in recovery for the feedback. Emotionally I am more stable this morning and at times still have the thoughts and the images of yesterday without the urgency to self medicate.  Now I can somewhat more handle other problems which keep re-appearing to my life.  I know HP is here with me leaving me with sober choices so I will practice sober choices. Have to run and go clean the property of an exclient ....ex because he just past from age related conditions.   He was 93 years of age and what a critter he was.  The awesome sunrise us happening and an ancient chant regarding the arrival of the sun and sunlight is rolling around in my head.  I will go to his Cliffside Ocean side home and do the chant.   No problem keeping you all in it either.   Take care...will be back later. smile



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Thank you Jerry, ... I am grateful to be in your chant ... I'd love to be there to participate ...


Love ya man and God Bless,
Pappy



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MarcLacroix


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Sorry about the Dog.

Hey Toad;
What are you doing all the way out here?
Did the Mods at e-aa.org send you out looking for me?

Marc


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37!!! Amazed

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Thanks for everything.  Peace and Love on your journey.  
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